A/N : Hey this is Breana ok there is a very confusing part that I'm writing in this chapter okay? Listen close this is what's happening. Chuck and Nate are going to be talking but Jenny is recording them. What ever is in bold is what shows on the tape. The words in italics are what's been left out to make the tape hurt Vanessa. Ok. Thank you for the wait. I'll be going back to having a chapter up everyday I hope k.

Chapter 12

Vanessa and Chuck got out of the limo walking into Victoria's Secret. Vanessa looked at multiple bathing suits, but none were concealing enough for her. Chuck smiled at her throwing her a lacy black bra and underwear. Vanessa laughed at him throwing her head back as she did catching the lingerie and walking in the dressing room with a giggle, she watched as peeked through the curtain as she finished putting it on. Vanessa grabbed him by his school tie leading him in the dressing room. Chuck kissed her lips pushing her against the wall Vanessa wrapped her legs around his waist and her arms around his neck, his lips moved to her neck and his eyes caught sight of the scars on her inner thighs as he looked down. Chuck let her down slowly his eyes capturing hers again.

"Hey, lets not get kicked out of the store before you buy that ok?" he said walking out of the dressing room.

"Sure" Vanessa said slightly disappointed of course she wouldn't let it show, she put her clothes on and walked out of the dressing room her head held high as usual. Chuck sat watching her. 'What the hell is wrong with me? I shouldn't stop because of those stupid scars, I want her. I…love her' he thought as he realized he loved her and so he would try his best. Vanessa looked up at him he grabbed her hand and they roamed around for a while and then got sushi at a small place in the village. Snap.

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three months later

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Chuck sat on his bed besides Vanessa he looked at her deep in the eyes she looked at him and then he saw it, the look of sorrow and shame. Chuck felt his eyes burn but he wouldn't let her see so he kissed her intensely on the lips sending fire through her veins. Vanessa kissed him back her kiss sending electric licks of lust through him. Chuck was now on top of her kissing her neck while unbuttoning her blouse revealing a lacy brown bra he kissed her. Vanessa pulled his shirt over his head. As they both lost every layer of clothes he looked at her body in amazement perfectly toned, skin was tight and silky to his touch, then his eyes traveled to her scars. 'I won't leave this undone…not this time. But I need you to tell me that you want me to, I wish I would stop thinking about those damn scars so much' he thought looking into her eyes.

"Chuck, please…" she whispered, she looked as if she were going to cry, if he backed out now he knew it would destroy her, and their relationship. 'I did say I would get her to beg for me' he thought bitterly at how he had thought about her as just another game, but now he was repulsed. He gave them what they both wanted but what they were both terrified of. Vanessa woke up to a note on her pillow, it was written in someone else's script not Chuck's it was really late four in the afternoon.

Dear Vanessa,

This is Jenny Humphrey, while you were sleeping late from your little late night event with Chuck.

I was sitting outside the door waiting for him to come out so I could tell you how sorry I am about what happened.

But then I hid behind the door and followed him around. He was up really early around eight in the morning.

Well then I guess that's early compared to you, you missed school by the way. I left your homework on the table.

Any way I followed Chuck around for a bit, and he was talking to Nate. They were talking about you, and what happened last night.

Luckily I had some free time on my hands well that and a tape recorder. The things he said were unbelievable , I knew he was bad.

But this, this I think you'll find is on a whole new level of bad, The tape is on the table by the television and the stereo.

Its actually a good thing he keeps that old thing around so now you can listen to the tape I made especially for you.

If I'm going down you're coming with me. Vanessa I'll need someone to cry with won't I.

Sincerely Jennifer Humphrey.

Vanessa finished reading the letter fear stopping the blood in her veins. Vanessa got up putting on her clothes, she was sore but happy and she was sure nothing could ruin that, and yet she was fearful of what was on the tape. Vanessa walked over to the table where she saw the tape resting there it was labeled Betrayal. Vanessa put the tape in the player and hit the play button and the speaker on high volume.

"Hey Chuck what brings you here?" Nate said to Chuck who sat in front of him with a shot in his hand.

"Me and Vanessa slept together last night, but I.." Chuck said his voice stopped as if he didn't really want to say the next thing.

"But you what Chuck?" Nate asked putting down a book he had been reading before Chuck came in.

"I didn't want to touch her, I was scared she was thinking of him and if that were It was repulsing to me, but I know she wasn't because she would have stopped me. I would have wanted to stop" Chuck said slowly.

"Dude that's not surprising, I mean I might not know much, but it would repulse me as well" Nate said

"I didn't want her to be scared of being with me, this is not just a game to me" Chuck said to his friend

"I don't know what to tell you man" Nate said.

"I don't want her to get hurt, I want to protect her, from her self because she is not a monster in my eyes and not in anyone else's either" Chuck said softly

Vanessa listened to the static that played after the audio was over tears fell from her eyes as she picked up her things, once she was upstairs she grabbed all of her stuff and she wanted to give him back his stupid scarf in person. Vanessa ran up the stairs to her and Serena's suite.