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Author's Note: Sorry for the late update everyone! But, now that I've got the chaos of the first week of school out of the way, I present to you, Chapter 12! Please leave a review!
On the gang's first day back in school after their beach trip, Beck had spent all of his morning periods feeling incredibly fidgety. He knew that he had made a promise to Andre and Tori, and he knew that if he didn't make good on his word by his own will, Andre and Tori would make sure he fulfilled his promise, regardless of what they had to do.
It didn't escape Beck that Andre and Tori were watching him carefully as he sat down at their lunch table. It also didn't escape him that Jade was missing, and that she was sitting at a table far off in a shady corner of the Asphalt Café. After Robbie and Cat set their bags down and went into the line at Festus' truck, Tori pounced.
"Have you talked to Lane yet?"
"No."
"Why not?" Beck sighed.
"Look, I know that I promised you guys that I'd get help, but I just don't feel like talking to him right-" Andre cut in.
"Actually, what you promised us is that you'd get help as soon as we got home. And we're home. And Lane's available. So you're going to go talk to him. Now." Beck turned to Tori for back-up, but saw that she was giving him the same look that Andre was. Beck groaned.
"Fine, fine. I'm going, happy?" He picked up his bag and went inside the school building. But as Beck made his way towards Lane's office, a thought occurred to him. He turned around to head towards the opposite hallway, and towards everyone's favorite improv teacher's classroom. But, when Beck reached the door, he hesitated to turn the handle when he heard strange slurping noises coming from inside the room. Cautiously, he knocked the door.
"Sikowitz? It's Beck. Can I come in?"
"Come back later, I'm having alone time with my coconuts!"
"...it's kind of important, can we talk now?"
"Giving my coconuts the attention they deserve is important too!"
"Sikowitz, I...," Beck's voice dropped down to a whisper. He was about to utter a very rare set of words. "...I need help." Beck heard the slurping noise stop. A few moments later, Sikowitz appeared at the door, holding a straw-punctured coconut in his hand. He opened his mouth to speak, but then took a large swig from his coconut. Beck waited as he continued to slurp up the coconut milk. After Sikowitz had wiped his mouth on the back of his hand, he gestured Beck into the classroom.
"Enter, Elvis." Beck nodded and went inside. Sikowitz went in after him and shut the door behind them. Sikowitz sat down on the stage and invited Beck to sit in the chair in front of him. Beck sat down and shuffled his fingers as Sikowitz took another sip of coconut milk. Seeing the look on Beck's face, Sikowitz quickly finished his swig and set the coconut beside him.
"So Elvis, what seems to be the problem?"
Beck deadpanned, "I'm losing my mind."
"...and why are you telling me this?"
"Because, aside from Jade, you're possibly the most bizarre person I know."
"But that doesn't mean that I'm crazy, or that I know how to help a crazy person."
"I know. But, you have," Beck gestured wildly with his arms, "visions, and stuff." Sikowitz looked amused.
"...you're coming to me for help with your psychological problems because I get visions from coconut milk?" Beck groaned.
"It was either you or Lane, okay? And since I've never actually had to speak to Lane before..."
"You'd rather talk to someone who actually knows you a little." Beck nodded. Sikowitz sighed.
"Alright, I'll listen. Why do you think you're losing your mind?"
"I've been having crazy nightmares, and I've been hearing and seeing things." Sikowitz looked thoughtful.
"...you know, maybe you're just being haunted by a ghost."
"...You've got to be kidding."
"Seriously, you must have done something to upset the ghosts of Hollywood Arts, and now you're being haunted."
"Sikowitz, I know I'm not seeing ghosts!" Sikowitz grinned.
"So...you know who you're hallucinating about, then?" Beck's eyes widened.
"What? Of course not! I'm...I'm not hallucinating about a person, exactly-"
"Beck, if you want me to help you, you're going to need to be honest with me. Are you having hallucinations about a person?" Beck hung his head.
"Yes."
"Okay. Do you know this person well?" Sikowitz noticed Beck's cheeks getting red.
"Yes...very well, actually." Sikowitz grinned mischievously.
"Is this person...a female friend, by any chance?"
"Well, if you want to use friend with a loose definition, then sure..."
"Ahhh, so it is a lady problem..." Sikowitz patted the spot beside him. Beck sat beside him.
