I don't own any Inuyasha characters or the plot I only own my own characters

I don't own any Inuyasha characters or the plot I only own my own characters

Katsumi

Chapter 12 overly emotional story time

I walked deep in the forest with Sesshomaru side-by-side when he finally stopped he turned to me and looked me in the eye's. I put my head down he lifted my chin so that I had to look him in the eyes, so I turned my head I didn't know if I could talk about every thing I said I would, this was going to make me shatter, I was going to bring up this that was going to kill me inside I was hoping that Sesshomaru would be there.

"Where do you want me to start"?

"The beginning," Sesshomaru said turning my head to face him by putting his hand on my cheek.

" Ok… well I can remember from my mother's womb, and I can say my father truly did love her in a twisted way of course. Well when I was born I killed my mother basically I took the demon from her that's why I'm so strong I took her essence her being, her soul and didn't even mean to try, why do you think my fathers army called me the death angle I kill naturally, because of that both my father and sister hated me, my sister was luck she was nothing special so my father couldn't use her so he loved her, on the other hand I was something special so I because a puppet… a pon…in his very messed up chess game. I was trained in every way none to the world on how to kill and how to spy and sneak around." I put my head down to try to hide the tears, to try to hide the pain.

Sesshomaru pulled my face back to face him very gently "I know it's hard for a warrior to cry, but your also a woman you have emotion that's ok, and your not just some chess piece to play around with," He looked into my eye's like he was looking on my very soul. Then we sat down and he held me as I told more of my story.

"Well both my father and sister beat me… my sister's physical hits didn't hurt but her emotional hits did… And I knew from a early age I couldn't fight back against my sister because if I did I would get it a hundred times worse once I got back home. When I wasn't on mission's I was my sister's bodyguard. Well one day she had made me so made I just couldn't handle it so I left her by her self in the woods. I heard her cries as the demon ate her soul; I heard her screams and pleas. Well all that was left was her hair clip because it was made out of a special crystal that burns most demons if they just touch it. Well I took it to my father and he tried to hit me I caught his hand, at that moment I was so full of regret I thought it might eat me up from inside out, I didn't know why I hadn't done this before," I said with my head against his chest listening to his heart beat, tears streaming down my face I would have to tell him about Ryuu, I said I would. Sesshomaru just held me and lightly stroked my hair. I then turned my head away from him; he knew I was about to talk about Ryuu.

"Before I left I fell in love with… one of my fathers guards… he wasn't like a body guard he was like… I don't know, you see when I was younger he was sent on missions with me. Well we fell in love" my body stiffened from the pain of the memories that were flashing in my mind. "Well went my father found out he was mad… ever sense my mother died he hated love and anybody who fell in it. He found love as weakness. Well he ambushed us in the woods," tears streamed down my face faster than ever know staining his kimono, but still I cried silently I did not sob or scream I was silent except for the story I was telling. " Well at first he was threatening me and telling me to kill him… but I knew that he would not kill me I was too valuable then he tied…" I couldn't continue the words would not come out of my mouth, I was froze from pain, this stabbing pain in my heart that came whenever I though about Ryuu. Then the sorrow I was feeling brought on a new feeling anger. I had to control it but it was hard. I can't believe I was opening up to him, I can't believe I was letting him in, I can't believe I was telling him this, but I was. I finally got hold of my self and continued. My father tied me up and used his power of… what to call it. Well it paralyzes you basically… well he used that so I had to watch him torturer and then finally kill Ryuu. That was all of what I said I would tell and I felt better to get it off of my chest, so I leaned my head back up against Sesshomaru and he played with my hair gently as he thought about what I said.