A/N: No you are not dreaming this is real. I actually uploaded... not once BUT TWICE IN ONE DAY! WOEEEE. SO MAKE SURE TO READ THE PREVIOUS CHAPTER.

NOW I KNOW I SAY THIS ALOT BUT I WILL UPLOAD AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK...but possibly twice. I have every other chapter of this story already typed out YAYAYAY

So I hope you like this one... I tried to give you some sort of happiness( Fred/Hermione wise happiness) Enjoy my babies.


It's been a month and counting since the day she broke his heart. Every time he thinks he's made any progress he remembers what she said to him. That she was nothing more than a substitute for his brother who only takes her for granted.

After he remembers that the pain is like a tsunami over his body. Hurting every inch of him. He vows to never talk to her agina because the pain is too much to bear. Then he sees her face.

He watches as her face brightens at the sight of him. he chokes down the hurt and relishes in the fact he's with her now. She's laughing with him. He's making her smile, making her happy. He breaks his self promise each time. She's his weakness. She's his kryptonite.

As long as he makes her happy then he's okay with it. He's okay with the fact he will never be what she wants. he will never be his baby brother. In her eyes he's inferior to him. that's all okay because he makes her happy for brief moments throughout her day. He takes away some of her pain. The pain she felt when his kid brother broke her heart.

He knows the pain of a broken heart and how hard it can be to keep on smiling and hide the pain. Sometimes when he stares into her eyes he sees the pain, the terror of being left by the one who has your heart. he might not be Ron, but he'll never leave her. As miserable as he may be on the inside having to love someone who doesn't reciprocate the feelings, he can't imagine what being away from her would feel like.

he can never be Ron, but he can make her happy, make her laugh, never leave her. he might not be what she wants but he will do everything she needs. he'd do anything, but he knows deep down none of that matters in her eyes.

So for subtle flirting and being her shoulder to cry on. He is settling because he loves her and there is no denying it at this point. She causes him too much pain for him not to love her.

She's sitting across the library table from him. She's studying for their potions test. Her lips pursed and brow furrowed. one small dainty hand pointing to words on the page as she reads. the other supporting her head and twisted in her long bushy mane of brown curly locks.

Her mysterious ever changing brown eyes focused on the words.

Those eyes, I bet she hates them. She can't hide her fears or emotions in her eyes. She can keep her composure everywhere but her eyes. they're the key to knowing her precise moods.

So complex just like her. With flecks of green and old all melted into her big brown doe eyes. He'd spend hours staring at her picking out everything that's beautiful about her, but nothing compares to her eyes. Their more than beautiful they're enticing.

How do they look when she's in love, he thought he knew, he used to think she looked at him with love, but he was wrong.

He wished that he meant something to her so he could compliment her. Shower her with words to make her blush bright scarlet. Watch the heat rise to her cheeks and tinge her ears, she'd be so adorable.

He opened his mouth then shut it again. repeated this action twice resembling a fish out of water until finally he spit out words. Not his first choice of words, but at least they were coherent ,"You're Pretty."

She glanced up at him raising an eyebrow, "Oh am I now?"

He didn't realize the silly grin he wore as he nodded, 'Mmmmhhhmmm"

"Better be careful, Freddie. Don't want a young bird like me getting the wrong impression."

He sighed as he continued staring at her propping his chin up with both hands, "So pretty."

She rolled her eyes and chuckled, "Well you're very pretty too Fred."

"Not like you, princess. You're the prettiest." he said grinning ear to ear.

"Okay, knock it off now." She said looking back at her book.

"I don't want to. I want you to know that you are the prettiest girl in the entire universe!"

"You sound like you're 5 I hardly consider this a compliment."

"But if I said all the things I want to you'd reject me again. You wouldn't believe me and tell me that i'm a Ron substitute again like you did a month ago. So I can only call you petty things like pretty, but I want to say so much more." What was he saying now? What was going on? he didn't want to say all that, well he did want to. But he knew it was a bad idea. Now she'd hurt him again. reject him again. he can't handle that kind of pain.

She stared at him for the longest time before he soft mumbling voice spoke in a barely audible whisper, " Tell me."

"I don't want you to hurt me with your words again. Promise me you won't."

She closed her eyes and said, "I can't promise anything to you Fred. I just want to hear what your thinking because your mind baffles me."

" You confuse me too. Usually I hate complicated people and people who hurt me. They're bad energy."

Her face fell at his words.

"But I never loved to hate such a confusing riddle of a person before. I never felt such good energy come from the one who causes me the most pain. Never been so serious about being in love with a puzzle before." With that Fred stood up and left the Library. He didn't study her face for her reaction.

he just walked away like she did to him. Instant regret overwhelmed him. Why did he word it like that? Why is he being so complicated. That was his chance to tell her 'I love you" to tell her he could make her happy. She was open and actually ready to listen and he blew what could be his only chance. But still he keeps walking. Without a destination he walks and walks.


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"So what does all of this even mean Lily? I thought he was over me... us... what ever we were. Now I'm just... I'm dumbfounded." Hermione pleaded Lily in the privacy of their own dorm.

"You're an idiot." was her reply.

