She leaned in and wiped the tear off Karma's face. Seeing her cry still moved something deep within Amy. She wanted to hold her and tell her everything would be alright.
"Karma, you're right. I've tried two live without you for two years, and it nearly broke me. I'm just so tired, Karma. Tired of missing you, tired of hating you, tired of being alone. There's nothing I wouldn't give for things to go back to the way they were. But that's too late now, isn't it? " She saw Karma's face brighten, her eyes started sparkling once more.
"We can't go back to the way things were, but maybe that isn't such a bad thing. At least now I know what it's like to lose you. What it's like to make the greatest mistake of your life and still being too stupid to reverse it. Amy, my biggest mistake wasn't shutting you out of my life. It was telling you that I didn't feel the same way as you when you told me that you loved me. It was a lie, Amy and I've been lying ever since. Fuck, I was starting to believe myself, and then I saw you tonight."
Amy had to pinch her arm to make sure she wasn't sleeping. Was Karma actually telling her that she loved her? Amy wasn't sure whether she should be ecstatic or sad. On the one hand, she knew that she still loved Karma. Amy's attraction towards her had never faded, her beating heart was testament to that. Even thinking about all this felt wrong, she was together with Reagan now. What could Karma offer her that Reagan couldn't? But Karma just smelled so good, her lips looked so perfect.
"Karma… What do you want me to do? I'm seeing Reagan, I can't just come crawling back to you because you finally realize that you feel something for me too." She had to remind herself that this was the truth, she couldn't fall for Karma again.
"Amy, that's not what I'm asking of you. Can't we just be friends? We can see where we go from there." Karma took a step forward, and they were now mere inches apart, and Amy allowed herself to really look at Karma once more. Maybe it was the buzz caused by the multiple glasses of champagne she'd drunk. Maybe it was the smell of Karma's perfume that drifted around her. Maybe it was destiny. But she decided that whatever would come after this would be worth it.
"Oh, fuck it." She closed her eyes and finally did what she'd dreamt about so many times.
Karma didn't pull back, didn't just sit by passively like she'd done so many times while they were "faking it". This was so new, but it still felt familiar. Kissing Karma felt like coming home after a long, tiring journey. Amy felt Karma's hands caress her cheek and find their way under her shirt.
This was going too fast. She knew she'd lost all control, but why would she care?
They must have stood that way for at least ten minutes, sharing a moment so intimate that neither one of them wanted it to stop.
"Amy, you are a complete and utter IDIOT!"
Shit. This wasn't good. Karma let go of her and took a step back. A few feet behind her stood Lauren, an expression of disbelief frozen on her face.
-sk1dr0we
Author's Notes: Alright, this marks the end of my first venture into the wonderful world that is fanfic. I'll be picking up the story where it left of in about a month or so. I'm still not sure which ending I'm going to build upon, so feel free to send me some suggestions. In the meantime I'll be posting some oneshots based on some requests I've seen, so if you liked this story you should probably check those out too ;)
And now, for the last time: Thanks to everyone who read, commented, favorited or followed my story. It means a lot, it really does. Without the response from you I would probably have never been able to keep writing.
