Bella/Alice

Rated M

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Two days I've been barricaded inside my room, the only thing that was on my mind was a spiky hair beauty; who's heart I crushed.

Her broken face haunted my mind along with Julia's eyes as I squeezed the air from her lungs.

I will never hurt Alice like that, but I did say that about Julia as well and looked where she is, after her Father tackled me off her, she had fallen into a coma and I haven't been to see her since. I wanted to but, my heart and head wouldn't let me, once you hurt me' it was over for you…..there was no going back.

You were dead to me.

Alice wouldn't hurt me; she was so sweet and had eyes of an Angel. I didn't want to hurt her at all but I have already done that, the boot to the face was the fist time and at the hospital. I got up and made my way to the bathroom and stripped down to take a shower, after a long hot shower I got dressed and opened the door. Cool air hit my face hard; as I walked out and looked around to if anybody was in the hallway. I made my way to SuAnne room and saw her playing with her stuff animals, what if she was angry with me that I had hurt her Father? What if she didn't want to play with me anymore?

I wouldn't blame her…I was dangerous.

"SuAnne" I called as she turned around and looked at me.

"Bella!" she jumped out of her seat and hugged me, I picked her up and hugged her close to me. It was something about this girl that had my anger turning into goo.

"I missed you" she said as I kissed her forehead.

"Me too kid" I put her down and she grabbed my hand dragging me to the small table; I was trying to figure out how I was going to sit and decided to just sit on the floor. I looked at her with a smiled as her face was lit up like a Christmas tree, I finally figured out why SuAnne made me so confused inside.

She reminded me of myself before the world dumped its cruelty on me.

She was so carefree and didn't have any worries, I was the same way. Happy that someone wanted to play tea party with me, watched my favorite cartoons, and eats jelly and peanut better sandwiches.

"Bella, this is Teddy….he like you" She said laughing as I smiled.

"Well hello Teddy" I said and we played Tea party for hours, I didn't know how much I like it as we colored almost of her coloring books and watched Cinderella like three times, when I finally looked down at my watch…it was six thirty.

"SuAnne, I have to go" she pause the movie and looked at me with broken features, I felt my heart shattered.

"No! I want to watch snow white with you please!" she said as I smiled at her.

"When I come back I will watch it with you and eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches" she stuck her pinky out and I felt the tears well in my eyes.

"Will you always be my best friend?" I stuck my pinky out as he smiled and hooked our pinkies together.

"Always Best friends" he said kissing my forehead.

I looked at SuAnne and smiled, I didn't want to cry in front of her.

"Pinky promise" I hooked my pinky with hers as she smiled and jumped up from the bed.

"Okay!" I got up and made my way to the door but stopped when she spoke.

"Bella!"

"Yes Annie?" she ran to me as I bent down and looked at her as she bit her bottom lip.

"Will you be my best friend?" I felt the rage yell as the pain consumes my body, almost paralyzing me.

"A….A" I couldn't speak, as she walked closer to me as I moved back and closed my eyes, I quickly turned around and flew down the stairs and out the door.

I couldn't be her best friend.

I didn't want to be like him, I couldn't do what he did to me to SuAnne.

Running to the only place I knew that could calm me down, I manage to run myself to Alice doorstep.

How the hell did I get here?

Alice could help me…she always helps me.

I knocked on the door and waited, I was so nervous to see her and see the broken look again but I needed her.

"B….Bella" Esme said letting me in as I saw they every Cullen minus Alice was sitting in the living room, Rosalie and Japer was here as well.

"What are you doing here" Edward said, he looked like road kill…his head was bandage up; I saw that I really did almost kill him.

As much as I wanted to…I couldn't hurt Alice like that.

"I'm here to se-

"Bella" I turned around and there she was, she had on some pants and a tank top that stopped at her belly button, her milky skin was making things inside me awaken.

"A…Alice" she took like two steps at a time and crashed her self to me, I held to me and buried my face in her hair, and she was shaking in my arms.

"I….thought you had ran away without me" she cried as I held her to me.

"I would never" she pulled back and grabbed my hand pulling me up the stairs; I looked back seeing her family watching us. When we got to her room, she closed the door a locked it, I sat down as she crawled into my lap and laid her head on my shoulder.

"I missed you" I signed and ran my hands in her hair.

"I missed you too, I'm so sorry for what had happen in the hospital"

"You didn't mean what you said did you?" she asked all vulnerable and shit, this girl was too sensitive and knew I had to watch what I say to her and do, because she looked like the type to go a wall.

"I was angry and didn't mean to take it out on you, but I did mean what I said about finding someone else that will love you and won't hurt you like I have been doing since I met you"

"Bella I don't' care about you hurting me, I want you" does this girl hear what was coming out of mouth?

"Alice do you hear your self! You want me so badly that you will let me hit you, just to have me near you" she jumped off my lap.

"I don't know! I'm so fucked up…" I grabbed her.

"We both are fucked up" I said as she looked up at me.

"I will endure anything just to be with you Bella" I can't believe what I was hearing, this girl was seriously fucked up in the head, but I couldn't judge.

"I don't want you to be a dangerous relationship like Alice!" I scold her; what if she had came across another girl who had a temper problem like me.

That made my blood boils in rage.

"Just with you Bella" she said and kissed me, I pulled away and step back.

"Alice…I don't do well with physical contact like that" I told her as she hugged me to her as I relaxed.

"Bella, I want you and only you"

"Why?"

"Because, I know you and you won't hurt me" we made it to the bed and laid down, she laid her head down on my chest as I ran my hand up and down her arms.

"I was so scared for you when you ran away"

"There's nothing to be scared about, I can take care of my self"

"That still doesn't stop me from worrying" I kissed her forehead, as she lend up and kiss my throat.

"Alice" I warned her but, she kept kissing my neck and jaw….and that's when I felt it.

Something different than pain.

It was so pleasurable that I sign and let my eyes closed, she moved up my body and I felt her hand on my stomach. This wasn't bad I thought as she kiss up to my lips as I flinched but quickly relaxed and let her kiss me.

"Bella" she said breathless as her hand went under my shirt and as quickly as the pleasure came it was washed away with the utter fear and pain.

"Alice!" I tried to get her to stop but, she wasn't listening as her hand made it to my breast and I freaked.

"Alice Stop!" her hand squeezed as I grabbed a hand full of her hair and yanked her backwards as I quickly glared down at her.

"You stupid Bitch! I told you to stop!" I yelled as Alice eyes shot open, they looked like they were trying to clear themselves from lust cloud around her vision.

"B…Bella! I'm so-

"Don't! I told you to stop" my voice sounded broken as I tighten my grip on her hair, as she closed I eyes in pain, I felt my chest beat in fear.

"I'm….sorry, it won't happen again" she said as I shook my head, letting her eye open I saw tears fallen.

Don't cry.

"I'm sorry" she cried as I let her hair go and hugged her me.

"'No, I'm sorry I should've grabbed your hair like that" I said as she snuggled into me as I spooned her.

"I'm sorry" I said again and felt my eyes droop; I felt her hands grabbing mines and lacing our fingers together and laying it on her stomach.

"I'm sorry" he whispered in my ear as I felt him pulled me to his bare chest, I cried so much that I didn't have any tears left to cry.

"I will always be sorry" he kissed my neck.

Kissing her neck.

"I will always be sorry" I whispered in her ear as she squeezed my hand.

A/N: Bella is confused…she's thinks she's turning into Henry with both SuAnne and Alice but will Alice get to her before she does something stupid.

Until next time

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