Chapter Twelve!
To my Dear Beloved Sister,
I lost you, not only once but twice. This time for good. They say… They say you are dead.
After the fight with Grimoire Heart, I lost you forever.
When I got back into the guild, back into Fairy Tail, I was really glad to be there with everyone.
But without you it will never be complete.
I'm writing this letter to you after many weeks because I could't express the feeling.
I was used to you again, even if it was only a matter of weeks. The thoughts of you being dead, it is horrible.
It is something that I had thought about before, when I was a child but the thought of it actually being true.
It makes a hole in my heart that doesn't know how to be filled again.
It makes me empty, that I don't know how to feel again.
I want to see you, my beloved sister.
I need to see you, to know that you are alright, even though I know you are not.
I didn't know I could feel this lonely, while being surrounded by others.
I think being alone is not the same as being lonely.
My sister, no one has seen you anymore since I left. No one knows anything about you.
Was it only seven years ago? It feels like a month.
So much has happened, Bisca and Alzack, Asuka.
Macao being Master and the Guild.
Our beautiful building that we had to sell.
The farm that is used now.
So many members that quit.
To believe that you have seen this. It is horrible.
I have been training very hard to get stronger.
I lost a lot of potential in seven years. I could be so much better, if I would let myself.
I try to show the others that it doesn't hurt that much.
Or I tried. They are not stupid. I believe he knows.
No one says something about it, as if they expect me to break down any moment.
I won't, I can't. I smile for them. I fight for them. I do whatever is necessary for them!
For the Guild. But I can't leave you there. Wherever you are.
Sister, I just want to see you again.
Run around in Fairy Hills again.
Scream at you because you did something stupid.
Take a bath with you, go on a job with you.
Although we never do that. You went with your team. I with mine.
Which might have been better, we would fight all the time.
Sister, I cannot even write your name again because it hurts.
You were the new light in my life.
To think that you have lived with the fact that I was dead.
I wonder how you could keep up. You are so much stronger than I am.
I always relied on others. I always felt like crying, but I never did.
You on the other hand always tell me how you feel. Simply by yelling, maybe even crying.
This letter can never express all my feelings, because I simply cannot write them down.
I cannot write any more because I just want to tell you but I'm not able to.
I have to live with that. We all have to live with that sometimes.
Natsu and Igneel. All the other Dragonslayers. I finally understand how you feel.
Forever yours,
Erza
So here it is the last chapter. And such a 'wait-what-feeling?' I hope. I feel weird to leave the sisters or Fairy Tail behind. I don't know if I'll continue with Fairy Tail but this one was so nice to do. It was a great opportunity to use because of the seven years gab.
I don't want to spoil it by going way too broad.
So I hope you enjoy it and please leave a review!
(Maybe I'll leave a extra chapter next week to really finish this and not leave the open-ended story. But only if someone asks for it!)
