A/N

Thank you so much for all the wonderful reviews, I loved every single one of them! I have decided to continue my story, many of my reviewers were very adamant that I continue this, at least throughout Bella's pregnancy, so I'm going to! Thanks for giving me your honest opinion...

Sorry for taking so long to update, I have been extremely busy lately so to make up for it there is another lemon in this chapter and a lot of random fluff, I hope you enjoy it!

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B/N (beta note, for future reference)

I HIGHLY recommend a panty warning on this chapter, just sayin!

A Beautiful Disaster

Chapter 12: Mine

Edward POV

The minutes are passing rapidly, but it feels like time is standing still. Neither of us has even attempted to move from our position since her confession. I'm still crying like a pussy; I have waited so long to hear that shit and I was starting to give up hope that I ever would.

There have been no words spoken between the two of us since she finished bearing her soul to me. I know I have to tell her exactly how I feel as well, but my feelings for this woman are so strong that I don't have the slightest idea how to even verbalize that shit.

How do you tell someone that you love them so much that just the thought of being away from that person for any amount of time makes you so sick that it literary kills you inside? Because I have no idea how to do that and that's exactly how I feel, I'm almost positive that is far from normal. With my luck, after I tell her how much I want to be with her, she will get scared that I'm some sickly obsessed asshole and run away from me.

Just having her in my arms like this again, I know without a doubt that I have to do everything possible to keep her there—exactly where she belongs. If she ever walked away from me, my fucking world would crumble around me. Nothing is, or ever will be, more important to me than Isabella Marie Swan.

Our eyes are still locked together, she has me in some sort of trance and I couldn't look away even if I wanted to. It's feels like I'm looking into the very depths of her soul and it's the most beautiful thing that this fucked up world has to offer.

I'm the one who has to break the silence, and I know she is still waiting for me to say something in response to what she'd said earlier.

The one single thought that keeps running through my head is that I want her by my side for the rest of my life and there is only one thing I want to say, or more like ask, so I do.

I take a deep breath and prepare myself to ask the most important question that I will ever ask in my life.

Bella looks expectant, sensing that I'm about to finally say something.

"Marry me, Bella?" I question her, trying to convey with my eyes that nothing would make me happier than making her my wife. It doesn't have the desired effect I was hoping for.

Bella looks at me like I have lost my fucking mind and immediately breaks eye contact and starts to push me off of her. I give in willingly, sitting up on my knees, confused at her reaction. Fuck me, because I can tell she's angry.

"Is this what this whole fucking thing is about? You feel guilty for knocking me up, so you think you have to make an honest woman out of me? I'm sorry but I ain't having that shit, we will figure out something else out because I don't want a relationship based on pity..." I cut her off before she can say anything else, needing to set her ass straight—if she only knew the half of it.

"Bella, how the fuck could you even think I didn't mean that shit with all of my heart? The last thing I feel is guilty. I fucking love your ass more than you could ever understand. So don't ever fucking doubt that I meant that shit! Our baby has nothing to do with what I just asked you, I have wanted to ask you that for a long fucking time now." I growl at her, pissed off that she could just jump to conclusions and dismiss my feelings so easily like that.

Bella is silent, but still giving me a skeptical look not believing a single fucking word I just said and it pisses me off even more.

Grasping her resistant hands inside of mine, I lock them above her head forcing her to look at me while returning to my previous position of hovering over her.

My dick won't ignore the fact that it is mere inches away from its home and reacts accordingly. Bella notices and though I can tell she is still angry over her misconceptions, I can't ignore the pure lust that is also very apparent in her features.

I have to disregard the part of my mind that is screaming at me to close the small gap in between us and fuck her senseless, but I need her to know—for a fact—how I feel about her and that I wasn't fucking around with my proposal.

"What the fuck do I have to do to make you understand how much I fucking love you? I have already followed your ass around for the last ten years like a lost little puppy. What the fuck else do you want from me, Bella? No matter what I do, you don't fucking believe me or you just don't care enough to notice. You are the only woman I want, I know I fucked up and I'm sorry for that, but honestly you are the only woman I have ever wanted since I met you. The other women I have been with, I promise you they didn't mean shit to me. I fucked most of them just trying to make you jealous and to make you see what was in front of your face—waiting for you the entire fucking time. It was really fucking stupid and didn't work; it only pushed you further away from me. I also did it because your constant rejection makes me really fucking insecure and I had to do something to prove to myself that somebody wanted me since you didn't." Finally being able to admit that to someone, let alone her, causes the tears to start pouring again and I have reverted back to being the giant pussy-ass-bitch, that she has forced me to become.

