Warnings- Language, Bad situations, over all yaoi
Author's Note- Sorry this took me so long to get up but it is really long so yeah. I couldn't find a good breaking point either. And this just kind of took me away with it... sorry.
Riku awoke drenched in a cold sweat the next morning. He laid still but looked around frantically, when his eyes landed on the sleeping redhead beside him he calmed slightly. Riku sighed and ran a hand through the older male's hair before he pressed a gentle kiss to his forehead. Letting his eyes linger on him for a little while longer he pressed another kiss to his lips without waking him. He looked at the clock and quietly got out of bed. He padded into the bathroom and splashed cool water onto his face. The dream would keep coming to him.
The senior ball started and he walked in, hand in hand with Axel. The redhead smiled brilliantly at him and they began to dance. Things were going great until Riku felt everyone's eyes on him. Looking up from where he placed his head on his lover's shoulder he was right, everyone was watching him. All of them were angry and some were shouting things like "Fag!" or "Get outta my school!" Riku felt tears prick the corner of his eyes as he felt Axel wrap his arms tighter around him and hold him protectively.
"Shut your goddamn mouth before I make you!" Axel yelled back snarling at the people.
"What are you gonna do about it Fag?!" Some faceless student yelled back as he pulled out a black 9mm gun. In what seemed like slow motion, the trigger was pulled and Axel threw Riku away from himself. The terrified teen scrambled to his feet only to be too late.
"NO!" Riku screamed as he watched a bullet pierced through Axel in slow motion. Followed by another one and still another. Riku tried to run to him but it was like his feet were stuck. He watched as his lover fell to the ground and he watched as his body crumpled. The redhead reached out towards him, but Riku could simply do nothing.
Finally he was able to move and he rushed over to Axel's side. He lifted the man's broken body to him and let the tears pour down his face. The redhead reached up and grasped the collar of Riku's shirt, his mouth open in an O and the light in his eyes flickering.
"Ri..." Axel coughed up blood.
Riku was crying horribly by this point holding his dying lover, "Axel...I can get you help! Don't give up!"
"Love you," Axel choked on more blood and his eyes started to fade even more.
"NO! Baby don't give up please." Riku pressed a kiss to Axel's now closed lips getting blood on him.
"Don't...cry," Axel's grip slipped.
"Axel...I love you," Riku cried harder as he watched the last bit of life pass out of his love.
Riku screamed in pure agony, "Someone anyone! You can't leave me here without him! Fucking put the gun to my head! Don't fucking make me live without him. Please fucking kill me!"
Riku currently shook his head and walked back into the bedroom. After changing his clothes and pulling on Axel's large hoodie he sat on the edge of the bed next to his lover. Riku ran the tips of his fingers down the side of Axel's face. He felt the familiar poison gaze on him and smiled.
"Morning love," Axel smiled softly.
"Morning," Riku pressed his lips softly to Axel's and smiled when he felt his warm arms wrap around his back. Riku buried his head in Axel's shoulder and breathed.
"Are you okay?" Axel knew something was bothering him he could feel it. He ran his hand up and down Riku's back calmly, soothing the teen.
"Yeah baby, I'm fine," Riku lied before he pressed a soft kiss to Axel's collarbone.
"Ri don't lie to me..."Axel placed his hands on Riku's shoulders and rubbed them softly. The teen got up off him and sat down on the edge of the bed again.
"Get dressed, it's nothing major..." Riku sighed as he got up to run a brush through his hair.
"Alright but whatever it is I'm not going to laugh at you or something for it," Axel said as he got up. The redhead found his pants that were back in Riku's room, that he washed last night, and tugged them on. Riku threw him a red and black long-sleeve shirt and a pair of socks. Axel smiled gratefully and put them on. The older teen padded into the bathroom and wet his hair so he could get a comb through it.
Once he was through fighting with his unruly hair the redhead walked into Riku's room. The smaller male was pulling on his shoes as he looked up at Axel.
"Hey you, ready to go?" Riku asked.
