A/N: I am soooo sorry for this being so late!! I had a crazy summer, and I kinda lost inspiration. But fear not, this shall be continued! I should have an easier time with it this semester, so I hope you guys will keep reading. I really appreciate your patience. (Plus, I kinda got into Naruto. The whole tragic Sasuke Sakura pairing kills me. I have something stewing for that;-)) Thank you so much to everyone who reviewed before, and look for the next one very soon!!! (Hopefully by this weekend)
Title: Greed
Author: zi ling
Fandom: YuYu Hakusho
Pairing: Minamino Shuuichi (Kurama) and Botan
Theme: #4 our distance and that person
Disclaimer: I can hopeā¦.
Not a single day passes in which I fail to pay the price for my sins.
It is an exacting toll, a cruel burden that taxes me more with each passing day, month, year. I can no longer measure my life in the spans I might have before, when decades meant nothing and centuries were acknowledged with the thought of I still live. Yet even these few years of being human have distorted and warped my perception of time beyond all recall. Too swiftly does it fly by, and with it the faded glory to which I once clung.
The weight of my greed chains me, something almost tangible. The blood of the deaths I have caused seeps through the very pores of my skin, staining me forevermore. Marks of the unrepentant; symbols of the most profound of sinners. To sink any lower is impossible.
Throughout my years, I have learned that there must be a balance in the world. I suppose it is much like the concept of yin and yang, good and evil, light and dark. For everything that is sullied and tarnished beyond recognition, there is something untainted to countermand it, something untouchable and yet so very desirable.
It is in moments when her lips press against my own in that sweet innocence she can never quite lose, when her arms pull me tightly against her and the beat of our hearts seem to find rhythm together, that I believe I can cross the chasm that separates us; that I, too, can shed my impurity and become something worthy of her affections.
Then the moment passes, and all I am left with is a fleeting wish that will never be granted.
And yet I still reach forward to grasp with my dirtied hands that which is pure. You see, greed has always been my downfall.
And every day I pay the price.
