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BPOV (Duh)

I never realized how hard it would be to stay away from Edward. Its agony! I miss him so much. I actually started crying after a point.

I am Bella Swan. I do NOT cry. Ever. EVER.

Alice was in the back of the Mercedes with me. Jasper was driving. She let me cry into her shirt, which was very nice of her. After a while I fell asleep, when I woke up it was midnight.

"We're stopping at a hotel." Stated Jasper.

"Um, why?" I asked.

"You don't have to sleep in the car."

That was when I realized how truly tired I was. Maybe it was stress, maybe it was something else, like I just couldn't keep up without Edward around. I didn't argue, which was pretty unusual for me.

I walked into the hotel room, which was a suite of course, flopped on to the bed and fell asleep. I dreamed of my rather dark and haunting past. It was full of bullets, claws, and death. Wow, that was emo sounding.

I dreamed of the island, of the night Logan killed our father, of Victor. His transformation from loving brother to vicious monster. I didn't wake up once. No more mysterious vague dreams with no meaning yet full with uncertain answers to impossible questions, just the things I regret ever doing. The person I was. The person the still is buried deep down inside, without a prayer of resurfacing. (I hope.) The monstrosities and horrors of me. The horrible pain of transformation and the shock of waking up being indestructible. The wars. The bloodshed I caused. Stryker, the terrors he inflicted upon the mutants.

It wasn't all nightmares. I finally remembered the things I have been searching for. For once in a very long painful time, I felt whole. There wasn't some part of me missing. It was all right in front of me.

On the baseball field I had a moment of peacefulness, when I basked in all my memories. Of course Victor had to come and RUIN IT ALL!!!

I remembered that it was he who murdered Kayla, however indirectly. I remembered watching my brothers agony as he realized she was dead, and then not to remember her at all. Just to leave her dying. He was more of a monster than me and Logan combined. Now he threatened the Cullens. I was so angry at first but now I just feel uncontrollable guilt. If I hadn't started taunting him maybe he would have left me alone. But no, Victor can't turn down a challenge, not at all. Now he's hunting me, his own damn sister, and thus putting the Cullens AND Logan in danger.

I was pulled out of my dreaming a small pressure on my arm.

I jumped awake and found my claws almost to Alice's neck. I quickly took them away. Alice was gawking. As was Jasper.

"Sorry," I muttered. "Reflex reaction. Happens all the time. Don't worry I've never killed anyone."

With that particular method…

I sheathed them as Alice and Jasper watched my skin close up.

"Wow, I have never seen anything like that." Breathed Alice.

"Never will again if I can help it."

After the morning episode, Jasper was outside ordering room service for me. Alice and I were watching TV. We talked a little bit about vampires.

I know knew that you had to get bitten to become a vampire. Alice was reluctant to tell me this because Edward wouldn't like it. I still got it out of her, though.

"It's excruciatingly painful, I've been told. When you wake up, sometimes your human memories are all gone. You don't even remember who you are. It's terrible. I have no idea who I was before I became a vampire. All I remember is waking up and seeing Jasper in my future."

"I know what it's like." I murmured.

She gave me a questioning look.

"What?" asked Alice.

"To wake up from a transformation and find out you're something not so human after all. You don't remember who you are, what you did, you couldn't pick out who your own brother in a crowd. It's not a pleasant sensation."

"How?"

"When the guy who did this," I showed her my claws, "to me, he had my memories whipped. That was 15 years ago. I'm just now getting them back."

Alice ran up to me and gave me a hug.

"I'm sorry." She said.

"S'okay. Forgive and forget."

"What happened to the guy who did this to you?"

"He's dead." I said simply.

She stared at me.

"He drowned in an, uhh, accident, if that's what you could call it. Okay new subject. How do you kill a vampire?"

"Why would you want to know that?" asked Alice suspiciously. I guess she would be. She knew I was capable of killing.

"Look I promise I won't go after him I'm just trying to make conversation here. You know trying to stay away from the topic of me 'accidently' killing people."

"You have to tear them apart and burn the pieces." She stated.

"That's new. You don't drive a wooden stake threw their heart or throw holy water on 'em?"

"That's just a rumor." she said.

"Oh right I knew that."

A little later, Alice and Jasper were downstairs in the lobby taking care of things. I was alone in the hotel room. I was watching (and correcting) something on the History channel about World War II.

I heard my cell phone ring. It was Rogue. What was she doing, calling me?

I answered.

"If you want your friend to live, you'll do exactly as I say." Said the snarling voice of Victor.

And there is my classic cliff hanger, ladies and gentleman.

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