I was standing there in front of Alec, I couldn't move I knew I was in trouble there was a look in his eyes that I couldn't shake. I wanted Jake to be here to protect me but I was alone. It was just me and Alec and there was nothing I could do now. "Nessie, I lied I was using you. I needed to get close to you to see how much damage you could do to the Volturi. They sent me here to go undercover to learn everything that you do and how you interact around humans. I see now that you are no danger to the Volturi, you could never harm us." Why was he saying these things? I thought he cared for me that he wanted to get to know me, now I wasn't sure what he wanted. "You are horrible Alec, you deserve whatever comes to you and your coven. You think I am some weak girl but you are so wrong." I was getting pissed now, I could do some damage if I wanted too. I went to leave I wasn't going to let him talk to me in this way, he meant nothing to me. He was just going to be another jerk in a long line of them. "Can't handle what I have to say? How do you expect to make it in this world? I guess you will always rely on that pathetic family of yours to defend you and keep you safe." "You have no control over me and anything I can and can't do. I won't let you talk to me about my family like they are nothing. My family is everything." That was when Alec lunged towards me I knew this was going to be the end for me. There would be no way that I would make it through this. Alec was on top of me holding me down. I was trying to fit him off but I didn't have the strength to get him off.
I woke up in a sweat. I shot right up in bed. I should have never talked to Alec before going to bed. I could only figure out that I why I had that awful dream. I wanted to believe that Alec wouldn't really say those horrible things. I looked at my phone it was the afternoon now it seemed like everyone was still sleeping though. We were up late but I figured everyone would be awake by now. I grabbed my phone and put on some sweats and grabbed a hoodie and decided I would go out for a run. I needed to get away and just be able to think without anyone telling me what to believe. I knew that I would be able to just clear everything out and just burn everything out of me. It rarely happened but when it did I enjoyed being able to get away from everything going on. I put my head phones on and started my play list and then took off. I didn't have a set route but I just planned on going until I couldn't anymore.
I had been running for two hours before I finally stopped and took a break. I ended up running to the local park. I sat on a bench to catch my breath, I loved the feeling that I got after a good work out. I just sat back and watched the pond with all the birds swimming. The park was peaceful, not many people were there which made it nice. I just sat there listening to my music, I liked getting lost in time. I jumped when I felt someone touch me. I didn't hear or feel anyone come and sit next to me. When I looked next to me I tried hard to not run away. I pulled my earbuds out. "Nessie please listen to me. I am sorry for how you found out. I need to make things right between us." I didn't say anything, I wasn't going to forgive him easily. I wanted him to show me how much he truly felt unless I made him work for it a little. I knew my dream was all in my head. I did get to know him over the last few months and he would never say those things to me. "Nessie please don't do this to me. I feel horrible that I never told you. I just didn't want this to happen, I wanted to keep talking to you no matter what." I still didn't give in to talking to him. I couldn't fully trust him yet. "I really thought we hit it off last night. How can we go from talking all the time to not talking at all? Can you honestly look me in the eyes and tell me you want me gone?" I knew he was challenging me but I wasn't sure I wanted to cave. I had given in so many times before with other guys who in the end just betrayed me over and over. I looked him in the eyes for the first time since I found out who he was, I couldn't be mad anymore. I could see how upset he was and that he had suffered enough. "No I don't want you gone but I can't be hurt anymore. I have been hurt too much in the past and I always gave in and trusted them again." I hated how he could get me to open up to him without ever having to try. "Alec you don't understand, I have been told my whole life that I needed to have an escape plan in case you came back to kill me. I did nothing to you and you wanted to kill me. I could never get how a group of people to come to the conclusion that they would kill a child because of the harm she could do." It took everything in me to not run away but to stay there and go against him.
He was taking deep breaths almost as a way to calm himself down. "Nessie, I had no choice back then. I did what they told me to do. I didn't go against them. I finally decided that I wanted to get away from that life five years ago. That was when I came over here and started looking into colleges. When I got a college that I enjoyed I signed up and applied and got in here. That was when I decided to take charge and live the life I wanted to live. I know you may think none of this is true but I would never lie to you." I just shook my head, here I was blaming him for something he had no control of. I was blaming him for something just like they blamed me without knowing the whole truth. I felt horrible now, how could I tell him to do something when I wasn't doing it. "Nessie please don't give up. I believe we can do great things together." "Alec I wasn't shaking my head because of what you said. I just was realizing that I was treating you how you treated me all those years ago. I should know better than to treat someone like that." "Don't get me wrong I am not perfect so you have every right to be mad at me hiding the truth but don't give up just yet on me. I want to prove to you that I will be heading in the right direction to show you." I was glad that he didn't give up and just let me be alone. By getting to talk to him I was able to see where he was coming from. I knew that it would be hard to get through some things that would come by being friends but I was ready to go through those risks to see what the outcome would be.
