Crazy Phone Calls and Blood Battles

Jacob POV

THANKS TO MY BETA LUV2BELUVED FOR THE HELP WITH THIS ONE. I NEEDED IT BECAUSE THE FIRST DRAFT OF THIS CHAPTER WAS A CHALLENGE.

HERE WE GO PEOPLE, ANOTHER DOOZEY FOR YA....

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I slammed the front door shut and didn't even care that I cracked the glass pane.

The past month had been one of the worst in my life. Not only was Nessie always mad at me for some reason, but this whole baby thing was frustrating beyond belief. I never intentionally meant to snap at her but when she raises her voice like that, I just can't help but retaliate. It seemed that we fought more than anything nowadays because everything I did was wrong in Nessie's eyes and deserved a shouting match. I knew it was because of the stress we were going through but I didn't care. We should be able to get through this without ripping each other's heads off.

She was being childish. That was the main issue I was battling. How can she just up and leave when things got hard and then she had the nerve to throw my past indiscretions in my face like I had wronged her for all these years. It was like she was just waiting to call me out on all the times I walked out. She didn't even tell me where she was going and that kind of scared me but I knew she could take care of herself so I didn't worry about her getting hurt. The main thing I was battling in my mind was the situation we were thrown in.

The past month had been hell and she shut me out without any word other than a couple of shouts and yells. We never really talked anymore because she was so temperamental and I didn't feel like dealing with her when she was like that.

Tonight, I came in the house and meant to keep my cool. We needed to talk about everything she was going through because it wasn't going to get any better if she just kept it inside all the time. I could tell that all the pressure everyone was putting on us was weighing her down but I seemed to be handling it better than she was. She would snap at anyone who said one wrong thing and didn't even try to act cordial anymore.

I watched as my marriage began to crumble around me. Was this entire baby idea worth it if I lost Nessie? We didn't even talk anymore. Would it really get any better if this didn't work for us? I knew it would only get worse as the days progressed and I was already tired of the failed pregnancy tests and fucking vitamins that obviously weren't working. Nothing was working and I doubted it ever would. This just wasn't meant for us and the quicker Nessie got over it, the quicker we could try and get back to being normal.

The sad thing was, I knew we would never be back to normal because this was going to loom over us forever. She would feel like a failure and I would have to try and bring her back from a depression that I knew was coming. If she was angry now, it was nothing compared to what was going to happen when our six months were up and we were still babyless. At this point, it just made more sense to stop trying before we got in too deep but we still had three months and Nessie was trying to cling onto time like it was her life source. I felt bad but I wanted her to be realistic.

Every time I brought something up about quitting, she would just start screaming at me, which set me off and it would all turn into a huge shouting match. This wasn't worth it. How could we ever think that this was going to work for us when the odds were so stacked against us?

I sat at the kitchen counter and tapped my finger on the side of the glass of vodka that was in my hands. The sound of my wedding band clinking on the glass brought me out of my thoughts. I downed the last of the vodka as the phone was ringing and didn't want to answer it but I already knew who it was.

"Hello Bella." I sighed as I picked up the phone.

"Is everything alright? Nessie just said she was leaving and I tried her cell but it didn't work."

"No it wouldn't. She busted the thing against the wall before she stormed out." I smashed my palms into my eyes, trying to wipe away the thoughts of our last fight.

"Well, what happened?"

"What always happens, she just snapped."

"What did you say this time?" Bella groaned.

"I don't even remember but it didn't warrant a fucking screaming match."

"So she just walked out?"

"Yeah, she said she deserved to since I walked out so many times before."

"No she didn't."

"Yes she did and then she left. I don't know where the hell she went or when the hell she's coming back." I held my head in my hand on the counter.

"I'm sure it's jut the hormones Jacob. You guys will be back to normal once all of this is over."

I laughed, "I was just thinking about how we were never going to be the same again. It's just not worth it Bella."

"Don't say that Jacob. Everything is worth it to hold your child in your arms."

"Not if I loose Nessie to all of this fighting. I don't think I can take it anymore."

"I'm sorry Jacob."

