He loves me… or He loves me Not… The outsiders
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Outsiders Character. They all belong to S.E. Hinton Except for my Character Lily, Anthony, and any other Character I add in there.
Author's Note: Thanks to my faithful reader Monkeypants17 who makes me laugh every time with the reviews. Absolutely love your reviews. Also to all my other Faithful readers who are patient enough with me. Thanks and I love you all! Lyrics are "Rain" By Breaking Benjamin Perfect song for a sad part tear Also that would be the song to listen to if you like listening to music while reading
Chapter 12
As I stretched in my bed the next morning I smiled. I got up and went down the stairs. I saw Steve in the kitchen eating chocolate cake. "Lily we need to talk" Steve said in a stern tone. "Why I did exactly what you wanted, I'm not with Anthony. I'll tell him today ok" I said and had myself a glass of chocolate milk. Soda like always was rushing around the house looking for his shoes, or shirt, or something he had missing. He stopped at me and took a big gulp of my milk. I pushed him playfully as I got my milk back and smiled. The door opened and slammed shut. "Here comes Dallas" I said with my back to the doorway and putting my glass in the sink.
"Tim Lily?! Tim?!" he sounded angry. I turned and faced him. "Oh you saw that?" I asked sarcastic. "Whoops" I said covering my mouth. Before Dallas could speak I spoke. "Oh and speaking of Tim, I have something to take care of" I said shoving passed the boys to go upstairs to change. When I was done, I was out the door off to find Anthony. I sighed as I got to his door. I knocked slightly hesitant. After a few minutes Anthony opened and smiled. "Hey Sweetheart" he said as he kept his smile. "Oh don't you "Sweetheart" Me!" I said harsh and pushed him. "Whoa what's going on?!" he asked as his smile faded.
"Why don't you tell me what's going on! So How was the beer blast last night?" I said keeping my tone. He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion as he looked at the ground, whispering things to himself. Then his eyes widened. "I…What… All I remember was drinking a lot of beer. My friend was telling me to loosen up because I wanted to bail to come see you and then…" He looked at me. I licked my dry lips. "That girl…" he said barely audible. "Sweetheart, you have to believe me…" he said starting to reach towards me but I backed up. "Believe what? You're lies? Say you didn't mean to hurt me and it'll never happen again and that everything will be ok?! And we can go back to how we were and act and pretend that nothing ever happened. Well things did happen Anthony! Look what's happening to us! You kissed someone and so did I" I said starting to lose control of my emotions. The look of guilt and sadness took over his words for he was speechless. "So what happens now?" he asked after a little bit his voice saddened. "Maybe… Maybe we should take a break" I said softly. Anthony sighed hoping not to have to resort to this. "For how long?" he asked. "I don't know. We both went with someone else that night… Maybe we need to see other people until we really know what we want…" I said my voice filled with hurt. "If I agree to this… Can I have one favor?" he asked and I nodded holding in my tears. He touched my cheek gingerly and tilted his head down from the height distance.
He went close to my ear and whispered softly. "I know you don't want to hear this… But I really never meant to hurt you. I never thought I deserved you, I still don't think so. Will you do me the favor; promise me, you'll find someone who deserves you, someone far better than me that will treat you far better than I ever could. Please promise me" "I...I Promise" I said. "I can promise you right now… No man could ever love you more than I do now and forever and no other girl can or will change that…. I Love you Lily." That's when I let the tear fall and I closed my eyes. I felt him gently wipe it away as I kept my eyes closed and felt his warm lips touched mine gently.
"Bye Lily" he said and I opened my eyes. He went in his house after one last long look between us and shut the door. I let the other tear fall. "I Love you too Anthony… More than you know" I said and turned to leave his yard, following the path to the sidewalk. It began to rain and turned into a downpour. I pulled my hood over my head and stared at my feet as I walked.
Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun
I continued to walk, crossed the tracks, and headed to the Dingo. Maybe this break was a bad idea. Too late to turn back now. I sighed heavily and looked in front of me to see the Dingo. I saw Tim and Dally at a table and tried to avoid them seeing me. "Lily over here" I heard Tim say and I sucked in air. I sighed and turned to face them, heading over and sitting beside Tim. Tim put his arm around my waist and pulled me close. "Dallas and I were just talking about you" he said and I smiled. But then it faded when I looked away.
Why was I like this? Was Dallas right in saying he turned me soft? Oh maybe he did! But I didn't care. I loved him and he loved me and right now I'd do anything to be in his arms. Dallas was giving me glares and it was starting to piss me off. Just as a little revenge of all the times he flaunted Sylvia in front of me when he knew I liked him… I came up with a plan. I moved closer to Tim and started tracing the scar on his face. "Did I mention how much I love scars?" I said softly into his ear and smiled. I looked at time again and he smiled at me. I kissed him and watched as anger boiled into Dallas's face. I closed my eyes and all I could picture was Anthony.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion of
A heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
You're getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Tim was sweet and a great kisser… but he was no Anthony. That's when I knew. I couldn't… I pushed him away from me and broke the kiss. "Tim… I'm Sorry, I can't, and this won't work out. I was just so mad at Dallas and Steve and I... I'm truly sorry Tim" before he could answer I moved from his arm and got out of the booth, quickly running out the door. I pulled my hood over because it was still raining. I continued to run, I couldn't stop, I knew what I had to do.
Rain rain, go away
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun
I ran over the train tracks and continued to run. Finally I reached the walkway to Anthony's front door. I walked fast to the door and knocked. My clothes were sticking to me and my hair was soaked from my hood falling down. I breathed in the cold air. I turned to the door and it was dark inside all except for one window, Anthony's room. I knocked louder and waited praying he would answer. "Coming coming" I heard a voice say groggily. The door opened and I saw Anthony's tired eyes look at me with surprise. "Lily?" he questioned and rubbed his eyes. "Anthony I need to say something before its too late" I said. "Come inside..." "No, I can't delay anything anymore, I just can't" I interrupted. "Ok, ok, what is it?" he said calmly and with care and he placed a hand on my cheek, giving me a look of worry.
I pulled him to me, pulling him into the rain as I wrapped an arm around his neck. I kissed him deeply and felt him put one hand on my hip as he kept the other on my face. I looked up at him as we both broke the kiss. "I need you. You're the only one I want. You treat me better than anyone ever has. And you're right. You're the only man who could ever love me as much as you do. And I don't care what people think. That's the thing about it! Neither of us do! Because we wouldn't be here like this if we cared. You do deserve me and I don't care if you think other wise. I can't be away from you for another second for I fear my heart would fail. I have loved none before you and I will love none after you. You have stolen my heart. I Love you Anthony. I Love you" I said starting to laugh a bit.
To lie here under you,
is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all
Anthony stared at me speechless. "Well… Say something… Please?" I said starting to get nervous that I just poured my heart out and he wasn't saying anything. Just giving me this shocked expression. He pulled me back into him and kissed me passionately. I laughed in the kiss as I kissed him back. The rain began to stop as we kissed. A bright light shown through the gray sky and we both looked into the sun coming from the clouds as we held each other. I smiled up at him as he smiled down at me. "But what about the promise?" he asked. "I found him…" I whispered softly. "He's right in front me… He always has been" I said and smiled again. He kissed me again after he smiled as the sun shined through the clouds glowing rays of light down at us.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
