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I'm alive

I'm alive

I'm alive

"OH FOR THE LOVE OF… AH!" Santana cried out in frustration. "This is useless. I don't understand what the fuck this has to do with Glee anyway!"

Brittany was surprised from Santana's sudden outburst but held her tongue as Santana sat up, pulling her legs to her chest. Brittany watched as Santana's eyes started to tear as her bottom lip quivered. Should Brittany be worried?

"It's just a dance" Brittany whispered before placing her hand on the small of Santana's back.

"No Brittany. I've been working for hours on this dance and all I seem to do is fall. It's not even graceful" Santana growled.

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savouring this heart that's healing

"What's this really about San?" Brittany said softly as she saw the dark circles under Santana's eyes.

Santana….

Her and Brittany had been friends for as long as Brittany could remember. They had laughed, cried, danced and conquered High School together… but that was most probably what was driving Santana to the edge of suicidal darkness. Santana was going to University now… Alone… away from Brittany and everyone she knew. It was a big step… forced onto Santana by her parents.

Take my hand, I give it to you

Now you own me, all I am

You said you would never leave me

I believe you, I believe

All Brittany wanted to do at that moment was wrap Santana in her arms… whispering that everything would be alright, but Santana had made it crystal clear that any loving gesture were not allowed anymore ever since Brittany had a drunken one-night stand with some guy. Brittany wasn't proud of her actions… but in her defence… her and Santana weren't exactly dating when it happened. Luckily they were able to work passed it… Santana just requested that Brittany not try and repair the mess which was made. Santana had said that she had experienced enough heartbreak….

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savouring this heart that's healed

"I just feel so lost Britt-Britt" Santana breathed out before getting up and walking to the corner of her room to collect her things.

Santana's words broke Brittany's train of thought for a moment before Brittany's eyes followed Santana.

Where was Santana going?

"I think I'm just gonna go Britt-Britt." Santana mumbled before grabbing her water bottle and taking a sip, throwing her towel over her shoulder.

Helplessly… Brittany watched Santana walk away. Yes… Brittany would've loved to run after her but she knew Santana. Santana needed space… if anyone got near her right now… Santana would tear them apart. Brittany couldn't deal with Santana's furious tirades or fiery temper and yes… Brittany had tried. Santana just had a way of destroying everything in her way when she was angry… and Brittany had being burnt too many times.

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I hear your heart beat to the beat of the drums

Oh what a shame that you came here with someone

So while you're here in my arms

Let's make the most of the night like we're gonna die young

We're gonna die young

We're gonna die young

Let's make the most of the night like we're gonna die young

Brittany brushed a damp piece of hair from her face as the music ended. She took deep breathes as she tried to still her rapid breathing. Dancing cleared Brittany's mind and soul… and today was no different. The fire in her lungs somehow calmed Brittany as she reached for a towel and brushed the back of her neck. She reached for her phone after a few moments, looking to see if perhaps there was any messages from Santana… but there was none.

Strange….

When Brittany attempted to contact Santana… her phone was engaged. What the hell had happened? A queasy feeling started to fill Brittany's stomach as she looked down at her watch. It was already 23h00. Worried, Brittany quickly located Santana's mother's number. Santana was known to just disappear for a while when she was lost or confused… but the little voice in Brittany's head screamed that something was wrong this time. After a few rings, the sleepy voice of Mrs. Lopez answered the phone…

"I'm so sorry for calling so late Mrs. Lopez…. I just wanted to know if Santana was home."

Brittany found herself mindlessly biting her nails as the line went quiet for a moment.

"No Mrs. Lopez….She left early…" Brittany said softly…. Oh No….

"Let me know if you hear anything. I'll see if I can get hold of her" Brittany finally breathed out after Mrs. Lopez said that she hadn't seen Santana since this morning.

Brittany quickly collected all her things before rushing out of the dance studio. The roads were deserted though… Dead quiet…. Brittany took a moment to whisper a short pray as she walked down the road Santana would've taken home. The eerie silence sent goose bumps down Brittany's spine as the smell of damp street, urine and… wait… Was that blood that Brittany smelt? Brittany tried to look for a sign of life, her eyes jolting between the alley ways and road…. But once again… Nothing…

"How do I always end up running after you?" Brittany whispered softly before a small smile came to her face.

She hoped and prayed that Santana was okay… Brittany didn't know if she would be able to live without Santana.

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3 days Later…

Brittany traced over her friendship bracelet softly as her teary eyes fixated on the engraved message…

"Best-Friends Forever"

A tear drop fell from Brittany's eye onto her sun-kissed skin and trailed down her arm until it disappeared. Constricted, Brittany's mind couldn't comprehend how she had survived for the past few days. She didn't know if Santana had ran away, being kidnapped…. If Santana was dead or prostituting herself. All Brittany knew was that there was no sign of Santana anywhere. No one had seen her, Santana's car was still in the garage, Her parents haven't received even a word. Santana was just… Gone…but instead of heartbreak, Brittany felt empty. This was a big, bad city that could've swallowed Santana whole. It was filled with the worst kind of wrongs and the best kinds of bad. Brittany couldn't help but cringe at the thought of what happened to Santana. The worst was not knowing. Not knowing at all….

"Honey? I made some lasagne for the Lopez'. Don't you want to drive over there and give it to them?"

Dread filled Brittany as she remembered Mrs. Lopez's heartbroken expression when Brittany had told her that Santana was gone. Santana's mother cried out in horror… falling to the floor in anguish. All Brittany was able to do was huddled down to hold the petite Latina as tears stained the concrete porch. Brittany didn't want to go through that again…. She couldn't go through that again.

"Honey?"

Brittany exhaled deeply before sliding off her bed,

"Yea…" Brittany called back out.

"You better hurry. It's getting cold"

Great…

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On her way to the Lopez's residence, Brittany found herself lost in thought. This was the same way she had rushed down trying to Find Santana. Every corner she passed, every turn she took… reminded her of Santana. Missing poster were posted all around, some on the ground, some crushed up and wet. Santana's fate was painted across the walls…. Brittany knew deep in her heart Santana was dead although it killed her to admit it, but if Santana was alive… Brittany would've been the first to know.

Brittany came to a halt at a stop street, looking around the dark roads. One more street? And Brittany would be forced to smile and act positive, reassuring Mrs. Lopez that Santana most probably just needed a break from life. Brittany had to lie…. Again…. Putting false hope into an elderly woman who believed falsely that her daughter was still alive. Brittany found it hard to find words to say at times… when Santana's mother's eye would fill up with tears as she rambled about memories of Santana.

Loss of a loved one was a wound that never healed….

Lost in her thought, Brittany didn't notice car lights heading towards her until a vehicle nearly collided into her car. Her eyes widened for a moment as the other car swerved passed her at a radical speed, barely missing her.

"WATCH WERE YOU'RE GOING JAC-" Brittany cried out, but before she could finish her sentence horror unfolded infront of her.

Santana's car….

And Brittany followed without a second thought.