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When they arrived outside the school they saw the carnage. They all flashed their badges and crossed the line that kept the public at a safe distance. Olivia for a moment couldn't move. She saw the lights flashing from the different emergency services, she could sense the panic of other worried parents as well as feel her own. Her throat was dry and she knew she couldn't speak even if she tried.
"Liv." Elliot whispered pulling her out of her daze.
Olivia saw an officer stood close to the entrance and broke out into a run.
"My son's in there! Please tell me my son is alright!" She yelled as Elliot grabbed her as she was close to hitting the young uniformed officer.
"We haven't been able to evacuate the right wing of the building Ma'am, if you're son is out he'll be stood in that parking lot ..." The young officer didn't get to finish his sentence as the fourth bomb went off.
As they hit the ground Elliot managed to grab Olivia's hand in his own. Olivia could think of nothing but Calvin, seeing his face smiling at him when she tucked him in at night. She couldn't move as she wondered if he'd come out of the school in a body bag. Her precious little boy was all that she could think about.
"All officers to clear the perimeter!" A voice yelled from a loudhailer. "All officers to clear the perimeter."
"Liv come on." Elliot said helping her to her feet.
"I need to find Calvin." She sobbed.
"I know and we will, let's go and have a look in the Parking lot." Elliot said taking her hand.
"Liv have you got a picture of Calvin. They're taking pictures from the parents and they have a scanning machine over there." Cragen said joining them.
"Yes it's in my purse in the car." She said as Elliot handed the keys to Fin.
"We'll go and see if we can find him." Elliot said and he and Olivia rushed over to the parking lot.
"It's Mark!" Olivia yelled seeing her son's friend. She rushed over to him and as he was sobbing she pulled him into an embrace.
"Mark where's Calvin and Jamie?" Olivia asked her voice shaking with panic. Her hands were cupped around his face as he tried to stop crying long enough to explain what was going on.
"I don't know, it's their side of the building that was hit." He cried.
Olivia's knees buckled underneath her and Elliot was relieved that one arm was already around her as she stumbled.
"I need to find Calvin." She whispered as he held her to him.
"I know and we will." He replied.
They walked across the grounds to see if they can find any answers when Cragen came up to them.
"The bomb squad have given the all clear and they are evacuating now, It's going to take some time as they are bringing out the uninjured first followed by the injured and as soon as possible the deceased." Cragen explained.
"How many do they think are dead?" Olivia asked her voice quivering.
"They don't know as they haven't been able to pin point exactly where the bombs went off yet." Cragen sighed. "Come let's go wait closer to the door."
Olivia arrived at the door as kids started to leave the school. They made their way to the parking lot in an orderly manner considering what had happened. They're faces looked soulless and they were covered in dust and debris with minor cuts. Olivia scanned each kid as they passed but there was no sign of Calvin.
"Where is he?" Olivia shook with fear as they started taking gurneys inside.
"He's going to be alright." Elliot said kissing her forehead to remind her that he was beside her.
The gurneys began to come out and Olivia gripped Elliot's hand. The fourth one was leaving the building when she saw him.
"Calvin!" She yelled rushing to his side. She grabbed his hand kissed it. Elliot was right beside her.
"Calvin, I'm here. Mommy's here." Olivia said softly.
"I'll meet you at the ER." Elliot said as Olivia climbed into the ambulance. She managed a weak nod as they shut the doors.
"Come on Calvin. Wake up sweetie, its mommy. I'm right here beside you." She whispered one hand holding his and the other brushing his hair. The paramedic had ripped off his t-shirt and attached wires to his chest. Olivia felt relieved as the heart monitor beeped into life and showed Calvin's heart was still beating. The paramedic placed an oxygen mask around his small face which looked smaller and younger than what Olivia remembered.
"What's wrong with him?" Olivia asked looking at the paramedic.
"I think its smoke inhalation that's knocked him out but when we lifted him we could see some shrapnel on his arms and legs. Looks like he was stood side on to the blast." The medic explained. Olivia just nodded and turned her attention back to Calvin.
As they journeyed to the hospital all Olivia could do was pray. She didn't stop talking to him, remind him that she was there and she wasn't going anywhere. Not that she was sure that he could hear her but somehow she found it made her feel a little better.
