I'm rolling these things out quickly. Well here's chapter 12! Enjoy and read your little hearts out. SERIOUSNESS
Chocolateriku: yeah I lurv corn! But Axe smells much, much better!
Evilnaraku: Maybe, Maybe not.
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"Kadaj," I finally said. He didn't look up but moved his head slightly to show he heard me. We'd been dating for two weeks now. So far we'd kept it a secret from everyone except Ryan. We were sitting on my bed, him staring at the ground. We'd decided it was time to talk. I'd suggested it, but he obviously wasn't into it that much. But I wanted to know. "What happened to you after Cloud, well you know, defeated you."
He still didn't look up. Obviously uncomfortable with this. He came to my room often at night, or me to his. We hadn't had sex yet, and we never talked about it, but for some reason we always had a silent agreement that said we would when we were ready. Tonight he'd come to my room. He wore his dark blue pajama pants that we'd bought together with no shirt. I was in my normal tanktop and shorts. He still didn't say anything.
"Kadaj?" I said again, quieter this time. He raised his hand and I could see the blackness of the shadows as they put a protective barrier around my room. He turned his head slightly, so I could see one green eye. I almost lost myself in its depths. He pushed back a piece of silver hair, reveiling his face. I scooted closer to him. "Tell me." It wasn't an order, more of along the lines of comforting words, but still he sat there. Motionless.
He sighed.
"When I was in Cloud's arms after he'd destroyed Sephiroth I knew that I would die. My body was spent and I couldn't go on," He paused and closed his eyes, "The life stream called me to them, but mother wouldn't let me go. It was the only time I ever felt hatred towards her. I wanted it to end, I wanted to rest. I'd done my job, and Sephiroth hadn't done his. Mother punished me in favor of her favorite, blaming me for his lose. I'd given my body, a chance for a life, to make her happy, and I was tossed aside like a bad child." He stopped. My hand was on his arm. His eyes glistened with tears. "She wouldn't let me go. She punished me and put me in the body of what I would have been. I know I can't hate her, but it was hard for that time not to."
"Kadaj," I said. He looked up at me.
"No its better I got it out," He said, a tear rolled down his cheek. I scooted closer to him and kissed him softly.
"I'm sorry," I said. He looked back down. "I lost everything too, when the cells entered me."
"Huh?" He asked quietly, only moving his head slightly.
"My friends, my family, my life," I looked up and smiled. "I can't even look back on it without smiling now. It seemed so good then. Everything happy and in place. I had my friends and we were always hanging out. My parents loved me," I paused then. "But there's always one part. The part that kills me the most. I was engaged." Kadaj looked up at me. "I was supposed to get married only a week after the huge explosion." My eyes welled up, "I loved him. He stayed with me as long as he could. But when the evil took me he couldn't be with me any longer. I'd forgotten what it was like, until you came back."
There was a long silence. We sat there, next to each other, our fingers now intertwined. I suppose he thought it was harder for me. I had had friends, family, and now a fiance before it happened. He was introduced to the cells when he was a baby, with no life yet established. I rested my head on his shoulder. He leaned down and kissed my forehead.
"Good thing we found each other then," He said quietly, sounding deep in thought still. I nodded my head. "Let's get some sleep," He said. I nodded again and moved off his shoulder. We crawled under the blankets. I rolled over on my side and he wrapped his arms aroudn me. His head resting on the same pillow as mine. His breathing soft and steady in my ear.
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