"you finally got that out of your system didn't you…I never knew you didn't forgive him…..ummmm.." Jacob said.
"ya….I think im gunna take a run…. Seth, Jake, wanna join me?" I inquired.
"SURE!" seth practically screamed, Jake and I just shook our heads and laughed.
"I guess." Jake replied.
"lets go." I said smiling.
We all ran outside, stripped and phased. I was first and was bombarded by a boatload of questions like 'when did you start feeling the way you do about Edward?' and 'why did you just now let all of that out?'
"well guys, I was just waiting for the right time….I knew that I felt that way, I just…never let it out until I thought the time was right" I said rather thoughtfully.
"wow." was all that they could say. I decided I wanted some alone time with seth… I mean since I became Alpha…all I have had time for was pack stuff. I mean we hardly ever get any alone time!
"oh great….first… I loose my best friend and sister….next she just ditches me…..LOVE YOU TO SIS! so much for family ties!"
"I love you jake but I ain't had no time to spend with seth!" I said. He just nodded his big wolfy head then phased back…. As he walked away I could hear him grumbling something about how nobody loves him….and it was soooo freaking hilarious! Me and seth just broke out laughing!
"WOW!:" exclaimed seth. "I know right…." I said. "you know we haven't spent much time together since the whole alpha thing…..it sucks…."
Me and seth spent then next 6 hours just romping around playing….. "ugh….why does summer break have to end?" said seth.
"well just be glad we don't have to start as early as the younger kids." I said in a 'duh' tone.
"hey, you know what I just realized?" said seth. "what?"
"I haven't seen sunny for a while"
"well that's because I didn't tell anybody but sunny kind of found a pack….of REAL wolves…I decided it would be better for him…"
"oh….I'm gunna miss the little guy….hey can you still talk to him through that link thingy?"
"ya. But he has to let me though"
"oh."
Just then we heard a scream from inside the house when we ran inside we found Emily laying on the ground With her wrists slit bearly breathing and a not beside her that read
Dear everyone,
I decided I couldn't take it anymore….now it seemed that all everyone cared about was the sake of the pack….I was just a little human who was in the way….I don't have the strength like Kim does to go through this…. I'm sorry but every time I tried to help I was just pushed out of the way and told that I couldn't do anything…Sam I love you but the only time we had together was when you came home from patrol and even then sometimes you would get interrupted by one of the other wolves howling and needing you….I understand that and that's why that reason didn't cound I know that you would have done anything and you would have even stopped phasing if I would have asked you to but I didn't because I knew that you loved being a wolf… Bella and Leah I thank you both for all your help ,especially you leah you got over what happened to you and forgave me and tried to help but in the end it just wasn't enough…..Quill and Embry…..well lets just hope that yall can stop trying to pick a fight or gamble long enough to miss me. You guys are the kids that I never had the time to have. You got on my nerves…but I couldn't have loved you anymore if you were my blood… brady and Collin I hadn't had much time with you guys but I can tell right now that you can hold your own. You have the guys to stand up for u but you really don't need them. Seth. You are VERY special but I love you because of it! But you need to learn to stick up for your self and not put up with the crap that they guys give you. Jared. Well I have nothing to say….besides I loved you like a brother….. Paul. You…..well….theres no words to describe you. But I will try. Your temper gets the best of you sometimes but you care about your family and your pack. that's something I admire about you. You even if you were mad at that person if some body said something about them you would stick up for them. I hope that you find your imprint someday…and hopefully she can take the pain better than I did. I for my sake hope that I do not make it…..I love all of you guys so much but as I said multiple times I just cant take it anymore.
-Emily
Sam was so distraught it was hard for all of us to even think.. Thank god that seth had thought to call 911 otherwise…. Well I couldn't even think about that. We all loved emily and hoped that she would be allright and as me and jake phased to pick up patrol(yes even after this happened I am making them do patrol)
And as soon as we were both running we both had a guilt on our minds….we couldn't help but feel responsible for it…. I mean it might have been me or jake on time that called sam away from emily.. The other thing we had in common in that moment was wondering if emily would be ok or not….. I pray to god that she is….
Hey guys I hope that you liked my chapter I am not promoting suicide! Lets just get that straight…. I know that it happenes but it is a tragaty and you can always get over the guy like bella did or whatever happened you can go ahead and be urself wit out bein deprssd and crap… anyway review if you liked my chapter! :p