I can't even talk to the love of my life without fucking crying, how bitch made* is that?

Bella's face is a mask of shock; all traces of anger are gone. I guess she wasn't expecting that. Yeah, well that makes two of us, because I never intended to tell her most of that shit, but fuck it now, it's obviously something she really needed to hear.

Taking another deep breath, I get my shit in check so I can finish speaking my peace. This may be the only time I'm able to be brave enough to let her know how I really feel.

"Bella, I want you and only you. I promise I will not so much as even look at another woman, never again baby. I understand my proposal sucked balls, but it came from the heart and even though it was only three words I meant every single one of them. You deserve a fat-ass ring along with some creative romantic type shit; I'm ready and willing to give you that. I will be the happiest motherfucker on this planet if one day I get to call you my wife and please don't think that the baby influenced it, I really have wanted to ask you that for a long fucking time now." The tears finally stop and I'm able to finish with a renewed confidence, knowing that it's the gods honest truth, I just hope she believes it.

Bella is still stunned silent, looking slightly unsure and I can't have that, no more doubts.

"Baby, I swear, please believe me." I seal my promise with a gentle but urgent kiss to her lips that she responds to. I pour all of the love I have for her into it, asking her with my actions to believe me.

I pull away slowly to look at her and I'm greatly relieved to see a genuine smile creep onto her face and it causes me to grin like a retarded fucking idiot.

"Don't get too happy yet, fucker, I don't want to jump into this too fast and fuck everything up." she grins at me then continues more seriously. "I'm really not ready to get married or anything like that anytime soon. Can we just take this, whatever this is, slow?" She nervously finishes slightly blushing.

Seeing the flushed look on her cheeks makes my aching dick twitch, barely grazing her hot pussy that is still wet as fuck and it immediately causes the atmosphere between us to change.

I try my best to overpower the urge to plunge into her warm center and have her scream my name over and over while she digs her nails in my back for the rest of the day. It's really fucking hard, especially since this irresistible little minx in front of me is biting her bottom lip while giving me the most inviting come fuck me face I have ever fucking seen in my entire life. Somehow I manage to overcome the urge, knowing that we have some shit that still needs to be worked out. We really need to figure out where we stand with each other and where we're going to go from here.

"That's fine with me, I can accept that you're not ready, but I want you to know that I will wait as long as it takes for you to be ready to be my wife. There is nobody I would rather spend my life with, you're it for me." I confess, staring deeply into her eyes and I can see some of the walls that she has built up around herself to protect her heart start to crumble right in front of me.

"Thank you for understanding and always being so patient with me. I really am in love with you, Edward and even though it scares me shitless, it feels so fucking right that it's impossible for me to ignore it." She admits with teary eyes.

My heart swells with so much love for this woman, just knowing that my feelings for her are reciprocated, I can no longer contain myself or my actions.

Bella senses my mood change and she knows exactly what I'm about to do. Even though I don't ask ,she gives me the green light by wrapping her legs around my waist, pulling me closer to where I need to be—showing me that she needs this just as badly as I do.

I lower my face to hers gripping her lower lip between my teeth, nibbling it gently while I grasp my cock and rub it up and down her slit. I continue stroking myself while making sure to spread around the wetness that has gathered between her legs.

The moans of pleasure that escape from her, breaks me and I can't hold back. I let the little monster loose and without any further guidance it knows exactly where to go.

A fierce growl bubbles from my chest as I sink into the dripping wet walls of my own personal heaven and it takes every last bit of my self-control to not fuck her so hard that I drill her ass right through this fucking bed.

"Baby, your shit feels so fucking good, it's so fucking tight." I moan into her mouth while she grips my hair, tightly fusing our lips together in a searing kiss and digs the heels of her feet into my back, pulling me painfully deeper inside of her.

I pull out slightly, as our tongues are mingling in a dance of passion. Our breathing starts to turn into heavy pants of lust. When I'm almost completely withdrawn from her dripping wet pussy, I hitch her legs over my shoulders and thrust myself so deep inside of her that my nuts slap against her ass, causing Bella to scream my name as her head thrashes from side to side.