"Beck...love is a very complicated thing. And if you think that you're seeing this girl everywhere, that might just be your brain trying to tell you that you like her."
"Well, I guess, but-"
"And if your subconscious is trying to tell you something, I think you should listen. And I highly doubt that this girl is going to reject you if you try to let her know that you like her."
"Actually, I'm worried she might stab-"
"And besides, I was under the impression that you and Tori were already together. I don't think she'd have a problem with you making it offici-"
"Wait, what?"
"I'm sure you and Tori would make a wonderful-"
"You think I like Tori?! Sikowitz, I've been seeing Jade everywhere, not Tori."
"Well, that might be a problem. Aren't you dating Tori?"
"What would make you think I was dating Tori?!"
"Well, I'm sorry, it's just that you two have been joint at the hip ever since you and Jade broke up..."
"Sikowitz, I can promise you, I am not dating Tori." Sikowitz nodded and reached for his coconut. As Beck mused over Sikowitz's words, he felt queasy.
"...have me and Tori really looked that close?" Sikowitz nodded as he sipped his milk. Beck had only wanted to kiss Tori during the Platinum Music Awards because he'd wanted to hurt Jade after thinking she'd moved on to Andre. But, as it turned out, neither Andre nor Jade were interested in each other. ...and if Beck had looked like he'd moved on straight to Tori even before he'd been meaning to make it look that way...Beck realized that he'd really put Jade through an unfair amount of pain. He turned to Sikowitz.
"So...now you know what's wrong with me. What's your diagnosis?" Sikowitz set down his coconut.
"Well, you're not crazy. Crazy in love, possibly, but not crazy."
"Um...okay. So what do I do about the hallucinations?"
"Why do you want to do something about them?"
"What do you mean?"
"I know you and Jade aren't speaking to each other, and the visions give you a chance to talk to her. Why do you want them gone?"
"...doesn't it bother you that you have visions?"
"...why should I be bothered?" Beck gave Sikowitz a strange look, then continued.
"...honestly, I don't really have a problem with them. Sometimes they're so realistic...I feel like Jade's actually with me. But...well, I almost drowned this weekend because of a hallucination. And Tori and Andre made me get help. So...here I am." Sikowitz gave Beck a long look.
"...okay. I'll tell you what I think you should do. But, I'll need to ask you a question first. And you need to answer me honestly."
"Okay. What is it?"
"Do you still love Jade?" Beck turned from Sikowitz for a moment, looking at the ring on his hand. It was really his and Jade' s necklace's pendant, but he didn't want her to see that he still had it, so he'd put it on his finger instead. As he fiddled with the ring, he gave his answer.
"I'll...I'll be honest. I tried to stop loving her. I tried to love other girls. I tried to love Tori, I tried to start something with some bimbos from Northridge. I thought I'd be better off if I could love someone who wasn't as aggressive as she was, you know? Someone who I was more likely to get along with. But, I was wrong. I missed arguing with her. I missed her sarcastic comments, I missed her scissors, and I missed that she was the only girl I'll ever know who isn't afraid to be honest, who won't try to change herself to please people. I missed that she wasn't the kind of girl to walk on eggshells when she liked someone, that she wasn't afraid to call me out when I was wrong...and I guess that's why we started fighting so much. I was in the wrong more than I'd like to admit. I'm not saying that she was a complete angel herself, but..." Beck ran his hands through his hair, as he felt the nauseatingly high levels of nostalgia clawing at his throat.
"...I think part of the problem was that I forgot that she tried to be one for me. She tried to be nice. I forgot that she wasn't just this tough girl who was arguing with me 24/7, that she was my girl...I forgot that she has more emotions than she'd like to admit underneath her hard skin." Realizing that he had now begun a full-blown Jade rant, he decided to cut his emotions short.
"So, in short, yes, I love Jade. I love her, and..." Beck chuckled, "I can honestly tell anyone who disagrees that I lose my mind when she's not with me." Sikowitz starred at Beck, then nodded.
"I needed to be sure. ...I think it's pretty simple what you have to do."
"And, what's that?" Sikowitz smiled.
"You love Jade. You miss Jade. You're going crazy over Jade...don't you think it's obvious that now you need to go get your bitter girl back?"
Author's Note: Okay, I'm really happy that I finally got to let Sikowitz into the story, I adore him. Thanks for reading, please leave a review! :)
