Ok so this chapter is way longer than the other ones, but there's not really a good place to end it in the middle so I hope it's at least entertaining!


Chapter 12

"S-suzaku…you…you're here." This was just unimaginable. He thought Suzaku had left him for good and now here he was, just like that.

"I am," he said and smiled while reaching up to touch Lelouch's cheek. His hand was quickly smacked away by an angry hand.

He began with a whisper and quickly grew to a yell, "Get…the fuck…AWAY FROM ME!" He ran away much faster than he normally could back down into the school.

"Lelouch wait!" he yelled and chased after him.

Suzaku knew he could catch up to Lelouch, he just didn't know what to say when he did. Sprinting after him it took a little longer than he thought it would to catch up. Reaching out he snagged Lelouch's wrist and pulled him to a stop. Now he just needed to figure what to say.

"Please just let me explain Lelouch!" the brunette begged.

"What is there to explain? You left me here and then months later come back and act like I'm going to throw myself in your arms in acceptance!" Lelouch screamed. He didn't care if they were in school and people could hear them, he was beyond upset. How dare he do this to Lelouch, couldn't he tell the pain he had caused him. The brunette walked away and never once contacted him to make sure he was ok, he just left him here, not knowing when or if he was coming home and now he wanted to explain.

"Lelouch please I didn't want to come back until I knew I wouldn't say anything. I don't want to ever hurt you like I did again! Also I had to practice with the Lancelot. I would never leave you," Suzaku explained as best he could.

"I can't forgive you just because you explained everything, it doesn't work that way," Lelouch scowled, still not totally trusting of Suzaku.

This wasn't working and he didn't know why, he had explained everything to Lelouch and yet the boy refused to try and work things out. Didn't the other boy understand that he had military duties and that would mean that he would be gone at times. God why was he so mad anyways, he told the dark haired boy he was coming back and he had never broken any other promise.

Lelouch sighed and managed to look at Suzaku. "Do you not realize the pain you've caused me? You left just like that and I haven't heard a single thing from you in months! How could expect me to think you would actually come back!" He sniffled a little before continuing. "Suzaku, you said you loved me and then left me to myself. I don't see how you thought I wouldn't get hurt!"

Suzaku gaped his mouth at him, slightly confused but also coming to realization. He hadn't thought Lelouch would be so distraught over his disappearance. He thought it would be the best for both of them, giving him time to clear his head. Maybe he should have called him a few times to let him know he hadn't forgotten about him.

Leaving Lelouch was the hardest thing he had ever done. Did Lelouch think it was easy for him? Not a day went by where he didn't think of the boy and miss holding him in his arms. Even Lloyd and Cecil had noticed a difference in his normal behavior after working with him.

He knew he couldn't return to Lelouch though until he knew he could get over his anger. After not being able to handle the distance any longer, he knew he had to return. He could forgive Lelouch now and they could move on. Or so he thought.

"Lelouch…did you think it was easy to leave you? Just saying the words 'leave you' makes my heart ache. I'm sorry Lelouch, I didn't mean to cause you so much trouble. I wanted to be able to forgive you, and now I can," he said and gave an attempted smile.

"And you think I can just forgive you!" His last words squeaked now that he was starting to cry. "I thought you left me forever! I thought that was your way of breaking up with me without actually saying it, which made it hurt even worse! And I know it was all my fault. I know I can't change what I've done and I knew it hurt you. Why did you have to come back now out of nowhere. How can I believe you won't hurt me again?" He breathed heavily after managing to get all those words out.

Suzaku fell to his knees in front of Lelouch like he was begging. "Please Lelouch I…I didn't know! Can't you see that I only did this out of love for you! I couldn't bear to hurt you any longer and I had to hurt myself in order to fix it, I didn't know it would hurt you as well. I…I'm so sorry Lelouch…" He hung his head and watched the tears splash on the floor below him. He knew people were staring, it really didn't matter at this point though.

Lelouch wiped away some stray tears and sniffled. "So…you hurt yourself in order to protect me…from you?" Had he really been so selfish? This entire time he had been feeling sorry for himself, thinking Suzaku was a complete jerk. But it was all…for him? Suzaku caused himself pain in order to save him?

"Yes, that's exactly it Lelouch. Please can't you understand! It wasn't because I didn't love you enough, it was because I love you too much." He dared to stand up and gently touch Lelouch's face, which was still covered with tears. When the hand wasn't pushed away he slowly leaned in closer. Lelouch didn't say a word when their lips were barely apart so Suzaku connected them.

A chorus of 'Oooooooh's erupted around them from the now giggling bystanders. Suzaku only flipped them off, not wanting to break the kiss yet. Once the two boys pulled away, Lelouch had a slight blush across his cheeks and Suzaku had a caring smile.

"Can we go somewhere more private?" Lelouch asked, a little hesitantly.