"Yeah I just have to put on my shoes and I'll be good to go. Babe what's wrong?" Axel walked over to him and watched as Riku sighed.
"It was just a stupid dream. Just something lame that scared me okay that's all..."
"It can't be that stupid if it bothered you so much."
"But it's not going to happen so it doesn't matter..." Riku went to walk by him when Axel stopped him.
Putting his arm around the younger male Axel spoke softly, "Look I want to know and you need to talk about it. So you're going to tell me on the way to Sora's ...'cause we're walking."
Riku nodded and walked downstairs, Axel followed him. The two pulled on their shoes and Axel pulled on a hoodie before they walked out the front door. As they walked Riku told him about the dream, not skipping any of it in fear that Axel would know. Axel didn't say a word while he was talking just kept his hand shoved in his pocket while he smoked a cigarette. Riku finished when he told him about wanting to die and he stopped walking.
"Baby," Axel said softly as he pulled the cold teen into his arms. Riku pressed his shivering self against his lover, resting his head on his shoulder.
"S-Sorry about the stupidness..." Riku sniffled.
"It's fine. I understand what it means you know..." Axel kissed the top of his head.
"Oh yeah? That I'm a clingy loser?" Axel cuffed him on the back of the head for that one.
"No smartass, that you're afraid of what people will think at prom. I think you feel like I'm the only one who'd protect you from it all and in the end it'll be my downfall..."
"I'm scared to loose you," Riku interrupted quietly, face still buried against his chest.
Axel looked down at him silent for a moment. He simply pulled Riku closer and laid his head on top of his. "Love you, sweet. I don't ever plan on leaving you, not ever."
"I know, I love you too. Sorry I'm such a freak about all this..." Riku spoke softly.
"You're not a freak. I understand. Now come on we gotta get to school." Axel brushed Riku's hair back from his face as the teen peered up at him. Axel leaned down and kissed him softly.
"Yeah...we do..." Riku smiled against his lips before he pulled away. Shoving his hands back in his pockets Riku leaned his head on Axel's shoulder as they walked to Sora's. Axel pulled out another cigarette and lit it as they walked.
Finally they reached Sora's and found him just heading outside. Riku waved and smiled softly. Axel smirked and saluted him as he exhaled smoke.
"Hey guys," Sora smiled and fell into step beside them.
"Hey Sora, how's things with Kairi?" Riku asked causing Sora to blush ever so lightly.
"Heheh...good..." He stuffed himself further into his coat.
"Get laid did ya?" Axel grinned.
"W-What?!" Sora sputtered.
"I think you killed his brain Axel," Riku chuckled softly at his friend who looked like he was stunned.
"I'm good like that babe," Axel winked and wrapped an arm loosely around Riku's shoulders.
"I...can't tell you guys things like that..." Sora said into his coat.
"Aw come on we're guys, it's not like you have a tell-tale happy dance or something..." Riku laughed.
"What if he secretly does and you just havent seen it?" Axel offered around his smoke.
"Trust me I would have seen it. But since I haven't that would mean he's never gotten anything. Ever. In his life," Riku looked over at Sora who simply refused to meet his gaze.
"Aw man. That's a sad thought," Axel said before inhaling more toxins.
"Hey!" Sora whined not enjoying being picked on.
"Alright alright, we'll stop tormenting you...for now," Riku smirked at his best friend as he leaned his head against Axel's chest. The redhead glanced down at him, a soft smile on his face, something rarely seen by anyone but Riku, before he tucked a strand of his silver hair behind his ear.
"That drives you crazy doesn't it?" Riku said it more like a statement than a question.
"Yeah, hides your face..." Riku rolled his eyes at his boyfriend even though he still had a small smile on his face.
"Oh well, I don't plan on cutting it anytime soon so deal with it."
"Good, I like it. Even if it is down to the middle of your back," Axel said as he exhaled smoke.
Riku lifted his head off Axel's shoulder before he held out his hand silently bumming a drag of the cigarette. Axel placed the smoke in between his lover's lips, which quirked into a brief smile. Riku took a long drag then gave it back to Axel, who finished it right before they got onto school grounds.
