DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN ANYTHING!

A/N: Here's the next chapter sorry it took so long to get out; I've been really busy lately.

"Jasper how could she do this to me?" I yelled.

"She thought you were dead, she thought you weren't coming back. Would you rather she stopped living and loving?" he said without looking up from his book.

"How can you take her side?" I had to pause thinking of her felt like a knife was being driven into my heart. "I thought…I mean when she opened the door, she looked so happy…I thought." By the end it was no more then a whisper.

He looked up at my change in tone, "Edward did you even think maybe you misinterpreted the entire thing? That it's not what you think," I clenched my jaw and pinched the bridge of my nose to calm down, "I'm not saying that she didn't love you, but maybe this whole thing with Jacob Black."

"I know I didn't. She ran strait to him and hugged him! Jacob Black!" I hissed.

"So go get your engagement ring back, she's getting married." He suggested.

I couldn't do that, because selfish as I am I want her to have part of me. No matter if she didn't love me I would forever love her until the day I died. No even after death I would love her, if she still lived I would still stay with her, if she didn't live I would stay near her. My beautiful Bella, everywhere I went reminded me of her. I couldn't get away from her face, every spot screamed of our love story.

I maid walked in interrupting my thoughts, "Mr. Whitlock your fiancée is here."

He put his book down, "Let her up please." She left and he turned to me, "Edward you are my friend, a brother, so I say this with love, not everything is as it seems, and since you are obviously still completely in love with her do something about it."

"Jasper I-" Before I could finish the door opened and my body stopped working. I would know that laugh anywhere. There was Alice Brandon and behind her a smiling Bella. I couldn't move, her face brought every pain and memory into sharp focus, her eyes widened when she saw me.

Alice moved first, "I didn't realize you had company Jazz, we can just leave."

Jasper shook his head standing, "It's fine Ali." He walked to her and embraced her.

That broke my trance; the love between them was painful to watch. I turned to face the fire place staring into it, anything but to look at Bella, for if I did I would surely fall to my knees begging for her presence.

"Edward, it's been a long time. How have you been since you got back?" Alice said looking at me.

Before the war, Alice and I had been very close. "Yes, a long time. I've been good. And you?"

I was acutely aware at how her eyes bore into mine seeming to know my every lie, "Very good." Her stare made me aware of how I must of looking, tired and unshaven.

"When was the last time you slept?" I'd know the voice the spoke even if I were dead.

I looked towards her, "Why does that concern you Miss Swan?" Try as I may I couldn't make my voice kinder.

She flinched back at my tone, causing such guilt. I got a good look at her, she looked like she hadn't slept or eaten well in weeks, months. "I could ask the same of you Bella, and then add on your eating habits." Her name burned my throat coming out.

She blushed that lovely pink, I drunk in the sight of her, "I have nightmares." She answered truthfully, she could never lie.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw Alice and Jasper leave the room. I would pay for this time, as would Jasper. "What could you have nightmares about? What on earth would be so frightening?" My tone was harsh again.

Those big beautiful deep brown eyes filled with tears, "This." She mumbled so quietly she must not have meant for me to hear it.

I sighed and turned to say the fireplace again, "I heard of your engagement, congratulations. When's the date?" I said cynically.

"Thank you. We can't decide on a date."

"You always said you wanted a September wedding." I commented turning back towards her.

More tears filled those eyes, "He doesn't agree with that idea." She whispered.

The question was burning me, I had to ask it of her. Though the answer would hurt just as much, "Do you love him?"

"I don't believe that is a proper question." She stuttered and blushed.

"Since when did you care about being proper? It never bothered you before." I gave a dark chuckle remembering days spent wrapped in each other's arms in a boat on the lake.

Her cheeks turned a deeper red yet, her mouth opened yet no sound came out. Watching her caused more burning, I turned towards the fireplace again. I heard the soft swish of her skirts, her leaving for the last time, then I felt her hand on my shoulder. Involuntarily I flinched from it, the hand was gone just as fast as it was placed there.

"Edward I" she paused, "I'm so sorry. So very sorry. I wish I could change it, things they aren't what you think they are." She stopped again as I turned to face her, "I love-"

I had to stop her there if she said his name it would kill me, "I don't want to hear it Bella! How could you do it? How? I thought you loved me! You agreed to marry me! You were the only thing that brought me home! If you had changed so much why let me make a fool of myself? Did you enjoy that, did that give you a sick pleasure? Letting me think things were still the same? Did it?" my voice rose dangerously close to a yell. Tears formed again in those damned eyes, those eyes that held me like nothing else. Tears that cut at me and made me feel like such an ass for saying of that. I didn't matter, only her happiness.

"I never meant this. I didn't mean for any of this to happen. I never meant it, or wanted it. Edward please believe me, I never lied to you. I could never lie to you, it's impossible." She stuttered.

As her tears started to fall my arms itched to hold her close to me, to beg forgiveness. To say how sorry I was, but the gleam of light from her engagement ring held me to my spot. I was losing the battle though as she stared at me with tears falling from her eyes. Uncontrolled my leg took a step towards her just as the door opened.

"Bella?" that one voice ended everything and shattered my heart even farther. I turned towards the fireplace again as she wiped her face from the encounter.

"Jake, what are you doing here?" she said turning.

Alice and Jasper appeared in the doorway behind her scowling at her fiancée. Jasper looked towards me sadly.

"We were going to lunch with my father, remember?" he chuckled at her.

From the corner of my ear I could see her shake her head, "No I knew that, but what are you doing here?"

He scowled, "Your father told me where you would be so I came to collect you."

Bella deserved someone better, so much better then him. Someone that knew her, knew what she was like. "Oh, is it time already?" she asked softly.

"Yes. Are you ready to go? Or is there something you need to finish up?" I felt his eyes on my back. I turned to face him and she turned towards me.

"No I'm ready to leave. Good-bye Mr. Mason. Alice, Jasper." She turned and left with him.

This time it was her that walked out of my life and I don't know how I'll live without her.