Where do I belong?
A.N. Hello everyone. I'm back with a new chapter. This is sort of a transition chapter. I had a writer's block because I didn't know how to get where I wanted. But that's over now. Oh, and thank you for your wonderful reviews. I'm very happy that you guys like it. Well, enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation or it's characters. Only this story.
Chapter 11
When Shuichi entered the apartment, with Yuki by his side, his hand on his lover's one, he couldn't be happier. Maybe he had a few bad experiences but they were all in the past. Now he had Yuki with him. Not that he didn't have him before, but now Shuichi felt that his lover was really with him, supporting him, sharing his pain, loving him. Yuki hadn't say he loved him, but now he could feel his love.
"Shuichi?"
"What?"
"You've been staring at him for a while now. There's something wrong with my face?"
"No, silly, I'm just looking at your beautiful face. After all, I haven't seen it for a while." he smiled. Yuki smiled back.
"You look so cute when you smile like that, Shu-chan."
Shuichi's heart was beating really fast now. Yuki, his Yuki, have been calling him by his name all the time, and now he was calling him Shu-chan! 'If I died now, I would die happy.'
Yuki approached him and kissed the pink haired boy's soft lips.
"Come on, you need to rest."
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A while later, they were lying on each other's arms, panting for breath.
"That's not resting... Shuichi."
"... I know... But we haven't been together for a while now... I missed you."
"I missed you too brat."
"Hey! I'm not a brat!"
"Yes, you are." Yuki smirked. Then, he hugged his small lover and smiled sweetly at him. "You're my brat."
The younger boy leant into the hug and they fell asleep.
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The next day, Shuichi was visited by his friends. Hiro, Suguru, Ryuichi, Noriko, K, Sakano, Tatsuha, Ayaka. Even Mika and Tohma went to see him. Everyone was worried about his well-being. He told everyone he was okay now, but they found it hard to believe. He didn't want to tell them about his past. At least not yet. He was already going to talk about it with the psychiatrist. And he had told Yuki about it.
After being assuring by Shuichi that he was fine and was receiving help, and Yuki's threats, they left.
"Finally, some peace and quiet! Why did they all had to come at the same time?!" Yuki was very annoyed.
"Forget about it. They're all gone now." He sat on Yuki's lap on the couch and kissed him gently. Yuki kissed him back, enjoying the softness of his lover's lips.
Suddenly, the door bell rang.
"Who the hell is now? They have all been here already!"
"I'll see who it is, okay?" and he got up.
"No, you don't. You have to rest. You stay here."
Shuichi smiled at the blond's actions.
Yuki came back moments later.
"Who was it?"
His mother appeared from nowhere, hugging him very tightly.
"SHUICHI!! My baby! Are you alright? Are you hurt? Tell me where it hurts! Mummy is here now my baby! Mummy will take care of you!"
"Mom... please... let go of me... I can't breathe!"
She let go of him.
"I'm sorry sweety, but I was so worried about you."
"I'm okay now. Everything's just fine."
"How can you say you're fine, Shu-chan?"
"Maiko! Dad! I haven't see you there. How are you?"
"The question is, how are you, Shuichi?" his father asked, while he sat with his daughter on couch, next to his wife.
"I'm okay."
"Don't lie Shuichi. Of course you're not okay. Now, tell us what happened." his mother ordered.
Yuki had been by the door all the time. He didn't want to intrude in this family reunion.
"Do you anything to drink or eat?"
"No dear, we're okay." Shuichi's mother answered.
Yuki blushed at the word 'dear'.
"Okay then, I'll be at my studio."
"No, Yuki, I want you to stay." Shuichi said, his eyes pleading.
Yuki looked at him, then walked to him.
"This is a family thing. I don't want to intrude."
"You're right, this is a family thing. That's why I want you here, with me." the pink haired boy said, blushing lightly.
Yuki blushed too.
"Shuichi's right. Like I said at the hospital, you're part of the family now."
"Alright then." and he sat down next to his lover and grabbed his hand.
"Now tell us son, what happened to you?" Shuichi's father asked.
"Well, apparently my mind was suffering and it shut down my body. That's why I was in a coma."
"And why was your mind suffering, Shu-chan?"
"Well, I don't know if you remember when we went to Kyoto when we're just kids..."
"Humm... kind of... I think something happened there..."
"Yeah, it did. You see-"
"You remember?" asked his mother, in an almost frighted voice.
"Now I do. I somewhat relived those events while I was in coma."
"Oh, Shuichi! I'm sorry baby! I didn't want you to remember something as horrible as that." his mother said, crying.
"That's okay mom. It's better this way. You all made me forget, but that's not the way I should have dealed with it. I know your intention was good, but actually it didn't help me."
"I'm so sorry son." his father said, tears in his eyes.
"What happened, Shu-chan?"
"Well Maiko, you see, we went to look for an old temple and we found it. But you were afraid and went back to mom and dad. Remember that?"
"I think I do. You went inside the temple, right?"
"Right. But there were these creepy monks there. And they... hurt me, badly."
"They beat you?"
"That too."
"What else?"
"..."
"Shu-chan?"
Yuki squeezed his lover's hand gently, giving him support.
"They raped me."
"... What? But you were just a kid!"
"Yeah... I know."
Suddenly, she jumped.
"I remember! Mom, dad and I went to look for you. And when we did, you were very hurt, bleeding a lot! I was so scared! I thought you were dead! Man, how could I forgot about something like that?"
