A/N: I want to start with a big thank you for the overwhelming response to the last chapter, just wow! Just because of that and maybe because I felt like it, here's another chapter! I promise things will progress between Callie and Arizona but... overcoming a trauma like Callie has takes time. So please, stick to the story. Please? :) Reviews make me motivated so, the more reviews the faster another chapter will pop up! :) Thank you guys for the reviews, follows and favorites that I got so far, they make me super, SUPER happy! :)
-B.
ps: Again a big thank you to my fiancée Kristin324 for re-reading this for me and making sure there's not too many errors. All mistakes are mine.
Callie pov
She's running as fast as she can but her surrounding aren't moving. She's screaming for help, her breathing heavy from running. Her legs are cramping up and her fists are balled. She looks behinds her and meets blue, piercing eyes. His pupils dilated with arousal and excitement. Hers with fear and terror. His red hair isn't moving, telling her that he is right behind her and just watching her run, like a scared little girl. She needs to get away, her legs still moving. "HELP ME!" she screams at the top of her lungs. Callie feels his hands grab her from behind. His rough hands on her hips make her stomach turn. She freezes. Her body tensed up as he turns her around to face him. "Please, don't," her voice low and on the edge of breaking. "Please, d-don't hurt me," she begs him. He grabs her arms with those big strong hands of his. He adds pressure as he shakes her back and forth. She can already feel her arms starting to bruise. He just stares at her, doesn't say a word. "Brian, stop," she whimpers. "You're hurting me," her voice barely audible. He comes closer and pushes his body into hers. She can feel his excitement and it makes her body shake with fear. His hands start to make their way to the hem of her shirt and he pulls it roughly over her head. With one big push she falls to the ground, he grabs her hands and ties them together. He kisses her on her lips and starts making his way to her chest. Tears are streaming down her face, her body shaking. Sobbing loudly, "No, no!" is all she is able to get out as he unzips her jeans and pushes his hand into her panties. Callies jaw clenched, holding her own hands almost breaking her fingers with the strength. She closes her eyes as she feels his fingers starting to move.
"Callie, I'm here." Her eyes fly open as she hears a familiar voice, looking around she can't find the person talking to her. "I'm here, you're safe." Again, looking around not seeing anyone.
"Help me!" Callie screams out. He is now slamming his fingers inside her and the pain is getting worse.
"Calliope, you're having a bad dream. Wake up!" She looks around again and in the far distance she sees a light.
"I'm over here!" Callie yells through gritted teeth.
"Calliope, come back to me. You're having a nightmare," in the light a figure appears. She feels him slowly taking off her pants as he positions himself on top of her.
"NO!" She yells and hits the top of his head with the two hands that are bind together. The outlining of a woman coming closer and closer as he is coming closer and closer too. Callie squints her eyes noticing blond curls and beautiful blue eyes. "I'm here, Calliope, I'm here," Callie's eyes are now wide in shock.
"Arizona?" She softly asked.
"Yes, it's Arizona." the blond answers her. The woman reaches out her hand and Callie grabs it, her surroundings disappearing as soon as their hands touch.
"Callie, please wake up, I'm here," Callie hears more clearly now and notices how her body is shaking. This is the third night that Arizona has woken her up from her nightmares but this was the first time she actually saw her in her dreams.
"I'm awake, I-I'm awake," she says more to herself than to Arizona. Her wrists are hurting and she can feel the wet streaks on her cheeks. I've been crying.
"You're safe, I'm here," she hears the sadness in Arizona's voice. She's probably been trying to wake her up for awhile now.
"I know, I know... I'm awake" Callie is afraid to open her eyes, afraid of what she might see. Even though she is awake, she's still scared. He came so close, so close to hurting her again.
"Open your eyes, Calliope," she is amazed by how soothing the blonds voice is. Slowly but surely she opens her eyes. Taking in her surroundings she lets out a sigh. She is in her bedroom, in her own apartment with Arizona. I'm really awake. Her eyes meet Arizona's and she sees the tears.
"I'm so sorry, Arizona, so sorry," Callie starts apologizing. She hates seeing the beautiful blond so sad.
"Do not apologize," the brunette slightly flinches at the harsh undertone that was now present in the ped's surgeons voice. Looking down she notices how close the blonde is and she slightly moves to create more distance between them. Seeing the hurt in the shiny blue eyes.
"I need some space," Callie tries to not make Arizona think she doesn't want to be close to her. The aftermath of nightmares and flashbacks are so intense that she just can't really be physically touched. Afraid that it might trigger another one. "Thank you, for helping me," She decides to keep the fact that Arizona was actually there, in her nightmare, to herself. "Don't look so sad, you didn't do anything wrong and I would apologize for making you go through that again but you don't want me to," Callie tried to force out a smile to lighten the mood. She failed.
"You don't have to apologize for something that's not your fault, Calliope," the soft words Arizona spoke hit her right in the heart. "I just hate seeing you in pain."
Tears threatening to fall again, "I'm going to drink some water," Callie leaves the room quickly and enters her bathroom. She felt so dirty, even though it was just a nightmare she could still feels his hands burning on her skin. The only way to feel less disgusting was for her to take a shower. She opens the cabin to her shower and turns the hot water knob and cold water knob to balance it out. Stepping back out she takes the glass that's next to the sink and fills it with cold water, her eyes never meeting her own in the mirror. Too afraid of what she'll see. She drinks the water, gets undressed and steps back into the shower. The water finally reached the temperature she liked. Letting herself slide to the ground she lets the water run over her body once again, trying to get rid of the filth that's resting on her body.
