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ok now for the story...
Chapter Twelve
Jacob's POV
I just stood there staring at Edward, while he took my imprint away from me. Why wouldn't he listen to me? If I had any doubt that Edward knew I imprinted it was all gone now. I needed to convince him that I loved his daughter, talk to him man to man… well man – to vampire.
I ran as fast as I could back to my house, I needed to phase and talk to Edward, I overheard them saying they were going to the hospital to see Charlie, maybe I could get a chance to talk with Edward there.
I was soon approaching the house and I quickly phased and climbed through my bedroom window. I decided to take a shower before I went to the hospital; I wanted to look presentable to my future father-in-law after all. Whoa the thought of that was weird beyond belief. I've always thought of Edward as well – a leech and the man who stole the woman of my dreams and now…. I'm thinking of him as a father? And I want his approval to be with his daughter?
I turned the shower off and went back into my room and grabbed a pair of jeans and a T-shirt. I felt uncomfortable as hell, the only thing I have ever worn recently were slacks and well…slacks. I took a look at myself in the mirror. God I needed to cut my hair, it was short but not neat at all. When your sole purpose for twelve long years was just running around in wolf form to catch vamps, you didn't have much time for grooming. But shrugged it off and I ran my fingers through my hair, to try and smooth out what I could. It seemed to work a bit.
I looked around for my sneakers hoping that they still would fit. Again shoes? Not something I was accustomed to. Luckily they still fit and after I got completely dressed I grabbed the keys to the Rabbit and headed for the front door.
"Jacob, are you alright" Billy asked as he wheeled himself closer to me in the tiny living room.
"Yeah sure dad" was all I said. I wasn't sure how to break the news to dad as yet.
"You didn't come home last night, I was worried… with the Cullen's here and all" Billy said as he leaned forward in his wheel chair to look at me better.
"Don't worry about me dad I can take care of myself and I don't know if Leah has told you yet but we're not attacking the Cullen's" I stated as I moved to sit in the chair near Billy.
"You're not going to attack them?" Billy asked sceptically.
"No Billy, we're not going to attack…we can't now, not ever" I said with a smile crawling across my face. I was remembering my Renesmee and the way her hands felt on my fur. I wanted so much to feel them on me again.
"Not ever? How come Jacob?" Billy said shaking me out of the most wonderful memory in my life.
"Umm… well to be honest, I am… I imprinted! On the most beautiful girl I have ever seen Billy" I blurted out. If I could jump up and down and yell to the world that I imprinted on Renesmee Cullen, I would but I didn't want to ruin Billy's house.
"Jacob you imprinted, that's great son! Who is she? Does she live on the Rez?, Do I know her?" Billy asked almost as excited as me.
"Well…she doesn't live on the Rez and well… I don't know how to say this but she's … she's a Cullen" I said with a smile. But I soon saw Billy's face sink.
"Jacob, son… don't tell me you imprinted, on Bella… Jacob she's married, you can't…" Billy stated sadly. What was wrong with Billy? I just couldn't help it though and I started to laugh - he thought that I imprinted on Bella! Bella of all people.
"Jacob this is not funny, she's with Edward you need to get over her, she doesn't love you…" Billy said again.
"Billy, take it easy there, jeez" I said between chuckles "I didn't imprint on Bella I don't love her" I said still laughing.
Billy's expression changed again "You mean, not Bella? Then who did you imprint on Jacob?" Billy asked as that worried look came back slowly to his face.
"Well Billy you see, I was never meant to be with Bella, I know that now. We were meant to be in each other's life, yes, but not romantically." I explained to Billy.
"Then what are you saying…who did you imprint on if it's not Bella?" Billy asked looking more confused than ever.
"I imprinted on … Renesmee Cullen…Bella and Edward's daughter" I said with a smile. That's all it took to send me grinning like a fool, just to say her name or think of her, God I need to see Edward, he needs to read my mind and see that I would take care of her and treat her like the queen she really is and that I'm her soul mate and she is mine.
"You what!" Billy shouted, shaking me out of my thoughts.
"Yes Billy, I imprinted on their daughter" I repeated, what part of I imprinted didn't he get?
"I heard you the first time Jacob but, I mean how…. she has to be really young?" Billy asked.
I knew where this was going, and I didn't have time to explain everything to Billy right now. I could feel the pull of my imprint now stronger than ever and I wasn't going to ignore it. Wow I could recognise when she needed me! That's awesome! I thought at this new discovery.
