Hey guys, chapter 12/20. I am aiming for this story to be done by September so I can have a new story which I have been working on up.
Thanks to JessicaaGeorge for helping me out with the one shots this summer so I can focus on finishing this and getting Demon inside done. Also thanks to my uncle for letting me use his PC so I could get this up.
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"Danny, George, time to wake up we have a full band interview in half an hour," Jorel says, knocking on the door as well which woke me up. Danny was still out for the count and I was going to have a problem with waking him up. It isn't the physical bit that is hard, I can shake his shoulder and he'll wake up it is the fact that he doesn't do early starts anymore which is hard. Now he finally doesn't have nightmares he tends to join the others in sleeping until at least midday. He has just turned into a teen, which can be both good and bad.
He told me more about his supposed upbringing during the month that we have been living here. He rarely had food and drink during the day and was often left in terrible conditions. I got angry but I was glad that they are in prison now and they can't have any children if they do get out. The also put restraining orders on them so they can't come anywhere near him. He never had a childhood or anything like that and since I am a teenager still it helps him because he acts like me quite a bit and no one minds.
He is also starting to reveal his emotions to me now; he isn't bottling them up as much. I was proud of him and I told him that every time he came to me with a problem he was having or a bad day he was going through. I have turned into his rock and he is allowed to cry on my shoulder should he need to. He still shows me a lot of care and attention and we've been out on dates. My abuse wasn't really that bad or lasted as long as his did. He needs a lot more support than I do, considering his abuse only just ended and mine ended way before it turned into violence.
"Danny baby, wake up. We have an interview in half an hour," I tell him. He was snuggled next to me but rolled over away from me. "I don't wanna," he mumbles. I know he isn't that keen on interviews either but he doesn't have to say much. "I know but we have to do this one, we are singing Hear Me Now after it and we can go home and chill after that," I tell him and I pull him onto my chest so he can snuggle me while he wakes up. He buries his head into my shoulder, "I don't do mornings," he tells me.
"Why were you so energetic at school then?" I ask him. I wrap my hands around his waist. "Sugar, lots of sugar in my coffee," he tells me. So the secret to his slight hyperactivity first thing in the morning is a ton of sugar. "Maybe that will help you this morning then bear, we need to get up. We are leaving in twenty minutes," I tell him. He then sits up and starts rubbing his eyes. "Okay, I think I'll be alright without coffee, just need to be awake for a bit longer," Danny says and I watch him go into the en-suite bathroom to put his contacts in.
Well, he was going to. "I can't see with them in, I have to get new ones soon," he tells me and goes to grab his glasses from the bedside table. "Are you going to be okay seeing with the mask on?" I ask him before I kiss him. "Should be able to, my vision is just blurry without glasses or contacts in. I won't be able to read any questions but I can hear fine," he replies. We walk downstairs and Jorel raises his eyebrow once he sees Danny's glasses. "I thought you didn't need them because of the contacts?" he asks Danny.
"They are making my eyesight worse, I can see better without them and even better with these so until I make an appointment to get new contacts then I am stuck with glasses," he tells Jorel who nods. "Fair enough, We'll make sure that you can understand any questions directed to you, Jack said that they are banning certain topics to ask us," he tells us and puts two cups of coffee and two plates of toast down. We sit down and Danny starts eating his breakfast. "So I take it Deuce and Danny's parents are topics that are banned?" I ask him and he nods. "Yup and so is your parents and how old you really are, they all think you're twenty-one like Danny," Jorel says.
Fair enough, I have a few tattoos and I am building a collection which is quite nice. It also helps me look older than I really am. I think this interview will go okay. "We can always refuse to answer questions that make us uncomfortable right?" Danny asks while I eat my toast. "Of course Danny-boy, we also have to keep PDA to a minimum like I am sure you have been told at least a couple of times," Jordon says as he walks in. He kisses Jorel who goes a little red. "Yup, do all the kissing we want before we leave the house," Danny says and I go a little red.
