A/N: Sorry for the wait. This chapter has been done, but I don't like posting until I have the next chapter as least part way done, and it's not only part way done, but has been shipped off to my beta.
Chapter 12
Chelsea gave us all one last warning that I was supposed to be killed or the Volturi would be coming for me in four weeks time. I knew that everyone was right, about letting her leave since we did promise just to listen to her.
Once she was gone, people started to go back to their homes. Only the closest of the families stayed. It was at this time that Garrett got his first look at Kate and in that instant, Kate tackled him to the ground; I heard Char say, "At last, now all mating is done!"
They ran off; it's nice to know that everyone is getting some except me. I shook my head at that thought. Jasper pulled me close to him, whispered in my ear, "Soon."
This caused me to shiver. I was healed and more than ready for him to take me. I know the risk of being with him while human, but I knew without a doubt he would never, could never hurt me.
"Char, I have a question for you? What will happen to the bond between Carlisle and Victoria if he ever runs across his mate?" Edward asked.
"That's a very good question. What I can say is that I doubt very much Carlisle would even recognize his true mate. The thread that I see between Carlisle and Victoria is as bright and strong as those of us with our true mates." Char answered causing some gasps.
"How can this be?" Carman asked.
"I'm not sure Carman; I've never seen such a thing; I feel Chelsea did something different with their bond than she does when she creates other bonds. We may never know and understand why she did such a thing; but from looking at the thread I would never know they weren't true mates."
"Char, did you know that Esme wasn't my true mate?" Carlisle asked next.
"Yes, but it wasn't my place to say anything, because it would have disrupted the whole family. The strings I saw within the family were important to get us to the place we are now. Esme and Alice are still part of this family, for some reason." Char answered him.
"How could Alice see the down fall of the Volturi, yet not see me?" I asked needing to understand what Chelsea had said.
"I was with Alice many times when she tried looking for Peter. I know for a fact she can't see you. I've never seen you in any of her visions throughout the years. I can't answer anything about vision of the down fall of the Volturi as I've never seen any in her mind, but I do know at times she guarded her mind from me," Edward stated to me.
"Could she have it all wrong, that it's not me that causes the down fall since you know for a fact she can't see me?"
"You bring up an interesting point. We know Alice's visions are subjective to the decision around them, so it could be something else entirely that brings them down." Eleazar responded.
We all talked for a while more making plans for the next four weeks. It was decided at the end that, we would try to talk to our way out of it, stating very bluntly that we didn't want to take them down. That I was just trying to survive in a world that was thrust onto me, just because I believed it was possible for them to be living amongst humans.
I look forward to the day that I can embrace becoming one, but I still feel that I need to confront the Volturi as human, since they want me dead. It's kind of funny to think that vampires are scared of a human.
This human just wants to live in peace, being able to enjoy what little of my human life I have left, before asking my mate to change me. The thought of being changed didn't scare me, for I dream of the day that I could take control and take my mate in a manner that could never be done as human.
Once our talking was over the family went either for a hunt or back to their homes, leaving Jasper and I alone.
"Darlin' that way of thinking will only get you into trouble," Jasper purred into my ear.
"I need more than just the kisses and caresses you give me. I need to be made yours."
"I'm scared I'll hurt you and then what will I do? I can't live without you my Darlin'."
"You could and never would hurt me; I trust you to be able to control your instincts. I've seen the mating marks on the others, and I know that it's a normal part of coming together for the first time. I also know that it's in your instincts to mark me anytime other males have been around me. I'm not scared. You've got to believe in yourself, as I do," I reassured him as I gently ran my fingertips over his bare skin.
I've waited and waited for him to make me his. Yes, we've touched each other in the shower; I need more than that, and he knew this.
I stood on my tippy toes and placed a kiss on his lips, wrapping my arms around his neck, while pressing my body as close to his as possible. I was pleased when I felt his arms wrap around me holding me to him as he deepened the kiss.
I groaned as he pulled away from me.
"Are you sure my Darlin'?" he said looking deeply into my eyes.
"Yes."
With that said, he picked me darting up the stairs, where both our clothes were taken care of. He placed me on the bed crawling onto it with me.
Our kisses were deep and showed so much love and devotion, I knew I was right to push him into this; he could never hurt me. Slowly, he drew back from the kiss, so he could kiss, and lick down my neck, onto my chest, where he slowly sucked and nipped each breast before continue down my belly.
I cursed when he skipped over my heated sex to kiss down one leg then up the other leg. Once he reached my upper thigh, he once again skipped over my sex. He kissed my belly button and then looked up at me and into my eyes; as if asking if I was sure this is what I wanted.
I couldn't take my eyes off of his; they were pitch black; I've never seen him look so feral. I wasn't scared of him; it just made me want him more. I did my best to push all my love at him, as well as trust.
Without taking his eyes off mine, he slowly ran his tongue over my outer lips. His cold tongue on my hot wet skin, caused me to shiver, but not from the cold, but from the delight.
"You taste divine my Darlin'," he said as he dived in taking his eyes off mine.
My body was on fire; I wanted and needed more. I gasped and then moaned when he inserted first one then two fingers inside me. He curled them upwards hitting that sweet spot causing my body to clamp down and convulse around them.
I found myself cumming harder than I've ever come before.
He continued to pump his fingers in and out of me making me cum once more before removing them. Jasper then brought his hand to his mouth and licked his fingers clean. I don't think I ever saw anything so sexy before.
He crawled up my body kissing and licking my now glistening skin; each kiss and lick sent shots of electricity through my body. He captured my lips thrusting his tongue into my mouth.
I'd never tasted myself before this was new to me, yet erotic. I felt him enter me slowly. He stilled once he was fully sheathed inside me, allowing me to adjust to him being inside me. I've never felt so full; I found myself bucking upwards against his hips needing him to move.
His thrusts started out slowly, but soon turned into swift and deep thrusts. As he picked up speed, he pulled back to where we were once again looking into each other's eyes. His feral look bore into me.
I was getting close; I was gasping for breath, as each thrust caused the electricity to flow through me. I hoped and prayed that this feeling would never stop. I needed him; I've never felt so connected to anyone like I did him at that very moment.
As I came he lowered his head down as though he was going to kiss me again, but he placed his head on the pillow next to my head, biting it as he cried out and came deep inside me.
We stayed like that for the longest time, neither of us wanted to move, when he pulled out, he rolled onto his side, pulling me onto my side, so we were looking at each other.
"Thank you for your trust in me. It's never felt like that before. I now know I will never be able to get enough of you, my sweet Darlin'," he caressed my face, while pushing back the hair that had fallen on it.
I didn't know how to answer him; all I could do was lean forward and kiss him.
We laid there just looking at each other. I watched as his eyes went back to their golden color.
Sometime later, as we showered we once again became one, as he came; a feral growl was released causing the mirror to crack.
As I dressed, I knew I would never get enough of him; I couldn't stop myself from looking over at him, which caused me to be come aroused.
I heard him growl, "Woman you'll be the death of me yet."
I chuckled thinking nope; he will be the death of me soon.