When they pulled up outside the hospital Elliot jumped out of the car and ran to them. They followed the medic inside Olivia refusing to let go of Calvin's hand.
Once inside he was checked all over. When they finally began to clear and leave them a doctor came to speak with them.
"He's going to be absolutely fine." The doctor smiled and Elliot and Olivia both sighed with relief. "Just smoke inhalation and minor cuts we've had to stitch a couple of them but no big deal he'll be fine once his oxygen levels normalize."
"Thank you Doctor." Olivia said wiping the tears from her cheek.
"You hear that baby he's going to be fine." Elliot smiled his arms still wrapped around her.
"Mom." A breathy voice called.
"I'm right here baby." Olivia said jumping to her feet. She kissed his hand and stroked his hair as he adjusted his eyes to the light.
"Mom, what happened?" He asked his voice sounding a little more normal.
"There was some bombs honey but you're alright." Olivia explained.
"Oh." Calvin said before closing his eyes and drifting off.
Just as Olivia hugged Elliot in walked the Captain, Fin and Munch with Alex and Casey.
"Warner wishes she could be here but Queens are sending her the over flow." Cragen whispered.
"How many dead?" Olivia asked.
"Count was up to 34 when we left. Luckily it's a small school with large classrooms or there would be a lot more." Cragen explained.
"How is he Olivia?" Casey asked looking at Calvin.
"Fine, smoke inhalation and minor cuts and bruises but he'll be fine." Olivia smiled.
"Do they have any idea who did this?" Elliot asked. Cragen just shook his head.
"I don't understand who would target a school full of children?" Alex asked tears glistening in her eyes. Fin put his arm around her shoulders to comfort her but she shrugged him away.
"Does anyone know anything about Jamie Lewis?" Olivia asked remembering suddenly.
"No, do you want one of us to go find out?" Cragen asked.
"Yes. If it's bad I'm going to need to prepare myself to tell Calvin." She whispered.
"I'll go." Munch said rubbing Olivia's shoulder before heading out the door.
"Olivia, Queens cops have promised to keep us in the loop, they know that a Manhattan SVU detectives kid was in the building and they said "No one hurts a cops kid and gets away with it." To what I said. "No, no one hurts any kid and gets away with it." But I knew what he meant and they've graciously said they'll let us know if they have any leads." Cragen explained.
"That's great thanks Cap'." Olivia smiled feeling grateful for small mercies.
"Mom!" Calvin screamed his eyes bursting open.
"Calvin I'm here!" She said rushing to his side and taking his hand. "I'm here baby, right here."
"I thought you'd left me." He cried. Olivia pulled him into her arms and cried with him. Elliot stood up and pulled both of them into his arms.
It was a scene that would make any grown man cry. Elliot, Olivia and Calvin just held onto each other as they sobbed for each other. The anger and frustration combined with the love they thought they had lost was making their escape through their tears. No one wanted to break up such a beautiful moment.
"Cap could you arrange for someone to get the rest of my kids?" Elliot asked knowing that it would be lunchtime now and he wanted them here to know they were safe.
"I've already sent uniform, they'll be here soon." Cragen smiled.
"Thanks Cap." Elliot whisper before turning his attention back to Olivia and Calvin.
"Dad! Mom!" Maureen called rushing into the hospital room.
"Hey kids!" Elliot said hugging each of them. Olivia hugged each of them before all the girls hugged Calvin and he and Dickie did their secret handshake. He seemed to perk up a little having his siblings all around him that he let go of Olivia's hand.
She walked over to her friends and Cragen took her into his arms and embraced her.
"I think you should get checked out whilst your here, you took a dive when that fourth bomb went off." He whispered.
"I should tell the kids first, it might cheer them up a little." Olivia smiled softly and she signalled for Alex and Casey to come over as they didn't know yet either.
She braced herself and hoped that this news would cheer them up as she knew that it could go the other way and they could become sour at the thought of yet another sibling coming in and spoiling the fun.
"Kids, me and daddy have something we need to tell you." She smiled as she nervously prepared her words carefully. "Are you all ready for a little brother or sister?" She grinned.
They all gasped and started cheering. Dickie jumped up and down whilst Casey and Alex hugged each other. The girls all began to cry with joy as they celebrated the thought of a new Stabler.