"Seems like both our boos blush really easily," Jordon says which makes the blush just worse. "Yup but we are both the same," Danny says. Danny downs his coffee and takes our dishes to be washed and does them. He leaves them on the draining board to dry because we are a little pushed for time. At least I am used to him not wearing suits now since he has not worn once since the second to last day he worked at school. We both go for simple outfits that we have both worn before. I know why we have to wear masks during this.
It is still kind of awkward for them to know that I used to be a student of Danny's so it is better for them not to know that for now. It will be revealed in like five years' time or something like that. Danny could get in so much trouble if they were to find out that we started dating literally a couple of days before he stopped being my teacher. This year has just been crazy since September but I know now that it isn't going to slow down anytime soon. "We have had a crazy few months huh?" Danny says like he is reading my mind.
"Yeah I guess so. It isn't going to slow down anytime soon and I don't think I am regretting any part of it," I tell him, wrapping my arms around his waist and resting my head on his shoulder. I had been through a growth spurt and Danny now is a bit shorter than me. He was not keen or happy about it at first but he is used to it now and he actually likes it a little bit. The others pick their moments to tease him about it which is the only thing he doesn't like. "I guess we could say we found love in a hopeless place," Danny says.
I smirk, who knew he listens to Rhianna. Yeah, schools and Los Angeles, in general, can be a hopeless place for some. "We could or I could say you are a huge Rhianna fan," I tell him and if we weren't cuddling then he would be pouting. My hottie who is cute as a button. "Tai played it once and I got it stuck in my head ages ago, it came back I guess," he mumbles, trying to deny it. I decide to drop the subject and save him from any further embarrassment. "We have to go, the others will be waiting for us," I tell him.
Danny fell asleep in the car on the way to the interview so I guess he wasn't really awake a little while ago. We were all in one seven-seater and Danny and I was in the back with Matt. Jordon, Jorel and Dylan were in the seats in front of us. "Who is going to wake Danny up, we are ten minutes away?" Jorel asks us. Everyone else in the car apart from the driver said me. I guess since I am dating him he will be a little happier that I am doing it instead of someone else. I shook his shoulder and he jumped awake.
"It's okay Danny, we are still in the car, we are ten minutes away and you fell asleep so I thought it was best to wake you now," I tell him, trying to calm him down. I startled him and I didn't mean to, it just happened sometimes. He is a bit jumpy when he was half asleep. "Okay, just give me a minute or ten to wake up," he tells them and Jorel chuckles. "Sure thing, it might be a little longer than ten minutes because we seem to be stuck in traffic," he tells us.
I rubbed circles on Danny's arms. He looked like he was in the beginning stages of a nightmare just as I was waking him up so my decision was a good one. He was doing so well without having them, I guess the nerves will get to him and he could have one tonight. I will snuggle him and calm him down if he does though. "Thanks George," he whispers to me as we slowly crawl through the busy Los Angeles traffic. "You're welcome Danny, I knew it was starting," I whisper back.
"How can you sleep with glasses on?" Dylan asks Danny who shrugs. "I've done it loads of times, I've gotten used to it. It is better sleeping in a chair than face down on a desk though, it is the closest thing I can get to having decent vision when I wake up anyway," Danny explains. "How bad is your eyesight anyway?" Jorel asks, because of the layout of the car no one can turn around to see the people in the back without straining themselves with the seatbelts on. "Without glasses or contacts, I can't actually see much, it is all coloured blurs. I can see outlines of people and objects but I can't focus on them and see them properly," Danny explains.
I have one thing to say, cue the teasing. These guys as I have gotten to know love to tease people, Jordon is the worst. I let them tease me because it means they leave poor Danny alone. I waited for someone to make a comment on Danny's vision but to my surprise no one did. They must have known that the particular subject isn't really something to joke about. I would hate it if I wasn't able to see properly but then again if I was in Danny's shoes I'd be used to it by now.