Bella handed the phone off to Edward and we talked for an hour while Bella tried to reach Nessie on the car phone but she didn't have any luck. Edward said that we should give her about a day to cool off and then track her using her credit cards if she didn't come home. I knew that wouldn't work because he had trained her better than that. If Nessie wanted to disappear, she could. She was a master at going under the radar and on some occasions, I could have sworn that she belonged to the Russian mafia or something. We all had to be skilled in disappearing just in case something happened. Nessie was one of the best and I doubted we would be able to find her if she didn't want us to.

While Nessie was good at hiding, Edward was better and he was smart. He already had Jasper tracking the phone in her car and found her in Port Angeles. I wasn't going to go get her because she would just start screaming again so I took his advice and let her cool off for now, but we would definitely be having a talk about all of this in a couple of days.

She had to learn that she couldn't shut me out especially now. We had too many emotions running through us to just let them fester. Eventually, the emotions would drive us insane. This wasn't healthy for anyone and I hated to think that we were both suffering in silence when we could be talking about these things to lessen some of the pain. I tried on numerous occasions to talk about what was going on but she avoided me like the plague on most days and didn't even try to hide her distaste for me.

Bella tried to convince me that it was just the hormones but I knew better. This was Nessie's way of dealing. When she got mad, she was trying to tell me that she wanted to talk but didn't want to appear weak and didn't want to let me in, which I didn't understand because I was her fucking husband. Who else was she going to talk to? We should be able to get through this together but she kept pushing me away so I knew it wasn't going to be much longer before I couldn't take any more.

All the tests never worked, the hormones and pills we were pumping through our bodies didn't have any success and whatever else Doc was trying wasn't helping so why try? Nothing was going to work because we were just too different from each other. Half vampires were so rare anyways but no one even thought about having one breed with a werewolf. That didn't even sound possible so why were we trying? The whole thing seemed more absurd the more I thought about it and I didn't even want to think about what I was going to say to Nessie.

I had to let her know that this wasn't going to work for us. We had to give up because if we kept going, there would be no family left for us. I didn't want to think that I was giving up on is but we would be torn apart if we kept going for these next three months. There wouldn't be anything left to salvage because I wasn't going to be able to handle it. She was just as messed up as I was and on several occasions, I could see her ready to just kill me so she wouldn't have to go through anything harder. My marriage was too important to me to let it get damaged by the prospect of an idea I had no control over. This was too much for both of us to handle and I didn't know how much longer we would last.

I went to bed that night with a thousand thoughts running through my brain and didn't even get to sleep until early that morning. The birds were already chirping by the time I passed out. I would have slept well if that goddamn phone wasn't ringing off the hook.

"Nessie, get the phone." I groaned but then laughed, "Oh that's right, you walked out." I looked at her spot.

I dragged myself over to the phone on her side of the bed and picked it up. I didn't even bother asking who it was. I just left the phone on my ear, waiting for someone to say something.

"Hello?" A male voice asked.

"Yeah?" I replied sleepily.

"Is this the Black residence?"

"Yeah."

"Good, this is the Port Angeles police department and we held a Renesmee Black over night but she needs to be picked up."

"Is this Seth? Do you have any idea what time it is?" I growled.

"Sir, I don't know who Seth is but this is Roger Michels of the Port Angeles police department like I said."

I sat up in bed, "Are you serious?"

"Yes sir. Your wife was arrested last night but she posted bail. She needs a ride." He repeated.

"Is she there with you now?"

"Hold on one second sir." There was a shuffle on the other end before I heard her voice.

"What?" She snapped.

"Don't what me? What the fuck are you doing in jail?" I asked angrily.

"Don't yell at me. I'm not a child Jacob and I made a stupid mistake but I don't need you to get angry with me."

"How could I not be angry? My wife is in jail." I said as I threw on a shirt and shoes.

"Just come and get me." She said roughly and the phone went dead.

I just stared at the phone stunned. What else was I supposed to do after getting the craziest phone call of my life? Was she really in jail? I guess she was since some deputy from the police department called but still it sounded so absurd. What did she do to get in jail? This was so stupid. She just walked out and then gets hauled off to jail. What the fuck was going on?

I was beyond livid at this point. She was my wife, not my child so why was I always doing things like this? Why was I always the one who had to bail her out of these situations? She was acting so out of character and it was getting on my last nerve. This was the last straw. It was obvious that this whole situation was getting to her in more ways than she was letting on and I had to convince her that we had to stop trying for a baby.