The way her lips caress my name, sends me into overdrive and I pound into her pussy so hard she won't be able to walk right for at least a week.

I feel her walls starting to clench around my cock and I know she's close; the way I'm tearing into her I'm not going to be able to last much longer either.

"Bella, I need you to come for me baby." I demand, releasing one of her legs so I can reach down to where we're connected. I rub circles around her clit while I keep up a steady rhythm of grinding into her overheated center, digging in as deep as her body will let me, before I withdraw again.

"Fuck, I'm about to come, I love the way you hit that shit, baby. It feels so fucking good..." Bella moans loudly into my neck biting at the soft flesh as she trails off.

I'm thrown off for a split second, causing my movements to slow down momentarily. This is the first time she has ever called me that. After the initial shock wears off, I'm able return to the mission at hand with a renewed sense of need to make her scream my name while she writhes beneath me.

After a few more deep thrusts, our body's have become slick with sweat and are slapping together as I pound into her tight walls. My mouth makes its descent down to her chest, taking in one of her hardened nipples, teasing it with my tongue and teeth. My name starts to spill from her mouth like a prayer as her pussy explodes around me, pulsing and milking my cock, silently begging me to come with her.

"Shit, babe, I'm about to come! You feel so fucking good...I love you so much, Bella!" I cry out through gritted teeth, as my dick starts to twitch violently and I release my seed in thick spurts deep within her center, while her walls suck me in impossibly deeper, still contracting around my cock.

I release Bella's other leg and it falls limply to the bed and I nearly collapse on top of her, gasping for breath, but I'm able to catch myself in time, landing on my elbows instead so that I don't crush her.

Bella's eyes are closed and her breathing is starting to slow down, as is mine. I wipe off the sweat collecting on her brow and she flashes me a breathtaking smile in return.

"Are you tired, love? You can go to sleep if you want to. How is your head feeling?" I question Bella sweetly as I trail light kisses up and down her jaw.

Bella's eyes flutter open with a happy grin still in place. "I'm fine, Edward, I think you managed fuck the pain away and I'm not really tired, just a little hungry." She explains with humor in her voice.

"Really? I didn't know I was that talented." I laugh out and more seriously add, "I still think it would be a good idea to take some Motrin after you get some food in your stomach though, what would you like to eat love?"

"Shut up you smug bastard, you know exactly the effect you have on women, or anyone else for that matter." Bella states matter-of-factly and I can't help but to chuckle at her. "I don't care. Anything sounds good right now, I'm fucking starving and when the fuck can I leave this shit hole? I hate the hospital, I have no idea how you can even stand working here."

"Stop complaining woman, I'll go get you something to eat from the cafeteria and then I'm sure I can get you released, seeing as I am your doctor, on the condition that you stay at my house with me so I can care for you, while you recover." I grin at her, hoping she won't turn down my offer.

"Whatever you say, Doctor Cullen, you know best." she smiles seductively at me and trails her fingertip down my chest as she continues, "I guess you being a doctor has its perks, well for me anyway."

And now my dick is hard again, little fucking tease.

"Bella, you need to stop if you want to eat and get out of here, because I don't have a single problem with keeping you in this tiny ass bed for the rest of the day and maybe tomorrow."

"Is that a promise, Doctor Cullen?" She questions my motives, like she doesn't think I'm serious.

"Fuck, Bella." I groan, while my cock gets so impossibly hard, that I could probably cut glass with the motherfucker. "It's so fucking sexy when you call me Doctor Cullen, and yes, it's a promise I intend to keep if you don't stop fucking around me, you little fucking tease."

"What if I want to fuck around with you? Who says I'm teasing?"

So she wants to play like that? I'll give her insatiable ass a little taste of her own medicine.

I bend my head to the dip of her neck and work up a rhythm of sucking and biting, leaving my mark on her. My hand travels to her full perky breast, kneading it, while I tease her taut nipple by rolling and pinching it in between my fingers.

When she starts to moan and wriggle beneath me bucking her hips trying to get some type of friction for her center, I stop my assault on her neck to whisper huskily in her ear, "You know I would never deny you anything that you want, so please feel free to fuck around with me anytime you want baby."

