It's been a few days since that horrid dream and nothing felt the same. Sure I had a new appreciation for how well Sasuke treats me but it seems like he had the same realization. I think that day when I awoke from that dream he revealed how tired he was of pampering me. I mean don't get me wrong he treats me well enough, more than well enough now but I don't feel as special to him as I used to.
Because maybe I'm not? I mean… I know I'm special to be his but isn't he special too? Doesn't he deserve the same kind of pampering he gave me if not more? He was the one that had girls all over him but he chose me. He has more options, I don't…so doesn't that make me responsible for keeping him feeling just as special as he made me feel? I think so, so I don't think I should complain much when he asks for something or doesn't give me his undivided attention all the time.
I was being spoiled and if I want to keep this relationship alive I needed to straighten myself out. I nodded to myself with determination set in my mind before reaching for the handle to turn off the water. I for once let him take the shower first and use up most of the heat instead of him making the sacrifice. I didn't like it and when he accepted my offer it got my mind going on about how he doesn't find me to be special. It was silly of me and I was over it now.
Stepping out the shower and drying myself I was tempted to put on my uniform and head to work but it was unnecessary. It was all volunteer work anyway and I wanted to make today perfect for him. Besides after that dream I really wanted to start training with him more often.
After sliding into my work out clothes I made my way out the bathroom to be greeted by him in the hallway. I giggled, "Waiting for me?" I closed the distance between me and him and looked up at him shyly.
He was taller compared to just a year ago and his raven hair seemed impossibly darker right now. "Sakura.." his voice was heated almost heated enough to compare to when we made love that one time. He steps closer to me and I feel the bulge in his pants. He is never usually this direct with me, if anything he would try and hide it and I would either tease him or giggle it off. But now it was different, there was a wild lust in his eyes that I had never seen before.
My eyebrow raises with curiosity and I open my mouth to say something but he cuts it off with a kiss. A rough and untamed kiss I've never experienced but wanted to enjoy for his sake. His tongue slips past my lips and down my throat. My body tenses in fear as I start to gag on it, this was too close to my dream and I was terrified.
Even though I was scared I couldn't fight back because deep down I knew this was my Sasuke. This man kissing me wasn't evil, there was a gentleness in his touch and tenderness in his kiss… I willed myself to calm down and attempt to enjoy it.
Sasuke breaks the kiss and looks deep into my eyes like he's done so many times before. "I love you" he kisses my lips again as his hands roam my slim figure. It was unlike him to be so bold but I was enjoying it. It was all something different, something that excited me. Before I could register anything else I was pressed firmly against the wall.
The heat inside my belly was growing rapidly as he pulled away at my clothes and nipped at my skin. It was almost like having sex with a different man and it invigorated me. I hastily wrap my clothed legs around his hips and was gratefully rewarded with his length pressed against me. He grunts as if in approval as he latches his mouth onto one of my bare nipples.
I moan in surprise as I grind my hips against him, something told me to let go to give him everything I had because he could handle it unlike the last time. Then he suddenly moves off and away from me, the distance makes me shiver. There seemed to be a large change in temperature just from our bodies not touching.
I'm panting and barley able to stand up straight, "Take it off" I look up and my eyes meet his. They were filled to the brim with lust; they looked almost dangerous. I shiver and stare a moment longer before realizing his demand. Sliding out of my pants and panties I didn't have to wait at all for him to come to me.
He rushed to me and inside of me before I could gauge his proximity. My legs were wrapped around him again and it wasn't my doing it was his. Without any sort of caution or delicacy he pound into me. I winced and bite back a whimper as he continued to roughly make love to me. He felt bigger than before and it hurt terribly but I wanted to tough it out.
I knew that if I held on for a while that it would feel good again and the lust that seemed to have disappeared would return. It did return and sooner than anticipated, it was an out of this world experience. My body was reacting before I could even think about what I was doing.
This wasn't sloppy second time sex this was an expert at work and I was unsure what to think of it or even if I should think about it at all. My mind was foggy with lust and even though my body was becoming weak and it was covered with sweat it still seemed like it wanted more.
It seemed like hours had past of us and our bodies colliding over and over against the wall. I was ready to cum again but I was trying to hold it for him so that we could collapse together and I wouldn't leave him unsatisfied. But I couldn't help it, my body was tensing and all sense of control left me and I started the biggest orgasm yet. My back arched as he pumped on and my legs and arms made a feeble attempt on holding him tighter.