"You were very young and we never talked to you about this. And since then I was alright, it's just normal you forgot. I couldn't remember it myself. Don't worry about that." he grinned.
"You say you didn't remember until you were in coma. Then, why were you're mind suffering?"
"Because I forgot, but the feeling was still there, in the back of my mind. It just took a little push to bring that feeling back, but not the memory itself."
"What push?"
"The Aizawa 'incident'."
"... Oh..."
His mother was crying loudly now.
"My poor baby! He didn't deserve to suffer this much! He's just an innocent child!"
"Mom, it's alright. I don't care."
"Don't say you're alright. You're not!"
"But I will be. I have you, dad and Maiko with me. And I have Yuki."
"How about Hiro? Does he know?"
"... No."
"Why not? He's your best friend, right?"
"Yeah, but I still hadn't the opportunity to tell him. And I don't want anyone else to know, at least for now."
They stayed silent for few minutes.
"How come you never talked to us about Yuki-san? We found about him on tv. You should have told us, you know?" his father asked, all of a sudden.
Shuichi and Yuki blushed at these words.
"Well... I... I guess I... was afraid..."
"Of what?"
"Well... your... your reaction..."
"We're your family, we're going to support you no matter what." his mother said, a gentle smile on her face.
"Well, I sort of knew..." Maiko mumbled.
"What? And you didn't tell us?"
"It was Shuichi's life. It wasn't my place to tell."
"But he told you."
"He mencioned it, yeah."
"Look, it doesn't matter if Maiko knew or not before that 'thing' on tv. I just want to know how you feel about it..."
His parents looked at him with gentle smiles.
"Son, are you happy with Yuki-san?"
"Very much!"
"Then why should we have something against it?"
"Well... you know... because we're both... boys..."
"Shuichi, it doesn't matter if you're both boys. As long as you love each other, I couldn't care less."
"Mom..."
"Your mother is right. It doesn't matter."
"Dad..."
"So, when's the wedding?"
"Maiko!" Shuichi shouted.
"What? I just want to know when my big brother is getting married."
"How about children? I want a grandchild. A cute little one."
"Mom!"
Yuki stood up suddenly.
"Yuki...?"
"I-I'll get a c-cup of co-coffee. Do-do you wa-want something-ing?"
Shuichi smiled at his lover's nervousness.
"I accept a cup of coffee, then." Shuichi's father said.
"Okay."
"Do you have orange juice?" Maiko asked.
"Yeah."
"I want a glass of it, please."
"Okay."
"I'll have a cup of tea, dear."
"O-okay. Shu-shuichi?"
"I'm good, thanks."
"Okay." and he left.
"He was really nervous, wasn't he?" Shuichi's mother said, smiling.
"Of course he was! You were talking about marriage and children!"
"Well, it's normal to talk about that, isn't?"
"Not for him."
"Why not?"
"... Long story. Anyway, I don't think that will be happening anytime soon."
"Waah! But I wanted to go to your wedding! And have a niece or a nephew!"
"Forget about it... I'm going to help Yuki in the kitchen. Be right back!"
When he entered the kitchen, Yuki was looking out the window, smoking.
"Why were you so nervous?"
"... I don't know."
The pink haired boy approached the blond, took a cigarette from his lover's pack and lit it up.
"Was it because they were talking about weddings and children?"
"..."
"Don't pay attention to them. You know how women are, always imagining fairytales and stuff."
Yuki looked at him.
"How about you?"
"What about me?"
"Would you like to get married?"
"... I won't say I haven't thought about that, because I have. A lot. But not anymore."
"Why not?"
"Because... I know you don't like that kind of stuff. And if I won't marry you, then I won't marry with no one else."
"And if you were with someone else?"
"But I'm not. I'm with you. I don't want anyone else. I don't care if I'll be single forever. As long as I have you, I'm not alone."
He hugged the older boy.
"Look Yuki, don't be upset about what my mom and Maiko said. They were just chit-chatting. We're fine like this."
"... Yeah, we are."
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After two long, embarrassing hours, the Shindou family left the lover's apartment.
"Make them call before they come here again, so I can left before they arrive."
"It wasn't that bad, Yuki."
"No, it was worse."
Shuichi looked at his lover, who was sitting on the couch, smoking a cigarette, with alarmed eyes.
"You... you don't like them?" he asked, saddness in his voice.
Yuki looked at his lover.
"That's not what I said."
He motioned his lover to sit next to him on the couch. Shuichi did as he was 'told'.
"Actually, I like them. For a long time, I wished my family was like that. I'm glad you have them."
"Yuki..."
"But they made me feel very embarrased..."
Shuichi laughed.
"Well, they made us both embarrased. But I guess I'm used to it."
"What? You're not imune to humiliation?" Yuki smirked.
"Of course not!"
"No one would guess that. By the way you act sometimes..."
"Hey!"
Yuki laughed.
"Come on brat, let's go to bed. You need to rest. Tomorrow is your first terapy session."
Shuichi looked sad all of a sudden.
"Yeah..."
Yuki hugged him.
"It will be alright. I'll be there. If you want to, that is..."
"Of course I want! I'll feel much better knowing you're there."
"Alright then. Let's get some sleep."
"Okay."
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A.N. And it's over. It doesn't have important events but as I said before, this is a transition chapter. I'll try to update ASAP, probably next monday (if teachers give me a break.) 'Till next time.
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