Someone's Watching Over Me

I was finally coming back to Degrassi Community School. Seeing Rick on the news like that as some psycho shooter really freaked me out and I had taken more time off. Counseling was supposed to help, but I wasn't sure that it had made any difference in my life.

I found myself today

Yet, I was ready to make a new journey, so I thought. But looking at the hallways made it so real. Too real and when I saw Jimmy, I personally felt responsible. I should've been there to warn him and all of them.

Oh I found myself and ran away

"Hey Terri!" He smiled at me as Paige, Hazel, Marco, and Craig all smiled at me as if expecting something.

"I- I can't you guys." I ran off to the nearest bathroom, finding myself on the very hallway where it happened, wishing that I could've somehow stopped it.

Although the shooting was really bothering me, I was more afraid of what everyone would think and of my return. I started to sneak out of the bathroom window, but the morning sun caught my eye.

But something held me back

My mother used to always wake me up early enough just to see the earth drift between nighttime and daytime. Sunrises and sunsets. She used to paint them too and tell me little stories about how my grandfather was up there and how we would all be up their together.

The voice of reason I forgot I had.

But she lied. When she told me those stories, she didn't tell me that I'd spend my entire childhood motherless.

All I know is you're not here to say, what you always used to say and it's written in the sky tonight.

A tear slipped from my eye as I went to the sink to wash my face, but more and more started to come. I didn't know why it still made me this sad to think about my mom because she always made me happy. I knew she wouldn't ever want me to feel this way and she would be heart-broken if she knew that I was still taking her death this harshly.

So I won't give up.

"Terri, are you okay?" Hazel and Ashley rushed into the bathroom. They both saw me crying and tried to get me to open up.

"It's my fault." I whispered as they assured me that it wasn't.

"No one knew that was going to happen. And it wasn't your fault. It was Spinner's." Hazel's expression became filled with wrath before it went back to sympathy. "I know it's hard seeing him like that because we've all gone through it."

No I won't break down.

"Yeah, Terri. We're go glad that you're back and we're going to be here for you no matter what happens. You're our best friend." Ashley added as my tears turned into a smile.

Sooner than it seems life turns around.

"You guys …" We all gave each other a big hug as I took one last look at the sun, thinking of my mom.

And I will be strong even if it all goes wrong.

She wouldn't want me to feel like this. Because she wasn't gone. I still had her in my memories, in the sunshine and sunset, and even when I looked at myself, I saw her.

When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe, someone's watching over me.

(A/N: This wasn't one of my best chapters, but I really like this song. It's so inspirational and no one ever writes or talks about Terri anymore, so I just decided to pretend like the Degrassi writers didn't write her out of the cast. … it's a good song and it called Someone's Watching Over Me. Make sure to review. Because a new character is coming up next and I know you guys want to get to Emma! –NL)