"I gotta meet Kairi at her locker I'll see you guys later," Sora smiled and walked away once they got inside. Riku and Axel stepped away from one another, which neither of them looked too happy about.
"I need to go to my locker before class..." Riku said to Axel, just ending the silence between them.
"Okay," Axel said as he followed Riku to his locker.
As Riku pulled out his notebook and a pen Axel leaned against the locker closest to him, waiting for Riku. Once he got his things he turned around and smiled softly at his lover. Riku leaned against the locker and looked up at Axel.
Love you, Axel mouthed to him, his eyes shining brightly. Riku smiled softly, a light blush on his face. Riku bit his lower lip lightly right before the warning bell rang.
"We should probably get to class huh?" Axel said even though he really didn't want to.
"Yeah...dont look so sad about it. You've only got another month here..." Riku said with a smile even though he wasn't happy about that.
The two boys made their way to class, Riku scuffing the whole way. Once they got there the teacher dragged Axel out of the room to talk to him.
"Axel Stone, where have you been? We tried calling home but no one answered"
"I um had some problems with...things... long story short I ended up in the hospital for a while..." Axel was obviously uncomfortable.
"Alright we'll need to have some proof of that so you can still graduate in January. Now you'll need to stay after school to catch up on all your missed assignments but that shouldn't be a problem for you."
"Not at all."
"Good," With that the teacher walked back into class with Axel in tow.
After the redhead took his usual seat next to Riku said male looked at him, "How'd that one go?"
"Not bad...gotta stay after and catch up on some shit but I can still graduate on time," Axel smiled.
"Oh... that's good," Riku said softly before he pulled out a notebook and tried to stay awake for once.
The teacher began his lecture and Axel actually took a few notes this time. The class seemed to drag by for both of them. After what seemed like forever the bell rang and all of the students rushed out of the room. The next few classes dragged by equally possibly even more painfully slow. Finally lunch rolled around and Riku met Kairi and Sora in the cafeteria.
"Hey guys," Riku said casually as he sat there with a bottle of juice for lunch.
"Hey Riku, how's your day going?" Kairi asked as she sat down with her lunch.
"Not bad I guess." Riku looked over at Sora who was quieter than normal, "Hey Sora wanna hang out after school today?"
"Huh? Yeah sure... you have time?"
"Of course your my friend," Riku grinned and stood up, "I'll see you guys later."
The silver haired teen walked over to the other table with Axel and Namine. Riku seated himself beside his lover.
"Hey people."
"Hey babe," Axel said as he peeled an orange.
"Hi Riku," Namine smiled softly.
"So how's it been?" Riku asked Namine, brushing his leg against his boyfriend's.
"Alright. I'm kind of excited for Christmas although I don't know what to get Marluxia," Namine smiled, "What about you?"
"Me? I'm better than I was before," Riku couldn't help the smile that time, "But for what you should get your boy...I don't know something from the heart I guess."
Now Axel looked up after shoving a piece of the fruit in his mouth, "If your broke, paint him something."
"That's a good idea!" Namine said happily.
"Yeah I know," Axel grinned.
"So do you have to stay after today Axel?" Namine asked.
"Yeah for a while why?"
"Just wondering because I have to finish an art project. And it takes Marluxia a long time to get here."
"Oh, well I can wait with you if you want," Axel glanced over at Riku. The redhead discretely ran his hand up Riku's thigh, causing the younger male to bite his lower lip.
"Alright," Namine smiled and gathered her things just as the bell rang.
Once she walked away Riku glared at Axel, who merely smiled innocently. "I swear I'm going to attack you later," he growled under his breath.
"Promise?" the redhead grinned as they walked to class.
"Yeah," Riku said softly before he walked into his next class.
The rest of the school day dragged by for both of them. Finally the final bell rang and Riku met Axel at his locker.
"Hey I gotta stay after so... I'll see you later...kay?" Axel smiled after he chucked his books in his locker.
