It's true I do love him more than I love you

Okay here is the next chapter…I know its my longest chapter….and I think so far its my fav…I don't know why but it is….I hope you enjoy it nisha80…..

No matter how much I try to get him off my mind he somehow finds his way back into it. I wish they had something to make you forget about someone. Maybe if I get hit over the head I will magically forget him. Oh who am I kidding I will never forget him. The more I sit here and think the more he keeps popping up in my head. I need a hobby something to help keep my mind off of him. Damn what the hell is there to do?

Maybe I could start a stamp collection or join a club. Something that will keep me so occupied I won't have time to think about him. Hmm all this thinking is giving me a headache. Maybe I can get Rick to take me to dinner and a movie. That should help me take my mind off of Tommy for a while.

Tommy's POV

How can she constantly run back to him, him out of all people? Why can't she finally just admit her feelings? Admit that it is me that she truly loves and wants. I just have to keep breaking her down and then when I finally have her I will make sure to keep her. Now the thing is how the hell am I going to accomplish that when she is in denial. But if I come up with a good plan then she will be all mine. And why couldn't I go through with my plan like I was suppose to.

I decide to go and grab me something to eat because I was too lazy to cook. I decide to go check out this new restaurant. When I arrive I get the privilege of running into Jude and Rick the good thing is they didn't see me. I admire her from afar. She looked so beautiful with her arm around him. I wish I was in his place. She belongs on my arm not his. It is my mission to make that possible.

I decide to grab something from somewhere else so I wouldn't have to watch their public display of affection. I would not have been able to handle that oh well. When I get home I eat and think of a way to get her to see the light. I sat there for about 2 hours lost in thought. I was about to head to bed because I had a headache from all that thinking I was doing. But before I could head that way there was a knock at my door. Hmm I didn't remember about anyone coming over. I look out the peephole to see who it is and its Jude standing there.

I open the door to let her in.

"Jude is there a reason to why you are here" I say trying to sound as if I don't care.

"I umm just wanted to see you" she seems like she is nervous about something.

"Ok well…" but I could not finish my sentence because her lips were on mine.

Jude's POV

Rick came home and I talked to him about going out to dinner. He agreed so I went and got ready for our date. We decided to go to this new restaurant that everyone has been talking about. When we get there I had this feeling that someone was looking at me. I turn around to see Tommy walking away. When I look at him walk away I get butterflies in my stomach. He looked so damn good from behind.

I enjoyed that so much that I didn't notice that Rick was trying to get me to sit down. We order our drinks and our dinner. My mind was preoccupied with the picture of Tommy walking away. Ugh this dinner was to help me get my mind off of him not keep him on my mind. I look at Rick and wonder what happened between us. I use to get butterflies in my stomach when I looked at him but now I just see Rick.

We make small talk trying to make things easy between us but I can still feel the distance that we have gathered over the time. I wish we could turn back time and go back to the way we were but now I don't think I want that to happen. If that was to happen then I would have never met Tommy. Rick looks at me with love in his eyes and I have a feeling that mine show something he does not want to see. I know they don't reflect love just confusion.

Throughout the whole dinner my mind was on Tommy. I made up my mind that I had to see him and I was going to see him because I have to. I try to get the dinner over with so I could go get in some Tommy time. Rick dropped me off at home after dinner stating he had something he had to do. So I hopped in my car and took off to the place I knew Tommy was staying at.

I get to his door and just look at it debating on whether or not if I wanted to knock. I raise my hand to knock on the door but drop it instantly. I did that about 4 times before I finally got the nerve to actually knock. I can hear him walking to the door. He opens the door and I can see that he is shocked to see me.

"Jude is there a reason to why you are here" he tries to make it sound like he doesn't care but I knew he was shocked that I was here and was confused as in to why I was here.

"I umm just wanted to see you" all my courage went out the window. But I did know what I wanted to do though.

"Ok well…" but I didn't allow him to finish his sentence. I crashed my lips on his. Now my courage decides to come back but hey I am not complaining. He brings me into his place and kicks the door close.

He pushes me against the nearest wall. Our kiss was filled with passion, love, and want. This is where I belonged and I knew it but I just couldn't see past me being with Rick. We reluctantly break apart because the need for air became too much. When we break apart I can tell that he has something to say and well I don't blame him.

"Jude not that I am complaining but what's this all about" I look at Tommy and knew that I had to tell him the truth.