"Ohhh God...Fuck, I need you now…Please." Bella moans as she fists my hair, fusing our lips together and fucks my mouth with her tongue.

I break away shortly, gasping for breath, I rest my forehead on top of hers, gazing into her eyes. "I'm not God, baby, but I will have you seeing the light." I respond as I start kissing a trail down the valley between her plump breasts.

I make my way down past her navel and nibble on bits of her soft flesh as I go. I spread her legs wide open, making eye contact before bending down between them, making sure to get a tight grip on her hips.

Bella breathes in a gasp when I graze my nose against her hot wet slit. I can smell myself on her and inside of her and it causes the possessive beast inside of me to come out to play while screaming, "MINE. MINE. MINE!"

"Bella, baby, do you want me to fuck your hot, wet pussy with my tongue?" I growl against her clit sending vibrations straight to her core causing her body to tremble.

"Mmmm, yes! Oh God yes! I love the way your mouth feels on me!" Bella moans as she tries to break the hold I have on her and thrust her hips into my face.

"I already told you that I'm not God." I tease her clit with the tip of my tongue and she grabs hold of my hair gripping it tightly. "I'll give you anything you want, but first you need to tell me who this pussy belongs to." I demand as I thrust two fingers inside of her curling them into her special spot that makes her toes curl.

"Fuck, Edward, it's yours! Now stop fucking teasing me before I rip out all of your god-damn hair." She threatens tugging harder on my hair to prove her point.

"Yes, baby, this shit is mine, you are mine. Now lay back and hold on because I'm about to make you come so hard you may just forget your own fucking name." I warn, before I dive, head first into her deliciously wet folds, eliciting loud squeals of pure pleasure from her.

I roughly pump my fingers into her sweet spot while thrusting my tongue against her clit as she grinds her hips into my face and the heels of her feet dig painfully into my shoulders.

When I feel her pussy start to tighten around my fingers and her moans get louder, I know she's about to explode. I move down lower, because I want my tongue inside when she comes.

I bring my thumb up to caress her sensitive nub while plunging my tongue inside her walls as far as I can reach, greedily sucking up as much of her juices as I can. Bella tastes so fucking good; I could live off of eating her shit if she would let me.

I can hear Bella's breathing become erratic as her pussy starts to pulse around my tongue. Knowing she's really close, I pick up the pace. Bella's thighs tighten around me and right before she is able to come, someone bursts through the damn door, like they're the motherfucking police.

I immediately spring up to cover Bella's naked form with my own while yanking the blanket to cover us both. I hear someone gasp behind us and I know I wasn't quick enough with covering us up. I swear, if it's Doctor Prick, I will fucking murder him.

Slowly, I turn my head to the asshole that thought it was okay to just bust in on us without even knocking. I'm not one bit surprised to find my pixie-bitch little sister standing there shielding her eyes with her hands, stunned silent and looking quite mortified. To say that I'm pissed is a serious fucking understatement, but at least I'm not going to have to murder that fuck-face, asshole of a doctor. I'm going to have to save that for another time, I haven't forgotten that he was trying to ogle my girl.

"What the fuck, Alice, don't you know how to fucking knock?" I grit out through clenched teeth.

I look down at Bella and she is bright fucking red, her hand is partially covering her face, as if it will make her invisible.

"How the fuck was I supposed to know that you would be in here eating her pussy like it was the last damn meal you will ever eat, asshole?" Alice responds rudely and apparently she seen a lot more than I thought she had.

"That's why you're supposed to knock before you barge in, you nosey bitch." I shoot back with venom leaking from my voice.

"Fuck off, Edward. I didn't come here to see you; I came here to see if Bella was alright. It didn't even cross my mind that you might be here with her, so why don't you shut the fuck up, you god-damn prick." Alice sneers at me.

"Can the both of you please shut the fuck up and stop arguing like two little children, it's giving me a fucking headache." Bella irritably shouts, interrupting right before I was about to tell my sister to get the fuck out. She then continues more calmly, "Alice thank you for coming to check on me, but I'm fine and I should be able to leave soon, so do you think you could step out and give us minute please?"

Alice smiles sweetly and nods her head at Bella, then gives me the stink eye and I return it with one of my own before she silently exits the room.