"Now guys will you be ok with Uncle Don as Daddy takes me to be check out?" She asked mainly looking at Calvin.
"Yes." They all chorused.
Olivia and Elliot headed down the corridor, the extent of what had happened at the school really hit them when they saw parents sat around wanting to know when they could see their kids and if their kids were dead or alive and none of them seemed to be getting answers.
"Excuse me this is Detective Benson, I'm Detective Stabler we were on the scene when the fourth bomb hit and ended up taking a dive but Detective Benson is pregnant and we'd like her checked over please."Elliot said to the receptionist.
"I'll just call our on duty OB/GYN. Give us a moment." She smiled taking the phone. It was probably the first time she hadn't been asked about a missing child in the past hour.
They weren't waiting long when the doctor approached them.
"Hi I'm Doctor Cann, I'm the on duty OB/GYN, I just need to know Detective who is your OB/GYN so I can contact them and let them know that you're here." He smiled.
"I don't have one, I only found out I was pregnant this morning." She said softly.
"Ok and how did you find out with an over the counter kit?"
"No, the ME did it for me as a favour." Olivia explained.
"Ok come right this way." He smiled and they followed him to a cubicle.
"I'm guessing you don't mind your partner being here Detective?" He asked as he helped her role up her top.
"No he's the father." Olivia laughed.
They both saw him look, there was no mistaking it. He had seen many cops in his time and he knew how close partners could get however he had never come across two who had entered into a sexual relationship together.
"Ok, This will be a little cold." He said as he squirted the gel onto her stomach. "Now you probably won't be able to see anything this early on but we are just looking for a heartbeat." The doctor smiled. Olivia was extremely ticklish and giggled every time he moved the pad. "Here we are." He said pointing to a very tiny black dot on the screen. He touched a button and suddenly a heartbeat echoed across the room. "Like I said not much to see but that's a very healthy heartbeat I'm hearing." He smiled.
"Thank you Doctor." Olivia smiled as she listened.
"You're welcome." He smiled and pulled the pad from her stomach making the noise stop. He passed her a piece of blue role so that she could clean herself up. "So taking a guess here, but I'd say you're about six or seven weeks along. I will know more when the baby's grown more and give you more of a precise date.
"Now you do need to make an appointment with an OB/GYN if you prefer as I have already met you I do have my own surgery and do one day a week here so I could happily give you my number, just call and make an appointment." He said pulling a small card from his pocket and giving it to them.
"We will Thanks again Doctor Cann." She smiled as he pulled down her top.
"No problem, see you soon Detectives." He said walking out and closing the curtain behind him.
"If it didn't feel real three hours ago, it definitely does now." Elliot smiled.
"I know." Olivia giggled.
They made their way back to Calvin's bedside where he was happily playing rock paper scissors with Dickie.
"The doctor came by, their happy to discharge him soon. How are you?" Cragen asked.
"Good, baby's heart beat is strong and healthy." She smiled.
"You've already got that pregnant woman glow baby girl." Fin smiled.
Just then Munch came into the room.
"What is it Munch?" Olivia asked. He signalled his head to the door and Olivia and Elliot slipped out to talk to him.
"Jamie is alive but he's not doing very well. He was hit in his head and back by a large object probably falling debris." Munch explained.
"Ok thank you Munch. Maybe we shouldn't say anything to Calvin till he asks." Elliot suggested.
"No we need to tell him now so he can start to heal El." Olivia said going back into the room.
Elliot followed her inside and watched as she sat on the side of the bed and took Calvin's hand in her own.
"Calvin, Jamie's alive but he's very poorly, he's been hit in the head with something heavy when the bombs went off." Olivia said softly.
Calvin said nothing and jumped up wrapping his hands around Olivia's neck and sobbed.
"It's my fault!" Calvin sobbed.
"Hey, no it's not! Why do you think that Cal?" she asked her heart breaking at the sound of his words.
"Because I sent him to get some more paper for us and when he walked across the room, that's when the bomb went off." Calvin sobbed harder.
"Oh baby that doesn't make it your fault. Don't be silly it wasn't your fault." She said rocking him backwards and forwards as she held him.
"It is! If he dies then I'm a killer!" Calvin sobbed. Olivia couldn't hold back her tears anymore.