"Billy I'll explain to you later, I have go now" I said as I rushed out the door.
I practically flew to the garage and jumped into the rabbit and I was off. I drove down to Port Angeles and I could feel the links tightening on my heart and pulling it so much stronger as I got closer.
I quickly drove into the parking lot of the hospital, turned off the ignition and hopped out. As soon as I got out of the rabbit I was hit by the scent of my Renesmee. My eyes darted around the area of the hospital compound and I saw her heading to a bench in the distance.
I was frozen for a moment taking in my imprint. She was so beautiful, she had on a pair of jeans that I must say were a little too tight – which means they were perfect and a jacket which looked amazing because her gorgeous tresses hung loosely over it.
But I was soon brought back to reality because my every instinct was telling me to go to her and comfort her. Was she sad? I thought as panic raced through me. I needed to make it okay, whatever it was I needed to be there for her. I slowly made my way over to where she was sitting and as I got closer I heard her sob.
"Renesmee" was all I said while I crumpled.
It was the worst feeling in the world to hear her cry it was as if someone was twisting, prodding and pulling at every part of my body. I needed to be there for her. I made my way around the bench and was right in front of her when she began to raise up. Her face was so red, her hair was sprawled across her face and I could see the tears flowing.
I felt as though a dagger had come out of nowhere and stabbed my heart with a force I had never known. The pain surging through me was almost crippling - I couldn't see her cry, I couldn't see her unhappy, I needed to make things better but I felt so helpless.
I saw her move her hand to wipe away her tears, and instinctively I stopped it with mine and my other hand rose on its own accord and wiped the sad tears away form her face. To touch her was magical; I couldn't believe that while it killed me to see her cry, I couldn't recover from the pleasure of touching her gorgeous face.
"Don't cry please, don't cry" was all that managed to come out. Please don't cry Renesmee Please I was begging in my mind. When suddenly I heard her heart start to beat faster then her body went limp, Shit! Luckily my reflexes were good and I caught her just before she hit the bench. What's wrong Renesmee? Tell me please was all I was thinking but my mouth refused to open.
Then in the midst of my own thoughts I heard her musical voice You are the shapeshifter aren't you?…you…you want to hurt me. Renesmee was talking to me through her mind? She thinks I want to hurt her? I realised now why her body went limp and her heart rate was so fast… she was afraid of me. I felt as though my heart was being ripped out of my body with that. I was hurt. I could barely move my mouth to let the words out but she needed to know that I wouldn't even think of hurting her.
"No, Renesmee…I would never–ever hurt you" I said which came of as a whisper I had to continue now before I couldn't talk anymore because I began to be so aware of how close we were and how good she smelt, but she was still afraid and she hadn't opened her eyes yet, I needed to see those beautiful eyes.
"I'm Jacob Black, please…open your eyes… you don't ever have to be afraid of me, I swear I would never hurt you" I said a little bit firmer now but before I could continue I heard her again 'Jacob…Jacob Black – the one my mom was telling me about, the leader of the Quileute tribe' I couldn't help it but the mere sound of her voice saying my name sent bullets of bliss shouting through me. My imprint knew me, she said my name. My heart soared.
"Yes Renesmee, that's me." I said with a smile on my face then I heard her again What's happening to me, I can't move, I can't open my eyes, I can't breathe, my heart is racing am I sick?
Wow she feels it too, doesn't she? I remember Sam telling me that Emily felt a connection too, he didn't know how strong she felt it but he knew she felt it because she told him and Quil with Clare, she just never wants to be away from him, even though she is twelve and doesn't know about the imprinting but she loves him like a brother. That thought made me even more ecstatic. Then I remembered that Renesmee was confused I had to let her know it was all going to be okay.
"You're not sick Renesmee" I said softly then I saw her eyelids flutter open and her dark brown eyes were staring right at me God she's perfect I thought. Then I heard her thoughts vaguely this time something about a portrait of beauty would have to be me. Wow I couldn't help but smile like a fool at that compliment - it meant the world to me especially coming from my imprint.
I suddenly felt her body go stiff; her face was full of embarrassment. Jacob you're a fucking idiot, you weren't meant to hear that thought, and when you did hear it you fucking laughed at her, fucking idiot. ThenI felt her try to move away from me, I started to panic again, I couldn't let her go now even if it was what she wanted, I had to let her know that I NEVER wanted her to feel embarrassed around me and I was the idiot for making her feel so.
