Name Of The Past Chapter Twelve

Name Of The Past Chapter Twelve.


Ok, so im looking for a beta reader, well someone I can throw my idea's at and have some kind of feedback. I finally know how im going to end this, its just a little bit vague.

Anyway, enjoy.

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Life wasn't easy, and it wasn't hard. It wasn't suppose to be either. It just was what it was. A card got dealt, and you lived it. End of, no more no less.

This was what Izzy had always believed in, it was a simple easy theory. One that didn't make you go insane over if you had a philosophical rainy afternoon in. so why now after almost seventeen years of keeping this thought, was she now finding herself pondering the idea that something else may have had a hand in picking out her card?

Even though people labelled her a nerd, scratch that, a clever person with good grades. She hated over thinking things, especially if it was over something as boring as herself. When she had woken up that morning she was greeted by the bright, worm sun rays coming threw her open window and she had decided right then she was going to spend her Saturday morning out of her dorm, and in the small high street in the centre of the small town, only a short blissful walk away from her living campus.

She was now sitting outside her favourite café, in the corner underneath the shielding parasol taking in the refreshing small of her steaming hot coffee cupped in her hands. She had brought a few things from her local shops, the ones she hadn't been in since Lucy had left. She had found herself debating wither to call her or not. Granted it had been a good few weeks now since she had packed all of her things up and had left. And if it had been Izzy she would have been over it by now for sure, but she wasn't Lucy. And Lucy defiantly wasn't her. Nodding her head with a decision she grabbed her parcel bag on the side chair next to her and searched for her phone, flipping it open once she found it and scrolled down to Lucy's name. stopping to hover over the call button for a few seconds before pushing it down hard, and shoving it up to her ear as the ringing started to sound.

"hey this is Lucy, sorry I missed your call. If your leave your name and number ill get back to you………sooner or later. In a bitch!"

Izzy cursed violently under her breath as she waited for the beep to come, "hey Lucy its-" she froze, pulling the phone away from her mouth, she took a deep breath and tried again, only to discover that the lose of words she had stumbled on to wasn't going to give in any time soon, giving it another go she pulled the phone back to her face, "its-". Pressing the end button with the side of her thumb she placed her phone on the table and stared at it. Realisation hit her that she had just left a message that could be classed by the authority as a creepy call on the answer phone of the girl who she had ended on very bad terms with. "you're an idiot" she sighted out loud grabbing her coffee to her lips.

"I would say more of a humours fool" Izzy choked on the hot water in her mouth and slammed the coffee cup down hard, not giving a damn that the brown liquid splashed on the cream cotton threw underneath it. Slowly turning her head round, praying she had been mistaken she looked at the owner of the voice, and felt the muted scream creeping up her throat come to a holt.

"can I take a seat?" he asked not caring for the answer as he pulled out the chair and placed himself down next to her, "haven't seen you in a while Beth, been avoiding me?" he asked taking her abandoned coffee and began to drinking it.

"how can I possible hide from you chase?" she hissed, closing her eyes and cursing herself as she heard him tut next to her.

"im not going to have to show you why you should respect me again am i?" he asked, placing his hand on her thigh and sent a small bolt threw it, stopping when he heard his name leaving her whimpering lips.

"im not trying to be rude Chase but what are you doing here?" she asked wearily not wanting to be shocked again.

"ive come to see my girl" he replied simply, his smile making her uneasy as he kept his gaze on her.

"but why? Ive don't everything that you have asked" she shot back trying desperately to remember if she had broken one of his latest rules.

"yes you have Beth, and that's why im here" he placed the now empty cup down and push his arm around her frozen frame, smiling as an old couple walked past them and said hello. "im not a bad person Izzy. I only hurt you because you make me mad. If our future relationship is suppose to work ive decided to show you my appreciation when you've been a good girl"

"ok" she faked a smile at him, trying hard not to show her real fear. His personalities were altering between each other more each day latterly and the unknowingness of which one she was going to be visited by was what was scaring her the most. One moment he could actually pass as a decent guy and then the next she was praying for her life under his hands. And now the fact he was talking more about a future between them made her wonder if she had more to do with his plan then just passing on information to the boys.

