I am back! I am so sorry to all my loyal readers and ILY all so much! I actually didn't realise this story was in 3 communities so to the 3 people who added me to their communities thank you so much! Thanks so much to everyone who read, reviewed, followed and favourited this story. I'm am going to be using some of the ideas you guys suggested so I'll try and remember to credit you and I'm so sorry if I forget. I'm going to see The Fault in Our Stars on Friday night! Just a stupid thing I did, I actually thought Amsterdam was in America. My friends all think I'm totally nuts for that one. Thanks again for reading and enjoy!
Tris' POV
About 10 minutes after the Dauntless born went into the sim room, Lauren comes out to get the next one. She looks at me strangely and says
'Tris why are you here? I though because you've already been through your landscape you would be off relaxing or planning your wedding." I blush. I'm so excited to be getting married. It's a lot sooner than I thought I would get married but because it's Tobias it doesn't really worry me.
'I don't want to be treated any differently to the other initiates Lauren.'
'Are you sure? Well could you take this lot down to the training room and do some extra knife and gun practise? Great, thanks.' She swings through the door dragging another Dauntless born behind her. I stare after her shaking my head. This is exactly what I mean. It's bad enough that everyone thinks that I'm only ranking first because of Tobias. Now I'm being told to 'instruct' the rest of my initiate group. I look around and see they're all looking expectant. I jerk my head and they follow me out the door.
We arrive in the training room and I just walk around correcting and critiquing them. Eventually I just stand against the wall spinning a knife over and over in my hand. I left my engagement ring on the bedside table. Tobias said it could be irritating when I try to throw knives or shot.
'Hey Tris?' Calls out Kat, one of the Dauntless born. I look up from my spinning knife and see they've all stopped and are looking at me.
'Would you… would you tell us about you and Four? It's just, you two seem so perfect and so… happy. How do you do it?' I smile as she asks and nod. I walk closer to the group and they crowd around us. We end up sitting on the floor.
'I've known Four since I was 10. It was 2 years since his mum died and he was sitting in Alley X, crying. That was one of the only times I've ever seen him cry. We were best friends after that. We used to do everything together. I'd never really had a real friend before, but with Four, I didn't have to be the perfect Abnegation Beatrice. I didn't have to be selfless all the time and always be so quiet and conservative that I faded into the background. He was so… exciting. When I was with Four I could be wild and crazy and do all the stuff I wanted to do. I didn't have to be exactly what my parents and everyone else wanted me to be. I could just be whoever I wanted to be. And Four was so sweet and amazing. He somehow got money to buy me food that wasn't plain and he found this necklace and the engagement ring. As to how we're so 'perfect' and 'happy', I think we seem perfect and happy because we believed the other was dead for so long. When you lose something and you honestly believe you will never get it back, and you do get it back, it's the most wonderful feeling in the world. And you'd do anything to keep it. We'll have ups and downs because we are humans, we have feelings and thoughts. But I know that there's not really anything he could do that would ever make me stop loving him.' I pause for a minute and feel the pain that lived within my chest for the whole 2 years I thought he was dead rise back up.
'Come on. It's lunch now.' I lead them into the cafeteria and I see that the big screen is set up to show the training room. Tobias is standing in the middle of the room. He looks nervous but at the same time he has the goofiest smile on his face. The entirety of Dauntless starts to clap as I walk towards him. He wraps his arms around my waist and smiles broadly.
'What's all this?' I ask
'They had the camera set up to show the training room. We all heard everything you said. Tris I love. You gave me the chance to be free to. If it wasn't for you I would have given up long long ago. You gave me the reason and will to live. And when I thought I'd lost you, I had to keep going because I couldn't let you down. Everything I do, everything I achieve, it all comes back to you. Because you're either there helping me, or it's the thought of you that gets me through… And so, because our first proposal was rushed and had absolutely no romance in it at all, I'm going to ask again. Beatrice Prior you are the love of my life. You've been by my side for four years and those 2 years without you were the worst 2 years of my life. And I don't want to have any more years without you. So Beatrice Prior, will you marry me?" He's bent down on one knee and holds out the ring. I look at him and smile
'Tobias you could ask me to marry you every minute of every hour of every day of every year, and my answer would always stay the same. I love you more than anything else in this world and I'll always be by your side. So my answer, for now and always, is yes.' He stands up and slides the ring onto my finger again before kissing me long, hard and passionate. I kiss him right back and hear the cheers of Dauntless fill the room. We break apart and I can't help but think, that everything is finally perfect.
But nothing is really perfect; it's only ever an illusion. And that illusion, sometimes it breaks quickly, but sometimes, we have to spot the cracks in the illusion. And the second way, that's much more painful.
