sorry for the delay of updates...and i know this is a short one so i will just make it up on the next chapter!
by the way i just want to say...AWESOME midseason premiere for PLL!
well thats it...thank you for everyone who reads this! really keeps me motivated...
Being Jealous 11
Emily POV
Ali and hanna will leave in about twenty minutes. Hanna's mom will drive them to her dad's but still hanna is nowhere near ali's house. Where am I? I'm hiding somewhere in spencer's bushes. Good thing that the hasting's are not here. They are out of the country and left last night.
Why am I here? Ali texted me last night to go to her house because she have something important to tell me. No sorry or anything. I am pissed off with that text. Really pissed off. But why am I still here? It's because that's ali. Although I'm hiding and I'm still fighting my self if I will really go over there and talk to her. By the way she is there on their front porch waiting for me.
From my point of view I can say she didn't have enough sleep last night. She may also cried. And her reaction right now is very anxious. Looking left and right, waiting for me. I can't stand her. I still love her. I mean I always like her like this. One way. So in a way that helps me heal the wounds she left to me. But my greatest antiseptic is maya st. Germaine. She always made sure that I'm ok and she keeps on surprising me just to make sure my mind is nowhere a blue eyed blonde. Which is a little comforting and helps me a lot. It really did take my mind of ali. Now, I guess it's time to face the music. Time to face ali. So I remove myself from my hiding spot and called ali.
"Hey" is all I can muster to say. She heard me and hurriedly walking to me. I can't read her expression all I know she is surprised. In a good sort of way.
"emily I'm really sorry for what I said to you. I didn't mean them. But I'm just realizing something and I think I need some time alone. That's the reason I took the offer of hanna." she instantly started once she knows I can hear her. At her last few words she caught my hand and kissed it. Shit. Her lips really do amazing sensation in my stomach. Shit. I think I'm gonna forgive her. I can't resist being angry with her. I can't. I don't want to end whatever me and ali have. Wait do we really have something? That did the trick. I'm angry again.
"You left the cupcake. Just like what you will do to me today. No heads up. You're just gonna go." I said to her with minimum emotion. I need to control this. I need to be angry.
She looks very defeated. Like she knows every little detail of her sin. My heart is starting to melt. I'm starting to forgive her again.
"I know that's what it looks like to you but believe me I don't intend to leave it like that. I don't want to leave it. I just did. Like what I did to you." ali's eyes starts to water. Shit. When did ali learn to show this much emotion? Yet I can't believe that I believe her. Think about it. If I'm in her position I would probably think of nothing else too. One more thing before I forgive her.
"Is there something between us?" I ask with all the courage I can muster. This is the first time I came to ali like this. The first time I face ali head on.
"I..of c..." she was interrupted by someone. She jerks my hand away. Then I heard hanna's voice.
"Hey, are you two ok? Is there something going on?" hanna's voice is kind of accusing for me. Maybe because ali is holding my hand a while ago.
"Nothing. Just saying proper goodbye." ali said this without stuttering. Without any nervousness. Full of confidence. Without any of the emotion she let me see a while ago. Then looks at me and say goodbye again. Is it just for leaving me now or is it for our relationship?
"Oh ok. Bye then em! Good thing you and ali are ok now. See you." she waved and followed ali to her house. I just wave and force a happy smile.
I make sure that they are really inside before I ran. Ran into someone that's been eyeing me from afar. From her bedroom window. Making sure I'm ok. Maya. And there she is. Waiting in their front door. Willing to come and rescue me with arms open wide.
"It's ok. Don't cry. Let's go up to my room then you can ruin any shirt I have. I just want you to feel better." maya said while holding my hand and tucking loose strands of my hairs behind my ear. Her warmth is different from ali. More assuring and more protective.
"Thank you." I said sincerely and follow her upstairs. As we make our way to her bedroom I think about what ali said. She will say something before we are interrupted and what about all those emotion she let me see? Surely that's supposed to mean something right?
As we reach her door, my phone rings and I saw that ali texted me. I immediately go to the window and look for her. She is getting inside ms. Marins's car. Her expression is troubled but once hanna looks at ali, the confident ali is out again. This time with an excited expression. Something that looks like she will enjoy their vacation.
I read the text. It's just one word. "Sorry". I guess that's really it. Were done. Whatever we have before, whatever those kiss means to her before, whatever she means about that waiting for her is now nothing. That's why she is saying sorry.
I can't feel anything. I'm numb with pain. I feel so hollow inside. I'm officially destroyed.
Alison POV
I can't make small talk. I hope she understand what that sorry means. That I'm sorry that hanna interrupted us. I hope she didn't get any mixed messages. To get my wish, I did what emily always do. Pray to all gods. Wish that she gets the right message.
Hanna is beside me and talking to her mom. Of course my mask is instantly in my face. I'm making sure that hanna will not notice anymore suspicious. The last thing I need is for her to badger me with information. Oh I forgot that's spencer's job. Questioning before asking if it's ok to ask about it. Hanna is not like that. Not yet but she needs to be if she and I will be queen bee.
After pretending to hanna that everything is alright and joining with their conversation, hanna fell asleep. As she sleeps I took the advantage of thinking about what happened. Alison and emily. Ali and em. A & E. It's has a sweet taste in my mouth and lips when I say that out loud. It seems they really belong together. Yeah, that's how it supposed to be. Me and emily, just me and her. But a curly haired musician is keep intruding my thoughts Maya. Shit. She can own emily for the whole week that I'm not there.
That's the only thought that breaks my heart really fast. Maya and emily together. It leaves a sour taste in my mouth. They don't belong with each other.
That's the only thing I can't take. If emily and maya end up together because of this. I will not forgive hanna. Just then my phone received a text message. From emily.
"So we really don't have anything. I get it now."
That's it.
What the hell? She thinks my sorry is for making her believe that there is something between us? But there is! I love her! This is all hanna's fault. Hanna never should have interrupted us! We are making effort to be ok. I will not forgive her. I will make her regret everything that she invited me in this little vacation with her dad.
well thats it...
hanna will play a part now next chapter...hope it will interest you more! and please review so i can improve...
im not that confident with this one but hoping you still enjoyed...
