NAOMI POV – The morning after the night before!

Chapter 12

I woke up feeling shit, before I even opened my eyes I knew I was hungover, I also knew before I opened my eyes that Emily was lying next to me. I had the fear, as memories rolled back in of last night. Nothing happened between us which is more than I can say for other evenings. But at the same time it felt like something had.

I forced my eyes to open and rolled over finding I was still clutching an empty bottle of vodka.... classy!

Emily was curled up facing away from me, her vibrant red hair was sprawled everywhere, the strappy pink top I had lent her clung loosely to her exposing her milky skin, I don't know why but I had a massive urge to touch her, be close to her. Before I could stop myself I had put my fingers through her red hair, feeling how soft it was against my skin, entranced me! I quickly snapped myself out of it, shaking my head at my actions and dragging myself out of bed away those thoughts, away from Emily.

I pulled my off and picked up some clothes for the day. I took another look at Emily lying peacefully innocently in my bed, I hesitated for a second thinking about climbing back into bed and waiting for her to wake up. Jesus "what are you doing" I said to myself out loud. This was wrong, so wrong. I needed to get as far away from here as quickly as possible. I could feel myself freaking out and I didn't want anyone else to see me like this. Especially not Emily, who I knew would challenge my behaviour.

I knew it was a terrible thing to do, but I just couldn't stop myself from doing it. I got dressed sorted my face and hair out in the bathroom as quickly and quietly as I could ....and I left. I left Emily alone, in my house, in my bed and I went to college. I put my iPod on loudly trying to drown out thoughts of last night, of Emily and mostly the inappropriate thoughts and feelings I had lingering!

I cycled aggressively and took the long route to college knowing how early I would be if I went straight there. I cycled as fast and as far away from my house as I could.

This couldn't be happening I could not like Emily, she was a girl, she was a pain, I was happy on my own. It was easy, how it was supposed to be, how I was supposed to be.

I could not let this happen. I wouldn't.