"Yeah...Dad will be there by then so we can go get your stuff. See yah later," Riku brushed his fingers across Axel's arm as he walked away. Riku made his way outside and met Sora on the way to his house.
"Hey you still hanging out for a little while tonight?" Riku asked.
"Yeah, that's where I was headed you know," Sora said as he adjusted his bag on his shoulder.
"Oh cool..." Riku said as they reached his house. The teens walked inside and Sora put down his bag and coat.
"Hey Dad! I'm home! Sora's with me!" Riku yelled to his father who was in the other room.
"Hello guys," his father replied a tad bit softer than Riku's greeting.
"Hey Mr. Hayashi," Sora said as he followed Riku into the living room and up the stairs.
Once they were inside Riku's room the older teen shut the door and turned to face his friend. "So talk to me Sora."
"About what?" Sora pretended to act like he hadn't a clue what Riku was getting at.
"What's been going on with you. I've been distracted and stuff you know," Riku sat down on his bed. Sora sighed and sat down in the chair across from Riku.
"Well... school's not any different. Kairi and I are doing good and I have a job as a dish washer at a diner...what about you?"
"I'm trying to get a job at Lucky's Bar as a waiter or something...school sucks as always...Axel moved in with me 'cause of some shit that went wrong," Riku smiled lightly.
"Are you happy about him living with you?"
"Yeah. You know...he just really makes me happy. Everything about him...everything he does... I... sorry that was kind of...rambling..." Riku flushed and looked down at his hands.
"It's okay. I understand... I feel the same way about Kairi. Sounds really weak to say but I do. Funny its like you've become the open one instead of me," Sora smiled.
"Yeah, I guess so...so why did you get all quiet and embarrassed this morning with Axel and me," Riku asked softly.
"Well uh you know. We uh had sex..." Sora mumbled the last part so Riku had to strain to hear it.
"Okay... so what's the problem?"
"There isn't one really. I just felt like she would get upset if I said anything to anyone so I was trying to respect that."
"Oh... I see... so, how was it?" Riku teased.
"Um I don't have much to compare it to but wow," Sora laughed.
"That's good. You used a condom n shit right?"
"What are you my mother? Yes I did. Did you?"
"What's it matter I'm not gonna get pregnant or something?" Riku grinned.
"I don't know it just seems... cleaner...less of a mess I guess," Sora leaned back in his chair.
"Yeah I guess it would be..." Riku laughed lightly. "So what are you getting her for Christmas...being that its Thursday..."
"Uh I got her a ruby necklace and candy, I know its a weird combination but it works... what'd you get Axel?"
"That's just it I don't have a clue. I havent been with him that long so I don't want to get something like what you got Kairi but I don't want it to be lame either."
"What about something cute? Like a plushie or something. Or something really sex orientated..."
"That's what Valentine's Day is for," Riku grinned.
"Oh yeah. Damn I don't know. Dress up like Santa and be like "Hey I want to eat your cookies!"
Riku laughed, "Nah too lame. Sides sex isn't something I can wrap up and put under the tree... don't even say it either. But I don't know I was thinking of getting something for his car or some kind of cooking thing... he wants to go to classes for it. Or maybe something art related. I don't know."
"Well... what else could his car possibly need? I'd go with one of the other ones," Sora shrugged.
"Yeah... well I'll have to go shopping tomorrow, while he's staying after," Riku smiled.
"When are you guys going to get all his stuff?"
"Soon as he gets home I guess, which should be pretty soon..." Riku said as he glanced at the clock.
"Oh okay... well I'll see you later then. I gotta get going on my homework anyway," Sora stood up. Riku followed him to the front door. Not five minutes after Sora left Axel walked through the door. Riku smiled brightly at him and wrapped his arms around his neck.
"Hello there, darlin'" Axel drawled.
"Hey," Riku greeted him softly as he pressed a soft kiss to his lips.
"You havent attacked me yet," Axel chuckled softly.