"What are you thinking about?" Danny asks me, the others no longer paying attention. They want to get this interview over and done with like we do. "Just about unimportant stuff," I reply. I don't think he'd be too happy if I told him that I was feeling sorry for his vision situation. Then again he rarely likes it when people feel sorry for him. He is too used to all the bad stuff, getting him used to being complimented instead of yelled at and people apologising for their actions when his parents would force him to is going to be a challenge.
I rub his arm again, my little way of letting him know I am here for him whenever he needs me to. We are now two minutes away and I could tell he was getting nervous. My welcoming by the fans was a lot better than his. The haters seemed to accept me more but then again I am not replacing the worst lead singer. Yeah, I'll admit the lyrics were okay and the vocals were alright but him as a person is a whole different thing I'd rather not talk about. Danny rests his head on my shoulder; I could tell he was getting more anxious about it.
"Do you want to go somewhere a little more private to have a breather once we get out?" I ask him. Matt picked up on the anxiety and sent a worried glance my way. Danny is on the verge of a panic attack, it was becoming obvious. "Yeah," he says after a minute or two. We pulled up to the studio and Danny suddenly felt the need to hold my hand tightly. Jorel opened the door for us to get out once our seatbelts were off and I pulled Danny out.
The others waited around nervously, we weren't due on for at least an hour so we were good to go but they want us in the green room as soon as possible. I was trying to bring Danny out of the panic attack and they didn't want us to be alone without knowing where to go afterward. Our hoods were up in case anyone spotted and recognised us. "It's okay Danny, breathe baby. Nothing is going to happen," I tell him. I had him on the ground with his head between his knees and he was trying to get deep breaths in.
"Do we know what triggered it?" Jorel asks me, he was behind Danny and rubbing his back to try and offer some comfort. "I'm not sure, it started two minutes ago," I reply, I have a vague idea as to why this has come about but I wasn't even fifty percent sure on it so I wasn't going to say. I was crouched in front of Danny and his shaking hands were in mine. "Don't worry Danny; we will make sure you're okay the entire time. If you don't want to answer any questions then that is okay," Jorel tells him.
It took a few more minutes of encouragement and help to get Danny calm but we did it. I pulled him into a hug and kept rubbing his back to be sure he was okay now. "What was wrong Danny?" Matt asked, a member of our management team was there watching the whole thing, he was worried about Danny's mental health as well as us getting there on time. "It was a stupid reason," he mumbles. "Danny, you've been through a nightmare of a life so far. I doubt how anything sending you into a panic attack would be seen as stupid," Matt says and the others voice agreements.
Danny looked down to his feet. "It is stupid though," he mumbles and I think I know what sent him into it. His parents, it has to be. The last time that we were all together like this in public they showed up and it led to him being hospitalized a few days later. He has been afraid of them his whole life and it probably won't stop now. "Is it your parents?" I whisper into his ear. He holds me tightly and I can feel the tears as he nods. "Aw Danny that's reasonable, they've given you the most hell and the memories are still fresh," I tell him, revealing it to the others.
This day has not gone off to a great start. "Guys you go in, George and Danny can stay here for a little bit, I'll stay to make sure everything is okay," the manager says and even though the guys want to comfort Danny they have to do as they are told. They leave to the building while I hold my sobbing boyfriend and try and calm him down for the second time in an hour. I whisper sweet nothings in his ear which mean everything to him. "Take your time guys no rush, they know you're both new so anxiety is expected," the manager says.
"Yeah, well he is still scared his parents will get him but once he is calmer he should be fine," I tell the manager. They knew everything which went on towards the end of last year but I don't think they knew that it still has a deep effect on Danny and he would probably need a lot of therapy to truly get over the horrific things which have happened to him in his life so far. He was starting to calm down but I know he will be tired once he is calm and it might be difficult to get his mood up for when we perform in a few hours' time.
