What If…?
Twilight FanFiction Chapter 12: BPOV
After a weird conversation with Esme, Edward sat on the couch in front of me. I was still wondering about their conversation. What I could grasp was that Edward wrote the song for a certain someone, and that Esme was overjoyed with this fact. It would be really difficult to get used to his mind-reading powers. I only heard half of what was said.
At the same time, I couldn't stop thinking about the melody Edward had just played. Every single inch of me was filled with that song, and it wouldn't let go. It was like the melody was part of me. It soothed my feelings and when it was being played, I forgot who I was and where I was.
I thought about what Alice had told me. She asked me to be nicer to Edward. I could try.
"It was a really nice song." I said, not looking at him. I didn't need to be the nicest person in the world.
"Thank you, I had a good muse." he said, and even when I wasn't looking at him, I could hear the smile in his voice. He was happy about it… was he in love with someone? He certainly was… It was very clear when he talked to Esme. I felt sad inside when I thought of Edward loving someone, and I didn't know why. Was I jealous?
No… I couldn't be. Why would I be jealous? I didn't like Edward or anything. Did I? What was that feeling that I had when I saw him playing the melody? It couldn't be anything more than admiration. Yeah, it was only admiration.
"Do you like classical music?" Edward brought me back from my thoughts. I simply nodded. Classical was my favorite genre. "Do you have a favorite?"
I didn't even have to think about it. My answer came out in the same second.
"Claire de Lune" I said, and Edward smiled a huge smile. Why did that make him happy? He immediately stood up and went to the piano. He started playing Debussy's familiar song and I felt a smile creeping up my face.
"Debussy to this?" Edward asked. I nodded and kept smiling. I let the song flow, and closed my eyes. It made me feel calm and happy. It brought back many blurry memories from my human life. I could see my mother's face in them. I missed her so much… but I promised myself that I wouldn't cry anymore.
In my old memories I could hear the same tunes that were being played again. I saw Renee happily playing it in our secondhand piano. She didn't play it as perfect as Edward did, but it didn't matter. I liked to see her happy. I thought about how my 'death' had affected her. I couldn't bear seeing her sad.
I could feel that I would cry again. I mean dry sob. I put my arms around my legs and rested my head against my knees. I tried to sob as low as I could, but soon I heard the song abruptly stopping. I heard Edward kneeling beside me. He waited some seconds before speaking.
"Did I do something wrong?" he asked with a sad tone in his voice. Maybe he was a good person after all. He really seemed to care about me. I choked my answer between sobs.
"My mom used to play that on our piano." I said, and cried more when I said the word 'mom'. I felt someone sitting by my side, and arms wrapping me, squeezing me against its owner. I felt the impulse to shake them off, but my body didn't respond. I felt very safe there, and I started calming down.
"I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry. For everything." I heard Edward whispering, and I believed it somehow. His tone was so true I couldn't doubt it, even if I wanted. We sat there for some time, I don't know how long. I felt so comfortable there… Ok Bella, this is starting to get weird.
I moved a fraction of an inch and Edward's arms flew away from me. It was an awkward moment. I didn't look up, and I could fell his gaze on me. I looked up and met his golden eyes staring intently at me. He locked his eyes with mine and I couldn't look away. We stayed like this for some seconds and he broke the connection. If I was human, I would probably be deep scarlet and my heart would have gone crazy. I tried to ignore the sensation.
Suddenly Jasper entered the room, with a weird expression on his face. He eyed Edward meaningfully. I suppose they were having a mental conversation again. I wish I could read minds, so that I could know what was making Jasper so annoyed.
"It was not an 'explosion of love', Jasper." Edward said very annoyed, his fingers quoting the air.
"Ok, so what was it?" Jasper said lightly teasing. Explosion of love? Could someone explain it?
"Give me a break, Jasper. I just discovered my feelings. It is not my fault that you can feel it too." Edward replied, and I caught a quick glance towards me. Didn't he want me to know who was her? Jasper eyed me and returned eyes to Edward.
"Yes, it is." Edward said, probably answering Jasper's thoughts. Gosh! What are they talking about? With that, Jasper looked at me, smiling hugely. He winked at me, and just left. Edward rolled his eyes.
"So, are you feeling better now?" he asked, looking at the floor, maybe trying to change the subject. He was worried about me.
"Yeah… Thanks for… you know…" I couldn't find the words. I thought about him embracing me, and that made me feel embarrassed.
"Anytime." he said with a warm tone in his voice. I felt comfortable talking to him now. Maybe I forgave him, I thought. I didn't feel all that hatred anymore. "So… do you want me to play anything else?"
"You don't need to." I said smiling at him. I was afraid I would end up crying again. For some reason I didn't want him to be worried about me. He smiled back in the same moment. "I wanted to continue reading my book."
"What are you reading?" he said, while I picked up the book I left on the couch.
"The first edition from a book called Wuthering Heights. It is very good." I said looking at the book on my lap. He chuckled. "Why are you laughing?"
"Do you really think that this book is good? I personally think that it is awful." he said with amused eyes. How could he think that such beautiful love story is awful?
"Why? The story is so pretty!" I protested, trying to defend the book in my hands.
"They simply ruined each other's lives." Edward said with a smug smile playing on his lips.
Yes, but what the book tries to show us is that the true love can make it worth it! That's what makes the story so breathtakingly beautiful…" I said a bit too happy. Edward chuckled some more.
"I guess you're right… I just never saw it this way. You changed my perspective." He smiled a warm smile that made me want to touch his face. Why did his actions affected me so much? The only thing I could think about now was who was the one he fell for? Maybe it was someone from school. Maybe it was a vampire I didn't know… It didn't matter. I was feeling jealous anyway, no matter who it was. Why was I feeling this??
My thoughts were driving me insane. Edward looked at me curiously. I was so glad he couldn't read my mind. I was starting to realize something that I didn't want to be true…
I was falling for Edward, and there wasn't anything I could do about it.
A/N: Firstly, I would like to deeply apologize to guys! My life has been utterly hectic, I can't take it anymore! Next week I have 7 tests, and I am so screwed… I have to study a lot, so you won't hear about me for a while… ( But I'll write in every free second that I have XD
Secondly… What did you think about this chapter? Bella is beginning to realize her feelings too!! YAY!
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