Chapter 12:
(A/N: Mild profanity in this chapter. Enjoy.)
Adriana's POV:
What the hell? Where did that person come from? Was that the Luke he has always been or the Luke he was becoming? It didn't make sense/ Luke is kind, smart, funny, and overall a good guy. He can't think like this. It has to be wrong. Adrian doesn't like him for another reason and has to be making this up. I need Adrian to be lying. But Luke wasn't denying it. He wasn't really talking, he just glared at Adrian. It was quiet, extremely quiet, for a long time after that everybody wanting to hear my reaction. As the rest of dinner went I couldn't think. Everything I had known does not add up to what I have heard, so I stayed quiet, erry quiet.
After the dishes where done I leave both men standing there, waiting. I couldn't deal with them. I ran to my dorm and practically kicked down the door till I was in the safety of my bed. There was so many emotions going through my body; I wanted to scream, cry, yell, deny, and so much more. I was tired yet my brain was keeping me awake with all the words that where said, most importantly: Kill Sydney. She is my mother, how could many body want to kill her? She is kind and amazing. I want to go home. I want to see my mom and tell her I am sorry for being a brat growing up. Those words made me realize that she could die; she wasn't immortal and I completely lost it when that light bulb went off. Crawlingly out of bed, sobbing, I finally reach my computer to find a note, perfect in every way. My blood froze, my tears stopped, I couldn't feel anything. If you came in the room and shot me I could still be sitting in the same spot with the same terrifived expression. I could leave the note; I didn't need to see what it said. I thought about that hard but decided it was better to know than not to know. Picking up the note, with shaking hands, felt like the hardest thing to do. But the words on the paper made me realize that this was just the beginning.
Lies and Secrets fill your life.
Lies and Secrets will hide you right.
Lies and Secrets will destroy the night.
Lies and Secrets will bring you to me.
Lies and Secrets shall kill you at last.
The person writing this got one thing right, my life was filled with lies and secrets. Staring at this note I got angry, no livid. I was livid at the note, at Adrian, and at Luke. Everyone has kept things from me and I refused to let that keep happening. If they wanted to be in my life then there needed to be honesty. I am fine being alone I have been most of my life, but I refuse to let lies and secrets kill me. If this person wanted me then I sure as hell was going to put up a fight. Grabbing the note and my journal I head out of the dorm and into the woods.
"If you want a fight, I will burn you to the ground." I scream in the middle of the woods. No one was around but even if there were people I couldn't have cared; I was in my own little world. I threw my journal and note on the ground. My journal pretty much held all my secrets, I didn't doubt the person from reading it while they were in my room, and I was done with secrets. I refused to believe someone would kill me. Stared at the small pile of crap before, it burst into a roaring fire. I know I shouldn't use old magic especially elemental magic, but I stopped caring about was proper and expected when I found that note. Someone was after me and I know for a fact they were not playing the rules. I watch as the fire consumes the objects; it licks and bites at the papers before they give in like always. Fire had power over paper, which was simple to remember. Watching the fire I saw just why fire ruled over paper. Fire was at the core stronger and more evil than paper. Something that is willing and eager to kill will always beat out something that isn't.
"Shhh!" I hear. I speed up the fire till in a blink of an eye all that is left is a pile of ash and hide behind a tree. The voice belongs to a girl, she isn't drunk not in the slightest, but she is crazy. "Go away! I don't want to go with you." Defiantly crazy but there was something else. Spirit, I realize. The 'darkness' is too much for her. I wouldn't put it past her if she killed herself in this state. "Please! Leave me alone" She sounds desperate. I could be too. That can't be a pleasant thing to endure. She seems so helpless. I wonder… I reveal myself to her and at first she is shocked to see a witch but then she looks grateful.
"You have to help me. The dark spirits are after me." That's a new one. "I can't find the person who did it before. He or maybe she I ..." She trailed off looking hopeless. I was still livid but this girl I couldn't be mad at.
"Was this person a witch?" She nods her head like a crazy person. I have to hold it still so her head doesn't snap off and roll anyway. As soon as I touch her I feel it. It was a great power yet it was also something else, I couldn't put my finger on it. Dark magic – which was basically what I was trying to attempt now- was way past forbidden. If someone found out I could be in jail or worse dead. Looking into this helpless girl's eyes I knew I had no choice. I used spirit magic to see her pure black aura. I didn't know what to do. Was the thing inside of her just darkness or was it the dark spirits she can called them. Staring at them I knew both where wrong. It wasn't just plain darkness or dark spirits, it was death. It was the original witches of the Light had cursed the Moroi with out of grief. It was a slow and painful death. When I realized that, it was easy to remove that from her.
"Tempero mortuis" I said once with authority. It didn't take death to forever to respond. Somehow Death recognized me and obeyed. Death left her quickly and with a purpose and was standing right in front of me. The girl ran in the opposite direction as soon as she felt it was gone. I couldn't blame her. Death is crazy tall, 7 feet tall to be exact, death was a man and he is built. I guess making people crazy is a workout. He doesn't have really outstanding features. He looks like your average person only he is a dark purple/grey color. What did I just do?
"Yes, Adriana." That was creepy. I mean making Death leave a person wasn't that bad but being on a first name basis with it, yeah that didn't sit well with me.
"How do you know me?" I ask. I don't think I have died in recent years. I was trying to remain calm and collected but doing that was starting to get hard. Death realized this and knelt in front of me like I was a princess. Maybe I was, cool. Kneeling he was at eye level with me. Those eyes. They where bright purple and had all these shapes in them. I swear I have seen those eyes before but I just can't place it.