Suzaku just assumed he wanted to get away from the crowd watching them, so he grabbed Lelouch's hand and led him down to an empty hall.

Lelouch followed silently behind trying to get all his thoughts in order. He couldn't believe Suzaku would do that to himself just to make sure he wouldn't get hurt. He wanted to forgive him so badly but Lelouch was still hurt from the way Suzaku had left, and he needed to be comforted before he could fully forgive the other boy.

Walking into the classroom that the brunette picked out Lelouch made up his mind. He would forgive Suzaku because being alone really wasn't an option anymore now that they were back together. Besides by the end of the day everyone would know that the two of them had been going out, and it would look really bad if they broke up right after making up.

"Lelouch I-"

"I want to forgive you so bad, but it hurts still and I don't know what to do anymore!" the dark haired boy interrupted, a few tears still running down his cheeks.

Suzaku didn't know what else to do so he just gathered the boy in his arms and hugged him. He never wanted to see him cry like this again, and he knew he wouldn't be able to leave again. The last time hurt him too much. The brunette held Lelouch tightly and whispered in his ear.

"I love you so much Lelouch, please you don't have to forgive me right away just stop crying. I hate seeing you hurt like this, it hurts so much," He tried to comfort the boy as much as he could.

Lelouch wrapped his arms around Suzaku and squeezed, he never wanted to let go of him. Being right here surrounded by the brunette was all he wanted.

"I love you too Suzaku, so so much!" he whispered into Suzaku's shoulder before pulling back to look at him. Lelouch had forgotten what it was like to just be able to look at the other boy. Leaning up, he brushed his lips against the other's barely kissing him.

Wiping away the stray tears, Suzaku smiled at the dark haired boy, glad that he had at least gotten him to stop crying. He hoped it wouldn't take long for Lelouch to get over the pain he had caused/ but he would wait until the other boy was ready to forgive him. Suzaku pulled him closer and pressed their lips together more firmly, wanting to savor the kiss but not wanting to push to far. The brunette had missed these kisses the most, the soft gentle ones that showed how much Lelouch really loved him.

"You're so beautiful Lelouch," he smiled leaning back slightly to look at the other boy.

Lelouch's eyes began watering again, but this time he was smiling. Suzaku had never imagined him crying from happiness, he figured it would make him feel weak. That's how he knew Lelouch had forgiven him. He kissed the tears falling from the boy's eyes while he held his face in his hands.

"Suzaku…now that you're back," he began while staring at the ground. "…I want us to prove our love for each other once again. I mean so we know we have each other's full trust…" A blush was quickly becoming deeper on his face.

Suzaku stood there in slight shock for a moment before he lifted Lelouch's chin and gave him a sweet smile. "Of course Lelouch, I would do anything for you."

Lelouch gave a little smile back and grabbed Suzaku's hand. "Let's go to my room though, it'll be more romantic…unless you don't want to miss anymore school," he said looking a little upset.

"Lelouch, I just said I would do anything for you." Suzaku smiled and Lelouch happily led them down to his room in the school.

Suzaku closed the door and reached out to trail his fingers along Lelouch's cheek. "We'll go slow ok?" Lelouch nodded and stared at the gorgeous face before him. He almost wanted to cry again, it was just so perfect right now. They both leaned closer until their lips met in a passionate kiss.

It was different from any kiss either had experienced before. There was no lust or want, only love. Of course they had had passionate kisses in the past, but this was different. It seemed to hold all of their built up frustration, and was gently melting it all away. Their lips didn't move, their tongues didn't meet, and yet it contained all of their love for one another. It was the greatest sensation for both of them. Neither one ever wanted this feeling to end.

Eventually, they had to pull apart. Both boy's faces were bright red and they each wore a pleasant smile. Lelouch moved his arms to wrap them around his lover's neck, who then wrapped his around Lelouch's waist, pulling their bodies together. They then began again with small pecks on each other's lips, then moving their mouths together as one. Suzaku nibbled playfully on Lelouch's bottom lip, then gently sucking on it. Lelouch's tongue darted out to lick those tender lips, causing them to part and invite him inside.

Their tongues seemed to dance together, neither fighting for dominance. They both enjoyed the unique tastes of each other, never wanting anything else. Lelouch tangled his fingers in those soft, chocolate locks, taking their kiss deeper. Suzaku groaned at the feel of Lelouch's hands massaging his head and held him a little tighter.

Lelouch was so lost in the moment he didn't realize they had slowly started moving towards his bed until the backs of his knees touched the edge and he broke the kiss to look back. Sitting down, he pulled Suzaku down with him so they could reconnect their lips and move up the bed.