That was all I was thinking as I drove to Port Angeles at 300 mph. I pulled into the station and getting madder as I walked up to the reception area. Not only was I woken up at fucking six o' clock in the morning but I had to go pick up my wife from jail. This whole thing was so stupid and I wasn't going to let her deteriorate our lives anymore. I went in and saw a sleeping office but no one else.

"Hello?" I tired but there was no response.

"Hey!" I shouted and slammed my hand on the desk.

He shot straight up and looked around in a daze until his eyes focused on me, "Yeah…how can I help you?" He wiped the spit from his mouth.

"I was called in to pick up my wife who was held here overnight." I said through clenched teeth.

"Black?" He asked and I nodded, "Hold on one second." He got some keys and went into the back.

The whole time he was gone, I was pacing the floor like a mad man. I should have been more worried about her but I really wasn't at this point. I was too annoyed to feel anything but pure anger. I wasn't going to hit her or anything but she had to know that this was unacceptable. God, I really was her father. What was she thinking?

I had to calm myself down because I didn't really know the situation but I was surely going to find out when we got home.

The officer came back with a pissed off Nessie who had drops of blood on her white pants and a mean looking face. She actually looked like a vampire.

"Here are some papers that you have to sign." The officer pushed a couple papers towards Nessie and she ripped the pen across the bottom as she signed them.

"Is that all?" She snapped.

"Yes, if Mr. Brawny chooses to press charges, which I expect he will, you'll be getting a summons in the mail. Have a good day." The officer smiled before going to file away the papers.

Nessie turned around with the look of the devil on her face and I don't even think she realized how serious this was. She was going to try and play this off like it was nothing. She was fucking arrested.

"Good morning." I laughed sarcastically.

"Don't start Jacob. Just take me back to the hotel."

"Why? You're coming home with me." I said simply.

"I don't want to go home right now." She pushed past me and went outside into the rain.

"You're going home because you don't have a choice." I said loudly as she nearly ripped the passenger's side door off of the hinges.

"You're not my father Jacob." She said with acid dripping from her tone.

"I was just thinking about how I'm exactly like your father." I didn't turn the car on because we weren't going anywhere until she told me what was going on.

"Just take me home."

"No. What the fuck did you do to get arrested?" I nearly shouted.

"None of your business."

"Fine." I turned on the car and sped out of the police station.

"Where are you going?"

"We're going to see Charlie. He's an officer, I'm pretty sure he can get the files."

"Just take me home Jacob." She screamed but I didn't respond. I might have killed her if I had.

She huffed and leaned back in the seat the entire drive back to Forks. I knew that the situation was serious because the officer said something about pressing charges. If she didn't want to talk to me, I knew she was going to have a long conversation with Edward because she couldn't keep anything from him. My main goal was to try and convince her that we had to stop with the baby making because it was obviously too much for her. I would let Charlie and Edward rip into her for whatever she did but I didn't really know what else she could do to try and prove she was less of an adult.

"I'm not going in." She said sternly.

"The hell you aren't. We're having a long conversation about this." I got out and opened her door but she still didn't move, "Don't make me drag you in there."

"I dare you."

I banged my fist on the top of the car so hard, it cause it to dent. I was too pissed to even care that my precious Lamborghini was tainted. She was making me so mad and in a minute, I was going to have to take a run or I might seriously blow up at her.

"I swear…" I began but Bella cut me off.

"Renesmee Carlie Cullen, what the hell did you get yourself into? Your grandfather just called about some arrest in Port Angeles and you have blood on your pants. What the hell is going on?" She shouted.

"Nothing."

"Bullshit."

Bella actually dragged Nessie, kicking and screaming, by the neck and shoved her into the house. I stayed outside for a little while so I could calm my breathing because it wouldn't help anybody to have another person shouting at her. I could hear Edward demanding to know what had happened but she was just yelling back without giving up any information. That meant it was something really bad.

"I see your wife made it home." I heard a sniveling voice from behind me.

"Leah, I don't have the patience to deal with you right now." I seethed.

"I think you do."

"Get away from me."

"Why don't we do a run Jacob? I need to show you something." She smirked and took off into the forest. I needed a good run so I didn't hesitate to follow after here. I phased in a second and was running on all fours just as we shot off towards the cliffs.

What do you want? I asked.