"I knew you from a very long time ago; We where friends and I was called on to be your protector. I wouldn't think you still remembered it but I am sworn to answer to you no matter what." This was beyond creepy yet slightly comforting.
"I was told a story a long time ago that dark magic was forbidden. It's that what you are just dark magic?" He smiled at me; A full on bright shinny smile.
"Of course they would tell you that dark magic is forbidden. Most witches can't even do elemental magic let alone dark magic." He was getting off subject. "But to answer your question, I possess the dark magic. It is powerful and sometimes uncontrollable but you have used it before and if you think about it, I'm sure you can remember how to." With that he was gone. Great. So now on top of EVERYTHING in my life I had to worry about dark magic. It was at times like these I wished to be a full human with no supernatural abilities. Life would be so much easier.
The walk back to campus was much shorter than when I was trying to get away from campus. I was mentally and emotionally drained. Physically I could run 200 miles and not be tired. Talking to Death had given me new found energy. But Adrian and Luke where still on my mind. I was hoping I could get my room before I bumped into either one of them and screamed my head off. I wanted to put it all behind me but two words kept coming to my mind: Kill Sydney. It was torturous to say the least. I could see the dorms now and I started to smile. Yes, I did it. But it was too soon for celebration because who stepped into my view just then: Luke! Mother fucker! Could tonight get any worse?
"Adriana –"I cut him off.
"Don't say you are sorry. I won't believe you." That came out calm. Weird. "Do you see me that way? Do you want to kill me?" One point for me for not crying as I asked that.
"No, never you're different." He looked censure but if he only knew that not even ten minutes ago I was talking to Death and doing elemental magic. Would he still think the same if he knew? I decided he wouldn't.
"How am I different?" This should be good.
"You're different because you never use your magic. You're practically full, normal human." That is when I lost it. I took a step forward before unleashing my wrath.
"I am not normal. I am a witch who just happens to be one fourth Moroi. I can do things with magic that would probably make you want to see me dead. I know things that would get me killed. If you want a 'normal' human as a friend go to any town and try to convince one you're not evil when you tell them you are half vampire." Then something changed within me. I felt more power than ever before and I was going to use every drop of it. "You will leave me alone. You will not even think about me. If you do think of me you will be in the worst physical pain of your entire life. Do you understand? You will never talk about me or my family. My mother is an amazing woman and all she has ever done was try to protect me. How dare you say that you want to kill her? My mother's name will not even cross your lips. I will never forgive you for what you have said. Those kinds of words ruin relationships and are just plain mean! I have seen who you really are, and you are an evil person." I was staring at him but he wasn't really staring at me. He looked like he was in a trance or under a spell. Crap what did I do? Looking into his eyes I see it. They aren't the same anymore they have a deep purple color around the outside. Quickly looking around I can't see Death. I must have done this. I step away from him not knowing whether to run away from what I had just done for if I should embrace it. I chose run. That kind of dark power is unnatural. That's evil. Maybe I was the evil one. At this moment the lines between what is good and evil had become too many shades of grey.
I started to walk away from him, hoping his trance would last until I made it to my dorms. No such luck.
"Does that include Adrian too?" I turn to face him. What was he talking about? "You said never to talk about you or your family and I wanted to know if you included Adrian, since he is your father and all."
"Adrian is not my dad!" I scream at him.
He just laughs at me "You are lying to yourself if you think that. For God's sake you have the same eyes. Not similar eyes but exactly the same color, size, and shape. You even act like him. He used to be a party boy who left the whole world revolved around him. That sounds an awful lot like you." He was angry and bitter. All of his words where laced with venom. "You both love to paint, and have the same sense of humor. Just open your eyes you little bitc-". I cut him off.
"Adrian is not my father; if he was he would have told me. Adrian and I are honest with each other. I know that's not something you really understand but some people still tell the truth. Adrian is a great friend to me and is like a father to me but ISN'T my father. Do you understand or should I repeat it slower for you?" That was low but he makes me so angry. If Adrian was my dad he would have told me. He always said my mom was his best friend. There is nothing romantic between best friends. He was just trying to make me hate Adrian. Trying to make what he did less bad. "And if you ever try to make what you did less bad, I will kill you." I was not kidding. He didn't look afraid so I made him. With one look he turned purple, all his air was gone. He fell to the ground reaching – literally for air- but it couldn't come. He looked at me with pleading eyes trying to make me stop. I didn't want to. I needed him to suffer. I wanted him to suffer. I made him blind and took away all sense of hope, love, and warmth. He was going to die a slow, painful, death… Death! I look around frankly but I don't see him. What was I doing? I couldn't stop. I was going to kill. Someone help me! Then I felt his hand on mind. Turning I saw it was Death. He looked conserved but like he understood what I was going through at this moment. Looking at him I felt calm, and not like a killer. I could release all the anger I was feeling. It took me a minute before I realized that Death was actually taking away all the dark feelings. After that, I blacked out.
A/N: This is for all the amazing reviews I got! I woke up early to right this for you. The reviews keep me going. Also this story wasn't supposed to be this dark. It has taken on its own life. So tell me what you think. Yes there will be happy fun moments but also a lot of darkness. PS it is turning into a long story – which I personally like- but I am story if you don't. Remember if you want faster updates all you have to do is REVIEW.
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