A Hidden World
Chapter 12
Ice cream
Clary
"What? You lost Simon?" I said to Jace coming towards him, my hands ready to capture his pretty face.
"I didn't lose him, he just disappeared." He shrugged taking a few steps back.
"You better find him or else.... or else...." I couldn't finish my sentence so I went to my room and closed the door loud enough for him to hear.
"Clary!" he shouted but I didn't answer. I was angry and I felt that sooner or later I would be unleashing my hatred to someone, and that someone, would likely be Jace.
I laid on my bed trying to relax but the events of yesterday were unwelcomed in my mind. I closed my eyes trying to push them away. I thought of Dorothea and how she wasn't really Dorothea but Ragon.
He had captured Dorothea and pretended to be her. He wanted something from me but I didn't know what. The others couldn't help me with that and I knew sooner or later I would have to find out.
If those dreams could tell me directly what that something was, maybe this thing would end and everything would go back to normal. I would be the girl who is enjoying her summer before college. A summer where her parents leaves her alone for a whole three weeks, free to do whatever she wants.
But instead I am stuck in a situation where apparently no one knows what's going on or won't share it with me and I am someone who happens to see visions that can help them to whatever they are doing.
I feel that I am constantly asking myself what's going on and never get an answer. They should tell me. I know that they know more from what they are saying and I am going to find out.
I will go and find Jace if he hadn't left already, and ask him. It's the least he can do, after all it was his idea to go and see Dorothea.
But first I needed to shower. My clothes were all covered with dirt from the explosion and my muscles needed to relax. I took my clothes off happy that I ended up at my house and not at Jace's house.
I had opened my eyes to find myself on his arms carrying me and saying something to me. I couldn't catch it all but the last phrase I did. He said that it was good that I was unconscious when using the Portal or else he wouldn't know where to find me. He said it with a half smile looking at me not bothering looking in front of him. Normally I would have replied something but my condition didn't allow me something like that. Instead I fell asleep again. The next time I woke up it was at my sofa with Jace next to me looking worried.
I finished my shower and got dressed. I looked at the hour to find out that another day had passed finding me asleep through the day, of course. My sleeping hours were a mess.
I went downstairs expecting to find out that Jace was gone but instead he was waiting for me at the kitchen.
"Jace, we should....what...? What's all this?" I asked him with a smile on my face that I didn't plan. He had made dinner for me or that's what it looked like. He had put on the kitchen's table the tablecloth we use for when we go for a picnic, a red one with white docs and of course plates and everything else, though there was no food on the table except from what it looked like a covered plate in the center of the room.
"Dinner. I always get hungry when I am upset." He smiled a little hesitant, not sure if my anger from earlier was gone.
"That's a way of saying I am sorry for loosing Simon and that you are sorry for what you are hiding from me?"
"Clary, I told you before that I didn't lose Simon." He tried to defend his self. "I was trying to.... what? Hiding from you something? What are talking about?"
"All this Jace. How I suddenly come involved in so much. In things that normally doesn't exist. I don't know what but I can feel it when you talk to the others. How you stare at me and whisper things between you. There is something more than my visions and you are not telling me what. And don't try to deny it or say that has nothing to do with me because I wouldn't be back there with Dorothea if that wasn't the case." I said to him rather more relaxing than I had expected.
Jace was looking at my eyes making me freeze at my spot and sending shivers down my back. He stood up not taking his eyes from me. "Clary I will tell you what's going on but not now."
"Then when? I want to know."
"I don't know when Clary, but the story you are going to hear doesn't have a happy ending. It's kind of personal for someone..." his eyes dropped now at the floor but soon enough they were staring me again, "so don't push it ok?" He came closer to me and took my hands, "I will tell you in the end. I know that now everything seems incomplete but believe when I say it's for your own good. If you knew, you would be already dead. And I ..." he looked from me and whispered, "I don't think I could handle that." He seemed sad when he said it and I didn't know what to say.
I couldn't force him to tell me if the story wasn't his to begin with but I needed to know. I decided that for know it was ok not to know. Besides he had a point, I would be dead now if I knew. Now that I am thinking of it Dorothea or Ragon would have killed me if I had given him the answer he was looking for.
And there was another thing too. He said that he wouldn't have handled the possibility of me being dead. Did he mean that he cared? And if he did what did that mean?
"Jace" I said and he looked at me, my hands still in his, "whenever you are ready." He smiled and nodded to me to sit.
"So what's for dinner?" I tried to sound lighted. I sat down and he sat on the chair across the table like he wanted to put the table between us. He smiled and made a move only to reveal that the center plate's food was pizza.
"Isn't this the best dinner or not?" he said laughing.
"It's pizza. And whatever involves pizza that's fine with me." We both laughed and started eating.
It was like suddenly all that tension was gone now we were being ourselves, like we had both left our concerns behinds us.
"It's really nice but you know what? I want dessert and I know the perfect one." I said to him and went for the fringe. "If I remember well there must be an ice cream somewhere in here." I searched inside the fringe till I found the ice cream I was looking for. "Found it! And I think it is moca flavour."
"My favourite." Jace said.
"It's ok but I still prefer vanilla. It's classic."
I placed the ice cream on the table trying to get the lid off but it was giving a hard time.
"Nothing special about it, but moca... even the name is something. Do you need help with that?" He said from behind me.
"Em... sure. You can give it a try. It's frozen that's why it doesn't open." And with one move he opened it. "Hey, how did you do that? I was trying really hard to open that damn thing and you just opened it like that."
"There is no need for power. If you know the trick, it will do." He said and took a spoon to taste the ice cream. "Mmm... just perfect."
"Hey, easy on that. That's the only one and we are two." He offered me a spoon and we shared it.
We were standing close enough for me to brush his shoulder making my cheeks go red. He didn't seem to notice and if he did he didn't show it.
"So how come you didn't go to look for Simon?" I asked him not looking directly at him. I wasn't sure if my blush was gone and I didn't want him to see it.
"I wanted to go but someone had to stay with you to make sure you were alright and nothing could reach you."
"Like what?"
"You know, demons." Jace said.
"Oh yeah. I am lucky I guess that I can't see them. After what happened I pretty sure demons exists."
"They exist and that's another reason why I wanted to stay. There was a possibility that after meeting Ragon you may see demons in your dreams and I wanted to be here when that happened." Suddenly that made me sad.
"You really want to know what my dreams are saying, aren't you." I said my voice lowering a bit.
"No Clary, I mean yes but I am not here for the dreams." With his hand he turned my face so I could face him. He looked deep in my eyes. "I mean they are important but I am here because of you. I... I care about you Clary."
"Jace..." that was all I could say. He cared about me and wanted me to be safe but what did I feel for him? To be honest I didn't knew.
We kept looking at each other, close enough that I could feel his warm body shake a little as he bent to kiss me.