"Your sister has really shitty timing." Bella grins at me looking less embarrassed than before.

"She really fucking does, I guess I should go get you a snack and get your release papers started." I hug her tightly to me, not wanting to ever leave her side.

When I try to get up Bella pulls me back down on top of her and clutches on to me for dear life. I look at her and I can tell she doesn't want me to go, just as much as I don't want to leave and it makes my heart swell.

"I love you, Bella." I smile at her.

"I love you too, Edward." She smiles back.

Hearing her say that makes me so fucking happy, I feel like crying again, just like a little bitch.

"You don't know how happy it makes me to hear you say that." I admit to her brushing some stray hairs out of her face.

"It makes me happy too." Bella whispers, blushing, and just like that I can see more of her walls breaking down.

"C'mon babe, let's get up so we can get the fuck out of here, I don't want to be here anymore than you do. I'll go get your release papers and you can deal with Alice." I leave a chaste kiss on her lips and she lets me get up this time.

"Your evil, I can't believe you're going to leave me alone with your insane sister, can't we just sneak out?" She complains and I laugh at her seriousness.

"I wish we could just sneak out, but you know we can't do that and Alice doesn't really like me right now—if you haven't noticed. So unless you want to be subjected to more arguing, then I think that this is the best option we have." I explain while pulling on my boxers and then my jeans.

"Edward what the fuck am I supposed to wear? I have no idea where my clothes are and all I have is this horrible hospital gown." Bella realizes, looking around the room in a panic. Fuck, I didn't even think about that shit.

"Let me go check in my office, I might have some sweats and a T-shirt for you, if not then I can get you some scrubs to wear." I offer pulling my shirt over my head, then passing Bella her gown to cover herself up with for now.

Bella sits up to get dressed and no matter how times I see her beautiful body, it still amazes how perfect she really is. I walk over and stand between her legs that are hanging over the edge of the bed and help with the ties in the back of the gown. When I'm done I wrap my arms around her, pulling her head to me to rest on my chest, as I leave soft kisses in her hair.

"I'll be back soon; it shouldn't take me too long. Then we will get something to eat, fuck this bland ass hospital food, both of my babies need a real meal. After we eat, we can go to my house, okay?" I rub soothing circles on her back as she giggles and nods her response into my chest.

Before I leave, I situate her so she is laying back down and push her hair behind her ears, as I pepper her face with kisses that make her giggle some more, I love that sound so fucking much.

"I love you." I leave a soft open mouthed kiss to her lips.

I travel down to where my baby is, gently rubbing Bella's abdomen. "And daddy loves you too, little one." I whisper to my child, before leaving a soft kiss there as well, while Bella runs her fingers through my hair.

When I look up at her she is wearing the biggest smile I have ever seen, with unshed tears in her eyes and now I really have to get out of here, while I still have my emotions in check. I caress her cheek gently one more time, loving the way her soft skin feels beneath my palm before I turn around to leave.

"We love you too, Edward." Bella calls out to me, as I'm about to walk out of the door and I feel a single tear escape down my cheek.

I wipe the tear away before I turn around and walk back to her bedside, taking her hand when I reach her. I know I can't leave this room until I know where we stand with each other, I need conformation—I need her.

"Bella, I don't want to make any assumptions on where we stand. I agree that we should take it slow and do things the right way I don't want to mess things up between us either, so would you do me the honor of being my girlfriend? I would like nothing more than for it to be official." I stare into her eyes awaiting her answer, trying to convey to her that nothing would make me happier right now then to be able to leave this room knowing without a doubt that I'm hers and she is mine.

A/N

I had to leave you with a little cliffie, sorry! Next chapter we will find out what Bella's answer will be. So what did you think? Did you like my lemon? Please review and let me know, thanks!

* bitch made=slang for acting like a punk bitch

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I would like to recommend a story for you to read, I love it. It's written by my BETA melonscraps and its called Just Driving Thru, so if you have some time, give it a chance you won't be disappointed.

Summary:

Somewhat insecure Bella is miserable working at McDonalds, till one day Edward comes through the Drive Thru. What happens when she starts thinking of him as his visits increase? Funny, Romantic, Lemony Goodness! AH BxE

Link:

http:/www(dot)fanfiction(dot)net/s/5627507/1/Just_Driving_Thru

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