"No you're not Calvin. This is in no way any of your fault so don't blame yourself. The only person who is to blame is the person who made those bombs go off and the police in Queens are going to find out who did it ok?" She asked pulling away and cupping his face in her hands. He nodded weakly and she kissed his forehead.
The doctor walked into the room smiling but when he saw everyone's faces it faded straight away.
"Calvin's ready to be discharged, I've been asked by the school to hand these out their leaflets about family counselling their doing for all of the families affected." The doctor said but Olivia didn't take the flyer.
"Calvin's father and I are Special Victims Detective's we'll have our shrink deal with our issues thanks." She said bitterly.
"Ok well here are the discharge papers and you're free to go once their handed back." The doctor said handing Olivia a pen. She signed the forms and almost threw them at the doctor before grabbing her things. Calvin climbed out of the bed still in his hospital gown and jeans.
"I have my coat here Cal, you can put that on." Dickie smiled pulling his coat out of his school bag. Calvin gratefully put it on.
"Mom. Can we go see Jamie?" Calvin asked turning to his mother.
"I'm sure you and I could but they wouldn't let everyone." Olivia said looking around at the rest of her friends and family.
"I know can they wait in the car?" Calvin asked. "I really want to see Mr and Mrs Lewis too." Calvin explained.
"Why doesn't daddy take everyone home and we'll ask uncle Don to wait and take us back after?" Olivia suggested not wanting the kids to wait around anymore.
Calvin nodded and Olivia kissed Elliot goodbye.
"I'll make dinner and you're all coming back." He said looking at his friends. They didn't object as Olivia and Calvin made their way over to the intensive care unit. Olivia didn't wait around for permission, instead she broke the rules and flashed her badge even though Cragen had decided to come with her to meet the family.
Olivia saw them before Calvin did. Mr and Mrs Lewis and Mark were sat in the waiting room sobbing and holding each other.
"Calvin!" Mrs Lewis said rushing to him and wrapping her arms around him. "Thank God you're alright." She smiled weakly kissing him on the cheek.
"I am how's Jamie?" He asked and Mrs Lewis burst into tears and looked at Olivia and shook her head.
"Calvin, why don't you and Uncle Don go to get a snack from the vending machine outside? I'll be there in a minute." She smiled and she watched as her son skipped off with Cragen.
"Mrs Lewis I'm so sorry, had I known I wouldn't have bought him up here." Olivia said softly.
"No, I'm glad you did, I hadn't heard any news from anyone about him and was worrying. I'm glad he's ok." Mrs Lewis sniffed.
"Can I ask what happened?" Olivia asked softly.
"He just slipped away from us Detective."
"Olivia ... please." She whispered.
"Yes, Olivia, he had been hit in the head with falling debris and that with the smoke ... his little heart couldn't take it and it just stopped." She explained.
"Mrs Lewis ..."
"Call me Joan." She said.
"Joan, I am so sorry. If there's anything I can do for you please let me know." She smiled handing one of the hundreds of cards she carried in her pocket.
"I will do Olivia, Thank you." She smiled.
Olivia left the family to mourn. She found Calvin and Cragen sat on the benches outside the ICU. He was sipping away at a soda. Cragen looked at Olivia who shook her head, he knew what it meant. Olivia leaned down in front of Calvin and took the drink from his hands passing it to the Captain.
"Do I get to see Jamie now?" Calvin asked his voice full of excitement at the thought of seeing his friend.
"No baby. You see Jamie was so poorly that his body couldn't take everything that happened and his heart ... well his heart stopped working." Olivia explained trying to hold back her own tears.
Calvin just stared, no tears, no tantrums, no emotion. Seconds that felt like minutes passed.
"Can we go home then?" He asked eventually.
Olivia just nodded as Calvin took her hand. He still didn't cry as she held his hand tight in her own. She didn't know what she had expected him to do but something would have been better than the silence that he was giving. If he cried or threw a tantrum she could comfort him or cry with him, with him being so silent she didn't know the true extent of his pain.
So Calvin is alive. I couldn't kill him imagine that! Actually I never planned on killing him hahaha! Poor Calvin though he does have to deal with the loss of his best friend which I know isn't easy. But let's hope things get better soon. Next Chapter up once I've edited it!
