(A/N): Ryuichi and Shuichi's relationship just keeps getting better and better! They are getting closer each and every day! Yuki better hurry along and push his way into the middle of it before things get a little too serious between Shu and Ryu...But that can only happen if I have your votes! I thank all of you who have already voted. They have helped a great deal. So, who shall it be? Ryu&Shu or Yuki&Shu?
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation.
Italicized words are songs. The only song that will be on here is a song that Shuichi sings. The song is It Ends Tonight by The All-American Rejects.
Chapter 12:
Shuichi woke up to bright lights and six pairs of eyes surrounding him. After his eyes adjusted to the light he saw that the eyes he saw around him were none other than the eyes of Ryuichi, Hiro, Suguru, K, Sakano, and Tohma.
"Wha-what are you guys doing here? WHAT AM I DOING IN THE HOSPITAL?!" He winced. Yelling hurt...a lot.
"Relax, Shu-chan. You have a bruised chest, so don't do anything sudden." Ryuichi said taking Shuichi's hand and rubbing it to comfort him.
Shuichi looked at his boyfriend, who was sadly looking back at him.
"Tatsuha attacked me." he whispered.
Ryuichi looked at the floor fighting back his tears. "It's all my fault."
"Don't say that, Sakuma-san." Hiro said putting his hand on Ryuichi's shoulder.
K and Tohma joined Hiro in placing a hand on Ryuichi's shoulder, which only seemed to cause more damage, because he could no longer hold back his tears.
"You don't understand..." he whispered. "If it wasn't for me..."
Shuichi squeezed Ryuichi's hand. Ryuichi didn't want to look at him because he felt guilty seeing him lying in the hospital bed, wishing he could trade spaces with his pink-haired boyfriend, but he did nonetheless only to see Shuichi equally as sad as he was. The two stared into each others eyes; everyone else seemed to fade away.
Hiro put his arm around Suguru's waist and kissed the top of his head, aching for his best friend, and thanking Buddah that he was alive. Suguru wrapped both his arms around Hiro's waist and laid his head on his shoulder, also aching for his bandmate. Everyone was aching for the couple, Tohma included.
"I think it is best if we leave these two alone." K said ushering everyone out.
Hiro squeezed Shuichi's shoulder, making him avert his gaze from Ryuichi. "We'll be back later, bud. Hang in there."
Shuichi smiled lightly at his best friend and nodded. Hiro and Suguru left, Sakano following after telling Shuichi to take it easy, K behind him with a nod. Tohma stayed behind. He approached the bed, his eyes closed, head bent slightly, as if in deep thought.
"I have phoned Mika and told her what happened. She said Tatsuha was nowhere to be found."
Ryiuchi looked back down to the floor.
"Eiri-san wouldn't answer his phone when I tried at his home."
"I told him after it happened." Ryuichi said in a deep, sad voice. "He was the first person I called. He was the one who told me to call an ambulance, and that he would meet me back here after he took care of some business."
"Business? What kind of business?"
"I don't know. I didn't ask. He sounded mad, though."
Tohma put his hand to his chin, his eyebrows furrowed, deep in thought. "This doesn't pose well."
Shuichi looked up at Tohma, fear in his eyes.
"What doesn't pose well?" he whispered, it hurt to talk.
Tohma looked back at him. He wore no innocent, fake smile this time. Instead, he looked serious, almost frightened. Shuichi felt a shiver run down his spine.
"Let's just say that Tatsuha needs to hide well." Tohma stood and walked to the door. "Take it easy, Shindo-san. I am sure you can come up with some good lyrics while you are sitting bored in here."
"Where are you going, Tohma?" Ryuichi asked.
"To find Eiri-san before he does something he regrets." Tohma answered after a moment of silence.
He left, shutting the door behind him. Shuichi, ignoring the painful throbs in his ribs, sat up. Ryuichi jumped at him and tried to make him lay back, but Shuichi refused.
"Shu-chan..please...this is hard enough as it is. I don't want to see you in pain." Ryuichi said with tearfilled eyes.
