EPOV

I was so mad at myself. I was mad at James. I was mad at the world, who was I kidding. Bella was right, I did have something that made me happy, and Bella felt like she had nothing. I was telling Bella the truth when I said that I could never say anything bad about James, and I couldn't, not to his face. I should have told her that. Just spending one whole day in Forks had me all kinds of confused.

I liked everything about Forks High. My classes were very laid back and not having to do any homework rocked. I felt so bad that Bella was having a hard time with all of this. I wanted to make it better. I didn't think I was going to care so little about being away from James, and I didn't think Bella was going to care so much. I always thought that as long as we were together everything was going to be okay.

I couldn't explain what I was feeling and make it make sense. When I heard a second door shut I went to the bathroom door and opened it to see Bella went to the other room. I was going to give her time to think, I needed to do the same as well.

I lay in my bed and thought about everything that I was feeling. I was happy because I loved football. I loved everything about it. I loved the workout, hitting people hard, and the manliness to the game. I couldn't wait to play in an actual game. I wanted to make Bella proud of me. I don't think I have ever done anything that she could be proud of.

I was sad because I was taken away from the only home I have ever had. I was going to be eighteen in May, and then I would be out on my own once school was over. I really didn't see Esme and Carlisle letting me hang around much longer than graduation. I know I could have lived with James forever if I wanted to.

I was scared of the unknown. I didn't know how everything was going to work out. With James we knew what we were getting and here...everything was different. I was scared that Bella wasn't going to love me anymore. That would be the one thing to kill me. Part of me wanted to run away, but I wouldn't unless Bella wanted to go with me.

I knew I was fucked up; no one would ever have to tell me. I had been with James for ten years and Bella was with him for three. I didn't know how she was so attached to him. Our rolls should be reversed. I should be the one falling apart over everything, not her.

Falling in love with Bella was the greatest thing to ever happen to me. Loving her opened my eyes to how wrong our life with James was. Watching him kiss her and having sex with her, tore me open from the inside out. The night we were taking away I acted so defensively because that was the way he brought me up. The moment that the police showed up all I could think about was what James had taught me. I now realized that he was preparing me for when this happened. I had to keep Bella calm, make sure I demanded that she say nothing, take all of the money out of the safe in case we needed to run away, and say nothing that would get him in trouble. I knew I was being a coward, but I just couldn't bring myself to testify against him. Bella had to and that brought me some sort of relief.

I tossed and turned for an hour trying to get some sleep, but something was missing. Bella wasn't next to me. I had been sleeping in the same bed with her for the last three years. The only time that she wasn't in bed with me was when she was with James. I remember how long it took me to be to hold her when she was awake. The first night was the worst...

When I walked into my room I saw a pillow and blanket on the floor. I figured that she was in the bathroom. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know if I should let her sleep on the floor or if I should get my dad and make her sleep in the bed. I walked out of the room and headed to James' room. I knocked and waited for him to tell me to come in.

"Hey, son. You should be in bed," he said sitting up in bed.

"I don't know what I should do about Bella. She put a pillow and a blanket on the floor to sleep," I told him standing next to his bed. He shook his head in understanding. He stared at the TV absentminded, and he ran his hand up and down the inner thigh of my left leg.

"You are getting older now; I think it is time that you have more responsibility. I want you to make her as comfortable as you can. Your bed is big, tell her to sleep on the other side, tell her you won't touch her. I want you too, though. If she falls asleep before you, try to spoon her. If you fall asleep, try to do it in the morning. I'm counting on you," he said as I felt excitement build up inside me. "The more affection that she gets, the better things will be. Hold her hand, play with her hair, and try to kiss her once in a while. I'm sure she will come around."

He wanted me to help make Bella better. I knew I wasn't going to let him down. I gave him a quick kiss before I headed back to my room. Bella was still in the bathroom, and I was sure she was trying to wait me out, but that wasn't going to work. I picked up the pillow off the floor and put it back on the bed. I folded the blanket and set it at the foot of the bed and waited a good fifteen minutes for her to come back to the bedroom. When she walked in her eyes filled with tears when she saw I picked up her make shift bed.

"You have to sleep in the bed," I told her as she looked at her feet. "There is nothing to be scared of, I won't hurt you. The bed is big enough for the both of us, I won't touch you. Please don't get me in trouble," I said softly. She stared at me searching to see if I was telling the truth. I let out a shaky breath when she walked around the bed and got in.

I wasn't able to wait for her to go to sleep, but I woke up sometime during the night and heard her soft snores. I rolled next to her and got as close as I could. Her warm body felt so good next to me. I started to get turned on, but I was able to push those thought out of my head. She never woke up until morning. She woke up screaming and I thought it was because I was holding her, but I could hear her talking to herself saying that 'it was all a dream'.

"It's okay Bella, it was just a dream," I told her as I rubbed her back. I was shocked when she didn't flinch away from my touch. That was when I thought getting Bella to trust me wasn't going to be as hard as I thought.

I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted to hold Bella. I hated fighting with her. We fought often, but none of them have ever been this bad. I headed for the bathroom and when I opened the door that was connected to our room, Bella was just opening the door to the other room.

"Are you going to sleep with me?" I asked as I looked at her red puffy face.

"Why didn't you spank me?" she asked.

"I can't spank you for saying how you are feeling."

"But, you put me in the corner."

"You wouldn't shut up. I knew if you were in the corner you would stop talking." She just stood there and stared at me.

"I'm still mad at you. I don't know how we are going to get through this when we are on different sides. We can't fight over this," she said as I walked to her.

"You're right. I will figure out what is going on in my head. I won't make you do anything that you don't want to. I will be there for you every step of the way, okay?" I asked her as we both molded our bodies together.

"If this goes to trial, I am going to need you," she said as she nuzzled my chest.

"For everyday of forever," I told her as we made our way back to the bedroom. Once we were in bed we exchanged a few kisses before sleep took us.