"Ash what are we doing?" John asked me as I dragged him into a bowling alley.

"We are bowling" I replied paying for the rental shoes.

"I get that but why?" he asked.

"Because how often do we get a night off and we used to love bowling" I figured that if it couldn't help him remember then at least we could have some fun with it.

"No using your powers to cheat" he whispered to me with a small grin.

"You are the cheater not me" I stuck my tongue out at him.

"No, if I remember correctly Lucas was the cheater and you guys always went along with it because Lucas seemed to always have dirt on you and Addie" his grin got broader.

"I refuse to confirm or deny that statement"

"Come on you know it's true"

"Fine" I laughed a little. It was nice having John remember some things about his life. It gave the both of us hope that he would be able to regain his memory back over time. He remembered small things as of right now. He remembered seeing Boston for the first time and that Christmas where he broke my heart and the talk we exchanged after my father's funeral.

"This is nice." He said taking a sip of his beer. I began laughing at little at his expense. He gave me a questioning look. "What?"

"I just remember the first time you ever tried to drink beer and you began choking and your face was all red. You were eight at the time. Your grandfather let you have a sip of his." He closed his eyes as if he was trying to picture it.

"Gettin nothing." He frowned. I knew it was very frustrating for him not to be able to remember his past. I felt horrible for him. It was my fault that he had lost his whole life. If I had just left him alone then none of this would have happened. He must have noticed my sudden depression because his face became concerned. "What's the matter?" He asked.

"Everything is my fault. I am the reason you cannot remember your life. I am the reason the whole world thinks that you and the kids are dead. I should have left well enough alone but being without you hurt too much. You are the only man I have ever truly loved and I guess I was being selfish."

"Everyone has the right to be happy Ashley. If I had just manned up when you told me about Boston maybe you'd still be alive too. I can't remember those exact moments in time but I know I must have hurt you very badly. Maybe it is better this way, if I cannot remember hurting you then I cannot feel the guilt that went along with it."

"So you aren't mad at me?" I asked a little surprised. "Knowing that I wrecked your whole life."

"You are the only life line I have to this world. Without you I would know nothing and I would be alone with those children. I wouldn't have been able to survive without you."

"Sometimes I have no idea why you aren't furious with me." I stated.

"There is no use in worrying about what has already been done. The best thing is to try and make the best out of what you have and that is what I intend on doing." He took another swig out of his beer. "Like I said before we will get through all of this as long as we stick together."

"You are right I guess." But part of me just couldn't believe him. I saw bad things coming in the future and all I could really do was brace myself and wait.