Yeah we have the questions first but he doesn't have to talk if he doesn't want to, the managers will make sure of that. "Shh baby, they are rotting in cells now. They can't get to you anymore," I tell him. "But the memories are still there, playing over and over in my head, I can't escape them. They are still getting to me," Danny says. My heart breaks just a little bit more at those words, I should have known that was a thing that happens. During his little nap he must have relived a memory which prompted the panic attack once he woke up properly.
I would tell him to try not to think about them but it is difficult, at the end of the day they were his parents. They created him and in their methods of raising him they broke him. I bet you that my lion would be a completely different person if the abuse never happened to him. "How about we make some new memories to focus on," I tell him then turn to whisper. "Like that time we had fun," I whisper and I saw the blush appear on his cheeks instantly. He had stopped crying by now and it was just making sure he was calm.
"Yeah, I can't let them keep ruining my life," he says, ending the cuddle so he could wipe the tears away. Having said everything about how bad it was and how badly it affects him, he seems to bounce back well from it. I already saw a little smile, yeah it wasn't his signature heart-melting smile but I wouldn't be expecting that. "Just do that heart-melting smile of yours during the interview and all the girls will swoon," I said, being a bit dramatic and swooning which made him laugh a little bit. "I already made you swoon George," he tells me as we walk to the studio where the manager was watching us.
"Yeah true but I am definitely a male," I tell him as we get to the doors. The manager smiles and takes us to the green room where Jorel tackles Danny into a hug. You could tell Jorel has known Danny the longest and out of the others cares about him just a tiny bit more. "I'm okay now Jay, just need to get better at dealing with memories," Danny tells the older male as he hugs back. "Are you sure Danny?" Jorel asks, not letting go of Danny who needs the bathroom. "Yeah I'm sure, I also kinda need the bathroom dude," he says which makes Jorel let go instantly.
"Did he tell you which memory it was?" Jordon asks me once Danny leaves the room to wash his face and do anything else he might need to do. "No, he says they keep playing over and over in his head and that he can't escape them though," I tell them and I could see it in their eyes that their hearts broke a little bit too. "Shouldn't he have therapy for this, I mean nine solid years of abuse have got to have a lasting impact on your mental health," Dylan says, a little thankful Danny is taking his time.
I hope he doesn't over hear this and get the wrong message. We all care about him and we don't want to see him like this anymore. "Danny wouldn't go voluntarily, he knows all of us here care about him and would do anything for him so he might not need to go," Jorel says, choosing some of his words carefully. "Yeah, he also knows we don't like seeing him as upset as he was before," Matt says. Danny walks in a minute later and joins me on one of the sofas and I wrap my arm around him. It is weird how I act like the older one sometimes but sometimes it is needed.
"Are you better now Danny?" I ask him and he smiles, it was a bigger smile then the other one but not the one I was hoping for. "A bit, I just need to learn to let it go," Danny says, snuggling into me. We weren't going on yet, but someone came up with a piece of paper in their hands. Deuce had come out with a diss track, which as soon as Jorel read the paper he swore loudly. "I fucking knew he was going to do something like this," he says, Jordon grabs him from behind to contain the rage which Jorel would release.
The shouting was so sudden that Danny flinched. "It's okay Danny," I say, trying to prevent any more tears or panic attacks or flash backs. Jorel looks over to us and his expression softens a lot. All the anger seemed to have melted away when he saw how Danny had reacted. "I'm so sorry Danny, I scared you. I didn't mean to," Jorel says walking over and picking Danny up. Danny snuggled into him and said nothing. I know the hug he was giving meant forgiveness anyway and Jorel should too. "It's not my day today," Danny mumbles a minute later. "Tomorrow will be better," Jorel says and puts Danny back down on my lap.