A wave of pleasure shook my body to the core and all of my senses went haywire. It was a beautiful moment filled with nothing but pleasure and when it ended my tense body went heavy and limp, my mind shut down, and my eyes closed.
I opened my eyes to see the ceiling, my eye brows creased closer as I realized it was my bedroom ceiling and worst of all it seemed to be moving. I wanted to look further but even my eyes didn't want to move. Then there it was like a second wave of reality starting with the feeling of my wet hair pressed to my skin, then I felt his hair and forehead pressed to my chest and moving down I felt his hard length thrusting inside my aching warmth.
It was an odd and torturous feeling my body wanted to react to the pleasure but couldn't, he had warn me out and now was fucking me like a lifeless doll. Was that all I was to him? A tear rolls down my cheek as the depressing thought conflict with my still lust filled body.
He looks up at me and sees the tear, "Does it hurt? Don't worry…I'm almost there" He leans away from me and creates a better trusting angle for himself. My lips won't move and my body just flops around as if I'm dead… He grunts and his pace becomes erratic, I know he's close and it isn't before long that I feel his hot cum fill me.
After catching his breath he gives me a quick kiss to the cheek, pulls out, rolls off, and leaves. My hair felt matted, my body is tired and cold, and my heart felt empty. I felt tattered and used... But then somewhere in between nothingness and depression I remembered my vow this morning. This is what he wanted and if he doesn't like to cuddle I won't hold it against him because of all the times he suffered through cuddling for me. It was my turn to sacrifice. I'm not a baby and if he can pull through with treating me like one all the time I could act like an adult for him…After letting anther tear roll down I turned on my side and went to sleep.
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As I entered the village something besides my anger filled my gut. Something was wrong, either something was wrong within the village or the people I was searching for knew I was coming. Whichever it was I wasn't sure.
A few minutes away from the training grounds I sensed someone was following me. My gut told me it wasn't necessarily hostile but I knew there was something off about it either way. Pretending like I hadn't noticed him was my best shot and then making my way out the village and regrouping. Changing my direction slightly I started to curve my way out of the village but it was in vein.
I made my curve look like I was going deeper in the village when in fact I was turning around. This triggered the attack… After deflecting darts that came out me from angle unseen I finally got hit and in a vital spot. Using a blind spot and an opportune moment when my attention was preoccupied they hit me square in the jugular vein.
I awoke after what seemed like five maybe ten minutes but I knew better… My groggy eyes made it's way to the window, it was now night time and the fire that was my anger was long gone. I could tell I was in my villages hospital and after a few moments of thought I concluded that they predicted my reaction and probably would be here in any moment to tie me to the bed. They probably gave me a normal dose, a big mistake on their part. I wasn't sure if it was my hidden weight in my muscles or the fact I had Uchiha blood flowing through me either way they didn't give me enough and I was going to take advantage of it.
Upon standing I could still feel the drugs in me but I knew I could make it out the village if no one was expecting me to escape. With my luck they were…but I didn't have much choice. They probably wouldn't even let me join the search party if she's still alive…
Walking to the window was enough to gauge how badly the drugs affected my body. I could make it if I was quick and stealthy. Looking down and out the window and then over the horizon, I planned my route and escape routes in my head. Then I jumped, the cold air of the night felt like it woke me up fully.
I kept my breathing steady and my eyes peeled as I did my best to use the shadows and the veil of darkness as my ally. My gut was telling me I was being followed and I could hear one of the inexperienced ninjas footsteps. They were keeping at a distance perhaps to see where I would go before taking me again. But they didn't and I was able to make my way out of the village intact and with them off my tail.
They let me go and that was confirmed as soon as I saw Naruto waiting for me on the outskirts of town. "They knew you were going to overact and had a watch out for you if you came back to the village. I convinced Kakashi to at least let you leave… I know you'll have better luck of finding her than anyone else. Because you'll do anything for her…right?" His eyes reached mine, I could see the guilt and sorrow lying in them. I nodded I wasn't angry with him, it was Kakashi I was upset with but I had no time for my anger.
It was a mistake from the beginning to waste time on him rather than trying to find my girl. "Help me find her…show me where she was lost." He swallows hard and nods to me before sprinting off ahead as he began to tell me the story of Sakura's disappearance.
This is the longest chapter I've written yet, I hope you enjoy and I'll try to make them all over my usual eight hundred words.