"I want you to keep jack" his comment startled her, was he really giving her a play toy? She looked into his eyes and waited for the needed explanation. She stop the shiver from running threw her body as he let out a cruel laugh and leaned more in to her, "you have done a good job in warning them Beth, so in return im letting you keep jack" he tightened his grip on her shaking shoulders, "but not for keeps, im far from done with you yet." He gave her a quick kiss on the cheek smiling into it as she tried to pull away before he got up and moved slowly away from her table.

"what can I do that you need so badly Chase?" she knew she sounded angry, and she knew that she was going to pay dearly for her out burst later. But it hadn't been the first time she had asked that question, and she still was no where near to the reason. He could of picked any girl from Spencer's to get their attention. Hell there were many who could of given then his warnings easier then she had. It was truth that unlike most at the school her ancestors had had many run in with theirs, but the fact that she had to tell the brothers of their families past encounters, Shredded the bitter sweet irony of it all. She just didn't get it, there had to be more to it.

"that is of no concern of your yet Elizabeth" she heard him hiss in her head, his eyes flashing a dangerous black before turning away from her and on to the main walkway. Smiling at passer's by as if he was a perfect gentleman.

Izzy waited until he was out of sight before she pulled her phone out of her side pocket/ she had to find out why the Holden name was so important to the still 'missing' Ipswich Brother, and the only way she was going to find that out was to talk to the man that had fed her the Ipswich stories as a young girl, her grandfather.

"hello Holden residence, Louise speaking, how many I help you today?" came the formula soft voice of the middle age women, Izzy could easily put a face to.

"hey lou, its me. Yeah I know its been awhile. Is he around?" she asked rushing her reply hoping that the conversation would be as fast as she was pushing it to be, waiting patently for the maid to answer, Izzy felt a strange feeling of worry curl in her stomach as the silence on the other side of the line continue, "Louise is my grandfather there?" she asked again, grabbing her bag of the seat next to her and rushing away from the table she had been occupying and towards the direction of her housing. "Louise!" she barked again, why was this women the worst at answering the simplest of questions? She screamed inwardly as she dodge people walking the other way down the road to her as she kept her eyes focused on the ever nearing gates of her school.

"im sorry little miss," just because she was born the youngest doesn't mean she was still little now she rolled her eyes keeping a firm hold on her rattling tongue as she let her oldest carer continue, " I thought your mother would have contacted you already- "

"why would my mom contact me about anything?" she asked bitterly, there was many topic's in her life izzy could easily hold herself back from saying something about. but anything remotely to do with the women who 'wasted 9 months of her life' was one of the few things that made her snap instantly.

"please Elizabeth this is not the time for that….." Louise paused not knowing quit what to say or knowing if she could say anything at all, she had never signed up for the family rued between daughter and mother but over the years she had fallen into them and had become the women who truly looked after the unwanted child. "your grandfather has been taken ill; very ill. He's at the hospital"

"when?" is all Izzy could muster. she knew her mother hadn't wanted another child and it didn't shock her for one moment that she hadn't bother to tell her about this news, but she had 3 brothers and a dad who she thought had a reasonably if not good relationships with, "why hasn't anyone told me?" she asked aloud forgetting that she was still on the phone or that she was surrounded by packed cars.

"Thursday miss" Louise braced herself.

"three fucking days ago!" that was it, no more patient Izzy. "three fucking days" she repeated herself, letting the anger wash over her, "would you of told me if he had died Louise?" she hissed, knowing full well this was not the kind women's fault. At the end of the day her job was to clean and nod at the crazy demands that was thrown at her, not to constantly repair the family problems. As much as Izzy wanted to apologise, she couldn't. she was too mad, NO she was fuming.

