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Chapter 12: me and My Wicked Thoughts

Everything feels good. It's so nice being held by Takishima's warm and reassuring arms. I hope this never ends. I hope this not a dream. I hope everything is perfect as it seems.

I hope I don't wake up…

I hear birds chirping and something's cluttering on the background. I nudged head.

Hmm…something smells good.

As if my senses are on timer because of the delicious aroma, I slowly opened my eyes. At first, everything was blurry, although I can see the back of a golden-haired guy preparing something on atray.

I sat down and scratched my eyes to I could see things clearly. Where am I?

Then, everything comes to clear vision. He is really a vision.

"Takishima?" I croaked. As if I'm unsure of this guy infront of me.

He gave me a lopsided, half-smile. The crooked one that I love. Then, he came near while holding the tray.

Actually too near. His face are inches from mine. Those hypnotic golden brown eyes held mine. I cound't even look away. I could hear his breathing even smell his scent. The Takishima scent: manly, soapy fresh smell.

All these automatically made heartbeat thumping real fast. My temperature's rising up to my face.

"Good morning, beautiful." He whispered, smiling.

"G-g-ood mo-morning." My throat suddenly went down my stomach.

"What's wrong?" He smiled playfully, "You seemed,.." He looks back at me, fixing his gaze.

"..speechless?" He mouthed.

Oh my, he's loving this. Making me feel awkward all over. Making me feel unsure.

I suddenly looked down and luckily, broke his spell on me.

Uh-oh…I just wished I hadn't looked down.

Just when I did, I saw him wearing dark blue pajamas and…well, nothing on top. His bare chest were exposed. I noticed some nice cuts on his arms and his abs. and his dark blue pajamas were hanging on his hips.

I swallowed seeing these.

Delicious.

I shook my head.

Why didn't I see those before? Oh no, I spacing out again…

Then, I heard his voice, "What's wrong, Hikari?" He asked, with a mixture of concern.

I noticed I was breathing fast.

Hikari, Relax! I thought to myself.

"Nothing." I shook my head.

"Okay." Takishima said, still all smiles at me. "I'll just finish brewing some coffee and then we can have breakfast." And he stood up.

I looked at his figure, jaw drop.

Gosh, this is just a dream. I have to wake up soon.

I hugged myself and put my head on my elbows. That's when I noticed…

I repeatedly touched my body, finding if I have any clothes on, only to find out that I'm only wearing my panties.

"Where are my clothes?" I panicked. I covered myself really tight with the blanket. I struggled and went off the bed to find my things, but they're nowhere to be found.

I sat down the carpeted floor and tried to think clearly what happened. Suddenly, everything flashed back the night before.

The meadow,

The white roses…

… under the moonlight.

"Ahhhh!I shouted, trying to still wake up form this dream. This horrible dream.

Takishima sped and crouched infront of me. "Hey, what's wrong Hikari?" He put back a messy strand of my hair, "Are you hurt?" He touched my arms gently.

"What happened to me? To us?" I asked, eyes wide open. I am starting to panick. "Did we…?"

I can't even say the word.

Takishima suddenly laughed.

Really, what is funny?

"Is that all you're going to ask?" He chuckled. I rolled my eyes at him.

"Do you think this is something funny huh Takishima?" I was taken aback by his behavior.

Is this something so easy for him to say, like it is not a big deal?

I was really pissed off, so I grabbed the blanket and got off the bed. I stomped straight to the bathroom and locked the door. I looked at myself in the mirror.

My hair was sticking out in all places and my eyes were big and dark because of my lack of sleep.

Lack of sleep…oh no.

Didn't we?

I closed my eyes and tried to comprehend everything. Okay, Hikari, relax. Breathe. Let's remember what really happened last night. Takishima showed me a place where there are lots of roses…and we said something about our feelings, I can't remember and things became hot. We..we kissed and did more…did something beyond kissing. Oh no…did we? We did….

"No we didn't.." a voice behind my back said. I turned around and saw Takishima, now wearing a white V-neck tshirt. "We didn't do what you're thinking."

Tears welled up my face. I don't know what emotion to feel. Glad, because we didn't do it or disappointed because we weren't able to do it? Hey Hikari! What are you thinking?

Takishima reached out, held my face and wiped a tear away. "Don't worry, I know you are not yet re-"

I suddenly hugged him. I know this is the right thing to do…for now. I am overwhelmed and ecstatic that he was here with me. "Takishima, I'm sorry. I miss you."

I never imagined I can be this close to him.

Takishima gently caressed my hair. "Are you sorry because you miss me or are you sorry for being hysterical back there or you're sorry because you are not supposed to miss me?"