Shuichi was suprised at Ryuichi's behavior. He wasn't his usual childish self, yet he wasn't his completely serious side either. He was stuck in the middle, not knowing where to go. He squeezed the older man's hand.
"Please don't blame yourself, Ryu. It's not just your fault, but mine, too. We both knew that Tatsuha liked you..so we both have to take the responsibility. Tatsuha came after me because I'm the closest one to him, and because he would never try to hurt you."
"I know." Ryuichi replied. "I tried to get him to hit me, take out his anger on me, but he wouldn't do it. He just backed off."
Ryuichi sat in a chair beside the bed. He held on to Shuichi's hand that looked so fragile.
"Are things going to be different now? Between us, I mean?"
"What do you mean?"
"Is this only going to push us away from each other, or make us closer? I need to know, Shu...because I don't want to lose you."
Shuichi, heart-warmed by Ryuichi's statement, smiled at him with teary eyes. He laced his fingers with Ryuichi's.
"Well, Ryu-chan. Things will be different." he replied. "But, for the better."
Ryuichi smiled back at him. "Good."
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Tatsuha felt his back being slammed against a brick wall. Pain coursed through his body as the shock ran down from his head to his toes. Yuki clutched the collar of his shirt tightly, angry eyes glaring into his own.
"Aniki..."
"I told you to leave him alone, Tatsuha." Yuki said in a low, threatening voice.
"Eiri, I'm sorry...I.."
"Don't give me excuses! You just had to go off and be the hard-headed bastard you are! And what's worse is that you HURT Shuichi! You blamed him for the most RIDICULOUS thing! So what if got with Ryuichi!! So fucking what!!! It was HIS decision and RYUICHI'S decision! BOTH! TOGETHER! GET IT?!"
Tatsuha glared at Yuki. "But, he knew..."
Yuki raised his fist at his brother, eyes burning with fiery anger. "Will you stop thinking about yourself all the damn time?! Have you ever thought that Shuichi wanted comfort, huh? Ever thought of that?! Maybe he feels more secure? Who knows! All I know is that Ryuichi is treating him MUCH better than I ever have! You should just accept that fact that you and Ryuichi WILL NEVER HAPPEN! If he had feelings for you, he would be with YOU! But, he's not! DEAL WITH IT, GROW UP AND MOVE ON!"
Tatsuha felt the sting of Yuki's words, and a flashback of Shuichi and Ryuichi in the park when Ryuichi told Shuichi that he wasn't attracted to him (Tatsuha) in that way.
"Not going to say anything, Tatsuha? Did I strike a nerve?!"
Tatsuha yanked Yuki's hand off his shirt and pushed him back. "Who are you to tell me what's right? Huh? You were the one who cheated on Shuichi? How would you know what's best for him? How would you know about loving him?"
Yuki's eyes got wide and he stared at his brother. He was right...
SMACK!
Yuki smacked his brother across the face.
"I would know because he is happy..I would know because, even though it took a while to realize it...I do love him..." he said in a low, sad voice. "Don't you ever, ever contradict that."
Tatsuha stood in shock, his hand on his cheek, staring at his brother with wide eyes. He never thought or expected Yuki to really hit him.
"He's better off without me." Yuki turned his back to Tatsuha. "But, don't you ever lay another finger on him."
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"Eiri-san!" Tohma said in distain seeing Yuki approaching his apartment. "I have been looking everywhere for you."
Yuki grunted. He really wasn't in the mood to talk right now. Ever since he left Tatsuha he couldn't get Shuichi off his mind. He wanted nothing more than to get a ton of booze in his system and pass out...and hope to never wake up again.
"Eiri-san, please tell me you didn't hurt Tatsuha."
"He's fine. Now leave me alone, Tohma, I am really not in the mood."
Tohma opened his mouth to say something but had Yuki's front door slammed in his face.
"Eiri-san.." he said lightly, knowing Yuki wasn't listening, though he (Yuki) was leaning against the door, every word escaping Tohma's mouth heard, "you can't go on like this. Let Shindo-san go. He's happy. Hikaru is what's best for you now."