"What's the song called?" I asked and I was handed the paper which was a lyrics sheet. The song was called Story of a snitch. I quickly googled it on my phone and found the audio. Freaking dipshit, this is not how to deal with it. You can't even rap for shit, this isn't manning up at all. It is a weak attempt at a comeback. Our album has no diss songs and I bet it will do so much better than his. Even mentioning Danny's old band which has nothing to do with it. Danny stopped making music with them before he joined Hollywood Undead and he even featured on swan songs.
"Fucking weak ass," Danny says when he reads over the lyrics. I did some more research and found he made a song called nobody likes me. Seems about right for Deuce, I know he will make more weak attempts but he will get the message eventually. I hope he will anyway, it is pointless to have a little pissy fight because you got kicked out due to your ego and your shitty attitude. I saw how the guys had to bend over backwards to accommodate him and this is how they are repaid? Fucking pathetic.
"I agree on that Danny, freaking lame mother fucker," Dylan says and we all try and cool off a little bit. He was getting us all raged which is what he wants. It won't last long though, we'll come out on top and better than ever. "What do we say to this?" Matt asks us and I shrug. We are going to have to respond to this in the interview, it is stupid but we are going to have to do it. The fans need to know. "We'll laugh, it is a lame attempt and all of it is bullshit anyway," Jorel says, and we all nod. The manager comes back and Danny hands the piece of paper to him. I understood why he did it so hastily, the words directed at him really hurt.
"Is this a genuine song? Has anyone heard it?" the manager asks us and I put my hand up. "Yeah I heard it, it's real and it sounds like Deuce alright," I answer, I was tempted to play the song out loud but it would piss everyone in the room off and we need to be calm and professional during the interview whenever it starts. "The interview starts in ten minutes guys so mic and mask up please," he says and then a member of the studio crew walks in with the equipment that we will need.
We have special mics which have been placed into the masks so that people can hear us talk. Well it would have been nice if our tour masks were ready but they aren't yet. Dylan and Jordon don't have any issues because their masks are the same regardless because they are mesh fabric so you can hear them talking anyway if you put a microphone to it. It is only the guys who have the full face masks that would have the problem which is Danny, Matt, Jorel and I. Well it would be a problem if we didn't have the special mics.
"We would like you not to comment about the song if it is brought up unless this person is persistent about it, pretend that you haven't heard of the song," The manager says, which is fair enough since we did say we would refuse to talk about Deuce if he was ever mentioned again. I stay near to Danny as he gets his mask on. I won't be able to see his nerves creep back by looking at his face but I will see it in his body language and things like that. "You'll be fine Danny just think positively," I say with as much enthusiasm as I can to boost him a little.
"I know George, I have done a couple of interviews before but this feels different somehow like I am still affected by before," he says, I hope he was smiling because he needs to be happy. I love him so much and I can't wait till this is done so I can tell him that. I know he loves me back just as much and we have always gotten along with each other, rarely any disagreements and stuff like that. It makes me feel more optimistic for the future that I will have with him.
The interview was very long and very boring. It took them the whole half an hour slot with just question and answer and more questions and more answers. We had a little introduction where we said our stage names and our roles in the band. Danny was reluctant to say he was the lead singer and front-man but Jorel said it for him. I said my name is Johnny 3 Tears and I am a rapper. My voice is very different than it was before as I seemed to have gone through a bit more of puberty since I left school.
It was a good thing because no one would recognise me even if they knew I had some tattoos now. They asked how Danny and I were settling in and how Danny was feeling with his injuries he suffered last year just as we were announced as the new guys. We said we settled in great, we joked around a little bit and Danny told them he was fine, it took a couple of months to recover but he was feeling fine now. He only had the chest surgery scars to remind him of the accident. They asked about the new album which we were wearing the masks for and how that was going.
We announced that American Tragedy was to be released in April this year. It is currently the middle of February which gives the fans two months to get excited about it. We then said we were releasing Hear me now today and we were going to perform it today which got them even more excited. This is a live broadcast for the early morning kinda talk show. There are no fans in the studio but plenty were watching and sending in questions which we answered.