I deeply inhaled his scent. "All of it Takishima, all of it."

"I miss you too Hikari. God knows I was on the brink of death when you left." He whispered. His breath tickled my ears, but I let him continue, "I was afraid I won't see you anymore."

"Me too Takishima." I said, as tears began to pour out again. "I'm sorry I left you."

Takishima held me tight. His lips touched my forehead. "Don't be. At least you're here now."

We stayed there for what might have been eternity, until Takishima let me go. "The food's nearly cold." He stretched out his hand and smiled at me, "Let's eat?"

"Sure." I smiled back.

While eating, I noticed Takishima hasn't changed much. He still has the same eyes, hair, face everything, except for his developing abs, which very much evident on his tight fitting shirt.

"Why are you smiling at me?" He asked, while pouring milk on my coffee.

I snapped back to reality. "Nothing."

"What happened to us last night?" I changed the topic. " I just remembered we were kissing and then, we, you know…"

Takishima smiled. He knew me too well that he knows I'm uncomfortable, or maybe I'm blushing.

"Yes, we did." He smiled wickedly, but handsomely too. He got closer and held my hand gently. "It was a fun night." He straightened up, "But we didn't consume each other too much, because you fell asleep when we were just lying there."

"Oh." I mumbled. I sounded like I was hopeful. Takishima noticed my tone and looked at me in the eyes.

"Well, there are still more time, if you insist." He stood me up and held my head close to his. He brushed his fingers on my blushing cheek. Something ignited in me.

I hate this feeling…

Do I?

I felt my breath quickened. I swallowed. "But I got to go." I breathed.

He moved spoke near my ear. "Are you sure?" I can feel his breathe tickling me. My knees are melting.

Gosh. I want him.

No wait!
I opened my eyes. "No, I think I better get going." I compose myself, grabbed my clothes and went to the bathroom.

I looked at Takishima. He's playing with his hair while watching me. "Don't you dare…"

He raised his hands in defeat, "I won't."

I tried checking on him before I close the door, I stuck my head out. He curved his lips into a smile and mouthed: "Go."

I closed the door…and nearly collapsed.

Woah, what was that?!


It was days since the "bed incident" with Takishima. Everyone kept on bothering me about what happened. But Akira kept on squeezing me out.

"I told you for the nth time Akira, nothing happened." I exasperated. "I just woke up and he served me breakfast, he brought me home and that's it."

"He served you breakfast?" Akira shook me. "Breakfast as in food or breakfast as in his body?"

"Hey!" I was offended, I'm not that kind of girl. "Breakfast as in food."

Although, I do want him for breakfast.

Hey stop it, Hikari!

I shook my head, erasing my thoughts.

Akira kept on checking me, my arms, my face everything! "Are you sure you're not hurt?"

"Nope." I simply said. "I'm pretty sure about that."

"Ok." She said, "Oh, Hikari, we'll meet again tomorrow with the rest of the gang."

"Really?" I said, I so miss them! It's been like a week since we saw each other, since I saw Takishima. "What's up?"

Akira looked at me in disbelief. "You forgot? It's our plan! We've got to go to our next plan."

"Oh." I said. "Right."

She looked at me upclose, and put a hand on my head. "Are you okay?" She asked. "You seemed…space out this week."

Me and my thoughts on Takishima. I better stop it already.

"I'm fine!" I said right away, I flexed my muscle (although I was pretty skinny) and made my Number 1 pose. "See?"

Akira seemed delighted. "Yeah!" and then, she hugged me, "That's my Hikari!"

I smiled, and wondered…

What might Takishima be doing right now?

Takishima was reading some documents, but seemd to not be able to concentrate. His head was floating somewhere else.

FLASHBACK

"I came back because I love you and I can't let myself live without you. I've been convincing myself that you're not someone I'm supposed to love because you're my enemy but I can't. I'm really angry with myself because my efforts of staying away from you and denying you are so fruitless and in the end I blame myself because I'm such an asshole for pushing you away. Maybe I'm addicted to you or something…you always make me feel bad about myself. I'm guilty not because I can never be as good as you…but because I haven't had the chance to tell you that you're such a jerk for making me feel this way."

"Takishima, I'm sorry. I miss you."

END OF FLASHBACK

Takishima sighed and smiled at the thought.

So she loves me. She loved me ever since.

…and I love you too HIkari. So much. So damn much.

Just as then, Asuka came, distracting Takishima with his thoughts. "Hi babe! Lunch?" and presented a paper bag she's carrying. She kissed him on his lips.

"Thanks." Takishima simply replied.

But I have to do something first.


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