Chapter 12- Starting to Lose It

"We're nearly home guys."

"Once we get home, honey, you can just sit with me and I'll comfort you some more, alright?" Amy gently rubs my quills as I remain stationary and silent on her lap. I can't hide my sorrow in myself, however.

I don't know what my problem is. I couldn't stop crying. Usually I'm supposed to be the tough one, the strong rock that everyone else uses as a shoulder to cry on. But you know what? You can't blame me. I saw absolutely everything that I did. While I was trapped in that weird place in my head, there was a large television. I got curious and took a peak. One look and I just couldn't look at it anymore. The scene was terrible. Various soldiers dead, and inmates too from what I could tell by the time I became aware of what I was currently doing. Knowing how terrible the standards of arrest in this city are, they were probably innocent people, a lot of them. And I couldn't fight it. I tried all I could but it just wouldn't let me back in. The breaking point? When I was about to try to do the same to Tails and Amy. I draw the line at murdering my friends. I was about to try my hardest to fight, but then my body just… let me back in control. I was confused and a bit shocked but the sorrow instantly washed over me and I broke down.

"..." I can hear Tails and Amy whispering to each other. My eyes are closed and I'm very quiet, so they must think I nodded off.

"What are we going to do to help him, Tails?"

"We'll have to experiment on him. I wouldn't know how to fix him, that's for sure."

"But you said you knew what was going on?"

"I know what I said. I just need more time to figure out a solution. I know one thing: It's gonna be painful before it gets any better." Tails replies remorsefully.

'Going to hurt…?'

The last thing I want is to be in even more pain, either physically or emotionally. A switch gets flipped and I go from depressed to seething with anger.

"What do you mean by 'It's gonna get painful before it gets any better?' I'm in enough pain as it is!"

"Sweetie, calm dow-"

"Amy, shut up!" I glare at her, and I see some fear in her eyes. Good. That's what I want. I look back at Tails waiting for his reply.

"Buddy, we have to run some tests if we're going to fix you…" He says cautiously.

"...What kind of 'tests…'?"

"Just a few simple blood tests..."

"Tails you know I can't stand syringes…"

"I know but-"

"IT ISN'T YOUR TURN TO TALK! LET ME HAVE A SAY ONCE IN AWHILE, YOU FREAK! YOU ARE TAKING ANYTHING OUT OF MY BODY, SO FORGET IT!"

"S-Sonic… I just wan-"

"SHUT THE HELL UP ALREADY!" I pound on the Tornado's wall and punch a gaping hole through the thick metal. Tails promptly lands the plane as soon as he can and runs out.

Yeah, go ahead and cry, stupid baby. Cry back to your wittle mommy for all I- Wait… what am I… saying?

I look around. He landed in a forest. We're probably pretty far from home, but that doesn't matter right at this second. I turn around and see Amy, pretty much paralysed in fear I might do what I did to the plane to her. She can move around easily since I'm not in her lap anymore.

"Amy… don't be afraid. I'm not gonna hurt you…" I try to approach and reassure her, but she inches away from me. Amy's scared of me… Amy… scared of me. It both shocks and hurts me. My ears and tail unintentionally droop and I trudge off to try and find Tails. Hopefully he hasn't gotten too far into the forest. Why did I have to snap at Tails so badly…? Then it dawns on me.

Why did I snap at all?

Usually when I get upset at my friends, I simply just try to take my mind off it til I get it chance to blow off some steam. I never angrily snap and them. I'm better than that. And why did I get angry at all? A) Tails was only trying to help, and B) I didn't even know the gist of what he wanted to do with me. It probably won't even be that bad. And that part about me not standing needles. That's just ridiculous. I cut myself on my own quills all the time. I don't even care half the time, too! And where on Earth did I get the strength to punch a hole through 8 inches of diamond reinforced titanium?! Ugh, my mind is racing, this is so much to try and comprehend at once!

Think about that later, Sonic. You need to find Tails before he gets hurt. Focus on that goal and get moving.

Why is my conscience so right? I get working on finding Tails again, but all those questions are eating away at my brain like a damn tick. Everytime I try not to think about them, they pop right back up, coming to demand more of my attention. The growling in my stomach doesn't help my already fuzzy mind in the slightest. I look around for something to snack on but all I see are berries. I decide on those and try to sniff for anything that can kill me: poison, pesticides, mold, fermentation, rabbid foraging animals… none appear to be present so I grab a handful. They look a lot like a hybrid of cranberries and raspberries. Probably perfect for baking… they look so juicy and plump… so red like the red in my shoes… they smell oddly enough like cinnamon, but I love cinnamon… some of the juice gets onto my glove but it comes right off to my surprise. The liquid is clear. And so sweet! I lap up what's on my hands and down the entire bush. I can feel my stomach distend as the whole bush disappears into it. That giddy feeling comes back as I lie down.

I think I went a little overboard with this one. I'm slipping into a food coma but I don't care right now… I'm looking forward to the little nap that comes with it… I let my extremely droopy eyes close and I fall into a deep sleep.


It's night time by the time I wake up, in a daze from having all that fruit in me. Fruit isn't supposed to make you lethargic, is it?

What was I doing again…? … Oh yeah, I was looking for someone.

I pull myself together the best I can and wander off into the forest, with that happiness front in center. I'm almost hopping like a fool even though I want to pass back out. I don't have anything to worry about… Ooh, is that a unicorn?! The majestic creature was right in the middle of a large clearing in the forest, grazing. So adorable and innocent… It even had wings, so I guess it's a unicorn/ pegasus hybrid? What do you even call those? All the while the beast was surrounded by an aura of a chocolate scent.

I want that horse.