"Tommy every time I look at you I feel butterflies. I need you in order to make my day better and I want you because you make me feel happy. I have fallen for you and even though I shouldn't be with you but I cant help felling the way I feel" I look down thinking that I must have blown my chances. But he puts his fingers under my chin and turns my head to look at him.

He puts his lips to mine in a sweet tender kiss. This man drives me crazy and I can tell that he knows the affect he has on me.

"So are you saying that I am the one you want not Rick" I can tell that he wants me to admit that I love him more than Rick.

"Tommy I do love you but I don't know who I love more at the moment but I do know that I want to be with you right now" he stares at me and I can tell that he is contemplating on what his next move should be.

I figured he was going to tell me to leave because I couldn't tell him how I truly felt. Why can't I just blurt out I love you to him? I hope that I can't tell him right now doesn't ruin my chances with him. I prepare myself for him to tell me to leave but he doesn't. He decides to do the opposite he kisses me but this kiss wasn't soft and sweet like the one we just shared its more heated.

His arms are moving up and down my body and my body loves his touches oh god I can't even begin to tell you how great this feels. He makes me feel things that no one has ever made me feel like a queen just by the way he touches me. I can feel his want and desire for me in his touches.

I had to break our kiss because I had to get some air into my lungs. He takes the opportunity to remove me of my shirt which I oh so appreciate. I also take this opportunity to take his off. Look at that chest of his puts Ricks to shame and Rick has a great body but I have to admit that Tommy's is better. I keep ogling his chest and don't even notice that he has removed my bra and don't notice until my left breast is in his mouth. I gasp at the sudden pleasure that takes over me. This time when we have sex I will not go so rough or so fast I want to enjoy him all of him.

His hot breathe was making my nipples harden with pleasure and was making me want him even more. He lifts me higher and starts to walk to what I assume was his bedroom. I was right because I land on his bed with him on top of me. He starts to move his kisses down my body towards my nether regions. He starts to remove my jeans that I had on slowly taunting me. I was squirming with all the need and want that was taking over my body. I need to feel him inside me and it was driving me crazy that we weren't joined yet.

He removed my jeans and underwear at the same time. I knew I needed him and he knew I needed him too but he continued to torture me. He blew hot air on my center and it was driving me insane. I felt like I was going to explode if he kept that up and I felt like he was doing this for his own fun. He starts to lay kisses on my thighs ugh he was making me frustrated and he knew it. He finally took me into his mouth plunging his tongue as deep into me as it would go. My back arch with the great pleasure his tongue was giving me. He inserted two fingers into me pumping me as fast as his fingers would go. God not even Rick could make me feel this good. I can feel that I was close to losing control. He could feel it to because he sped up his actions. I finally lose it and my juices run out of me and he licks me clean. He moves up to my mouth and captures my lips with fire. I can taste myself and I must say I taste better with him than I do with Rick. I decide to have some fun of my own. I flip us over and slowly move my body down his. His eyes grow big with anticipation. I kneel down before him and take off his undergarments.

When he is fully exposed to me I take my time to look at him I mean really look at him and I must say I really approve. He is perfect in everyway. I decide to have some fun with him right now. I blew my hot breathe on his fully erect member. I can tell that he doesn't like my teasing no more than I liked his. I slowly take him into my mouth and I can hear his intake of breathe. I know that I will bring him great pleasure like he gave me. I took him into my mouth sucking on him causing him to roll his eyes to the back of his head.

I could feel him so close as he tangled his hands in my hair making me take more of him into my mouth. He tried to remove himself from my mouth before he exploded inside of me but I wouldn't allow that. I swallowed all of it and did it with great pride. I moved my way back up him not expecting him to kiss me. Normally when I do that Rick won't allow me to kiss him but then I remembered that he wasn't Rick he was Tommy and they were different from each other.

He flipped us over so he was hovering over my body not putting all his weight on me. We just stared into each others eyes for a minute before we went any farther. He kissed me as he entered me. I moaned with pleasure into his mouth. He started with a nice rhythm but I wanted more I needed more. I moved my hips with him encouraging him to go faster and deeper. He knew what I wanted I didn't have to tell him in words. He started to move deeper within me in a fast steady rhythm. All that filled the room was our moans and my ever so lovely screams of his name. I started to buck under him getting close to my orgasm. He could tell that I was close so he inserted two fingers into me moving them at the same speed he was moving inside of me. God all this pleasure he was giving me was killing me.