"Renesmee I know you don't know me but, I don't want you to ever feel embarrassed around me, please" I said a little too firm it was very close to my alpha voice God Jacob scare her away now why don't yah, you fuck! I thought but then I heard her in my head again ''what are you doing here then Jacob if you don't want to hurt me?''
Hurt you, Hurt you….. God how am I going to convince her that I NEVER want to hurt her EVER! "I don't want to hurt you Renesmee" was all I could think of to say. Then I heard her tell me "You wanted to kill my family for turning my mom, -all my dad ever did was save her and you wanted to kill us for that" I turned to see her staring at me with those amazing eyes and I heard her heart beat start to go faster.
"Renesmee you feel it too…don't you?" I said as I turned my head to get a better look at her. if I feel it too? Did he feel the same way when we touched just now? Was all I heard, it made me feel happy to hear her confirm it. I was momentarily lost in those thoughts she just shared with me whether it was intentional or not, that was what I wanted more than anything else in the world, I was swelling with love for her.
"Yes I do Renesmee,I don't know how to say this but, I've felt this way ever since I've laid eyes on you for the very first time, you're so beautiful, I know that you felt something when I touched you, that's how this works Renesmee, we are two halves of a whole" I told her. I was going to do this, I know we only just formally met but I needed to let her know what she meant to me and explain what she was feeling.
"Two halves of a whole? What does that mean?" My sweet Renesmee said
I looked her right in the eye and said "Renesmee I need to tell you something very important, you might not understand it but, I'll be right here to explain whatever doesn't make sense… god what am I saying?" I didn't know how to form the words, I never even thought about how to tell someone that you imprinted on them and that they were yours and you were theirs – forever. What if she thinks I'm tricking her, I don't know what the other Cullen's have told her about me, especially Blondie.
I was getting too flustered, I needed to think, I took my one hand and ran it through my hair but then I felt her body rise up and she came closer to me. Her perfect chest was now touching mine. With that one moment I almost lost it, desire and love rose up so strong in me as if there was an internal warfare going on between rational Jacob and wolf Jacob. She felt so good next to me. My breathing got harder and I felt my body temperature rise. All I could think of was her perfect breasts touching my chest, her lips so full and right there in front of me and he scent was the icing on the cake. How could I resist her? I groaned unintentionally, she was so fucking sexy and she doesn't even know what she just did to me.
I brought my hand to her face, I needed to feel her lips on mine, she was my imprint, mine just mine and I needed her so bad. I placed my hand under her chin and let my dominance take me over; I slowly led her lips to mine. I heard her heart pounding and so was mine. Our lips met and I was immediately ignited with the flames of passion, desire and love. Her lips were a perfect fit, she was warm too and I needed to taste them like I needed air to breathe I drew her bottom lip in and let my tongue trace it lightly and I was jolted into ecstasy…. she tasted like everything I have ever liked or loved perfectly blended together in an elixir of euphoria.
I lost the battle with wolf Jacob and my instincts wanted to more than just a kiss her now. I needed to stop before I didn't have the strength to. I reluctantly pulled away but as I did so I felt her rise with me but when she couldn't reach any further our lips parted. I was gasping for breath by now She liked me kissing her was all I kept thinking as I tried to calm myself. I loved her so much I couldn't hold it in.
"I love you Renesmee" I said through my ragged breaths. Then I heard her heart stop beating. I looked at her and she looked frozen.
"What's wrong Renesmee?" I asked her as I began to get worried. What was happening? I placed my arms around her, but as I did that Renesmee collapsed. I didn't understand what happened. I was about to lift her up and carry her to Carlisle who I knew was in the hospital – I could smell it.
But before I could move I heard someone shout "Renesmee!" and then before I knew it I was struck hard and was sent flying across to the trees. I hit a rather large tree and I felt my bones as they cracked. I yelped in pain and I was gasping now but all I could think of was Renesmee. I looked up and I saw the same fucker with the heartbeat walking towards me as Edward and Bella went to Renesmee's side.
I was going to kill this fucking half vamp. I got up off of the ground and I could feel my bones healing themselves. I was ready for him now my body was vibrating with anger. I was about to phase and take this leech down once and for all.
"No Jacob! You can't do that, not here in public, not like this. He is one of us, he's Renesmee's mate – A Cullen!" Edward shouted.
This time it was me who froze.
A/N: Ok I have no spine which means no back bone lol which mean yep..... that's what it means...I'm begging again..... But this time I'm fanning you with a palm leaf while you sip pina coladas that I made especially for you!! So please review!!
