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Chapter 12
When I got back to the house I unloaded my bags. We dropped Annemarie off at her house on our way back. Well technically we didn't drop her off, we dropped her bags off. She ran home. I bought three pairs of skinny jeans, five pairs of regular jeans, six tank tops, seven shirts, three blouses, two pairs of pajamas, some lingerie, a dress for homecoming, and some new shoes. Alice would definitely need to be emptying my closet very soon if we were going to continue to shop like this.
I sat down to get ready for my date with Jacob, it felt like hours until I was finally ready. I just decided to wear some jeans, flip flops, and a buttoned up white tank top. My hair was still nicely curled from my day out with the girls.
"RENESMEE!" Dad was hollering, I really didn't feel like talking right now, I just wanted to go to the beach. Speeding down the stairs I sat down on the white sofa in the family room.
"Yes Dad." I mumbled under my breathe. He was sitting there with Jazz and Em, smiling. "What do you have planned for the night?" I rolled my eyes. Right now was no time for the sex talk, or a sweet little lecture on when to be home and how to act. He knew I would be fine, I don't know why they all worry so much.
"I don't know dad, Jake hasn't told me, so far all I know is that we are going to the beach." Emmett jerked his head back on the head of the couch. He turned to face towards Jazz and they both started laughing.
"What!" I exclaimed, I don't think they understood how right now they were very much annoying me.
Dad cleared his throat. "Don't have sex. Please. And please be home early tomorrow night if you have plans, tomorrow's your birthday dinner. Everyone's coming over." I nodded and stood up.
Jazz was at my side in an instant. He placed his arm on my shoulder and smiled. "Don't be mad at us, we just love you so much." He grabbed my chin and shook my head a little. I started laughing at there moments of crazily attitudes when they were together. I started walking out and waved when Uncle Em hollered for me. "Don't be home late, I don't wanna have to come and Embarrass you sweetheart.
The car was cold. Even for me. I turned up the heat and cranked the radio as loud as I could. Silence was not what I wanted to hear, it made me feel empty. After the dream I had last night, I felt empty inside. Like everyone was abandoning me. That if everyone left, they wouldn't care how bad it would affect me, because I didn't matter to them. It was just a dream I kept repeating to myself. It was just a dream. The road to La Push was slushy from the rain the night before. I could see some sprinkles of rain trickle down from the sky onto the window as I crept the speedometer up to 110.
As I turned into the curvy, dirt road drive to the beach I started laughing at Quil and Embry started wrestling in the waves. They were putting each other in headlocks and throwing them into the ocean. Jacob was waiting in an empty parking spot. When I pulled into I laid my hand on the horn, startling him he jumped onto the hood of the car with an upset expression.
Cracking up I unbuckled my seatbelt as he opened the door for me. "Not funny Nessie."
"Oh come on, you know it was a pretty good one." He smiled. I knew he wasn't really mad. He pinned me against his body. Laying my head on his shoulder he smelled of aftershave and pine trees. "My favorite."
He looked at me, "Your favorite what?"
"My favorite smell." I kissed his neck and pulled away. He sighed and rested his hand on my shoulder. "What's wrong?" I asked him curiously, putting on my best flirty face like mom used to do whenever she wanted to get information out of him.
He took my hand and guided me to Ridge Point Rock. I climbed up and sat on the edge of it watching the sunset fall into the ocean. He took my hand, "Look Ness. I didn't' leave you that note so we could spend time together. I wrote you the note so I could tell you something." - he took a deep breathe, and faced the direction of the waves before continuing. - "We're leaving."
I snatched my hand away. "What? Whose leaving? What are you talking about?" Jake tried to take my hand again, but I pulled it away and placed it on my lap. Sighing he started to answer my questions. "Me, Seth, Leah, Paul, Quil, Embry, Sam, all of us. Were leaving." - he started to play with a piece of rock that was breaking off of Ridge Point.
"I don't know how to tell you this. I don't want to be away from you, and you know I don't, but I have to go." I shook my head, "Why do you have to go Jacob? If you don't want to why do you have to?"
"'Because even though were all separate packs now, we're still a family. And the family wants to get away from it all and look to start fresh in Canada. You couldn't expect us to stay here forever." He gave me his most pleading eyes. I looked away, my throat burned. It was agony. I tried not to blink to stop the pain overflowing my eyes because I knew that the tears would fall. He was breaking my heart. Didn't he know that.
"Jacob, you imprinted. You imprinted on me, ME!" - I wiped a tear away - "You know what it's like to imprint, because it only happens once! ONE TIME! That's all you get, and you chose me! Things were finally starting to turn out and no you decided to leave! Your just going to go, without any consolation of how I feel, or what could possibly happen to me if your gone?"
He scooted closer trying to hold me but it wasn't working. "I don't want to leave you, but I have to stay with my true family. I'll come back for you.. Someday.."
I was bawling now. Someday. Someday he would come back for me, imprinting didn't work like that. If he truly loved me he wouldn't want to leave, and he wouldn't have to. But look he's choosing to leave me behind and he doesn't care. He doesn't care about me. He never did. I was probably some price bit to get his official chance to be with my mom. I knew she was who he really wanted, but now it all made sense.
Warm tears were streaming down my face. "You want someone else don't you?"
He shook his head no. but I knew it must have been a lie. "how can you just abandon me. Do you not understand my feelings for you? I thought you LOVED ME YOU KNEW HOW BADLY I CARED ABOUT YOU!" I was screaming and crying, I was so upset I didn't know where to go or what to do. I jumped of the rock and was standing in the sand looking up at him. He jumped shortly after and we were locked in a war zone. Our eyes pinned with each others.
I could see his eyes becoming wet looking. I couldn't tell if he was crying, or if they just appeared that way. "Renesmee, I'm sorry. I just can't be with you right now. You're a child, it still doesn't feel like the right time for me."
"I'm a child. I'm a child. What's with this fake excuse. I'm not going to age that much more. And why is age such a different, for god sakes how old are you?"
"that's not fair."
"then tell me what is fair Jacob. That you can just lie to me, and tell me you pretty much don't want me anymore. Have you ever really even wanted me, or was I just some bait piece for you to hook up with my mom?"
If I didn't already rip his heart out with the words I had said before. This would have done it. He was speechless. His face so pale and lifeless. He stepped back and started shaking, I could see his arms and legs turning into spasms.
"How… could… you… ever… think… that…" he clenched his hands into fist. Making his veins pop out even more then they already were. His eyes were a darken brown, and his body shaking became more ferocious. His eyes were a darkened black. He took a step away from as i did him. But it was too late, he started trembling, and thrustin his body around everywhere. I knew not to get him upset, but it was too late. Jacob was completely enraged.