I could not take it anymore and screamed his name out as my orgasm took over me. Tommy kept going trying to find his own release and I was determined to give it to him so I flipped us over. I lifted myself almost all the way off him before I slammed myself onto him. I kept moving myself up and down him in a fast move. I could tell by the way he was looking that he was close. So I lifted myself and slammed again which caused both of us to scream each others name. I collapsed on his chest trying to catch my breath.

When we both finally caught our breathe I lay next to him as he ran his fingers through my hair. Laying here in his arms just made me feel amazing and loved. I stare at him and I know things are going to get worse if I don't make up my own mind. My mind finally comes back from its high that it was on and one thought runs through it is how I can't believe I just did that. I am so dead. When or if Rick finds out that I slept with Tommy not only am I dead but so is Tommy.

I stare at the magnificent man that is lying next to me and I can't believe that he is real. I thought Rick was the most amazing guy ever but then Tommy entered my life.

"Tommy I know that I have a lot to think about but I promise that I will keep all options open and I will make the right decision but what I need to know is that if I choose Rick over you that you will respect my decision" I lift myself up to look into his eyes.

"Jude I have never felt this way for a woman before. You make me feel things that no one else has ever made me feel. I have fallen in love with you and I don't want to let you go but if it is Rick that you want then I will willingly let you go. Even though I want to say if I can't have all of you then I want none of you but I won't. I will let you go if that is what you want" I could tell how hard that was for him and it meant a lot to me.

I stayed with him for the next few hours we talked and laughed. He is just so easy to get along with and I love that about him. I can have a civilized conversation with him without the yelling and that is something I can't have with Rick. So why is my decision so hard to make? It should be easy right but its not. Rick called my phone and told me to get home and the way he said that I knew he was mad but I didn't know why.

I get home to see an infuriated Rick waiting for me. Oh what the hell did I do now? Oh shit did he find out about me and Tommy.

"Hey babe" I try to smooth things over by being sweet.

"Where the hell have you been Jude?" Oh hell he knows I bet.

"Out with a friend" all I can do is pray that he doesn't know.

"Out with a friend or out screwing a friend" he steps closer to me as I step back hitting the wall.

"I-I umm was out" damn it I was stuttering which means I lied.

"Lying Jude is not a good thing. You were with Tommy I know you were. No tell me the truth. I want to hear it from you" God he is so evil.

"Fine Rick yes I was with Tommy and yes we fucked. Are you happy now?" I fist collided with my face. I felt the blood run out my mouth.

"You made that choice now you have to live with it. I am not going to torture you or beat you no I am going to hand you over to a nice friend of mine" Oh god that was never a good thing. His friends are more brutal than him which means I am going to get it worst than I would with him. I would rather it be Rick than a friend of his.

I paced my room waiting for the person who was going to punish me. I was nervous and I was scared because I didn't know who it was going to be. I was in there for an hour before my door opened. In walked Rick by himself. What is he doing here?

"I have one question and I want a straight answer. Do you love him more than me?" I stared at him wondering if lying would be best or if the truth would be.

"It's true I do love him more than I love you" he nodded and turned to walk out the door. The door opened once again and in walk David "The Torturer" Green. He was the torturer because he always invented new ways and I have seen him before. I was scared shitless. I knew I should have lied to him.

Tommy's POV

I watched Jude leave my place after Rick called her. I could hear him and he sounded piss. I wanted to stop her from walking out but I knew I was not going to be able to make her stay I just hoped she didn't get hurt by him but I knew that was asking for a lot. I decide that I should put my plan into action even though I don't think it is full proofed but I have no choice but to do it. Jude could be in trouble so I might as well do it now. I guess my helper was right this was the best plan ever and we will be doing it tonight like we had planned. I just hope that Jude will forgive me for what I am about to do.

I get out of bed and hop in the shower. When I am done I get dressed to do what I have to do to save my Jude. My Jude I love the way it sounds it fits because she is mine whether she wants to admit it or not. I call up to tell him its time to get going. He tells me he will meet me at our spot. Great this shall be interesting. I just hope I make it before damage is done to my Jude. This time I will go through with my plan I am not backing down this time. I was supposed to do it before but I chickened out but not this time not after what Jude and I just did.