Hey please enjoy, and yes I realize that this chapter will be confusing. I kind of like the whole Jacob/Renessme thing so Alex will most likely not be changing that. I'm really, really really sorry to those who were waiting for it to happen. I know it changes a lot of things but please look past that and keep reading. Again review and tell me if you hate the whole non Alex/Jacob, thank-you!
Chapter 12: Ignorance isn't Bliss
I have come to realize something this realization has changed my whole life, I see everything in a whole new perspective. ..Shop. This realization may seem small but when you've been driving for an hour to a whole other city to shop for hours on end then you'll understand my pain.
Harper would've either gotten mad that I asked to shop or would've cried in tears of pure joy. Which ever one doesn't make me feel any better. You may wonder why I would ever ask Alice the Queen of Fashion without expecting this much work? I just felt bad since most of my time is spent at Leah's Mom (Sue who is a sweetheart!) house so I asked her.
She let out a shriek, scared the crap out of Jasper who in turn gave me a sympathetic glance making me really rethink what I just asked. Alice talked about how even though she saw it coming she still was happy to know I come to her for shopping advice.
By the way you should know I really have a good sense of style it's just Alice would help me start fresh as a free girl. When Rosalie found out she asked to come, Bella also decided to come. Well actually I yanked her up from the piano seat, Edward laughed when he read my mind. (Still embarrassed I lied to him the first day and he played it off so well).
I promptly told Bella I wouldn't be left alone with girls whose life surrounds clothes and make-up.
So now I'm here turning down all the dresses Alice picked. Feeling bad I tried at least one dark blue on.
It actually was extremely cute on me but looking at the price tag I handed it back to her. "Nope Alice there is one to many zeros on there."
Alice smiled and shook her head. "Even though it's too dressy for a bon fire I can't bear to leave it here." Giggling I let Rosalie drag me off to another store, one slightly less formal to what Alice showed us while she bought the dress. Soon enough I found a really cute tank top the color of light purple and LOVE written down the shirt. Bella picked out adorable dark rinse jean shorts and Alice showed me a black vest which flowed down to my shorts.
Finally I convinced Rosalie my purple flip flops were perfectly okay. "Oh we should buy her some sun glasses!" Alice yelled, Rosalie squealed Bella and I exchanged glances letting out a sigh.
"You guys get them Bella owes me a milkshake." They nodded and left talking about which style would look best on me. "I owe you?"
"Yup as of now you owe me for saving you another shopping spree." She smiled, letting me link an arm through hers. "Technically you owe me since I was forced to go because of you."
"True, but who could deny this face?" I asked causing Bella to laugh. I noticed how her musical laugh caused attention manly guys who stopped to look at her adoringly. Bella must have noticed as well because she looked uncomfortable.
"Back of bitches this sexy chick is all mine!" I yelled giving her a squeeze making the looks turn to glares towards my direction.
She laughed which didn't really help, well until I gave a group of 13 year olds the finger. Oh malls how I love them.
I learned two things after sharing a milkshake with Bella. Okay I didn't share it I tried to at first but after she refused and I tasted the deliciousness I stopped asking.
Anyway Bells began to talk to me about slightly touchy subjects. Not me but her. She asked if Nestle was changing.
"Well if you mean being a mean…person." I said lamely trying to not hurt Bella's feelings. "Then yes Nestle is a very…um…mean person."
She shook her head twisting a lock of her hair around a finger looking at a straw on the table we were sitting at. I learned Nestle wasn't always a bitch; in fact she happened to be a sweet girl who was smart beyond her years.
So how did she end up like an icky snob always acting as if something is lodged up her ass? Well after Nestle convinced her parents to let her attend a camp she friended the girl everybody hates but is to scared to say it. Basically the girl was a clone of Gigi, hold on I need to puke before I can continue….ok I'm good.
Girl gets Nestle to change into something girl can like more. Nestle decided to actually change so she could fit in with girl and her friends. To bad I didn't come a couple weeks before or else I would've showed up at Nestlé's camp and decked the girl in 2 seconds flat. Violent? I only am to people who deserve it.
But anyway the second thing I learned was Bella couldn't take it anymore before she and Edward AND Jacob take her out of the dumb camp. Then smack some sense into her, wait they'd never smack her I would though. Bella seemed distraught so I did the second stupidest thing of the day; agreed to try and talk to her.
Grrrreeeeaaaattt. Can you sense my enthusiasm? Because all I see is a day full of Nestlé's complaining and a major pain in my ass. What could I do, I can't say no.
Bella would've burst into tears except she couldn't so she settled for a huge hug; it was kind of cold though so I eased out of it. "Thank-you Alex." I smiled weakly, then caught sight of Alice and Rosalie with a lot more bags then we left them.
I glanced down knowing Bella mirrored the same shock. "Whose are those for?"
Rosalie smiled. "Most of it is yours, we thought it'd be a great welcome gift, the other two are for Nessie."
I had a feeling Nestle would hate to know I got more gifts then her. Smiling I thanked them even if I was screaming how they were shopohalics on the inside.
"Ok girls I think Alex needs to get home so she can change in time." Rosalie wrinkled her noise. "I cannot believe you rather spend time with those…dogs then with us!"
I felt my stomach drop. Gulping down air I told them I had to go pee. As soon as I was in a stall and I put the toilet sit down and sank onto it, my head in my now shaking hands.
I didn't want to think about it but the accusations and crazy thoughts came nonetheless.
You know since nobody here in Forks are normal? I had a sinking feeling Leah and her friends had to be some type of mythical creature. Some how it should be related to dogs whenever I mention them the Cullen's react in a certain way. They either grimace while trying to pull it off as a smile (it's usual Rosalie who does this; there's tension with her and Jacob) or wrinkle their nose as if remembering the smell of them. Even though it was painfully obvious what they were I pushed the thoughts away hoping they'd leave me alone.
It was denial. I couldn't summon up the courage to ask anybody if they were the one thing I couldn't stomach. How could I hang out with them after they tell me the truth? At least now I can act oblivious.
He broke my heart. I can't except their kind any more without having the horrible memory of him leaving me flashing in my mind. I know you're thinking how can I bounce my misery between Dean and…Mason but the truth is Mason will always have my heart I just fooled myself into thinking Dean was who I loved.
My thoughts are selfish I look like a wimp, and I wouldn't blame people calling me that if they knew what I was thinking. It's embarrassing; all I can do is act like they're normal. The clues are becoming more apparent as if their trying to get me to figure it out. But I won't accept the fact that my new twin, my dying crush with Jacob and adorable Seth are…werewolves.
I can't because when I do I see Mason leaving me and I remember the state he left me in, I wasn't myself. Its scary waking up without feeling like who you are.
Standing up I shrugged away the thoughts before they could cloud my mind. When I'm ready I'll ask Leah, but for right now I'm in pieces.
