I want to be

someone special to you.

I don't care what everyone else may think about me,

as long as you believe in me.

I have the world against me,

but with you by my side

I can bear anything.

I can be anyone...

I only want

to be with you.


Chapter 12:

The next week flew by in a breeze. Giotto and G had decided that they would move the red-haired man into their little home, seeing that G practically lived there for the short week they had finally reunited. He had visited every day and only left late in the evening. Everything seemed fine so far: Giotto was happier than ever, Tsuna as well…but Reborn…couldn't quite accept his little brother's infatuation with his newly acquired uncle. The little brunette followed the older man like a lost puppy and that angered the black-haired youth to no end. Where before Tsuna only had eyes for him, his beautiful amber eyes sparkled with happiness, when G said or did something stupid that made him laugh so merrily. Reborn hated to admit it to himself, but he wasn't as childish as to deny his own emotions: he was jealous. But he had a plan and soon, Tsuna would be his again. He would make sure, that G got that note imprinted into his fucking mind.

But after the first week, another annoyance entered their lives and made the gap between him and his little brother even wider. And this annoyance was the son of that pink-haired menace, Hayato Gokudera.

As soon as G had brought the little brat over, that was only a year older than Tsuna, he felt like he had lost his little brother entirely. With only G there, Reborn had had at least some times alone with the adorable little brunette. He would always put him to sleep and share a bed with him. It had been their time and only theirs. But now…that damn puppy took that place.

He remembered the first night, that he had been left out and he remembered the sting that he had felt in his chest when Tsuna asked him to understand.

As soon as G had brought Hayato over, the little boy had latched onto Tsuna in an instant. They had never met before, but somehow…there seemed to be a 'special bond' between them. Or so Tsuna had said.

"I'll call you Tsu-sama from now on, ok? You are my best friend ever!", the little silver-haired boy had said.

Tsuna had smiled and embraced the other boy, as if they had known each other forever. And then, on the first night that they now all lived together, Reborn had prepared for sleep as usual. He was about to slip under his and Tsuna's covers until he felt himself being shoved to the side by that annoying brat.

"I'll sleep with Tsu-sama! He is my best friend, not yours!", Gokudera had yelled.

Reborn immediately pulled out his Leon-gun and pointed it on the other's forehead and turned his most hateful glare on him.

"You won't ever sleep with my little brother, brat! Try anything on him and you'll be dead before you can even say his name-".

"Reborn-nii! Why are you so mean to Haya-kun?", Tsuna asked as he just entered his room and only heard the last sentences of the black-haired boy.

Reborn stiffened but didn't put his gun away. Hayato immediately turned around and hugged the brunette, while stifled pathetically.

"Tsu-sama! C-Can I sleep with you tonight? I-I'm so lonely and I…I g-get nightmares when I'm alone. So can I? Please?", he asked in such a pitiful voice.

Tsuna looked quite torn, but Reborn believed that Tsuna would deny him his request. It was their bed after all and not that damn brat's! But his smug grin quickly vanished, when Tsuna turned his pleading eyes on his older brother.

"I-Is it alright with you, if Haya-kun sleeps here tonight, Reborn-nii? I don't want him to be lonely…", he explained in a quiet voice.

And yeah…it did bother him, and it hurt him and it…scared him to hear Tsuna ask him to practically leave him. Because that was, what Reborn heard. Without another word, he had quickly stalked out of the room without looking at his little brother once more. But he did see the smug grin of the silver-haired demon out of the corner of his eyes.

And this occurred not only once, but often enough. Every night, Gokudera would turn his puppy-dog-eyes on Tsuna and the little brunette had a too warm heart to deny him.

And Reborn hated to admit it…but he was feeling lonely. He had never been one to strife for people's closeness, seeing as he was always rejected and called a demon for his black hair and black eyes. And he hadn't minded being alone. But when he got adopted into the Sawada household he had felt such a warmth and a belonging…that he got used to the feeling of being accepted by someone.

And now he felt, like he had lost his family all over again. Giotto was no better than Tsuna for he only had eyes for G and his sudden obsession to gather his lost friends. He didn't ignore him per se, but he didn't pay as much attention to him as before. And he wouldn't have minded, seeing as he would still have had Tsuna as company…but that was only wishful thinking…

And now…after two weeks, Reborn had had enough.

As soon as he opened his eyes this morning, he immediately got ready for the day and left the guest room that he had to stay in. He went over to Tsuna's room and had to grit his teeth at the display before him. His little brother laid on his left side, with that silber-haired demon brat pressed tightly to his back, with his small arms wrapped around him. He felt a sudden rage engulf him and he could barely contain his hatred for the nuisance. He unconsciously took a step towards Gokudera, with his hands outstretched and ready to throttle the bastard who took away his little brother. But Leon quickly stopped him.