I know why Nessie got arrested and I know why she doesn't want to tell anyone. Her tone sounded like she was laughing.

How the fuck do you know what happened?

Because I was there and I was the one who saved her ass.

Saved her from what? Leah, what the hell is going on?

I was transported into Leah's mind and saw as she got out of her small blue car in front of some dingy bar in Port Angeles. There were some kids outside smoking and it looked like it was a place the college kids would hang out at so I didn't know why Leah was going in there until I saw her walk into the door and a manager reprimanded her for being late. I guess she worked there now.

She turned the corner and I caught several glimpses of dancing bodies, strobe lights, and caught the strong smell of vodka. It was nothing out of the ordinary for a bar but I knew Nessie must have been there.

Can we just get to where Nessie's at? I said viciously.

Fine.

There were a couple pictures of things that were hazy so I guessed they were unimportant. Everything slowed down and became clearer as I saw Nessie practically face eating some dude at the bar.

Literally. Leah laughed.

What?

Just watch.

I continued to watch, mad as shit, as Nessie and this guy continued to swap spit and I was lucky that I wasn't there or I would have certainly killed everyone within a two-mile radius. What the hell was she doing? Was she drunk? Did she sleep with him? So help me God if she did because I was going to find the fucker and murder him or her, whoever I got my hands on first.

I didn't want to watch anymore but I couldn't stop watching as their mouths moved together. It looked like she was feasting on him and didn't seem loving like our kisses but still disrupted my stomach like nothing I had experienced. I almost gagged when I saw her tongue dart into his mouth and then I saw something weird. I don't know if my eyes were just deceiving me but I think I saw a trickle of blood make its way from her mouth, down to her pants where it spotted the white fabric.

What the hell?

Can't you see what she's doing?

No, why is she bleeding?

She's not bleeding you dipshit.

I watched closer and noticed that she actually did look she was eating him. Was she…

Holy shit. I said as I watched her chew at the poor boy's mouth and the blood continued to seep out of what I assumed to be a rather large hole.

No one but Leah seemed to be watching this horrid spectacle in the bar but I could faintly hear the boy's cries as Nessie continued to suck him dry.

None of this made any sense. My Nessie wasn't a killer. What the fuck was going on?

Before I could hear anything else, I took off back towards the house and didn't stop until I was at the front door. I had to remember to phase so that I didn't barge in as a wolf after I put on some clothes, I raced in to find Nessie being hounded on by Edward and Bella. I guess she told them what had happened because Bella was going on and on about how they were vegetarians and bullshit like that. I just wanted to get Nessie alone because I knew there must have been a good reason for her to attack that guy.

"Can everyone just please shut up!" Nessie screamed, "I didn't mean to. How many times do I have to say it?"

"It doesn't matter if you didn't mean to, you did and you should have controlled yourself." Edward scolded.

"He had his hand on my leg and he wouldn't let go."

"Ok, so punch him, kick him, whatever, not chew his face off."

"You're impossible and you wonder why I never come over here anymore." She yelled and then ran past me, out of the house.

"I'll go." I said as Edward made a move to follow her.

I ran and followed her scent until I heard her crying somewhere near by. I saw her hunched under a tree and the tears that stained her cheeks nearly killed me but I had to make sure we talked about this. I crouched next to her but didn't touch her.

"Ness, what were you thinking?"

"Do you hate me?" She asked, avoiding my question.

"Well, no but you kind of shocked me back there."

"How did you find out?"

"Leah."

She scoffed, "Figures she would try to point out my wrongdoings."

"You should be lucky she was there. You would have killed that boy in a room full of people and you didn't even care."

"I know." She hung her head, "But it wasn't all my fault."

"What happened?"

She rested her hand on my chest and pushed her story through my body. I saw from the time she walked out of the house and immediately felt like shit as I cowered under the weight of all her emotions.

There was anger and pain but the most overwhelming emotion was despair. She thought she was a failure and I could understand why but there was still no need for her to beat herself up over this. I watched as she raced down the highway and heard her inner thoughts about how angry she was with me. Through her memories, I could see our fight and didn't realize it had been that bad. I never meant to intentionally blow up like that but it just happened.