Once the interview was over we were sent back to the green room to do some more waiting as we will be performing at the end of the show. No one asked about Deuce which was nice, well none that we know about. Danny and Jorel were told they were going to help out on the cooking bit which they had to take their masks off for but they didn't mind and it was fun to watch them be a little silly on the monitor as Danny put some frosting on Jorel's nose and Jorel did the same to Danny.
This time I was the one who was getting nervous, this is my first ever live performance and I was so afraid that I was going to screw up. Everyone told me I would be fine and to just have fun. My tour mask was done but the others had to use their swan song masks. We explained this as we went on saying that the new masks didn't have tour versions apart from mine so we have to use the swan songs ones for now. Then we started to play since they gave us our instruments.
[JDOG]
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I wear my crown of thorns and pull the knife out my chest.
I keep searching for something that I never seem to find.
But maybe I won't, because I left it all behind.
Now I'm stuck with this, and that'll never change
Always a part of me, until the very last day.
Where to go from here? What road to travel on?
I spent my whole life choosing, and I always chose wrong.
Will I try to have the will to be alive?
Will I try because I've never seen the light?
Blow it to the ground and it's now you see,
You spent your whole life taking the best of me
[DANNY]
Where'd you go? Where's your home?
How'd you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There's no light, there's no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you're underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now
[JOHNNY 3 TEARS]
How long can I keep pretending to be?
That all the stars in the sky could mean something to me.
Heaven will open up if I live on my knees.
A man of many words, but a man of few deeds.
Walking these streets, so absent of hope.
A pillow of concrete, a man with no home.
Lend him a hand, then we're walking the way.
Leave the virtue of pity, but we live with the shame.
So scared to dream in a world with no sunlight.
When you wake up, you know it's darker than last night.
Quickly we forget, sacrifice gone by.
Born to walk away, been walking my whole life.
[DANNY]
Where'd you go? Where's your home?
How'd you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There's no light, there's no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you're underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now
[DANNY]
Look into my eyes and I see
What do I see? Nothing at all
Take another look around me
What do I see? Nothing at all
[DANNY]
Where'd you go? Where's your home?
How'd you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There's no light, there's no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you're underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now
[DANNY]
Can you hear me? Hear me now
Everyone was blown away by our performance and all the clapping in the studio was genuine. They had never heard our songs before but I knew they liked it. We were all grinning, this worked out so much better than we were all expecting to be honest. I was high on the adrenaline from the performance and I was going to hate it when I crashed. Danny was the same but I know he is still exhausted from all the emotions he went through before. I put my arm around him as we walked out and Jorel did the same with Jordon.
"That was amazing," I say as we got back into the car and on the way home. Everyone was starting to come down but we were still smiling. "I know and seriously you two blew them away with your performances, both naturals," Jorel says, he was sat next to Danny who is next to me. "Thanks Jay, but they've hear me before?" Danny asks him, feeling a bit confused. When he featured in swan songs he was more of a rapper than a clean vocalist. There was bound to be a difference in how he sounded. It was like when he went from screaming in Lorene Drive to rapping for Hollywood Undead, you could hear a subtle difference.
"Yeah but you're vocals are a little different now, wait until they hear you two singing Scava together then they will be impressed," Jorel says with a smirk. Scava is a song which only Danny and I have the main parts in. Matt has some back-up vocals but the verses are mine and the chorus are Danny's. I loved writing it and I can't wait for people to hear it when the album comes out soon. Well if the album doesn't get leaked before the release date anyway.
Danny fell asleep on the way home and Jorel shook his head. "Today's been tough on him already, let him sleep a bit," he says to Dylan who was about to wake Danny as we arrived home. I picked Danny up and carried him into the house and to our room. I hate how all the bad things have to happen to him but I don't know what I can do to help him in anyway. I took his shoes and jeans off and snuggled up to him in bed. He was doing fine before today, he didn't have nightmares and he was calm, happy and bubbly.
