I do not own any characters, plots, or anything else pertaining to "The 100". This chapter will feature Bellamy's P.O.V. still reeling from Clarke's "death". Poor Bellamy, this was another difficult chapter to write for him. As always, thanks for following/favoriting and commenting.
Chapter 12
Lost
Bellamy feels his world crumbling around him, as he stares up at the ceiling blankly. How the hell did he get here? The thought that Clarke's somewhere he can't ever follow scares him. Before, even when they were apart, they always found each other again. Now, he knows that's not possible, that it will never be possible again. Bellamy feels tears spring to his eyes and can't find the strength to wipe them away. He feels completely lost again, just like he had, when he had lost her after Praimfya.
Bellamy is so consumed by his thoughts, that he barely registers the loud clanking across his cell. "Blake, I have a surprise for you." He doesn't bother turning, until he hears a loud thunk, and then someone sobbing. "Bellamy is…that…you?" Bellamy immediately recognizes the voice and struggles to get out of his chains. His eyes travel over to the dark figure crumpled on the floor. Bellamy speaks out in the darkness. "Are you okay?" He can barely see her nodding her head in response. "Now that you two have reunited, there's something I need you to do for me." Bellamy turns to the edge of the cell, where the guy is standing. He can just make out his silhouette in the dim light. "The girl here thinks that you'll somehow save the day. I told her that you wouldn't, but she kept fighting me on it. Tell her you're weak now, you're lost." Bellamy feels his blood boil in his veins, threatening to consume him. This guy thinks that he's beat him, that he's won. He doesn't know that he won't stop until he finds a way to get justice for Clarke.
Bellamy continues to try to get out of his chains, rustling them loudly. "I'm not weak or lost. You're going to let us go and then show us where the kids are." He hears the guy cackle and feels himself ball his fists tightly in response. "I hate to break it to you, but this isn't a battle you're going to win. If I say you're weak and lost, then you are that. Got it." It's not a question, but an order. This guy reminds him of the head commander he had when he was a guard on the Ark. His name was Commander Roscoe and he had tried to intimidate guys by putting them down and elevating himself. He had cowered when he was faced with this type of intimidation then, but he won't now. Bellamy doesn't take orders from anyone anymore because he's a leader, Earth or no Earth.
This guy needs to get that now. "You are going to let us go." Another cackle from the guy. "Or what?" Bellamy knows exactly how he needs to deal with him. "I won't tell you whatever you want to know." A moment passes before the guy's voice fills the air again. "And what's that exactly?" Bellamy glares at him in the dimness. "I don't know, you tell me?" He narrows his gaze at him for a few tense moments before the guy speaks again. "You think you got me all figured out, don't you, Blake?" Bellamy quickly nods his head. "I think I do." He hears the man laugh heartily. "Alright, you caught me. I'm looking for my son. Last I heard from Jaha, he was on this ship." Bellamy notices the first indication of emotion in the guy's voice that he's heard since he's met him, and he knows that he's found his weakness. "What do you want from me?" A few moments pass before the guy speaks again. "I want you to tell me where Jaha's office is, so I can get to the fleet records." Bellamy considers this for a second. Maybe he can bargain with him and make a deal for his friends' safety. He knows it's his responsibility to protect his people and it's what Clarke would have wanted. Clarke. Her face swims into view again haunting him.
He knows that he has a job to do, a responsibility to his people, but she just won't leave him alone. Over the last few hours, Bellamy has thought up about a hundred different ways, that this guy, and his goons could have killed her. Each scenario worse than the last. He feels the ache in his heart radiate, but he knows he has to ignore it, and use his head now. "If I do that, then you have to release us, and then tell me where Mark and Katie are. If not, no deal." Everything goes quiet again and he knows that the guy is considering his conditions.
Bellamy suddenly wonders how his son ended up on the Ark if he was born on the other ship. Maybe it was a deal gone bad between the two Arks? "We have a deal, but you need to show me first." Bellamy watches as the guy turns his attention to Lily, who's still upset on the cold floor of the cell. "And you, don't think you're not a part of this. You have a role to play too. I know your dear old mother was the personal maid for the Chancellor's wife and that she cooked up a plan with the maids serving the other top officials to get you three to safety." Bellamy turns in the dimness to look down at the girl. He's surprised that her brave front she put up before has disappeared so fast. Once again, he's reminded that she's just a kid, caught up in a twisted web weaved by an adult, who happened to be her mother.
Bellamy knows better than anyone how a parent's decision can impact a person's life. He had dealt with the mistakes of his own mother his whole life. She had made the choice to sleep with a guard one drunken night and both him and Octavia had to live their lives in fear. Fear that she'd be discovered under the floorboards and then floated for their mother's mistakes. Bellamy vowed from the day she was born that he wouldn't let that happen to her, no matter what the cost because she didn't deserve to suffer for their mother's mistakes. Just like, Lily doesn't deserve to suffer for her mother's. He glances over at Lily again before turning back to the guy with a glare. "She's not paying for her mother's mistakes, Lily's not part of this." The guy starts sadistically cackling again and Bellamy feels the anger rise inside of him. The fact that this guy thinks he's in charge makes his blood boil once again.
Another cackle before the guy makes his way over to him in the darkness. He kneels and unlocks the handcuffs. "Don't try anything funny, Blake." Bellamy shakes his head. "You need to figure out what's more important to you. Finding out who your son was or doing your duty as a soldier?" Bellamy quickly gets to his feet and the guy surprises him with a sucker punch to the face. Bellamy falls back a little, but he's able to stand straight up again moments later. He hopes his guard training will get him out of this. As he reaches down to grab Lily off the ground, Bellamy lands a punch into the guy's stomach. He falls over and then Bellamy turns to grab Lily by the hand. He pulls her off the ground. "Can you walk?" It takes her a second to answer him and he knows it's because she's scared. "I think I can." He quickly starts to make his way out of the darkness and is nearly out the gate, when Lily releases her hand from his, and hits the cement hard.
Bellamy's heart stops when he realizes that Lily could be knocked out. He turns to try and gage where the guy has gone, but he ends up coming out of the darkness from behind him. The guy wrestles him to the ground and then throws a punch. Bellamy manages to throw a punch of his own and then they continue wrestling. He hopes Lily escapes out of here, while he's dealing with this guy. He throws another punch in the darkness and connects with his jaw. They go back and forth for a few minutes, until there's a loud crash, and the guy suddenly goes limp. Bellamy is surprised when the guy's body falls to the side and he's suddenly free to move. "Let's go, Bellamy." He looks up to see Lily coming into view.
Bellamy notices the guard baton in her hand and he gives her a small smile. "Where did you find that?" Lily stops over him and extends her hand. "I looked down the hall and found it in one of the file drawers. It was a lucky guess." He reaches up to grab her hand and she helps him up. Bellamy leads the way out of the cell and they quickly make their way down the corridor. He knows he needs to get Lily to safety and find the other kids. Bellamy couldn't save Clarke, but he'll be damned, if he lets anything happen to the kids. With a heavy heart, he starts through the ship, not wanting to let Clarke down again.
