A/n ok there is a lemon here, so you'll have to skip that part if you don't want to read it. However you can't skip the whole chapter as this has a huge plot point in it.
Darkness…
Falling…
Falling…
Hermione woke up in the middle of the night, covered in sweat and screaming. The door swung open and Sirius rushed into her room, only wearing black silk boxers with his wand drawn.
When he saw Hermione in her bed with no obvious trouble he hesitantly lowered his wand.
He walked over to her seeing that she had tears streaming down her face. He sighed, he realised that she was having nightmares again.
They had called off their holiday, choosing to go home once Harry was let out of hospital. The muggle doctors had told them that he would be released today, around midday.
Hermione had been having nightmares for the last couple days, though she had never woken up screaming before.
He sat down next to her and wiped her tears away. "Shh, Hermione it's alright I'm here now."
She turned to him and flung her arms around him, "oh Sirius, please stay. I don't want to be alone. Nobody loves me anymore, my parents are dead and Harry hates me now."
Sirius lifted her chin up and stared at her intensely, "I love you Hermione."
Her breath caught as she looked at him. By the look in his eyes she figured he did not mean it platonically.
Without thinking she leaned in and kissed him.
Sirius' eyes widened in surprise, but then he focused on kissing her back wholeheartedly.
There was a small voice in the back of his head telling him that this was wrong. But it was a very small voice and Sirius ignored it.
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He ran his tongue along her mouth, asking for entrance. She opened her mouth willingly and he set about exploring it.
Sirius quickly undid the buttons on her nightgown and started giving his attentions to her breasts.
"Sirius, please," Hermione moaned loudly.
Her roaming hands moved slowly down his body and reached the top of his boxers and pulled them down.
Sirius moved his mouth back up from her breasts and kissed her passionately.
"Sirius please… I need you… I want you…" Hermione said breathlessly.
Sirius looked down at her. Just seeing her almost drove him crazy with lust hearing her say that she wanted him was the last straw.
He positioned himself at her entrance and plunged into her. As he felt himself breakthrough her barrier his eyes widened in shock and he immediately stopped moving.
He watched her as a tear slid out from underneath her closed eyelid. She lay there for a few moments dealing with the pain.
She took a deep breath and shakily opened her eyes, looking up at Sirius. He smiled reassuringly at her.
She moved experimentally against him and he groaned at the feeling.
He started thrusting into her, softly at first but then speeding up.
"Hermione," he groaned; his voice thick with desire.
As Hermione's cries became more frequent he knew that she was going to finish soon, and Sirius knew that he wouldn't last much long after her. He had never seen someone who had been so responsive.
Hermione cried "Sirius!" really loudly as she came, Sirius, as he predicted, coming soon after her. He looked down at her and smiled softly.
He then rolled over to the side so he wouldn't crush her, and pulled her into his arms and then they slept.
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As Hermione woke up in the morning she became aware of the the dark brown eyes looking down at her. She glanced up to see the smiling face of Sirius Black.
"Hi," Sirius said softly, brushing a piece of hair out of her face, "how are you?"
"I'm good, thanks." Hermione said quietly.
"You should have told me you were a virgin, I would have been gentler."
"Sorry I thought you knew."
"It's alright I thought you and Ron had, well everyone thought you and he had been closer than friends."
"No, we tried going out once in year six, but we broke up in less than a week and we decided we were better off being friends."
"Oh, okay that explains a lot."
"Um, Sirius can I ask you something?"
"Sure, what do you want to know?"
"I want to know what we are going to do now, as in relationship-wise."
"I don't know; what do you want from a relationship?"
"Well I want a steady relationship, no on-again-off-again kind of thing. I would like someone who isn't too serious but can be serious at the right times."
"Why don't we try and have a relationship like that? Though I must warn you I'm always Sirius."
"Oh ha ha" Hermione said sarcastically, then continued in a more serious tone, "do you think we can make it work?"
"We can try, and I think that's all we can do." He then leaned in and kissed her. "But right now we have to get up because it's eleven and Harry should be released from hospital soon."
As they got ready they both thought about what had happened last night, and neither were regretting it.
They walked out of the lift and into lobby holding hands. Ben was in there talking to a guest.
As they walked out he looked up and saw that they were holding hands. His eyes narrowed at them for a second but then he just shrugged his shoulders and went back to talking to the guest.
Sirius and Hermione looked at each other, glad that they would not have to deal with his jealously.
As they walked down the hospital corridor Hermione started worrying about how Harry would react. She hadn't spoken to him since that first visit in the hospital. How would he take it?
As she opened the door slowly (A/n I can just here the jaws theme music or something :)) she started thinking of all the possible outcomes of this meeting. She had trouble thinking of any that might end happily, after what had happened last time she had talked to Harry.
There was a high pitched scream coming from somewhere as she took in the scene before her. It took a couple of moments before she realised that she was the one who was screaming.
The room blurred and swayed as she stumbled over to the bed, her hands grasped Harry's wrists to check his pulse. She felt someone try to pull her away; she looked down at her hands. Blood… so much blood…
"NO! HARRY! YOU CAN'T BE DEAD! NOOOOOOO!" she screamed in a voice that seemed to be coming from far away. There was a buzzing in her ears and she was vaguely aware of someone holding her down.
She started to struggle as she felt someone hold her arm down as they stuck a needle in her. She fell against the bed as black started to appear on the edge of her vision. Black spread across her eyes and she knew no more.
She slowly woke up, not really registering what was happening. She opened her eyes to find herself in a hospital bed.
She looked over to see Sirius lying asleep in the chair next to the bed.
Why was she in a hospital? And where was Harry…
"Harry…" she whimpered. Sirius woke up at the sound and looked blearily at her. She started to give great hacking sobs as she remembered what her best friend had done.
She opened the door slowly…
Harry, lying there spread across the bed…
His arms dangling over the sides of the bed…
The blood everywhere…
The blood dripping from the slits in his wrists…
A/n whoa, that took forever to write. Sorry for taking so long but that was a hard chapter to write and my muse decided she should run off to America. Dammit. Hope you like.