I snuggled him for over an hour before he woke up screaming. The tears were falling thick and fast down his face but the only sound he had made was the scream. Jorel was hovering by the door and I pulled Danny into another hug. "Shh Danny it was just a nightmare, it's okay now nothing is going to hurt you," I tell him and it takes less time to calm him down this time than it did before. He let me wipe all the tears away as he calmed down. "I'm so sorry," he says and Jorel walks in, I think he couldn't stand to be idle while his brother was a mess.
"What do you mean you're sorry?" he asks Danny while I hug him from behind. "I'm so weak and pathetic, I can't move on from it and I always fuck up," he says. I squeeze him tightly as Jorel puts his hand on Danny's cheek. " Dude you have not fucked up, you have been through the worst things that could ever happen to anyone as a child and none of it was your fault, twenty-one years of living hell which only just ended is going to take a heck of a lot of time to move on from. No one is expecting you to be a hundred percent now and we are proud of the steps you have taken recently dude," Jorel says making sure he had Danny's attention.
"You saved me from being abused as badly as you were and I have fallen head over heels for you so I don't believe you have fucked up at all," I tell him. Danny hadn't said anything since he called himself weak and pathetic and I was worried about him. Jorel let me turn Danny around so we had eye contact. He still wasn't about to say anything so I put two fingers under his chin and leaned in so our lips met. I felt him melt into the kiss and then he started kissing back. "I love you too," he says once we break away from the kiss.
He hugged Jorel next who was more than happy to hug back. "We are all here for you if you need to talk to us or rant or cry for whatever reason, no holding back. We love you like you are our baby brother and we need to step up with the big brother protection," Jorel tells Danny who smiles and I see that smile I've wanted to see all day. "Same goes for you too George, you've both been through a lot during this past year or more and we are here for support when you need us," he tells me and I hug him.
My mom was nice up until dad died a couple of years ago. When that happened she wasn't the same and before dad passed away I came out as bi-sexual to them and they were very supportive. Well dad was anyway, he had to convince mom that it wasn't the end of the world and there was still a high chance that I was going to have a relationship with a girl and settle down. He personally didn't care if I went for a boy or a girl and happily pointed out people he thought were hot.
He met Danny before he died as he was doing a teacher training course and had to do some experience in my school before he was hired. He was at the parent teacher conference to observe what he had to do and my dad pointed him out as a good potential date for me once I had left school. He'd be proud of me if he knew how far I have come and everything. Mom went back to hating me after he died but she never once hit me. It was just psychological abuse with her. I can't imagine what Danny must have gone through on a daily basis.
I'm pulled out of my thoughts by Danny jumping on me for another cuddle. "You okay George?" he asks me as I wrap my arms around him. He rests his head on my shoulder and Jorel rubs circles on his back. "Yeah I was just thinking about stuff, how are you doing now?" I ask him, it was three in the afternoon so we both missed lunch really even though we were given food while we were at the studio this morning. "I've been better but I guess today was just going to be bad," he replies. I was expecting to ask what I was thinking about but I think he knows by now that I wouldn't tell him.
"Is everything okay up here?" Jordon asks as he walks in. He was probably wondering where Jorel had gone and decided to check all the rooms. "Been better, Danny had a nightmare and isn't doing so well today with recovering from the physiological effects of the hell," Jorel says and Jordon walks over to the bed. He gives Jorel a kiss on the lips and carefully lifts Danny up from my cuddle and holds him like a parent would do which sent Danny into tears. "Shh, it's okay Danny," Jordon says and rubs Danny's back.
Poor Danny, he has done so much crying today but then again today is an emotional day for him having to relive everything he has gone through over his life and deciding to not bottle it up this time means he will cry a lot. I don't think it makes him weak because he is trying to show us how badly they messed him up. "I think we've become parental figures Jord," Jorel says as he sees Danny's grip on Jordon's t-shirt as he calms himself down again. "That's not a bad thing Jay, we love him so much and maybe he just needs that kind of people to help him get better," Jordon says.