Even knowing where this would eventually lead, their kiss remained sweet instead of escalating to something more brutal and bruising. This was about their love, not satisfying their hormones. Suzaku ran his hands up Lelouch's sides slipping his hands under the shirt the boy had on and petting to skin he exposed. Both of them needed this, the slow pace and the love that each was trying to show through their movements and touches.

Eventually just kissing wasn't enough and Lelouch reached up to push Suzaku's shirt up his chest so he could explore underneath. He had missed touching the brunette whenever he wanted to. Helping Suzaku, he pulled the shirt off and ran his hands all over his back, chest and stomach enjoying the feeling of his warm skin and firm muscles.

Lelouch wasn't the only one who wanted to explore and soon he too was without a shirt as Suzaku bent down to trail small kisses from his lips to his collarbone. The dark haired boy had a blush that was steadily moving down his chest. Suzaku hadn't treated him this way ever before and it was making his heart soar.

Suzaku continued his path down Lelouch's chest, stopping to kiss and lick his nipples before moving his way down to the boy's belly button. He swirled his tongue inside and then kissed down to the top of Lelouch's pants. There he pulled back to look down at the boy under him, admiring his body and running his hands along the path his lips just took. He rubbed his thumbs over the other boy's nipples and smiled at the small gasp he was rewarded with. It seemed like their time away made Lelouch extra sensitive. Continuing down, Suzaku pet Lelouch's hips before reaching for the front of his pants to slowly undo them.

Lelouch was shivering and making small noises almost continuously. He gasped as he watched Suzaku pull his zipper down with his teeth, then kiss below his belly button. He helped Lelouch wiggle out of his pants and boxers, then sat back to look at him for a moment.

"S-stop staring at me…" Lelouch said somewhat shyly, his face completely red.

"I told you you're beautiful," Suzaku responded as he rubbed circles with his thumbs on his hips. He gave him a reassuring smile as he trailed a finger along Lelouch's hardened length.

Lelouch let out a small moan, quietly begging to be touched. Suzaku wrapped his hand around his lover, digging his thumb into the slit. The dark haired boy let out another gasp and thrust into the hand making his head spin. Suzaku pumped him slowly but firmly. He wanted to make this moment last as long as possible. Lelouch gripped the sheets around him while Suzaku kept drinking in the delicious moans he was letting out. He was amazed Suzaku could get him going so easily.

Suzaku let go of Lelouch only to undo his own pants and pull them off along with his boxers, tossing them to a random corner in the room. He sat over Lelouch so that their arousals rubbed together, making them both groan.

To Lelouch's surprise Suzaku wrapped his hand around both their cocks and began moving his hand up and down. The feel of Suzaku against him along with that wonderful hand was driving him insane. Both boys let out gasping moans as Suzaku pumped them together faster.

Lelouch was still amazed at how good Suzaku was with his hands. Those rough, warm hands never ceased to please him and he was ecstatic to have them touching him again in all the right places. His heart pounded in his chest and felt like it might burst with each movement of that hand. He could tell Suzaku felt the same by the sounds he was emitting.

Once the two were both dripping with pre-cum, Suzaku reluctantly released his hand and got up from the bed to walk over to the bedside table where he knew Lelouch kept the lube.

Before going back to his position on Lelouch's lap, he leaned over for another kiss. He instantly felt hands tugging at his hair again, not ever wanting to let him go. Suzaku licked into his mouth once again before pulling back and crawling up on the bed again.

He popped open the lid of the lube and poured some on his fingers. Spreading Lelouch's thighs, Suzaku settled himself in between them and smoothed a hand over one of the boy's legs while his other hand slowly slid down to brush against his entrance. Rubbing a finger over the pucker Suzaku watched Lelouch's face as he slowly pushed the finger in. The dark haired boy gasped and the blush that had been going down came back, turning his neck and chest a slight pink color.

Suzaku couldn't remember the last time Lelouch looked this innocent and he feared he was going to hurt the boy if he went too fast. His lover was acting like a virgin the way he was so responsive to all his touches and all the noises he was making. The brunette slipped another finger in, enjoying the small moan that escaped the other boy's mouth. Spreading his fingers, he gently prepared Lelouch, thrusting his fingers softly. Pushing the third finger in Suzaku noticed the small wince the boy under him tried to hide and paused letting Lelouch adjust.

"Are you ok?" he asked in concern.

"Yeah," Lelouch smiled shyly, "Its just been awhile."

This hurt more then he remembered it hurting. Lelouch felt like it was his first time all over again and the way Suzaku was treating him made him nervous. He was afraid it was going to hurt and he wanted this moment to be special, not painful. The dark haired boy gasped loudly when Suzaku hit that bundle of nerves inside him.

Lelouch was too cute when he was embarrassed and Suzaku couldn't help but smile. He curled his fingers up and was surprised when he rubbed against his lover's spot right away. Suzaku could feel Lelouch starting to relax and knew it would be ok to continue soon, but he didn't want to stop just yet. The small moans and tightening of the boy's passage was exciting him, and he wanted to get as many sounds out of Lelouch as he could before he needed to do more.

