Chapter 12 - Month 7

Alice POV.

Today, I officially entered my third trimester of the pregnancy. I still hate pregnancy. I entered the worst part of the pregnancy. I know have Braxton Hicks contractions. The first time I had them, I panicked. I thought the babies were coming. I had to get Carlisle to check me and he confirmed that I wasn't in labor. He explained the whole science of the Braxton Hicks. Now every time I get one, Jasper rubs my back to try and ease the pain. Of course it doesn't really work but it still feels good.

Jasper has been great to me this past few weeks. I know that I am being a bitch to him but he is doing everything he can for me. Especially after he snapped at me last week. He got to many emotions and he snapped and started yelling at me and telling me he is tired of me and this babies. He ran off into the woods and I let him. I knew that he was right. I can't even deal with myself and the babies. I gave him some time and he came back after two days. He of course apologized and I accepted. We both promised to be more comprehensive from one another and it is working out great.

I have not been craving anything for the last weeks. The problem now is that I can't walk normal. I now waddle like a duck. Also my feet and ankles are all swollen. The only shoes I can use are the ballet flats. Jasper is always offering to rub my feet and I let him. I hate that I can't use my usual heels. I mean, Rosalie can still walk in her 6-inch heels! How? I don't know.

The babies have been really active this few weeks and Carlisle says that they will be like that the rest of the pregnancy. And because of that Carlisle put me on bed rest for the rest of the pregnancy. He says, "Your petite body is able to carry twins but since this twins are vampires, they are a lot stronger for you and your body. So with bed rest, you will have enough energy for when you give birth and you will rest more." I hate being on bed rest, it's so boring. The only thing I can do is shop for the nursery.

The nursery is almost done. Jasper and the guys will paint the nursery and assemble the furniture. They are supposed to do that this week. I can't wait to see it!


Jasper POV.

I really am tired of this 7 months. I can't deal with them. They are just to much for me and my gift. The other day, I snapped at Alice. I felt horrible but all this emotions were in the room and I just exploded. After I had my alone time, I apologized to Alice and we decided to help each other. Alice has been more understanding of why I have to leave the room sometimes. She also has been trying to calm her emotions.

While I was having my alone time, I started thinking of the future. I mean in 2 months, I'll be a father. I don't even know how that works. I can't remember my father, how will I be one? I mean, I can easily snap at my kids. I'll be a terrible father. Alice will be a great mother, of course, but I will fail at it. I mean I am failing to my kids and wife and they aren't even born! I can't get this thought and feelings out of me. I'm the only one with this thought and even though Edward tried talking to me it still doesn't work.

I just want the best for my kids but with me, as a father? It will never work out, I mean I am a vegetarian vampires who snaps whenever they are too many emotions. Imagine when my little girl gets all this emotions and I snap at her. I'll scare her. How will I be a good father if I can't even fill the role of good husband? I can't talk to Alice about this because she will just tell me I'll be a great father but I still don't believe it. I'll be such a crappy father.


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