She let the phone snap shut, ignoring the voice on the other side and turned round. Contemplating whether it would be faster to run to the hospital or just call a cab and wait for fifteen unsure minutes. Deciding on a answer she reopened her phone and began to deil the local cab number in when she saw a mop of blonde hair waltz towards her, "Garwin" she shouted. Not bother to wait for him to stop in front of her, ignoring the curious faces looking towards her she stared straight ahead, trying desperately to control her heavy breathing.

"you can't deny my name sounds good on your lips" he finally spoke stopping in front of her and shoving his hands in his pockets, hitting the keys with a jingle. Izzy's eyes shot down to where the sound had come from, and back up to the smirking face now towering over her, "have you got Tyler's keys?" she asked, hoping that the sound had been a mistake, it was one thing to build up the courage to ask if Tyler was busy it was by far another to ask if Reid was.

"yeah im going for a drive" he answered after a moment, finally taking in the mixed feelings flashing like build board signs on her face, "why, want to explore the back seat with me?" as much as he was starting to get worried he was still after all Reid Garwin.

Moving her hands back to the pockets on the back of her jeans, she looked away form him. She ones again contemplated on how fast she could get a cab here, even going so far as to offer sex down the phone. She took a deep heated breath and look back to the boy in front of her, glancing a the black car he had the keys for behind her, God's a Dick she hissed focusing back on Reid, "do you mind giving me a lift to the hospital?" cursing herself for her voice being filled with unshed pain.


Izzy piled out of the parking car and took a deep breath, feeling the regret pound at her head for ever thinking of getting a ride of the guy who only ever wanted one thing. She had, threw out the torturing drive down to the private hospital glanced at her reflection in the side mirror and had concluded each and ever time that she looked like she was in no mood for his games, and at one point had even look like she was going to cry so how he couldn't of got of his high hoarse for five minutes and noticed her expressions was be on her, and only slightly annoying. She grab the side of the opened door next to her with a tight grip and turned round to look back in to the car and focused on the driver, "thanks for the lift" was all she said trying to keep the anger he had provoked out of ear shot, after all he had done her a favour. She went to slam the door shut when his voice court her.

"Want me to wait?" he asked, the curiosity of why she was even there in the first place still spinning in his subconscious.

"no" she screamed feeling the ting of guilt run threw her as his face changed to slight hurt, "I don't know how long I'll be," she spoke softly this time offering a apologetic smile, "or if im even coming home tonight" she finished glancing at the towering old building in front of her, shivering as she voiced her silent hopes that this was all going to be ok inside her head

"ive got nothing to do this afternoon, if you want me to wait ill wait" he offered again, trying to block himself from having to remember the pain in her face he had been seeing the whole ride over there. "or…." He stopped and braced himself, practising slightly in his head to say his name without bitter hatred showing, "or I could phone that jack guy if you want?" it was true he hated the guy, no fucking hated the guy. he had been around for no more then two minutes in her life and had already made her swoon after him. This constant thought was not jealousy; is was simple looking after a friend. He had often repeated this to himself when he saw them together.

"oh god, mother would bloody love that" Izzy mumbled, her eyes glazing over with the hellish anger she only kept for her dear beloved. Reid watch with slight shameful amusement at her sudden change in attitude, it always made him feel better to know he too wasn't the only one in there neighbourhood that had parents who should know better on how to raise their own. "look I'll tell you what," he started smiling sympathetically at her, his voice dragging her away from the cold stone building and towards himself, "I'll wait around for an hour or so, if you want to stay longer you can get a cab?" he offered lying threw his teeth as he watched her contemplate his offer. Like hell was he really going to leave he all alone at a place like this, it may just have been his curiosity on why she was here in the first place but he wasn't going to leave until he found out why.

"ok, but please stay in the car" she sighed, taking in a deep breath and closing the car door softly against its frame, she let a small sad smile grace her lips feeling the relief of having someone to run back to, settling in her nervous mind. Even if it was Reid Garwin.