Thanks for all of your reviews! I know it's been a week since I updated and I'm very lazy! But I'm not really lazy, I've just had a ridiculous amount of work to do! I know that seems like just another pathetic excuse, but there has been sooo much! Anyway, here's the update…


Calleigh stopped, she couldn't believe what she was actually doing. How could she tell Alexx anything? What was she going to tell her? Eric had trusted her, could she really break that trust? She couldn't do it.

"Alexx, I'm sorry I can't!" Calleigh said standing up, "I've got to go."

"Calleigh…"

"I'm sorry Alexx, I just have to go."

Alexx stood and watched as Calleigh disappeared. She didn't know what was going on, but she knew whatever it was it had to be huge for it to be affecting Calleigh this much. She was annoyed she hadn't managed to get more out of Calleigh, she had just begun opening up and then out of nowhere she just left. Alexx stood up and left the room and made her way back to the morgue.

Calleigh walked toward her car, it was the middle of the day and her shift didn't finish for hours she hadn't even seen Horatio, but she didn't care, Horatio could wait. She needed to see Eric. He needed her and she had just walked out on him. When had this all become so complicated? She climbed in her car and drove home. She knew it was hard for Eric to open up, she knew he didn't want to talk about it, but she also knew what this would do to him if he didn't talk about it. All her life she had been so terrified of admitting what had happened to her, even to herself, it wasn't like she had even chosen to tell Eric, he had just found out and then there was no way she could deny it. If he hadn't found out then, he probably still wouldn't know, he would have found the scars and ask the questions but she'd have found away around it, even if she'd explained she could have told him only the bare minimum. She did feel like a hypocrite trying to get him to talk when it was the last thing she had wanted to do, but she felt so much better for him knowing now and wanted him to feel the same, she only wanted to help him.

She pulled up outside her apartment and made her way inside, opening the door slowly, she hoped Eric had come out of the bedroom since this morning; she hated having to talk to him through a door.

"Eric," she shouted, walking further into her apartment. When there was no reply, Calleigh kept walking and made her way into the kitchen, Eric was stood there making himself a coffee.

"Eric," Calleigh said more quietly this time.

"Hey," Eric said, turning around to face her, "you're back already, what did Horatio want?"

"I don't know," Calleigh confessed, "I didn't see him, I wanted to come and talk to you."

"I could've waited," Eric said.

"You said we could talk later, so I figured we could talk now."

"Calleigh…"

"Please just talk to me Eric."

"I don't know what to say."

"Anything, how do you feel?"

"Fine….I…"

"No, I mean how do you really feel?"

"I….I don't know…I mean….everything was fine and now it's just a mess! One minute I feel normal and then I feel like I just can't breathe anymore, what they did has just taken over and it hurts."

Calleigh walked over to Eric and wrapped her arms around his waist.

"It's ok, it's going to be ok," she whispered quietly, although deep down she knew things were never going to be the same again. Eric would never be the same.

"I've been thinking about what you said about the case…" Eric started.

"Yeah…" Calleigh said, pausing to let him continue.

"I want to make them pay for ruining my life, but it's just…"

"You don't want everyone to know, you don't want to have to go to court, you don't want to have to talk about it, you don't want to be accused of lying, or 'asking for it' or be told that there is not enough evidence." Calleigh stopped.

Eric looked at her and nodded slowly, he was terrified of all those things, as much as he wanted to get the bastards who had done this, he was just too scared.

"Eric, I know you're scared, but if you don't do anything, they're going to keep going on like they are, killing more people."

"I know that Cal, but it doesn't make this any easier, how am I supposed to just tell everyone what happened and then go on working with them? They won't forget, I'll always be the guy who was raped, the guy who could protect himself…"

"Eric, you know it's not like that, this wasn't your fault, you know that! No one will think that!"

"Calleigh they will! You know that! There are probably people in the lab who still think that about you! It's just you're a woman so it's not so bad!"

"How is it 'not so bad'?" Calleigh asked, "it wasn't any easier for me than it will be for you and it's not easy! But Jack and the others are being punished for what they did! I don't care what other people think! The people I care about know the truth and that's enough for me! Please Eric! Just report what they did, just tell Horatio, please!"

"I wouldn't know where to start."

"How about if we both go? I'll tell him if you want, he'll listen Eric, you know that."

"I don't know…"

"Please…"

"Ok, I'll go to the lab, but I can't promise I'll tell him."

"Ok, do you want to go now?" Calleigh asked, knowing he'd probably much rather get it over and done with.

"Yes." Eric replied, standing up and walking toward the door.

"Ok, come on," Calleigh said walking out of the door, "I'll drive."

They both sat in silence during the drive to the lab, Calleigh was trying to formulate a plan for how to tell Horatio, she figured they'd just stick to the rape for the moment, she could tell him about the baby some other time. She pulled up at the lab and they made their way in.

"Hey Eric, you feeling better?" Alexx asked walking toward them, Eric nodded and Alexx continued, "Calleigh, can I have a word?"

"Um, I'll come and find you later Alexx, I've just got something I need to do first."

"Ok," Alexx replied, "See you later, oh, and nice to see you Eric."

Eric smiled again, maybe this wouldn't be so bad.

They made their way up to Horatio's office. Calleigh was about to knock, when Eric stopped her.

"I can't do this."

"Eric, it'll be ok, he'll understand."

"I don't know…"

"Eric, just trust me, please!"

Calleigh knocked on the door and opened it and walked in slowly. Horatio was sitting behind his desk.

"Calleigh, Eric, you feeling better? What'd you need?" Horatio asked, directing his question at Calleigh.

"We need to talk," Calleigh said, holding Eric's hand and pulling him to the chairs in front of Horatio's desk.

"What's up?" Horatio asked.

"Um…I was…" Eric stopped, looking at Calleigh before starting again, "last week…I went out….and …well… I was…I was…. I was raped."


TBC…

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