"S-suzaku please? I know I'm ready now," Lelouch was starting to get desperate. Every time Suzaku moved his fingers inside him he felt little jolts of pleasure go up and down his spine. He whimpered when the brunette pulled his fingers out, but he couldn't wait for what he knew was coming next.

"Are you sure Lelouch?" Suzaku asked while he held Lelouch's hips up a little.

"Yes, please I want to remember how much you love me," Lelouch smiled, embarrassed that he had said that.

Suzaku smiled and lined up pushing in slowly but stopped at the smile cry of pain. He knew he should have waited, but all he could do now was wait for Lelouch to relax. The brunette reached down and stroked the other boy, softly distracting him so he could slowly push in the rest of the way. He paused waiting for Lelouch to tell him he could move and simply continued to touch the boy.

"Y-you can move now Suzaku," Lelouch sighed finally relaxing.

Suzaku pulled out slightly before pushing back in and slowly built up a rhythm of deep thrusts that had the boy under him gasping and moaning. This was so different than any other time before when they had sex. He could practically feel the love coming from Lelouch as he continued to move inside him.

Lelouch had missed this so much. The feeling of Suzaku inside him, rubbing against his tight walls. He wrapped his legs around Suzaku, trying to pull him as deep as he could. With every thrust himself coming closer to his climax. He only wished this could last forever.

Suzaku continued to pound into him, faster now. He griped his hips tightly, pulling him back on his cock with each thrust. Lelouch cried out when he felt that spot get hit once again. Suzaku continued aiming for the spot making him scream with pleasure.

"Aaaah S-suzaku!" He couldn't hold back the screams and did his best to push Suzaku as far in as possible.

Suzaku leaned over enough so that he could bite and suck on the soft flesh of Lelouch's neck. Lelouch tilted his head to give him more access and dug his nails into Suzaku's back. He felt Suzaku lick and kiss each newly formed mark that appeared along his neck.

"M-more Suzaku I want more!" he cried out, not even sure he knew what he meant himself.

Suzaku thought for a moment about how he could make this even better for his lover. He then smirked a little and licked his fingers, making Lelouch groan at the sight. He then reached between Lelouch's thighs so a finger could join his awaiting passage.

"Tell me if I'm hurting you ok?" he asked, not wanting to cause Lelouch any unnecessary pain.

Lelouch could only nod and gasp as another finger was added, stretching him farther than he had ever been before. The mix of Suzaku's cock and his wiggling fingers was going to quickly drive him over the edge. Each time Suzaku thrust in, his fingers pulled back, rubbing roughly along his inner walls.

Suzaku tried to be careful knowing that not too long ago Lelouch had been incredibly tight. He pushed in a third finger, amazed at how good it felt to touch himself inside of Lelouch.

It made Suzaku smile at how this moment was both passionate and incredibly sexual. He wanted to make this as romantic as he could for Lelouch and he seemed to be doing a good job, giving him the best sex he had ever had.

"Suza…I…I'm…" Lelouch attempted to get out through his mix of screams and moans.

"Lelouch…cum for me…I want to feel you tighten around me," Suzaku said and gripped Lelouch's twitching cock. He barely had time to stroke it as Lelouch exploded over both of their chests, covering them in his sweet liquid.

That tightness closing around him felt better than it ever had and he quickly pulled his fingers out so he could grip Lelouch's hips again. He drove himself wildly into Lelouch as he felt himself release. He cried out Lelouch's name as he rode out the best orgasm of his life. He was amazed at how much he filled him, some even dripping out onto the now sweaty sheets.

They both continued to moan and pant until Suzaku collapsed next to Lelouch, both of them whining at the loss when Suzaku pulled out. Their heavy breathing seemed to bounce off the walls, trying to remind them of the intense pleasure they each had just received.

Suzaku propped himself up on his elbow and kissed Lelouch's cheek. "I really do love you Lelouch."

Lelouch couldn't help the smile from returning to his face and replied, "I love you too Suzaku," and wrapped his arms around him.

They lay there cuddled in each other's arms, not knowing how much time was passing. Every now and again they would lift their heads to kiss each other, savoring the sweetness of each other's lips.

Lelouch knew their special moments had been ruined in the past, but not this time. This was too perfect, there wasn't a thing in the world that could tear them apart now. He knew what it felt like to truly be loved and would never let that feeling go. He knew Suzaku felt the exact same way.


Awwwww they made up X). So this is possibly the end. If anyone wants it to keep going we can write more, but then there's gotta be reviews for that! Those make me happy as I've said like every time hehe. But this is all that's done now at least so if it doesn't continue I hope you enjoyed it!