"Don't do that, Master! The dog will only wail again to Tsu-chan and you won't achieve anything!"

That immediately snapped Reborn out of his irritation and he stiffly nodded.

He telepathically thanked his little companion and got back to the task at hand.

He carefully knelt down on Tsuna's side of the bed and gently eased his sleeping brother out of the death-grip the brat had on him. As soon as Tsuna lay in his own arms, Gokudera gave out a grunt and Reborn quickly stuck a pillow in the place Tsuna had been before. Gokudera immediately embraced the soft pillow and snuggled into it.

Reborn took in a deep breath, but smiled when he felt Tsuna push himself deeper into his arms and sigh contently.

Slowly, as to not jostle Tsuna too much, stood up and left the room. He went over to the guestroom, where he had placed some of Tsuna's clothes the day before and quickly dressed him. At the motion, Tsuna sleepily opened his amber eyes and smiled immediately when they landed on his big brother.

"Reborn-nii! What are we doing?"

Reborn chuckled when he saw the adorable sight of Tsuna rubbing his eyes cutely.

"I've planned a whole day just for the two of us. You feel up to it?", he asked quietly and finished dressing the brunette.

Tsuna's face immediately broke up into a bright smile and he jumped up and down on the bed in excitement.

"Yeah, I get to go out with Reborn-nii! Where are we going? Where? Where?"

Reborn held his hand out to his little brother and Tsuna instantly took it. The older boy helped him down from the bed, but didn't let go of the small hand tightly clasped in his own. How he had missed Tsuna's warmth and the comfort and calmness he felt in his presence.

Reborn took out a rucksack from under the bed and shouldered it. Then the two of them made their way downstairs as stealthily as they could. And as soon as their feet touched the last step, Reborn let out a nervous breath he had been holding. So far, everything had gone as planned.

"Come on, Tsu-chan. Let's go!" Reborn could barely contain his own excitement at being able to spent his entire day with Tsuna again. Just the two of them, without anyone interrupting them…

"Tsu-sama? Where are you going?", suddenly asked a small voice from the top of the stairs.

Reborn stiffened, his shoulders tense and his eyes narrowed into a glare.

He tightened his hold on Tsuna's small hand, not ready to give his one chance at spending time with him up just yet.

Tsuna turned around and smiled at seeing Hayato.

"Good morning, Haya-kun! I'm going out with Reborn-nii!", he said.

At hearing this the silver-haired boy's eyes opened wide and his mouth fell open. He ran down the stairs and held onto Tsuna's other free hand tightly.

"I want to come, too, Tsu-sama! Can I come along?", he asked in this annoying pleading tone again.

Before Tsuna could answer though, Reborn had picked his little brother up and glared at the younger boy.

"NO, YOU CANNOT, YOU DAMN BRAT!", he all but screamed into his face.

And then…everything was silent, until loud footsteps echoed in the deafening silence. Giotto and G immediately appeared and came running down the stairs, their eyes wide and alarmed.

"What happened!?", asked a breathless Giotto, followed by an angry G that glared at the black-haired boy that had dared to interrupt his sleep with his loud yell.

Hayato instantly ran over to Giotto and wailed loudly, while pointing an accusing finger at Reborn.

"He, he wanted to take Tsu-sama away and I only asked, if I could come with them! I was so lonely and Reborn didn't want me to come! He hates me, Giotto!", whined the silver-haired boy.

And now it was Giotto's turn to glare at Reborn and shake his head in disappointment.

"Is that true, Reborn? Why can't Hayato come along? Since he came here, you only glared at him! What's your problem?!", asked the blonde.

Reborn sat Tsuna down on his feet again and suddenly felt all eyes on him.

"I-I…", he fucking stuttered. But he couldn't say anything. This situation felt so like the moment, his family had thrown him out, because they didn't understand.

He swallowed around the lump in his throat, that had suddenly formed, but he couldn't breathe. As if a sudden weight had settled over his chest and pushed down on his heart.

Giotto took a step forward, one hand raised.

"Reborn, what's going on with you? You're acting so strange…", he asked.

But Reborn couldn't take their stares anymore. The only one who could understand him, was his little brother. He looked down at Tsuna, who stared back at him with confusion.

"Do you really hate Haya-kun, Reborn-nii?", he asked and titled his head to the side.

No, not even Tsuna would understand him anymore. He felt his eyes becoming wet and his emotions threatening to overwhelm him. He had to go! He couldn't stay here any longer.

With one last look into Tsuna's beautiful amber eyes that still held that confusion in them, he turned around and ran. Ran away from accusing, hateful gazes and one pair of honey eyes, that didn't understand him.

"I am alone again…", he thought as the tears streamed down his young face.