Chapter 12

Guess what guys, I'm not dead, yes I'm alive and well I've just been editing my previous chapters. And like wow they really needed improvement. So here's the much anticipated chapter 12.

It was wrong, how could you force someone to marry you? How could you be so cruel; to pull someone away from their beloved then curse them to your selfish needs? The world is a cruel place, this I should know by now; for this world loves to murder all that is dear to me. If there's a god above, a lord of light, how could he let his children suffer; maybe he is a foul deity whom only creates life so he may inflict pain upon it? These questions I cannot answer, but one thing I am certain of is that I must fight. We live in a song of fire and iron; pain is inevitable but so is beauty, happiness may be scarce but it will come as long as you fight for it!

Sentinel will never have me. I don't know how but I'll come up with an escape plan before the wedding, it's not like I'm alone I'll have Megatron by my side. I rise out of my fetal position; Megatron laid motionless on his bed, blankly staring at the ceiling. I walk to him, as I stand beside his bed I place my hand on his shoulder; his gaze leaves the ceiling and fixates on me. Gentle red eyes calm the raging storm within my soul, they also confuse me, I now know that Optimus still cares about me and that makes me happy because I still love him, but yet I feel odd around Megatron, he makes me feel like warm, happy, and peaceful. With Optimus I feel different; with him I feel passionate, exited, and erotic; I don't understand how I can feel so different around them but yet share the same kind of love.

Yes I cannot deny it anymore, I love Megatron.

"I can't marry him." He strokes my cheek, my soul shatters at his touch.

"Giselle, I shall never let him touch you; as long as my spark beats I shall protect you." His words are pure love, and it.. breaks my heart. I may love him but I can't be with him because I still love Optimus. I…. I can't lead him on like this or it might ruin him. I pull away from his touch, tears flood out of my eyes.

"Giselle I'll make sure this wedding never happens." He comforts me like an old lover; how can I tell him?

"No, it's not that! I…I…Megatron I love you but I cannot be with you. My heart still belongs to Optimus. I can't lead you on anymore! And it breaks my heart that it's come down to this." He sits up, cradles his arms around himself and turns away from me.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I can't do this anymore, if I hold this off any longer I'll break your heart!" I sob, everything inside me screams in protest. His silence makes everything worse, I want him to be angry at me! "Megatron say something, don't just sit here, answer me!" He's as silent as the grave, there's only one way I might get an answer, singing.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you" I weep, he turns around and gives me a melancholy look. I give a week smile which quickly fades.

"And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl" I see tears fall from his eyes; I now feel even worse. Megatron opens his mouth and begins to sing along.

"Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you" His voice is so hauntingly beautiful it makes me cry even harder, how could I do this to him?

"And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere, I would have followed you
Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something" I avoid his eyes, I don't want to see the pain I've caused in them.

"You see… I can't be with you, I still love Optimus." My words are restrained, I don't want to seem emotional even though I'm dying inside.

"Does he.." I cut him off, I know what he's going to say.

"Yes Megatron he loves me, didn't you see the footage?" I retort bitterly hoping, praying that would be the end of this conversation.

"Giselle why would thou want someone like him? He does not understand you like I, nor could he give you the love you want!" Really he handles rejection by insulting my love, pathetic. "Did he ever tell you about his trips to brothels or how he cheated on Elita One. Giselle Love is a smoke raised with the fume of sighs; being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes;
being vex'd a sea nourish'd with lovers' tears: what is it else? a madness most discreet,
a choking gall and a preserving sweet"

There he goes again with his fancy words! "Optimus would never cheat on me!"

"He might not but wouldn't you want someone who could not crush you on accident?" What the hell is talking about now?

"The hell, your just as tall, if not taller, you pose the same fucking threat but guess what I don't care about size, I don't care about looks. If I cared about looks I would never have felt this way about you!" That came out wrong; I finally meet his eyes again, he's clearly hurt by my words. I feel like an awful person.

"I'm so sorry I didn't mean that."

"No, your right; a beast as hideous as me would never deserve a beauty such as yourself. Have I caught thee, my heavenly jewel? Why, now let me die now, for I have lived long enough." His words bring me great sorrow, I was wrong, it was not him who didn't deserve me, but me who didn't deserve me.

"Don't say that! You're not ugly… your beautiful." I finally let my words float freely off my tongue. "I was just trying to come up with something to make you not love me. I can't let you love me, my heart belongs to Optimus first; I do have feelings for you but they're not as strong…"

"He can never make love to you." What…I'm at a loss for words. His statement was shocking and provocative but he's right, I've never thought hard about the subject. Optimus is so big that if we were to make love he would… he would… kill me on accident. How can I continue a relationship if we can't get intimate, I don't want to stay a virgin forever.

I we can find some alternative right? If we can't are relationship might not survive, I can't let Megatron know this. "Like you could?!" Megatron razes his arms above his head. I hear a crackling sound, to my complete shock lighting strikes Megatron.

His body vanishes into the smoke and flame that the lighting started. "MEGATRON!" I scream, I fear he might have killed himself, Oh god he probably did….I'm a MURDERER! "Oh god..Megatron I didn't mean this! I'm so sorry, please forgive me." The fire begins to fade as I weep hysterically.

"Giselle" Am I going mad?! Megatron's dead but I can still hear him, why lord of light must you do this to me! When I finally look up, I see legs, human legs! Shocked I fall back on to my butt. I look up once more only to see a man, a big beautiful muscular man who was buck ass nude and looked like the Wolverine. The man bends over; he grabs my waist and picks me up, setting me back on my feet.

I study the stranger's face, his hair was long and a silver almost as bright as my eyes, his jaw was strong and chiseled, his eyes where…. As red as blood just like "Megatron?"

"Yes Giselle it's me. The prize of all too precious is you." I was shocked, how was this possible, how did this beast of a machine become a beautiful man? Tears of joy shimmer down my face, Megatron wipes them off. Unable to contain my joy leap into his strong arms.

"How is this possible? You… you."

"The power of love Giselle and mutagen." He quips, I laugh just happy to have my Megatron back. His hands rub my face sensually, my heart races out of control. Megatron lowers his hands to my shoulders, slowly massaging them; holy hell this is hot! I take his hand and guide it to my waist, he get a mischievous look, I smile in return, Megatron pulls me close, I can now feel his naked manhood against my pelvis.

I think my heart is going to explode from the exoticness of my situation. I clasp Megatron's face, we gaze into each other's soul. His face hovers over mine, I can feel his sweet breath on me. "May I kiss you?" I burst; I crash my lips into his, our tongues dance together in compete harmony, I moan and grind angst him. Everything is perfect; 'SLUT'!

"NO!" I pull back "This isn't right I haven't broken up with Optimus yet nor do I intend too. I choose love over lust. I am sorry, so sorry, can you forgive me?" He's heart broken, I see it in his eyes but now I can see clearer than ever, Megaton is not right for me. Tears silently escape his eyes.

"With all thy pain in my heart… I forgive you." He replies somberly.

"I know you want nothing more to do with me but I need your help to escape and you need mine, so we have to work together. Once where out of here you'll never have to see me again, so let's agree to keep our emotional bull shit out of this."

"I will help you." Oh good, that's a relief. "And I do not hate you. I will keep my emotions out of our escape."

"There's one last thing." I inquired hesitantly.

"What would that be?"

"Can we be friends?" I say with hope, praying he'll accept the compromise.

"Yes" Ecstatic there was only one thing left to say.

"Lets get started."