Arizona pov
She watches the Latina leave the bed and enter the bathroom. Wiping away the tears on her cheeks Arizona now too leaves the bed. She enters the hallways and looks at the door that leads to Addison's bedroom. Tempted to wake up the redhead to tell her what just happened. This was the third night of sleeping in the same bed as Callie and also the third night she had to wake up the gorgeous woman from a terrifying nightmare. She decided not to wake Addison and instead makes her way to the kitchen and grabs herself a glass out of the overhead cabinet filling it with cold water. Taking a sip she sits down on the barstool putting her glass in front of her on the kitchen island. It had taken her a long time to wake the brunette. She had been tossing, kicking, smacking and screaming for a good 30 minutes before she finally woke up and even when she did Arizona was still scared. She couldn't be sure Callie was awake until she opened her eyes. She didn't know what hurt her more, the nightmare or the brown eyes that looked at her when she finally opened them and looked at her. The fear, angst and hurt visible in the normally such beautiful eyes broke her heart in even more pieces than it already did seeing the woman fight off her demon.
She finished her drink and put the empty glass in the sink. She walked back into the bedroom and glanced at the alarm clock that was placed on Callies side of the bed. 4.17am. She internally thanked God for a late shift tomorrow, or today depending on how you looked at it, so she would be able to catch some more sleep. The last two nights she hadn't been able to sleep. Mostly because it was nerve racking to sleep next to such an incredible and stunning woman and then there were the nightmares. She also had two early shifts so sleeping in was not in order. Callie was still in the bathroom and she could hear the shower running. She walked over to the bathroom door and softly knocked, "Calliope, are you okay?". No answer. Worry immediatly made it's way into Arizona's head. "Calliope?" A little louder this time.
"I'm okay Arizona, just get some sleep," A deep sigh left her mouth at the response. She trusted Callie enough to let it go. She crawled back under the covers and laid down on her side. Her hands under her cheek, she closed her eyes. Arizona drifted off into a slumber.
Arizona was awoken by a movement next to her. Slightly opening one eye she saw that Callie had returned to the bed. Her raven hair hanging wet on her shoulders and a single drop of water running from her shoulder to in between her breasts. Arizona swallowed hard and started coughing as her mouth had gone desert dry without her realizing it, startling Callie who almost fell off the bed.
"I didn't realize you were still awake," Arizona watched as the brunette leaned back against the headboard and covered her heart with her hand.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you," Arizona offered a soft and gentle smile. Her eyes passed Callie as she took another glance at the clock. 5.04am. "You were in the bathroom for a long time, are you sure you're okay?" Her eyebrows slightly frowned.
"Yeah, I just... I...," Arizona noticed the internal struggle the Latina was having. "I felt dirty," she saw Callie hang her head down in shame. Arizona sat up in bed and slowly moved her hand towards the brunette's chin. Placing it softly on her skin she gently pushed her chin up and made Callie face her.
"Don't be ashamed Callie, I'm not here to judge you. I'm here to support you, whatever you feel is okay." Arizona gave her a compassionate smile. She saw Callie return her one.
"H-he uh.. he touched me, in my nightmare, he touched me." Arizona felt Callie's walls break down a little bit. Every little thing Arizona got from Callie felt like an accomplishment. She heard the brunette take a deep breath. "Every time, after he touched me, I would feel so dirty. Just thinking about it makes me feel so, so filthy," Arizona noticed a tear in the corner of Callie's eye. She retracted her arm and placed it softly on top of Callie's hand that was laying besides her thigh. Afraid that the brunette might not wanted to be touched.
"Is this okay?" She asked and looked up at the brunette again. Taking the slight nod with her head as a green light she entwined their fingers. "Can I do anything to make you feel better?" Under normal circumstances this question could have been taking in a seductive way but not now, not tonight.
"Will you..." the blond noticed how Callie was holding back.
"Will I what?" She encouraged the Latina.
"Willyouholdme," Arizona didn't understand a word the brunette had just spoken.
"Can you repeat that and then slowly?" She smiled at Callie, hoping she had the courage to ask, whatever she was asking, again.
"Will you hold me, Arizona?" Arizona's heart skipped a beat and just looked at Callie for a second.
"Yes, of course, Calliope," She nodded her head and she couldn't stop the wide smile from forming on her face. "I would like that," she added.
Arizona laid back down on her side and opened her arms so Callie could scoot closer to her. Callie's back now pressed against the front of her body. One arm underneath the Latina's neck and the other laying stiffly on her own waist. "Can I place my arm around your waist?" She softy asked. Afraid to push it too far and have Callie build up those walls again.
"Isn't that what holding consists of?" Arizona heard Callie giggle and it made her heart jump. A big smile crossing her face.
"I guess it does," joining Callie in her giggle. She slowly placed her arm over the beautiful woman in front of her. Her hand flat on Callie's stomach. Her pink grazing the soft, caramel skin where Callie's tank top had uncovered some of her flesh. A shiver running through her body and her heart racing. She could feel goosebumps rise on the brunettes body and she heard Callie's breath catch in her throat. As long as the brunette wouldn't tense up or flinch she knew it was alright so she decided to keep her hand there. Her pink softly caressing the soft skin.
"Goodnight, Calliope," Arizona smirked.
"G-goodnight 'Zona,"
A/n: Thank for reading and you know what to do to keep the chapters coming ;-)
-B.