I saw as she entered the bar and sat for drinks and then as that fucker she called Brad Pitt tried to take her home. I was so proud when she got a yelp out of him when she nearly ripped his balls off. That was kind of funny but then he kissed her and I was right back in my state of rage. She bit down hard and I could smell the blood as if seeped out of his tongue. I felt her desire overtake her willpower as she began to suck him dry.

I felt the strong, heated hands of Leah as she jerked Nessie out of the bar. I now had a weird feeling about Leah. Although she had saved Nessie from killing that boy but the things she said to her were downright inappropriate. That was exactly why Nessie was cracking. All of this pressure on her was more than she could handle and she knew that people were judging her even though they didn't say anything to her face like Leah had.

I watched as those two police officers threw Nessie on the hood of their car and a searing pain shot up my face as she remembered the feeling. I got an odd sense of pride as Nessie spit in Brad Pitt's face but then he hit her and that almost made me go insane.

She pulled her hand back hesitantly, "Are you mad?" She asked again but I didn't know how to answer her.

Of course I wasn't mad at her for the bar incident. I reality, I would have killed him but she was defending herself so I guess she had a right to drain the kid. I was pissed off at those officers and was tempted to speak to Charlie about filing a complaint but I knew they would just get a slap on the wrist because they were on the payroll of the mayor but it still might be worth it. I wasn't mad at her for any of that but I was still mad that she walked out and I was mad that she felt the need to hide all of her feelings from me.

"I know I did something horrible but I really didn't mean to and I tried to stop Jacob, I really did." She said frantically when I didn't answer her question.

"I know and I'm not mad at you for any of that but why did you hide all of this from me? All those feelings? You can't deal with all that by yourself."

I had no control over myself as I pulled her into my lap and she cried into my chest, "I'm so sorry Jacob. I've been such a bitch and I don't even know why. I just can't take all of this." She cried harder.

"I know and I'm sorry about this." I cooed but she didn't quite down.

I held her for as long as I could and didn't ever want to let go but I couldn't stand her tears any longer. I lifted her up so that I could see her and wiped the water from her cheeks. I knew I had to have that talk with her now or I would never say it.

"Nessie, we can't keep doing this." I began, "We have to stop."

"Stop what?" She asked.

"We have to stop all of this." I didn't want to say it but I had to, "We have to stop trying for a baby."

Her lip trembled and she hung her head, "We just have three more months. Can't we hold off until then?"

"I don't think we'll last. We're both going crazy over something that will never happen."

"You don't know that Jacob." She said angrily.

"Yes I do Nessie. This isn't meant for us and the sooner you get over it then the sooner we can get back to us. Just you and me."

"But I want this so badly."

"I know you do and if I could, I would give you anything you wanted but we have to be realistic. Our marriage is falling apart and it will only get worse if we keep going down this road."

"I know we can do it Jacob, please don't make me give up." She cried.

"I don't think we can afford to keep going Ness. I'm sorry.

"What are you saying Jacob?" She asked and her voice cracked again.

"I'm saying that I can't keep doing this. I can't put either one of us through hell when it's not going to be worth it in the end."

"You promised Jacob. You promised that you wouldn't leave me."

"I just can't…I want you; the old you not this women who's too obsessed to care about anything else. I need her back." I placed a kiss on her forehead before turning around and walking back to the house.

"Jake, don't do this!" I could hear Nessie screaming from behind me but I didn't want to turn around.

I threw my hands in the air and continued to walk. I was done. It was her decision to figure out what was more important.

"Tell me if you want a baby or me Nessie but I can't keep this up." I shouted back but didn't turn around because if I saw the look on her face, I would crumble.

She could have our marriage or keep going with this insanity but it wasn't possible to have both.


HOLY BROKEN MARRAIGE BATMAN

OK SO DONT HATE ME. PLEASE DONT HATE ME. I HAD TO DO IT. THERE WAS NO OTHER OPTION.

JUST ADDING ANOTHER ELEMENT TO THE STORY. LIKE I SAID BEFORE, THIS IS A VERY STRESSFUL TIME FOR THE BOTH OF THEM AND IF YOU 'VE GONE THROUGH THIS, THEN YOU KNOW THAT IT'S NOT EASY. A LOT OF COUPLES ACTUALLY DO BREAK UP FROM THE PRESSURE.

LET'S ALL HOPE JAKE AND NESSIE ARE STRONGER THAN THAT.