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Song: Alexz Johnson, Deeper

Chapter Eleven

Once she's settled into her good sized private room on the fifth floor Tommy sits down in a chair beside her bed taking her hand again and trying to finish what he'd been about to say before. "Listen Jude… I'm so sorry, for everything… God half the time I don't even know why we're fighting, we just fight. You know?" He could feel the tears threatening, burning behind his blue eyes but he tries to hold himself together as he looks at her half lidded gaze and her broken body. He rambles on further just trying to fill the silence, unsure if she even can speak. "I called Sadie while they had you in surgery, she and the others will be here as soon as they can. I told the staff if they get in tonight to let them in at least for ten minutes to see you. They're only allowed ten minutes tonight though; it's well past visiting hours. If they try and stay longer they said they'll ban me from here for the night. I know it's probably completely selfish of me… but I… I really don't want to leave Girl…" His voice almost pleading the last part, hoping she would want him to stay.

Her lips part and she licks them before testing out her voice, it comes out raw and dry. Something that happens when you've undergone surgery and your voice has been unused for a while. "It's okay Tommy… Everything's… okay."

"Oh God…" Hearing her speak broke him and he releases her hand so he can used both to lower the railing in front of him. Once it's lowered he carefully grabs her hand again and buries his face on the bed beside her stomach. He can't stop the sobs that shake his body, or the hot tears that soak the bed.

She carefully pulls her hand out of his grasp so she can run her fingers carefully through his hair, though her hand still shakes. Her voice raw but so soft, "Shhh… Everything's okay now Tommy, just let go." She hopes her words aren't taken the wrong way of course, silently chastising herself for her poor choice in wording. She tries again, "Let it go baby, let it out." She knew how emotionally pent up he always is, and today she knew most have completely overloaded him. She just wanted to assure him it was safe to let it all go, that she's there with him always.

His sobs slow, not lasting more than a few minutes. Not because he didn't feel the need to cry himself to sleep at this point, but because he wants to be strong for his Girl. He looks up at her, closing his eyes for a moment as he feels her hand brush away his tears gently. Once her hand lays on his again he opens his eyes to look at her through a glaze of unshed tears. "I was so scared today Jude. I thought… I thought I lost you. I love you, so much Girl, you're my whole world. If… I… I don't think I could have survived it."

"Hey, you'll never loose me Quincy. I'll always be your Girl, you know that."

"Jude… you could have died today." And in saying it, verbalizing it he could feel the tears start again spilling down his cheeks.

"Hey… but I didn't, I'm still here Tommy and I'm not going anywhere," Deciding he needs something more tangible she very carefully moves over against the other rail. The intern had told her how she could move and not injure herself further and she'd taken his words to heart, she knew the severity of the situation. "Come up here."

"I… I might hurt you, besides isn't it against policy? Don't they have a one person per bed rule or something?"

"The hell with rules Quincy, when do we ever follow them?"

He couldn't help but smile slightly; he stands and raises the railing before very carefully climbing in bed beside her, careful of the wires. He lies on his side beside her, staring at her before he feels her pull him gently towards her. Unsure he hesitantly lays his head down on her chest, listening to the lull of her heartbeat. Then ever so carefully he lays his arm across her, making sure it's well below her ribs. Next thing he knows he feels her arm wrap carefully around him, her other hand playing with his hair.

"See? Heart's still beating…" She lowers her voice slightly before adding, "For you." She stops playing with his hair long enough to reach over to her tray for her water. She sips it slowly before setting it down and resuming her previous activity meant to soothe them both. She kisses the top of his head gently before turning her head enough to allow her to rest her cheek on the top of his head. She begins to sing softly to him, her voice melodic and soothing, like a lullaby.

If we don't talk
That's okay
Cause I hear everything that you say
You've got my heart tuned into you
You hold this hurt inside
It shows
And you can't hide
But if we open up we'll break through

You and I go deeper
Down below where no one sees it
Where you close your eyes and just believe it
You and I go deeper
Where everything's unspoken
And the rest is so wide open to me now

You got broken once before
Closed your heart off and said no more
We were trying not to fall
Afraid of letting go
Wait until we know

You and I go deeper
Down below where no one sees it
Where you close your eyes and just believe it
You and I go deeper
Where everything's unspoken
And the rest is so wide open to me now
And the morning shines much brighter to me some how
Maybe this can last forever
If we follow what we feel
And you love me like I know you will

You and I go deeper
Down below where no one sees it
Where you close your eyes and just believe it
You and I go deeper
Where everything's unspoken
And the rest is so wide open to me now

You and I go deeper
Down below where no one sees it
Where you close your eyes and just believe it
You and I go deeper
Where everything's unspoken
And the rest is so wide open to me now

The day's events and his life over the past year or so had worn him out beyond comprehension, and finally feeling like he was home he falls asleep to the sound of her heavenly voice. Jude looks up as she hears people enter the room, raising a finger to her lips to let them know they all needed to keep it down, especially SME.

"Oh God Jude… Are you okay? What happened?" Sadie asks standing on the other side of her sister, afraid to touch her, afraid of breaking her.

"Yeah dude, and why is squinty in bed with you? I mean, is that safe?" Speid chimes in.

"It's fine guys, we both feel better this way. Sades I went walking to cool off, on my way back a car came out of no where. That's all I remember, til I woke up here with Tommy singing to me anyway." She runs her fingers through Tommy's hair softly smiling down at his sleeping form beside her. In all that had been occurring since she had arrived, while she had shared a bed and room with him, it hadn't ever been like this. This felt right. True it was more natural when he was holding her, but she didn't see anything wrong with being strong for him for a change. He needed it.

"Guys, why don't you go get the car, I'll be down in a minute then we'll get a hotel for the night and we can see Jude first thing in the morning when visiting hours start."

"Okay!" All of the boys said at once, including Jamie. Though while SME filtered out of the room Jamie steps around Sadie leaning over and ever so carefully hugging Jude before kissing her forehead, "He really loves you Jude."

"Okay now that they're gone… I'll make this fast so they don't try and kick Tommy out. You know I don't think he's looked that peaceful since you first went to London? Look, I am happy to know you're okay, so now I have to be big sister for him because he is drowning in you Jude."

"I know Sadie, I know. God I've missed him… But I had to know I could do it on my own, my music, everything. He was my crutch for so long, remember? And all we ever end up doing is fighting, but I guess… Hell I miss that. But now isn't the time, I'm in the hospital and that's bad enough. I'm taking him away from his mom enough with being in here myself, I won't interfere more by getting into that with him. Especially not until I figure it all out. I promise I'll think about everything you've told me." She waves as Sadie nods and leaves her and Tommy in peace, and she can't help looking down at him and smiling. Despite all the physical pain she's in, having him here beside her, close to her; it's heaven. "Good night Quincy, I love you." She whispers to him as she kisses the top of his head and rests hers on his falling asleep herself.