"Excuse me? How am I the idiot here? he's the one who clearly doesn't understand that I'm not interested."

"Quit lying to me and quit lying to yourself." She said hardheartedly and to the point.

"I-I am not quite sure what you-"

hermione was cut off by Lily who sat up from laying on her bed and narrowed her eyes at hermione, "You Love him. You love single thing about that boy and you're too afraid to do a single thing about it. he poured his heart out to you twice now and you know you love it. You're scarred from his brother. You think everyone will end up leaving you now. Let me tell you something Hermione. You are the one who left him. You walked into his life and he unconsciously fell for you. He was falling hard and fast. Then he crashed because you told him a huge blimey load of lies. I've noticed how when you first came here the way you looked at him. You loved him ,but you didn't know it. Now that you realized it you won't even meet his eyes. He's hurting. One can only take so much pain, hermione."

"You're right and I've exceeded my limitations of pain. You wouldn't understand." She was on the verge of tears, but she held them was not oing to cry. This will not get to her emotions again.

"Why not? Why wouldn't I understand?"

"You're pretty, and nice and sweet and kind. All guys liked you. You were never bullied You've always had friends. Al I ever had was harry and Ronald and Ron didn't even care enough to respect me and dump me. It was one of my bestfriends he cheated on me with. That pain was unbearable, but you know what hurt worse? When I overheard Fred say one little mean thing about me to the marauders at the halloween ball. Now if he could make me feel that awful imagine how bad the pain would be if I did give him a chance. He'd end up breaking me to the point where i couldn't be fixed!"

"You can't live your life keeping everyone away hermione. You have to let people in. Let them care about you. Yes, Fred might leave one day, but he also might not leave. What if he's the one that stays and you're pushing him away."

"I'm scared Lily. I wouldn't be able to handle it." Hermione let the first tear fall from her face and all the others followed. Lily got up and hugged Hermione tightly not letting her go and stroking her hair soothingly.

"It's going to be okay because you didn't have me back then. Now you do and we are best friends. I will not ever leave you I will always care about you hermione."

She didn't know how much more these words hurt hermione. Because it only reminded her of the inevitable fate she will come to. This pain hit Hermione like a semi-truck. She hated Peter. Honestly hated him now. because Lily was truly her best friend right now and she had to go one pretending like er best friend wasn't dead. It felt like someone twisting a dagger around her insides.

"hermione you can't just walk into a persons life, care about them and love them and then intentionally walk out."

"I know." Was all she could muster to say to the girl consoling her.

In an attempt to lighten the mood Lily said, "harry, that's quite a nice name."

"Yes I think so too. he is a legend back home everyone knows about him."

"I wish I could meet him."

"You will some day." Hermione said smiling at her, "I'd be careful though, he's alot like James. Even kinda looks like him."

"I never want to meet this Ron Character though I'd hex his arse off."

She chuckled then choked out as a single tear strolled down her cheek, "You... You never will..."

Lily laughed, "Well, good than."

If she only knew how sad and morbid this conversation truly was for Hermione. But hermione was forbidden to speak about the future. forbidden to even let her know she is playing buddy with the man who will send Voldemort to kill her and her family. it was too much. hermione had to get out of this room. She had to find Fred. He was the only one who'd understand.

She stood and without an explanation she ran out leaving Lily confused sitting in hermione's bed.

Hermione ran to the boy's dorm and luckily Fred was sleeping in his bed. Taking a nap.

Hermiones Hair was a frantic mess. her eyes were red from crying so much and she continued to cry and sob. Her entire body was shaking and she just needed him to understand. She needed him more than she's ever needed anyone.

She sat on his bed and shook him gently at first then more forcefully.

He cracked on eye open saw her sitting there than sprung up.

"Wh-what..."

He couldn't even get a sentence out as she pulled him close to her and wrapped her arms around his mid-section. She buried her head into his bare chest and continued to cry.

He pulled her closer to him wrapping his arms around her and petting her head, "i promise you it will be okay. I'm here nothing bad will ever happen that i can't help you through, love. it's going to get better I promise." He whispered words of comfort into her ear.

he didn't have a clue why she was upset and he knew she didn't want to talk, but she needed him and he would always be there for her. "As long as you need me I'll always be here Mione."

She tightened her grip on him and continued to sob into his chest. She didn't notice he was only in his boxers and honestly he didn't either. His thoughts swirled with concern and ways to comfort her. But just being there was all she needed. He was all she needed. Even if she wouldn't admit it when she was pretending to be strong. the person she ran to was Fred. Just his presence made everything okay. the way he whispered little things in her ear. the way he pulled her close and stroked her hair. This comfort was she needed.

He made it okay, he made her okay. In this moment of raw weakness subconsciously she knew he was the one. The one she'd always want to be there when she was sad. In a few hours she'd get strong again she'd act like she didn't need him. But this proved just how much she needed him to make things... Well to make things okay.


A/N: So what did ya think? If I get 5 reviews I'll upload tomorrow... or if i get 5 reviews by tuesday I will upload twice again... SO REVIEW PLEASE . I love you guys. I'm loving the comments I got in my previous chapters I hope you guys are happy with my 2 updates.