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Here is chapter eleven, I hope you all enjoy as it is split into two parts because this "day " they are in, consists of a lot and because some of you don't like too much I decided to split it in half. So enjoy this first part while I work on the second half. Thanks for all the great reviews and to some of the people who have given recognition of my story on theirs, it means a lot 3

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Chapter Eleven.

Part 1 .

Tomorrow was the day before my wedding. Making it two days until my wedding from today, and I was scared shitless. I was scared to be giving my hand in marriage to another, not to mention these past days I still wasn't on the best friend level with him.

Not once had we been able to discuss wedding details, not that I had to worry about that only minor details considering Lissa had taken most of the decisions into her own hand. She was officially my unofficial wedding planner. But still, I wanted all these decisions to be made with him and he took no interest. He was busy with the company and was barely around, when he was he and I talked, but it wasn't intimate talking still. I was trying so hard but It was getting too difficult.

Currently I was standing in front of my gown that had arrived from the store to my home. It was hanging in the open garment bag, but I knew what it looked like fully, and it was making me stressed. Suddenly it was like a huge crash of emotions waved through me, making a loud sob come from my mouth. My hands were shaking and before I knew it tears were streaming down my face.

Sobs wracked my body, and I couldn't help but fall into a pile on the floor. So much for my strong composure. This marriage was stressing me out and even though I was trying it seemed like it wasn't working out how I wanted it to. Tears continued and all I could do was wrap my arms around my body to try and calm myself, I had to gather my thoughts and promise myself that this couldn't happen again, that no one could see my like this. Of course, nothing ever happened how I would like it to.

I could hear the door downstairs unlock and close. Jolting out of my state of shock, I quickly got up zipping the garment bag shut and shoving it into the back of the closet. Even though this was arranged I still wanted the whole dress kept a secret until the day of the wedding. I liked tradition in that sense. Even Lissa had no idea what it looked like, I had gone by myself and picked it out knowing exactly which one I wanted. It had fit perfectly and barely no alterations had to be put on it. Who would of thought right?

"Rose, are you here?" It was Dimitri, of course it was who else would have a key?

Quickly hurrying into our adjoining bathroom, I wiped at my running makeup and tried to make the best of my face, but it was too late, Dimitri was slowly pushing the bathroom door open wider.

"Rose?" When he looked at the reflection in the mirror, his face instantly let go of the emotionless mask he wore so much and relaxed into a more sympathetic look.

"Roza, whats wrong?" Strong hands held onto both sides of my arms from behind me while we both faced the mirror.

"Nothing Dimitri, please can we just let it go?" Unfortunately I couldn't be the one to let it go, in fact more tears started to stream down my cheeks and fall onto the counter top below. Another sob wracked through my body.

All I wanted to do was push him away even more at this moment, but as soon as his arms encircled me and held my back against his chest I couldn't help but just cry as he held me, letting all the stress flow from my body.

He just stood there holding me, not really talking but murmuring sentenced in Russian, almost calming me down as I cried. I think he understood that I had just held it all for too long and needed to let it all go. When I settled down, he lead me from the bathroom and over to the bed where we both sat down. We both did not say anything until he asked the dreaded question.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I merely shrugged until he poked me and asked again. A heavy sigh left my lips.

"My wedding dress arrived today." He just stared at me.

"Oh."

"Yeah, Oh. I guess it just got to overwhelming at that point, sorry you had to find me like that." I shrugged the hand of his off of my shoulder, and for a brief moment I saw emotion flicker across his warm brown eyes.

"You don't need to apologize for crying Roza, I completely understand why you would, youre in an arrangement you clearly do not want to be in without a say in the matter. I understand." I had to stand up and walk away pacing the floor in front of him.

"Please don't walk away from me Rose, I'm only still trying to understand you, you're always so distant from me still I- I don't know what to do anymore before the wedding, Im trying you know?" I spun and looked at him.

"No, you don't try Dimitri, I try. You simply leave all the decisions to me, you don't take any interest in me either Dimitri. I am the one trying , trying to learn about you, but you're always closed off from me, always working – probably screwing around with other women still – "

"Actually Rose, I haven't been with anyone, I have been completely faithful so far, but if you would listen to yourself maybe you'd realise that we both are in the same boat and I am just like you. We both have closed ourselves from each other, and although we talk we do not open up." He gave a strangled laugh.

"I don't even know your favorite colour, let alone the set date of your birthday. I mean I'd know if I had just thought about the day of our wedding and knew the day today but- " I cut him off.

"Tomorrow, March 22, is my birthday. I turn 19 tomorrow." I told him fiddling with my hands.

"Tomorrow?" He breathed out. He looked out the window, like he was pondering something. "Do you have plans?"

"I just have a lunch date with my parents tomorrow, Lissa is busy with her boyfriend tomorrow, he bought them tickets to a concert with her, so she's gonna make up for it, I don't know when considering our wedding is the day after but whatever." I gave a light shrug.

He just nodded. A question popped into my head with us standing there. "Why are you home so early, its like 1pm in the afternoon, you're never here until 7?" I went back to sit on the bed beside him.

"I was wondering if you would want to go do something? Like go to the park and take a walk, I haven't been there in a while. I like it to relax, which is something we both need right now. What do you say?" he gave his charmer smile and I gave mine back.

"I'd really enjoy that,." His giant form got up from the bed and reached down to grab my hand. As soon as his fingers laced with my hand, it was like a electrical current flowed between us. It was the strangest thing and had us staring at each other before I cleared my throat and turned my head away. He cleared his throat and scratched the back of his neck.

" Shall we?" He smiled. " We shall."

End of part 1 .

HEHE. Hopefully you guys are anticipating the second part because I really want emotion to come through in the park scene. Review for an earlier update for Part 2 .

Freedomwriter2010