"After we get your things. Then I'll attack you, promise," Riku kissed his neck softly.
"Alright... I guess," Axel pouted playfully.
Riku pulled himself away from his boyfriend just as his father walked into the room.
"Hey boys. Do you want to go get your things now Axel?" his father asked.
"Yeah whenever you're ready."
"Alright let's go...Riku you really need to get your license soon," his father said as they walked outside and got into the car. Riku's father drove to Axel's old apartment and pulled the car out front of the building.
"I'm trusting you two will be alright without me here?"
"Yeah Dad, why you have to go to work?" Riku asked as they got out of the car.
"Yeah I do. I wont be home until Christmas morning they want me to work over time."
"We'll be okay. Have fun," Riku grinned at his father who seemed less than thrilled.
The car pulled away as Riku and Axel made their way up to his old apartment. Axel pulled Riku into the elevator and laced his fingers with Riku's.
"You okay love?" Riku asked as he pressed the floor number and closed the doors.
"Yeah just nervous is all," Axel pulled Riku to him and wrapped his free arm around his waist.
"I'm here with you," Riku looked up at him and pressed a tender kiss to his lips.
"I know. I love you," Axel kissed him back.
"Love you too. Just so you know I still plan on ravishing you later," Riku grinned slyly.
"Good," Axel smiled down at him but it quickly faded when the doors opened on his floor.
Riku squeezed the redhead's hand gently as they made their way over to his mother's apartment. Axel knocked lightly on the door and waited patiently, finally the door swung open and Axel's mother was standing there. Her red hair was more wild than her son's but it wasn't because she chose to have it that way. She looked rough, her eyes were barely open and they were red rimmed. Her skin was almost a gray color and she was clad in a worn out bathrobe. Axel looked at her apologetically his mouth smiling sadly.
"Hey Mom," he greeted softly.
She looked at him and then Riku before she coughed, a deep, rough, rattling noise, and walked away from him, lighting a cigarette as she went. Axel sighed and ran a hand through his hair before he walked into the apartment. The place was trashed like someone had gotten into a fight or threw a fit and began throwing things. Riku followed Axel obediently into his old room. The older teen let go of his hand and walked over to the closet, pulling out a few suitcases he began taking his clothes out and putting them into a suitcase.
"You want help babe?" Riku asked his lover softly.
"If you want to. Just take whatever you can find of mine in here and put it in the other bag... I don't care about neatness." Axel said distractedly as he packed up his things.
"Okay," Riku began collecting sketchbooks and art supplies from around the room. Riku stopped when he found an open one. It was an oil painting of a huge city, the sky was orange and gold. The teen admired it for a moment before he closed the book and put it in the bag. He'd ask Axel about it later. The teens finished packing all of Axel's things including his blanket and pillow.
Riku smiled as he felt warm arms wrap around his waist. Riku covered his arms with his own as he tipped his head back to look at him.
"Got everything in here?" Riku asked.
"Uh huh... just have to get my shit out of the bathroom and some of my cooking supplies," Axel looked down at him.
"Okay...do you want me to take your things out to your car?"
"If you want love," Axel said as he let go of him. Riku nodded and picked up both of the bags. As Axel walked into the bathroom Riku walked into the elevator with his things. Riku got off the elevator and carried the large bags to Axel's car. He opened the door and popped the trunk, before he placed the bags inside of it. Riku sighed as he closed the trunk and headed back into the building.
Once he got back up to the floor and over to the door of Axel's mom's apartment he heard a raised female voice. Unsure of what to do the teen opened the door and was greeted by Axel and his mom arguing.
"You have some nerve, going to the cops after all the shit I let you get away with!" His mother yelled, her small hands balled into fists at her sides.
"Let me? You were the reason I did coke! You were the reason I dropped out of school! You let your darling boyfriend rape me so you could get an 8 ball...when I was nine! You were the one that didn't let me go to the hospital when I was near death from getting the shit beaten out of me!" Axel yelled back, his hands accenting his point.
"What was I supposed to do about any of that? Huh you tell me! You ruined my life, things were great before you came along!"