Tohma left feeling as if he accomplished nothing. Yuki, on the other hand, fell to the floor, refusing to let the tears escape.
"You just don't understand, Tohma...I can't let him go, I won't let him go...I won't be satisfied until I have him back. Hikaru, I'm sorry. But, I can't help it."
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Tohma took out his cell phone and dialed Hikaru's number.
"Hikaru-san, please come to Eiri-san's. He is in need of you."
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Yuki put his head in his hands, the tears he had been holding back now flowing freely down his face.
"Hikaru, please forgive me...I never realized how much I like that brat...God, I am such a horrible person! Shuichi, please just leave me alone! Someone make me stop thinking about you!"
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"Hey, Ryu-chan...hand me the keyboard."
It had been two days, Shuichi was now out of the hospital. He was much better, and his bruises were going away. He had been trying to spend every moment he could with Ryuichi just to keep his mind off of Yuki. He didn't want to think about Yuki..he promised Yuki he would love Ryuichi like he had love him. He promised. It was hard, but he was trying.
"Sure thing. Why? You going to play me a song?" Ryuichi giggled, taking the keyboard from the closet in his room and taking it to Shuichi who was sitting on his bed.
"Yes, actually. It's a song I heard not too long ago, and I just now learned how to play it, and I want to see what you think."
"Okay, Shu-chan, lemme hear it."
Shuichi wouldn't tell Ryuichi this, but this song reminded him fully of Yuki and what he used to say to him back when they were together. As much as it depressed him, he listened to it all the time, just so he could have clear mental images of Yuki, and so he could miss him more and more..
Your subtelties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all
The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe, it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
It ends tonight
A falling star
At least I fall alone
I can't explain what you can't explain
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such distain
The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
It ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight
It ends tonight
Now, I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know
When darkness
turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a
little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It
ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends
tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this
right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends
tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It
ends tonight.
"That's beautiful Shu..."
Shuichi looked down at his lap.
"Thanks."
Ryuichi cocked his head to the side and stared at Shuichi. He knew exactly who Shuichi was talking about in the song. He knew good and well. Shuichi was still not over Yuki. Ryuichi walked about the room, not wanting Shuichi to see that he was about to have a relapse.
He ran to the bathroom and locked the door. He looked at Kumagoro and clutched him tightly.
"I don't know what to do anymore, Kuma-kun. His heart is still with Eiri-san... There's no room for me, is there?"
Shuichi had his ear to the door, listening to everything Ryuichi was saying. As his boyfriend kept talking to his bunny Shuichi felt more and more guilty. He blinked back tears and knocked on the door.
"Ryu-chan...please, can we talk?"
A minute later Ryuichi opened the door slowly, trying to hide his tears with his hair. Shuichi brushed it out of his face and made Ryuichi stare him in the eye.
"I'm so sorry, Ryu. This isn't fair to you at all. I don't want to keep thinking about Yuki, I really don't. I really don't know why I can't leave him behind. I am trying, I really am!"
He grabbed Ryuichi's shoulders, his face so close to Ryuichi's their noses were touching.
"Let me tell you this, though, Ryu-chan...I may still have Yuki on my mind..I am not going back for him. I promise. I will put in more of an effort. I really will. I don't want to hurt you anymore. It's me and you from now on remember?"
Shuichi wiped away Ryuichi's tears. "It's Shuichi and Ryuichi...okay? There is always a special spot just for inside of my heart."
Ryuichi stared into Shuichi's violet eyes for a few minutes before speaking again. "Why can't I stay upset with you?" He smiled lightly.
Shuichi smiled back and filled in the remaining space between their face.
Both didn't leave the bathroom that night.
(A/N): WOOO It happened! Shuichi and Ryuichi...ya know...I told you that things were getting serious! Yuki is suffering bad, too. Woo!! The time is creeping closer for it to come down as to who Shuichi ends up with. Come on guys! Those who haven't voted, please vote! PLEASE! Updates will be up soon. PLEASE REVIEW!