Jordon wipes the remaining tears from Danny's cheeks and kisses him on the forehead. Danny snuggles up to Jordon as he joins the two of us on the bed. "My poor little lion," Jorel coos, which makes Danny blush. "I'm not little," he says and I chuckle. "You're the shortest here Danny, but I know what you mean," I tell him and he pouts. Jorel and Jordon chuckle with me. I look to Jorel, "What are we going to do till dinner?" I ask him, not wanting to stress Danny out any more than he was today.
"I was thinking, once Danny washes his face we could spend some time in the game room," Jorel says and Danny gets a smirk. He was going to whoop my butt and probably the rest of the group at Mario kart and we would happily let him. He needs cheering up today and that is the best thing that I could think of that we could do. "Yeah sure, that sounds like a plan. I'll go set up," Jordon says, handing Danny to me and leaving the room. "You feeling better now buddy?" Jorel asks Danny who nods. Of course he would, we get to play Mario kart again.
Jorel leaves us to alone to go to the gaming room and I follow Danny into the bathroom. "This is so weird, I was just babied by Charlie Scene and J-dog," Danny says as he washes his face to hide the fact that he has been crying again. "I know but maybe that is a de-stress option which could work well," I tell him. I was sitting on the edge of the bath, watching Danny do his thing. "Yeah well I'd rather it is on an occasional basis, I don't want to make a habit of it," He says. I get up and wrap my arms around his waist and kiss his neck.
"Fair enough, just roll with it occasionally though, you looked a bit more relaxed now then you did when you first woke up and even more relaxed then after the interview," I tell him as he turns around to face me. He starts a little make out session which I thoroughly enjoyed. I realised as we were making out that this seemed awfully familiar. He was upset a month ago when we were moving in but I don't think he cried half as much as he has done today.
His day went a whole lot better once we got into that game room. It was like all that fear, worry and upset hadn't even happened. We decided to play super smash bros this time and Danny still whooped our butts, some of us were letting him win if we were better at this. He had no idea though, he just needed cheering up and to have fun. We once again ordered takeout since we didn't feel like cooking since we wanted to devote as much time as possible to cheering Danny up.
We ended the night with a film which Danny fell asleep during, it wasn't that interesting anyway. "Tomorrow will be a better day for Danny for sure," Jorel says as he turns the TV off. Danny was snuggled into my side and unaware of anything. "Yeah, today's just been really tough I guess," Matt says, looking at Danny and I on the love seat which was my favourite seat in the house. "I'd hate to have the same up-bringing he has had," Dylan says and we all nod. Jorel lifted Danny up so I could stand up and he'd still have cuddle contact.
Danny wouldn't know I wasn't holding him at that point because he was so deeply asleep. I loved it when he managed to get this peaceful, nightmares occur less for him when he is out for the count like this. I take him from Jorel and carry him to our room after saying goodnight to everyone. I put Danny into bed and quickly got changed so I could snuggle him while I fell asleep. This past few months have been crazy but to be honest I wouldn't see myself anywhere else than in this house with guys I enjoyed spending time with and the love of my life.
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Another chapter down. I am going to miss this story once it is done but it can't continue forever. Demon inside is going to last longer than twenty chapters I think. Not too sure yet. I will post one chapter of the new story before it is officially worked on more in September, I just need to see how you guys will react to it.
The one-shot schedule will also be starting this week with 28 one shots written by Jess and 4 by me but I will do the following:
Sunday= One shot
Weekday= Chapter (alternating between demon inside and this,)
Well I aim to do this during the Summer anyway. Might not work, we'll see. This will start after the first chapter of the new story goes up and it will end once college starts up again.
I hope you enjoyed this mess.