"Oh yeah real great! Getting so high you couldn't move, fucking every guy that would take you, behind Dad's back! No wonder he left you!" Axel was furious by this point.
"You want to know what happened to him?! He didn't leave me. He wanted to abort you and when I refused he tried to beat the shit out of me. He said you weren't his and when he went to hit me I shot him in the face! It was your fault my life went to hell!"
Axel was quiet for a minute, "If you didn't want me why didn't you let him do it?"
"I don't know. It seemed wrong at the time, if I would have known you were going to ruin everything, I would have let him. I should have." She wasn't yelling anymore, but the words cut deeper.
"After all the shit I've done for you... this is what I get?" Axel's voice was low.
"You havent done anything worth while for me. And now you think you're so high n mighty because you've changed and your on 'the right path'. You think because you've met your precious little boyfriend things will get better. That life will be good for you. You thought that with Roxas too but look what happened to him, you got him killed. What makes you think you'd do any good for Riku what so ever?" She knew she'd hurt him with that statement but it seemed to be her goal.
"Leave Riku out of this... you don't have a fucking clue what happened then...no you know what, I don't even care what you say anymore. You're nothing but a fucking user and I'm done," Axel kept his voice even and his emotions under control even though it was obvious he just wanted to strangle her.
Without warning his mother reached out and slapped him across the face, leaving a red mark, "Don't you ever speak to me like that! Get the fuck out!"
Axel's eyes were blazing with anger and his hands balled into fists before he grabbed his bag back off the floor and stormed out the door. Leaving Riku to follow in his wake. Instead of taking the elevator Axel took the stairs, running all the way down them. Again Riku followed him.
Once they were outside Axel lit up a cigarette and walked to his car. He threw his things inside and stood there for a moment. Riku stood there for a moment on the other side of the car occasionally glancing at his lover. After a few moments Axel lit up another cigarette and got into the car, along with Riku. The seething redhead started the car and drove silently back to Riku's house, letting the radio blare, drowning the silence. Axel's fingers drummed irritatedly on the wheel as he drove. Soon they pulled into Riku's driveway and Axel killed the engine. He got out of the car without saying anything and walked over to the side of the house. Hauling off loosing control of his temper he punched the side of the house as hard as he could. Riku heard a sickening popping noise.
Riku pulled the bags out of the back and drug them into the house and up into Axel's new room. Soon he came back outside and got the other bag, silently he brought that into the house too. After a few minutes he came back outside and found Axel sitting on the front steps smoking. Riku sighed and sat down next to him. Riku picked up Axel's pack of cigarettes and lit one for himself. Axel looked over at him his green eyes meeting Riku's.
The younger male wrapped his arm around his shoulder's and rubbed it in small circles, "Come on Axel... let's go inside." The smaller male said softly.
Axel didn't say anything but followed him inside, both of them flicking their cigarettes out into the road.. Riku sat down on the couch with Axel beside him. Gently he reached out and brushed his fingertips across Axel's face, where his mother slapped him.
"Babe," Riku said softly, his calm eyes catching Axel's wild ones again.
Axel's gaze broke free from Riku's and he glanced down at his hand, "Think I broke something."
Riku looked at it then gingerly picked up his lover's injured hand, "Yeah you did... I can wrap it for now if you don't want to go to the hospital...again..."
"Kay..." Axel said without much feeling. Riku kissed him on the cheek before he went upstairs and retrieved the medical supplies.
Once he had cleaned, splinted and wrapped Axel's hand, following said male's instructions on how to do so, Riku looked back up at the redhead's expressionless face.
"Ax I'm not forcing you to talk to me about anything you don't want to. But I'm here if you decide on it," Riku said gently as he laced his fingers with Axel's.
"...I know. I just... God I don't even know. I feel like I should tell you... like I should have a long time ago but... it just... I wanted to forget about all of it. I wanted a fresh start..."
"I understand. If you don't want to tell me then-" Axel cut him off.
"No... I want to..."
